After sending a message to Liu Liu, I completely lay on the ground, and then listened to the sound of flowing water in the wishing pool, the whole person was not sad or happy, just like the clouds in the sky without wind to blow, the silence was terrible.

This kind of stillness stems from the despair after not finding Xiao Ai. And I can't mentally adapt to the boredom of living abroad, I can't understand what people are saying, and people don't know what I'm doing. Even though Rome has a lot of beauty that I've never seen before, I can't find the slightest bit of relaxation to enjoy.

I don't know when, Albert, a friend I met here, came to the Trevi Fountain again, and he bent down and said to me who was sleeping on the ground: "Jiang, your spirit looks very bad!" Haven't found your girlfriend yet? ”

I sat up from the ground, and then squinted in the harsh sunlight as I looked at the various people on the street, and I felt an indescribable feeling in my heart. I feel like every step they take, they step on my desperation, and then make me even more desperate. I don't know how to wait for someone in this vast sea of people.

I finally turned to look at Albert and asked him, "Can the water in this wishing fountain drown people?" ”

"I haven't heard of anyone drowning in it!"

"Really?"

Albert looked at me incomprehensibly, but nodded with certainty.

I looked at him seriously and said, "I want to make a big news, I don't want to live, I'm going to jump into the trevi fountain and drown myself." ”

Albert laughed, then patted me on the shoulder and said, "Jiang, you have a great sense of humor for us Westerners...... If you want to drown yourself in the Trevi Fountain, you must first be as tall as Guo Jingming......"

I glanced at him, then looked at the knee-deep water in the wishing fountain, and then said to him: "You foreigner, your mouth is too damaged, you must not learn from the Chinese Internet trolls, Guo Jingming is actually not as short as you say!" ”

"And how tall is he?"

I raised my hand, and it took me a long time to raise my finger and gesture it.

Albert gave me a thumbs up convincingly, then replied, "That's tall!" ”

Of course I didn't laugh, because I didn't mean to hack others, and I even hated this boring state to the point of madness. I actually said such a boring thing to such a foreigner, and before, I always insisted on being a person with deep hearts.

After a moment of relative silence, Albert asked me for a Nanjing cigarette again, I took it out of my pocket, he took the whole pack, and he said to me, "This is the payment I paid for sending you back to the hotel last time...... It's been several years since I left your China and I haven't smoked this cigarette again. ”

As he spoke, he took out a cigarette from his cigarette case, lit it himself, and then said to me, "Jiang, tell me about you and your girlfriend...... I really want to hear it! ”

This time, I really wanted to cry, I looked at the various people who walked past me, and then put my hands on my lap and pressed it heavily before I answered, "Miss her...... I especially want to ...... As soon as I closed my eyes, I felt as if she had walked back and forth past me several times, but as soon as I opened my eyes, there was nothing! ”

Smiling, I said to him again, "Bert, can you go to the bubble tea shop across the street and borrow a pen and paper?" ”

"What are you going to do?"

"Recently, I love to sleep, and I'm afraid that she will miss me when she takes a nap, so I want to write something on my body, so that it may be more eye-catching."

Albert said "yes" and brought me a pen and a piece of oversized paper, on which I wrote the words "Find someone" in large size, and then leaned against the wall and spread the paper flat on my lap.

Albert did the same, and he turned back to find a larger piece of paper, wrote the words "ask for money" on it, and sat down beside me in the same position, and the sun shone on him the shamelessness of wanting to get something for nothing, and on me the panic of rushing to the doctor.

Honestly, I don't know how long I'll be able to stay in Rome with this kind of despair.

……

I don't know how long it took, but the mobile phone that Yang Qu left me suddenly vibrated in my pocket, and I reflexively took it out of my pocket. It was indeed Liu Liu who replied to the message I sent him earlier. But the result was disappointing, he said: "Jiang Qiao, although I promised to pay attention to you before, but you yourself should understand that she has already come to Ireland, and there is no possibility of coming again." I can understand your feelings, but you also have to trust me, such a big deal for you, if you meet her here, you don't need to ask, I will definitely inform you as soon as possible. ”

In the face of Liu Liu's complaint, I replied with a "thank you", then put the phone back in my jacket pocket and continued to wait with little hope. At this time, Albert also used the money she had begged for the morning to buy two servings of pasta, and she gave one of them to me, which was considered Chinese food for the two of them.

As we ate, we chatted again, and this time I asked him first, "Bert, do you have a house over here?" ”

He replied disdainfully: "No, things like houses are like cages for people like me, and my heart is free to wear one more piece of clothing, which feels like a constraint." ”

"You're awesome!"

Albert accepted my compliment with peace of mind, and he put his hands behind his head and smiled for a moment before he said to me, "The thing I care about most in life is how to make myself happier." The house and car that you Chinese care about the most are actually like the two sides of a pair of scissors, which subtracts the thread that connects you to happiness. Don't you notice that people over there like to be sad? There aren't many people who can really see it...... There may be a day when you really have the house of your dreams, you may not be very happy, right? Because repression has become a kind of inertia in your heart, and then after the house, you go to pursue higher material pleasures, but after a short period of pleasure, you will still be depressed...... This is the social ethos. ”

As he spoke, he knocked the ground a few times with his bowl containing money, and said with a smile: "It's good to be a bum...... Because I have made many people enjoy the joy of helping others, and it is also a very meritorious thing...... Ha ha! ”

"You're really not a normal person...... Your thinking is so weird! ”

"It's good to be happy...... Just be happy. ”

Albert said as he lit another cigarette, then squinted and smoked. I just stared at him a few more times, and I felt that I was with such a person, and it was difficult to be optimistic. In fact, he is the real fighter in life, he is not afraid of anything, he is afraid that he will not be happy.

And we ordinary people want too much, but those who get it sacrifice too much of our emotions that should be happy.

Thinking of this, I swapped the paper on my lap with him, and I became a vagabond, and Albert became a man who could not ask for it, but our emotions could not be exchanged, he was still happy, and I was still sad.

……

When it was almost dusk, Qiao Ye and Qin Miao found the side of the wishing pool, Qiao Ye looked around, and said to me: "I haven't seen you for a day, you are even more disgraced than yesterday...... What does it mean to have a broken bowl next to this? ”

"Eater, don't move." I said impatiently, opening the foot he wanted to kick, and placing the bowl between my legs very protectively. I really feel like I would die in this tormented waiting if I didn't have this kind of entertainment.

After Qiao Ye jokingly scolded "grandson-like", he changed the topic and said to me: "Here in Rome, Qin Miao and I have already walked around, and we are ready to leave for Switzerland in the evening, do you want to go together, I heard that the scenery of the town over there is very charming, and we can't wait." ”

I looked at the people on the street who came and went, but still strangers, shook my head and replied, "I'm not going anywhere, I'm just here to die." ”

"Are you sure you can do your daily life by being here alone?"

"Let's go, don't delay your trip for me, people are forced out by the environment, I even bought a pack of mixed cigarettes in Italian in the afternoon!"

Qiao Ye replied with a smile: "Look at your awesome appearance...... Since you are so confident in yourself, let's go to Switzerland first, and when the circle of Europe is down, we will come back to Rome to find you...... At that time, it was almost time to return home. ”

"If you have played all the countries you want to play, and I haven't found Xiao Ai, you won't come to Rome to find me, and I won't return to China for the time being...... Finally, I wish you all a pleasant journey...... Let's go. ”

Qiao Ye glanced at me uncomfortably, then made a gesture to contact me by phone, and pulled Qin Miao, who had dragged his suitcase, away. And I didn't realize until this time that Albert, who had been with me all day, didn't know when he left, and I was still in front of a dense crowd, but they were all strange faces.

Come to think of it, life is really composed of farewells, I just sent Yang Qu and Jia Luo away this morning, and Qin Miao and Qiao Ye left again in the evening. In this way, I can't point to anyone in Rome at all, but I just boasted a lot with Qiao Ye, in fact, the pack of mixed cigarettes was bought by Albert and given to me, he said, cigarettes are something that can make me happy at this stage, I can't live without it......

……

In the past few days abroad, the weather has been good, but in the evening when Qiao Ye and Qin Miao walked for a long time, the sky suddenly became overcast, and then the wind rolled up the dry dust, and the rain drifted down in the light and shadow of the street lamp in a chaotic manner...... I didn't have an umbrella for myself.

The sudden rain soon deserted the noisy streets, and the merchants who were doing business on the streets also closed their doors and windows, and it was difficult to see a bulge in the rain, and the world seemed to change in an instant.

I was afraid of getting the guitar a treasure, so I hurriedly rolled up my trouser legs and ran to the eaves across the street to hide from the rain. But after half an hour of endless rain, there was no sign of stopping, and my trouser legs were all wet with the splashing rain, and my mood was over...... I felt like a fool standing in the wind of sorrow, and all that was left was a pile of memories woven together with time......

Yes, when I came, there were Qin Miao and Qiao Ye, and there was She Shaobo, who could help a little even though he didn't deal with them, but now they are all gone, leaving me trapped on this deserted street by a heavy rain...... I don't even have the ability to buy a hamburger to feed on.

The rain was getting heavier and the wind was blowing harder, and the eaves of the hut could no longer keep the wind and rain from it, so I turned my back and protected the guitar between my stomach and the wall, but my back was completely wet with the rain, and I could even feel the rain dripping down my trouser legs to the ground, and my cold teeth were chattering...... If it were possible, I would really like to turn into a bolt of lightning and leave this street where there is no hope of seeing Xiao Ai in an instant, I am so unlucky, I am unlucky to do anything!

I don't know how long I have endured like this, but I gradually lost the stimulation of the rain, but the sound of the rain was still clearly visible, and just when I thought I was numb, a familiar fragrance was felt by my nose.

My body stiffened suddenly, and with a glance, her expression and face came into view, and the red bands in her hair seemed to be more beautiful than anything else in this world, not to mention the white flats on her feet.

It must be a dream, or a hallucination...... As soon as I closed my eyes, the touch of her body came, and the warmth was not deceiving, and I finally opened my eyes and looked at her again, and after making sure that it was not a dream, my lips began to tremble......

With tears in her eyes, she leaned her umbrella in front of me...... And my thousand words, just in the eyes without the concept of time, converged into a sentence "...... child"