I stood there and looked at her, but this time, she didn't stop for me, and after she had said what she was going to say to me, she turned and walked towards the "Tulip" hotel not far away......

Gradually, her back became more and more blurred in the light and shadow drawn into lines. But I remember that it has been nearly three years from the beginning of our acquaintance to the moment of heartache. If I had to put a stop between us, I didn't want to be the one who wrote everything. And for her, reassuring may be the greatest joy. Now she is finally relieved of me, so she is the last person to put an end.

A strong wind blew and my umbrella swayed, and then in this unstable situation I thought of the last words she had said to me. She wouldn't question Zhao Mu casually, but she didn't say it explicitly. It gave me a very unsettling feeling......

I don't want to be easily suspicious, and I don't want to trust unconditionally, so I choose to wait and see what happens, and choose not to stay out of it.

……

When I got back to my accommodation, I was tossing and turning in bed, and my brain was always uncontrollably thinking about many things and many people. Gradually, I connected Xiao Ai's visit to Wu Lei and Gu Lin with the fire. In the past two years, she doesn't seem to have been reborn after that fire, otherwise she wouldn't have known about the existence of Wu Lei and Gu Lin, police lovers.

I don't know if it was because I was suffering from the wind chill or thinking too much, but I felt a little headache, so I left the bed and boiled myself a pot of boiling water, and then brewed a cup of ginger tea.

It was during this period that I received a text message from Jin Qiu. She told me that there would be a cooling in Nanjing tomorrow and that I would be asked to wear more clothes.

It was the first time she cared about me in the small details, and it should have been a sign of getting into the groove. I understand that she is attentive to our relationship, because it is not easy for a woman who focuses all her attention on her career to achieve her level.

After that, I spent half an hour chatting with her for a while, and we talked about everything from the renovation of the house to the places we could choose for our next vacation. But I don't know why, after Jin Qiu threw out the topic, I couldn't get into the state as quickly as before. I felt like I was stuck in some emotion. And I doubted myself, as if I was capable and good enough to deal with all that was in front of me.

After finishing my chat with Jin Qiu, I lay back on the bed and closed my eyes, and I didn't open my eyes until my phone vibrated again in my hand. This time, it was a message from Qiao Ye again, and he asked me if I had told Su Han about his "liver cancer".

I wiped my face with my hands a little irritably, and then sent him a message back: "I know that you pretended to have liver cancer in order to win Su Han's sympathy, and you have to slow down before you can accept it, not to mention her Su Han, so you have to let me give her a little psychological preparation first, and then talk about this matter." ”

Qiao Ye ignored my explanation, he replied, "This thing has to be sudden to make it look realistic...... Tell her as soon as possible. ”

"You're a beast!"

scolded Qiao Ye, I still found the diagnosis certificate from the mobile phone album, and after staring at it for a long time, I finally sent a message to Su Han: "You haven't slept yet, I want to talk to you about something...... The news came quite suddenly, and I just found out, so I hope you are mentally prepared. ”

After a while, Su Han replied to my message: "Say it, I'm mentally prepared...... Living in this world, there is nothing I can't bear except the loss of my child. ”

"I hope that's what you say......"

After I sent this message, it took about five minutes before I also sent Qiao Ye's fake diagnosis certificate to Su Han. Then, the whole world seemed to fall into silence, and I seemed to be able to see Su Han's expression on the other end of the phone.

This time, it took me a full ten minutes before I received a phone call, and the number was very unfamiliar. I knew that it was very likely that Su Han called me, because at this time, she couldn't care about revealing her contact information in front of me.

I was a little weak-hearted, afraid that there would be something that would not be round, and I would be exposed.

Su Han was silent at first, and then asked me in a low voice: "Jiang Qiao, I don't believe this is true, his body is much better than ordinary people, how could he suddenly get this disease?" ”

I tried to make my tone as sad as I could, and then I replied, "I don't believe it either, but...... The diagnosis certificate can't fool anyone. In the past two years, you may not know that he has a lot of pressure at work, and he has always had emotional problems...... Alas! Sick like a mountain, a good person, tortured by this unsatisfactory life like this! …… As a person close to him, he can only pray that there is still the possibility of healing. ”

Su Han on the other end of the phone fell silent again, perhaps because the diagnosis was really too convincing, or because the trend of cancer getting younger and younger gave her a lot of psychological hints. Anyway, I could feel her emotions about to collapse.

I felt a little unbearable. I understand that although the relationship between Qiao Ye and Su Han has completely collapsed, Su Han still has feelings for Qiao Ye. Otherwise, she would not insist on having a way to be born, and she would not have been single for so many years. Now, hearing the news, how could she not break down?

From this point of view, Qiao Ye is really a bastard and has reached a new height. In fact, starting from Lijiang, he shouldn't have provoked Su Han, otherwise, there wouldn't have been so many tragedies now. But who can blame him for that? At the very least, he was a victim; At least, his heart was full of a sense of responsibility for himself and Su Han's children; At least, he didn't turn his back on Qin Miao again...... So, he's just a pathetic bastard.

At this time, Su Han finally said to me with a trembling voice: "He can just talk to you about this matter verbally, why do you have to send you a diagnosis certificate?" ”

Faced with Su Han's questioning, I was stunned, but fortunately, my brain was flexible enough, and I didn't give Su Han any more room to doubt, so I hurriedly replied: "This diagnosis certificate is for you, not for me...... He hopes that you can understand his mood and meet him with a road. You know, how long you can live with this disease is really not determined by human will. ”

Su Han held on to the last trace of luck and questioned: "I still can't believe it, you just told me about taking the child to see him earlier, and as soon as I refused, he got such a disease, such a coincidence is really ......"

"Maybe at first, he didn't want to tell you such bad news as a way to morally kidnap you. He also hopes to be happy to see the child for the last time, at least it is a good memory. However, you refused so thoroughly, so when he couldn't see hope, he could only choose to tell you the truth......" After a slight pause, I said with a straight face: "Su Han, you have been in the United States for more than a year, and he has never been so eager to see this child as he is now, if it weren't for a major change, he really wouldn't have this change of mood!" ”

I just rounded up this lie, and I couldn't even find a single loophole in the logic. Gradually, even I got into the play, and I believe that this is a sad fact.

I said to her with a choked voice: "No matter whether there is a good fate or a bad fate between you and Qiao Ye in this life, after all, they are two people who have loved each other, and now that he is like this, you should fulfill him." ”

"Where is he hospitalized, I want to see him first."

Qiao Ye's diagnosis certificate was prescribed in a cancer hospital in Nanjing, but there was no reason for him not to go to Shanghai or abroad, where the medical level was more advanced, for treatment, so I immediately replied: "Maybe go to Shanghai or abroad for treatment, and I will tell you when he is confirmed." ”

"Okay, then I'll wait for your news."

……

After ending the call with Su Han, I immediately called Qiao Ye again, and after he connected, I opened my mouth and said to him: "I have already talked to Su Han just now, she seems to believe this and wants to go to the hospital to see you...... Have you figured out where to be hospitalized? ”

"Where do you think it's right to stay?"

"With your net worth, it's a bit unreasonable not to go to the best hospital, and does Qin Miao know about this? Without her cooperating with you, you really can't do it. Think about it for yourself, you have such a big illness, is it appropriate for her not to accompany you in the hospital? ”

Qiao Ye on the other end of the phone was silent, and only replied after a while: "I haven't thought of Qin Miao's stubble yet...... Otherwise, you tell Su Han that meeting in the hospital will give the child a psychological shadow, let's meet outside, anyway, liver cancer is not a disease that can kill people by standing......"

I interrupted Qiao Ye and said, "I have to remind you that Su Han was already very suspicious, and if you push back like this, she will definitely not believe it...... I've told you a long time ago, this is an unreliable thing, how many lies do you have to use to make up for this lie, in order to fool the past! ”

Qiao Ye sighed, and only replied after a while: "If only I really had liver cancer, I would save myself from living, as if no one was sorry!" ”

"Don't say such frustrating words, no one wants you to die, and you've done enough in the past two years...... Sometimes, I really hope that you are still the Qiao Ye who can't figure out everything in the past, those things that can't be changed, just let it pass. Yet, you have chosen one of the most painful ways to live. Speaking of which, this is the price of maturity, because maturity gives you more of a sense of responsibility as a father! ”

My words made Qiao Ye's mood fluctuate greatly, I heard him light a cigarette, and I took several puffs before saying to me: "The only one who can understand me is you...... Over the years, I have understood that what people are most afraid of is doing the wrong things that cannot be turned back, and now these have been encountered by me, and there is no other way to save them except to accept fate...... Jiang Qiao, buddy, thank you for helping me in this matter, I will deal with the rest of the troubles, you are also living like a pot of porridge here, so I won't let you worry about it! ”

"I don't have to worry about it, it's just like this, Su Han is a little reluctant to go...... After this matter is exposed, I am afraid that I will not be able to contact her here. ”

Qiao Ye stopped talking, I sighed, and after asking him to rest early, I hung up the phone...... Then I spent the whole night in a state of insomnia, as I found that life began to be turbulent again.

……

The next day, I slept until noon, and when I woke up, my brain was still a little heavy, probably because I had a cold last night. After taking a little cold medicine, I started to get busy again for the rest of my life. I first drove to a village outside the suburbs, which was very far from the city, and then went to the village committee to talk about land contracting. However, it was not so smooth, because most of the land in the village had been transferred from the farmers, and it was temporarily within the contract time, so there was no idle land.

I went to other villages, but there was some idle land, but the development cost was too high, and the transportation was not convenient enough, so it was impossible for large vehicles to drive into the farmland.

So, I fell into the predicament of starting a business again, and I began to use the resources around me to ask people to inquire about the land circulation information of villages outside the suburbs. At the same time, I was also preparing for the establishment of a studio. The improvement of entrepreneurial efficiency and execution is entirely due to the more than a year I have been with Jin Qiu, and she is indeed a woman who can make me comfortable in my career.

When I returned to the city, it was already time for dinner, so I parked my car on a street near Xuanwu Gate, threw a throat lozenge in my mouth, and looked at the ancient city wall standing opposite.

The "Xuanwu Gate Change" in history took place in Chang'an, which is now Xi'an, and I still don't understand why Nanjing also has such a Xuanwu Gate. The only thing I know is that the Xuanwu Gate in front of me is a product of the Ming Dynasty, and it is also a dynasty whose ambitions are strangled...... It seems that there has never been a shortage of incidents of fratricidal in history, some notorious, others forgiven in political struggles. Now it seems that human nature is the most unexaminable thing in the long river of history, because history is written with blood. Behind this sword and sword, human nature is at most a dispensable consideration, otherwise since ancient times, why is there such a saying that "heroes are only judged by success or failure"?

With a heavy "exhalation", I took out my mobile phone from the storage compartment on the car door, and then made a call to Zhao Mu. I want to ask him for dinner, I don't want to test human nature, I just want to have a good meal.

After a while, Zhao Mu answered the phone, he seemed to be very busy, and even his voice was low, he asked me, "Brother Qiao, is there something wrong?" ”

"It's nothing, I just wanted to ask you to have dinner, do you have time tonight?"

"I have a department meeting later, I don't know what time it will be ......."

I replied in a calm tone, "I'll wait for you at what time...... In this way, I'm here at Xuanwu Gate, order some refreshments first, and come over when you're done, we'll see you there! ”

Zhao Mu hesitated for a moment and said to me: "Okay, I'll try to shorten the meeting time, but if it's more than nine o'clock, don't wait, I'll make an appointment with you after I change the sky." ”

"Just tonight, I don't necessarily have time for another day. If we really can't make it to dinner, we go to the night market. ”

"Okay, I'll go over when I'm ready."

For the first time in my life, I made an appointment with Zhao Mu with a tough attitude.

After putting my phone back in its place, I looked back at the heavy city gate, and suddenly I felt that I was living a dispensable life in this world. And this flowing clouds in the evening, like a lady's buttocks, can only be seen more clearly if you lift her cheongsam in person!