I looked at this dark-skinned young man, who had not taken the letter left by Xiao Ai from his hand for a long time, and I felt a taste of goodbye. After all, I was a few days late, and I lost the opportunity to save her face-to-face, and all I was waiting for was this letter with no temperature, no tone, and no expression.

The color of the envelope was black, like the world she could no longer see, and I even suspected that the contents were not written by her own hand, but by her dictation, and someone else ghostwrote for her. I've seen her handwriting, which is inversely proportional to her beauty, and when we first met, she would often write some flirtatious words on the glass window of the "mood coffee shop" with lipstick or eyebrow pencil, and the handwriting was like a tadpole, just like her freewheeling personality.

I suddenly miss all that I have lost! I miss the time when the mood coffee shop was still around, she always appeared from time to time, bringing a little fun and a little surprise to my life.

Letting go of these thoughts, I finally took the letter from the young man's hand, and instead of opening it immediately, I looked back at the road I had just walked, but in an instant it had become the same as before.

I think that after leaving this city called Hsinchu this time, I will never come back again in my life because I don't want to be sad again.

My heart has never been made of iron, I like the sun, I like the lush leaves, I like the cool autumn breeze, I like every unexpected meeting; I hate gloom, I hate decay, I hate the pain that is born in the cracks of samsara, and I hate the painful parting.

I thought to myself for a long time, and when I was finally dispelled by a gust of wind blowing from the mountains, I opened the letter...... Then sitting under the eaves of the white room, I had enough space to gently place the letter left by Xiao Ai on my lap.

I saw the blue letterhead, the words were of different sizes, and the line spacing was also very messy, and even though I recognized that it was Xiao Ai's handwriting, which she had written when she was blind, my vision blurred for a moment, and slowly I could see the words on it clearly......

"Dear Jiang Qiao, it's only been 6 days since I left Nanjing, but I feel that I have passed this life in a hurry, I don't dare to imagine what kind of mood you are in now, and I can't ask what kind of life you are experiencing...... So, I became very lonely, and there was only darkness in my world, which made me dare not imagine my future life...... I'm getting married, but the wedding dress isn't for you. After all, I betrayed my love and betrayed my beliefs. By the time I made this decision, I was no longer the Xiao Ai who did whatever I wanted and let you love...... So, I'll forget who I used to be, and I hope you will forget me too. If there is an afterlife, I want to be the most complete and flawless Xiao Ai, and then happily marry a man named Jiang Qiao, and live an ordinary life every day, which is the greatest happiness......"

Tears wet my eyes, and my heart twisted as I watched...... After a few seconds, the tears finally broke down and fell on the blue letterhead, but this was not the first tear that fell on the letterhead.

My tears are new, Xiao Ai's tears are old, I fell in the blank space, but she fell on the handwriting, which stung my heart even more when I missed her. Our fate ends here, but we have to think about the next life.

"Xiao Ai, Xiao Ai, there is still so much time in this life, but you are gone, what kind of faith do I need to go to the next life where you love me? …… I don't understand, I really don't understand, I'm still alive in this life, why say goodbye in this way? ”

I closed my eyes and let the pain run wild inside me, and only then did I open them again when I felt numb, and then gently put the blue letter paper into the black envelope, and sealed my heart as well......

It was as if my life was coming to an end here, and it was time for me to accept a new life. However, I wish she would have rebuked me in this letter, crying to me how painful it was to not see the colored world, but she did not, she had a snow in my life, and the world was not in reincarnation, and remained in this winter, just as I missed her heart, and fell into a hollow with no way out!

It's time for me to leave, to leave this place where I can still feel her existence at the end, and my present and future will not be without her participation, those sad pasts are all stones, accumulated into the mountains in front of me, standing here, suffering for 10,000 years!

……

When it was almost dusk, Ade sent me and Chen Yi and Qiao Ye to the airport, and we booked a flight back to Shanghai at 7:30 p.m.

Ade took my luggage out of the trunk, he looked at me with a little sympathy, but he didn't say much to me along the way. In fact, they all know that I don't need comfort.

Ade stopped talking several times, and finally said to me at the time of parting: "Aqiao, will you come to Taipei often in the future?" ”

I shook my head blankly, then looked back at the loud planes flying into the sky, which looked like they had been burned. Instantly, I felt that my state of mind seemed to be several years older at this moment. For me, Taipei is like the whole youth that can't be recovered, except for remembrance, there is no point in chasing again.

I let out a heavy breath, looked at the chubby Ade in front of me and said, "Run your hotel well, and hope that one day, I can see your chain store in the mainland." ”

"Don't worry, I'm a person who has no ability, I don't dare to ask for too much of a career, and trying to do a good job in a hotel is the biggest pursuit of my life, I will work hard! By the way, I will go to the mainland to study hotel management in the second half of the year, and we will have the opportunity to meet again in the future. ”

I nodded, but I didn't have the strength to say more, I was like a silkworm out of a cocoon, but there was no bright light to guide me on the way after rebirth. When I return to the mainland, I still have to face the fate given by Yang Jin and Jin Qiu.

Ade said again: "Aqiao, I don't know if I should persuade you or not, but your mother is your mother after all, can you try to accept her when you go back." Now that Ruyi is gone, you're left alone in life, so you really should try to give yourself a ...... to rely on."

I interrupted Ade and replied, "The plane is about to take off, don't talk about that, you take care of yourself in Taipei, and remember to contact me when you arrive in the mainland." ”

Ade looked at me uncomfortedly, and didn't say anything more. In the silence of each other, I looked at Chen Yi and Qiao Ye, who had been standing beside me.

This time, they all accompanied me to Taipei in the name of relaxation, no matter what the real motivation behind it was, but I have to thank them, and I also owe a little bit because I was not able to give them a trip to relax. I can't worry about my grandmother, so I have to rush back as soon as possible.

Qiao Ye next to me seemed to see my emotions, he touched his bald head, and said with a smile: "This time I came to Taipei, the harvest is really not small, I have the courage to cut a big bald head for the first time in my life." But some people will treat me like a fool for this, and some people will think of me as a hero...... Isn't this the way the world is? How can you know what you've gained without experiencing loss...... So Jiangqiao, think about your future path...... Even if your life is an endless dream, you should wake up standing in this place today...... Because there are so many people and many things waiting for you! ”

I looked at Qiao Ye and knew that he was reminding me in his own way. At this moment, I suddenly didn't want to hide anything from him, just like me, he also has the right to pursue a new world, in which there is a woman who truly loves him, and his children are living at the ends of the earth.

So, let's choose our lives all over again in Taipei, this is not a kind of madness, nor is it a kind of backtracking against Su Han, but a pursuit of sobriety and truth, and Su Han herself should also face up to this child with Qiao Ye's blood, she can't unilaterally deprive Qiao Ye of his right to be a father, which is the most unfair to the child!

I calmed my mood and looked up at the boundless sky again, I don't know, even if Qiao Ye, who knows the truth, can find Su Han who has the intention to hide in his lifetime, just like I don't know if I and the former Xiao Ai love to death and live, but will we see each other again in a corner of this world, just like that!

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