Before the night came, I took Yang Jin and Yang Qu to the night market on Changli Road. Yang Qu seemed to be a canary in a cage, so she rarely came to such a place, she glanced at the small shops on the street and the tables and chairs set up at the door, and avoided the crowd and asked me, "Brother, why did you bring us to eat in such a place?" ”

"Eating at night markets is the best way to get to know a city, and it's also the most intimate place in a city. Here, eating, drinking, playing, playing, wearing, all expenses can be satisfied, the cost is not much, and it is very fun. ”

When I came to my favorite place, I was not only in a good mood, but also seemed to have patience with Yang Qu, and I said to her with a confused face: "When you come to the night market, you have to taste it carefully, and you will find that each night market is different, and the signboard of the sightseeing night market is particularly bright; The night market near the university must be of good quality and low price; The night market at the entrance of the community is always the most substantial, and the goods are also the most life-like ......"

After listening to me, Yang Qu sighed with emotion: "You seem to know the night market culture very well!" ”

"Of course, people like us know and pursue the night market as much as a certain type of people pursue luxury. For me, after working for a week or even a month, having the opportunity to go to the night market with my brothers for some beer and some kebabs is the most enjoyable thing in my life...... It's much more real than any indulgence for the purpose of luxury. ”

Yang Qu looked at me with a thoughtful expression on her face, it seemed that she listened to what I was talking about, and Yang Jin looked at us who were chatting very speculatively and smiled, it seems that she herself is very indifferent to places like the night market, and the reason why she has emotions is entirely because of me and Yang Qu.

Yang Qu looks like a mature big girl, but she still has a girl's heart in her bones, she stood next to a stall selling handicrafts, and said to me with great interest with a model of a bucket made of bamboo: "Brother, this thing is so fun, you buy me one." ”

"Buy it yourself."

Yang Qu glanced at Yang Jin, and said in a strange manner: "It's not that you don't know...... When I came to Shanghai, my mother only gave me 3,000 yuan, how dare I live in such luxury! ”

I immediately reprimanded: "If you don't come, you just buy a sack of this thing......"

I was only halfway through my words, and Yang Qu desperately squeezed her eyes at me and asked me to cooperate with her to play a down-and-out young lady in front of Yang Jin.

At this time, Yang Jin, who had not spoken, finally opened her mouth, and she said to Yang Qu: "Don't behave in front of your brother, I'll talk to you alone about your affairs later, go to dinner first." ”

Yang Jin seemed to be a deterrent in front of her, Yang Qu stuck out her tongue and stopped talking, until Yang Jin walked forward, she grabbed my clothes and asked cautiously: "You won't tell my mother everything about selling things to make pocket money, right?" …… It's miserable! ”

"If you don't open your own pot, don't shirk the responsibility to me, it's a joke that everyone can think that you used 3,000 yuan to live to this day, there must be something greasy in it, so you think you're unlucky, don't think of me as your lifesaver."

"That's what you taught me first, if you don't sell my bag, how can I be inspired, and then sell all the valuable things on my body!"

I tried to be as patient as I could and said to her, "You have to figure out the essence of what I'm selling you, I want you to use the money and work hard, not to make you more and more depraved." ”

"You didn't say that to me when you did this."

I glanced at her and replied, "Don't you have a brain yourself?" ”

"My brain is used to deal with people like you who have three wrong views, and I will never target myself...... Anyway, no matter how hard I struggle, it's not as easy as selling things, and I enjoy it. Next time I get home, bring a little more, I still have a lot of jewelry and bags that I don't need! ”

"Sad ......"

……

I was arguing with Yang Qu behind Yang Jin's back, and at the same time came to a snack stall that looked good.

I came up and ordered 80 skewers of tripe, a plate of crayfish, and two seafood stir-fries, which was not enough, I asked for ten strings of stinky tofu, a roasted whole eggplant, and a large barrel of draft beer, and immediately ate the atmosphere of the night market. Although there were two women sitting next to me who didn't seem to be a good match here, it didn't affect my mood at all.

I poured myself a full glass of beer, then picked up the skewers and ate them, trying to get back the feeling of eating at the night market with the two brothers, Zhao Chu and Zhao Mu. At that time, although I was very poor, I was also very happy, because I had my brother by my side, I dared to get drunk and feel at ease, and I dared to depict my dream very big, and what could be realized in the end was called struggle, and it was not realized, and the right was a dream, and there was no burden at all.

Just when I was drinking alone, Yang Jin also put the disposable cup in front of me in front of her, smiled and said to me: "If you don't drink a little wine in this place, you won't experience the night market culture, right?" …… So, bring me a drink too. ”

I was stunned for a moment before taking the cup from Yang Jin's hand, then put it under the plastic bucket, took a cup of very inferior beer and handed it to her. She looked at me and threw her head back to drink the whole beer. This is a manifestation of emotion, but what kind of emotion it is, I can't say, in short, there is no malice, more like a kind of guilt.

Instantly, the atmosphere looked a little heavy.

Yang Qu also handed me his cup and said, "Brother, bring me a cup too, I'm already an adult girl." She said and glanced at Yang Jin with little confidence, it seemed that in Yang Jin's discipline of her, wine must not be touched.

This time, Yang Jin surprisingly didn't say anything, and Yang Qu was relieved to hand over the cup to me, and I also took a cup for her. Looking at them with wine in their glasses, I suddenly felt like I was about to let my guard down...... Isn't this the scene in front of me what I've always dreamed of? I thought of my grandmother again, how nice it would be if she were still alive to join us!

However, I am very awake that everything in the past is a face, but the present is only a small dot, so it is not enough to melt the ice in my heart for a long time.

……

It was completely dark, and the three of us drank half a barrel of beer, but what made me strange was that Yang Jin's mobile phone never rang during this process, and she seemed to want to concentrate on having a meal with us.

Sure enough, Yang Qu, who was as aware as me, said to me: "Brother, do you know? Since I was in high school, this is the first time in my memory that my mother can sit and have a meal with me, and she is always busy, constantly busy...... Even if you go home for dinner once in a while, it won't be long before you are interrupted by those annoying phone calls, and then leave in a hurry, or you won't be in the mood to eat, and the whole person will be preoccupied, only tonight...... It's like a mother, but isn't this still stained with my brother's light! ”

After Yang Qu said this, there were tears in her eyes, and I looked at her and couldn't tell what I felt in my heart. Perhaps, all the happiness you can see is only what you see, and everyone will have an unpleasant experience behind it. I am like this, and so is Yang Qu...... Others have not escaped, even Yang Jin herself, has she been happy all these years?

- I'm afraid only she knows.

After a moment of silence, Yang Qu said to me again: "Brother, you can also tell me how you have lived these years, I believe that today is the best opportunity to speak up, and then it is time to reflect and reflect, apologize and apologize, and explain ......"

I looked up at Yang Jin who was sitting opposite, she also looked at me, but I just said: "There's nothing to say, anyway, I'm living a good life now, people should look up and look forward, they will always see the sun, if you look back, you can only see the rain." ”

Yang Qu looked at me with a pout, and then said, "You're really boring! ”

I didn't respond, and I didn't really let go of that past in my heart, I just felt that such a scene might not happen again in the future, so why bother to talk about those unhappy pasts to destroy this feeling?

And even if I hate Yang Jin no matter how much I hate her, she has always been my biological mother and has raised me for 8 years, not to mention that in the end, even my grandmother has been relieved and wants me to listen to her. Even if I don't love her, there's no need to face her anymore and denounce anything. I think that since everyone still has the fate to have a meal together, let's finish it well.

……

I don't know when, the sky will drift again after the autumn light rain, this season is like this, everything will not be as extreme as in summer, even the wind blowing, only blowing off the leaves on the trees that must fall in this season, not even dust.

This unexpected rain was quite disappointing, so many people only ate half of it and left, while others braved the rain to wait for the boss to prop up the canopy. I couldn't help but think of Zhao Chu and Zhao Mu again at this time. At that time, we would also encounter rain, but the three of us were so young and frivolous that they were like fools, and they didn't even want to ask for a canopy, so they ate and drank in the rain shirtless, and what a precious time it was.

In the midst of the scarcity, the boss had already erected a canopy for us, but I didn't want to eat anymore, because the person who was with me at the moment, although he was closer in blood, was not the deceased Zhao Chu after all......

The meal, at the end, I went to settle the account, and then the three of them walked together outside the alley of the night market, and a striking high-end Mercedes-Benz sedan was parked under a street lamp, and Yang Jin's driver was sitting in the car. This man, I know, have met him many times.

Among the crowds of people coming and going, Yang Qu was the first to sit in the car, and she pressed the window to beckon me to get in the car quickly. I signaled that I didn't need them to send it, and Yang Jin respected my every behavior today, she just said to me, "Today's dinner is considered for you to invite us to eat...... It was a unique experience for me and it allowed me to get to know my son better...... So I'm hopeful it's not the end, but a good start. ”

I didn't speak, just stood in front of her, and it wasn't until she was about to leave that I remembered about Jin Qiu, and then asked her, "There is one thing I want to know, what is Jin Qiu in your eyes?" …… Why didn't you give her a chance in Nanjing? ”

Yang Jin probably didn't realize that I was going to ask her that, so the expression on her face was a little surprised. And the reason why I asked her like this is actually that I still hope that she can give Jin Qiu a chance, I don't want my family to be unkind to Lao Jin's family, although Lao Jin doesn't say it, but this heart is always sad.

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