There were more and more cars on the road, so I stood in the middle of the sidewalk, waited for the nearest car to pass by, and then walked towards the "Wutong Hotel" on the opposite side.

In the process, I saw what Su Han and Xiao Ai had been chatting about, and I saw Xiao Ai's long-lost smiling face, but she couldn't see me standing in the wind and rain, because the indoor light was abundant and concentrated, while everything outside was scattered. At the moment, I am like a fallen leaf mixed with the traffic, and it seems so innocuous to the world.

When I entered the hotel, the waiter didn't even ask me, but took me to the door of private room No. 21, told me that the person I was looking for was inside, and knocked on the door for me.

After getting permission, she pushed open the door for me, and I just faced Su Han, who I hadn't seen for a long time, and Xiao Ai, who had her back to me, and I gave the waiter the umbrella that was still dripping, and then walked to the table. However, I don't know whether it was intentional or not, they just sat facing each other, and I didn't seem to be able to sit on anyone's side. But the table against the wall didn't have a third side to sit on.

This is the characteristic of the "Wutong Hotel", its bag spacing is very small, so the table is more like the four-person table commonly used in Western restaurants, with two people sitting on one side.

I said to Su Han, "You two ladies sit together." ”

At this time, Xiao Ai glanced up at me, while Su Han picked up his handbag and sat down with Xiao Ai.

At this moment, there is only a pot of Pu'er tea and a plate of white melon seeds on the table. I asked Su Han again, "Haven't you ordered yet?" ”

"I knew you were coming, so I waited for you to come along."

She said as she handed me a menu. In fact, I was already familiar with several specialties of the "Wutong Restaurant", so after a quick glance, I reported a few dish names to the waiter, and then took out a bank card from my wallet and handed it to my waiter, signaling me to pay.

After the waiter made a note of it, I handed the menu to Su Han and asked her to order more of what she wanted to eat. At this time, I dared to really take a look at Xiao Ai.

Her temperament has not changed, and her eyes are still full of indifference, this indifference is her attitude towards most people two years ago, but now it is used on me!

I didn't want to care about this, I looked at her eyes again, although she had regained her sight, but there was still a very small scar in the corner of her eye, although this did not affect her beauty, but it was a trace that the fire could never erase, and there was a lot of trauma in my heart.

Xiao Ai didn't avoid my eyes, this was the first time we faced each other head-on, there was no hatred, no enthusiasm, all we cared about was the scars that the years had carved out of us.

After a flicker of eyes, I turned my head back to look out the window at the still-busy and humid world...... I didn't know what to say to them, I just felt like it was a night soaked in emotions, and I didn't have the confidence to make it to the moment the rain stopped.

……

After a while, the waiter brought in the food we ordered one after another, and during this time, Xiao Ai and Su Han also chatted a few words piecemeal, but they were all about Youlu who stayed in the United States and did not bring it back. This is, of course, a manifestation of motherhood, so her indifference will melt because of Youlu's child.

"Is there no dish you like? Look outside all the time. ”

I took my attention back from the window, and then looked at Xiao Ai who was talking to me a little bewildered, and only replied after a while: "There is a big cat lying on the opposite room, which looks very melancholy, so I took a few more looks." ”

Su Han leaned over and asked, "Is there one?" ”

Xiao Ai added: "Do you believe such nonsense?" ”

Su Han smiled and replied, "Perhaps, he compares himself to the cat." ”

This time, Xiao Ai didn't look at me, and I was embarrassed again, I don't like this feeling of being seen through by others, I do have a melancholy big flower cat living in my heart, it makes me a little unrefreshed.

Halfway through the meal, Xiao Ai and I didn't talk anymore, but Su Han kept asking me about my life in the past few years. So, I told her all about the establishment of the "Dream Tree" in Shanghai. I also mentioned Yao Yu's poor woman, because the abandoned factory she owned was the real starting point of the "Dream Tree".

Xiao Ai didn't interrupt the whole process, but she didn't pay too much attention to listening, she always looked out the window intentionally or unintentionally, as if she also had a melancholy big cat living in her heart.

When I was about to finish the meal, I received a photo from Qiao Ye, the content was simply shocking, he really made himself a liver cancer patient. And the diagnosis certificate is still issued by a relatively authoritative cancer hospital. I think this person is even more awesome, because I have never seen anyone control their life and death so easily.

I quietly put the phone back on the table, and then looked at Su Han, who didn't know it, and wanted to speak several times, but I held it back. Because after all, this matter is unkind.

……

After dinner, the three of us stood together under the eaves of the "Wutong Hotel", Su Han insisted on taking a taxi, and told me to send Xiao Ai back to the Tulip Hotel. In fact, it's giving us a chance to communicate individually.

If that's possible, I hope she'll be as honest as I am about life after we separate. No matter how many misunderstandings and how many unbearable pains there are, as long as I can talk about it, I will have a chance to untie the knot in my heart.

But will she give me such a good time?

I opened my umbrella, protected her as much as I could, and walked to the "Tulip Hotel", which was not far away. This time, it was I who opened my mouth first, and I said to her, "I heard Su Han say that you studied abroad at Berklee College of Music, and you also met in Boston. ”

"Hmm."

"She could have told me your whereabouts, but you wouldn't let her tell ......" At this point, I fell into silence, and also stopped, I turned to look at her, and only whispered again for a long time: "I'm about to get engaged to Jin Qiu, but I still have a lot of heavy heart knots that have not been untied...... I really hope that you can give me a good time and tell me the reasons and reasons why you chose to marry Yuan Zhen in the first place...... I'm really awake now, that's why I have to come here to see you. I think the answer you gave will make me feel relieved of everything that has happened in the past two years, and it will also allow me to marry Jin Qiu like a man and not do anything to hurt her. ”

Xiao Ai also stopped, but she was outside my umbrella. She looked up at me, ignoring the rain wetting her white coat. I know that her heart is colder than this rain, and in the past two years, she has not been much better than me.

She finally whispered to me, "Can you answer me a question first?" ”

"You ask."

"Did you wait for me after I left? …… When I come back, we love each other as before. ”

"I've waited, I've waited for a long time."

Xiao Ai nodded, and she asked again, "But what did I give you?" ”

"Disappointment, disappointment after disappointment."

Xiao Ai turned her back to me, and her voice became even lowered: "Jiang Qiao, there is a truth I hope you can understand...... When a woman disappoints a man again and again, she doesn't give that man any more hope...... You really don't need to think about getting any answers from me anymore, and I can't. Because I'm already a woman who doesn't deserve your love and answers...... Marry Jin Qiu, she is a woman who can give you happiness, and she is also a woman who can give you a stable life, you won't regret marrying her......"

I took a step forward, and after meeting her face to face, I sneered, "Could it be that you eat with me just to say these things to me?" ”

Xiao Ai shook his head, and then took out the old mobile phone from his pocket, but it was connected with the bridge-shaped pendant.

She returned to my hand and said, "Take it back, just like you once gave me that guitar...... I hope you will be happy in the rest of your life. I think these are all things that should be done and said to you face to face...... After all...... After all, we once loved each other. ”

I never felt like my hands were so heavy, and my breathing became rapid because of it, but I reached out and took the phone from Xiao Ai's hand, then closed my eyes and clicked it.

At this moment, my heart is more humid than this rainy world. I know that compared to the truth that I have been trying to seek, this phone is more convincing for me to forget the past, and this is the perfect answer that Xiao Ai gave me.

In the wind and rain that made people lose their sense of direction, I finally whispered to her, "Thank you...... Thank you for your blessings...... I also hope that your future life will always be smooth and live the life you want. ”

Xiao Ai cried.

But I don't know if she's crying for such a farewell, or if she's crying because she might never be able to live the life she wants. Anyway, none of this has anything to do with me. It's impossible for me to care for her life after marrying Jin Qiu. But in this life, she is the woman who makes my heart hurt the most...... Perhaps, she will never understand that the reason why I forced myself to come to the appointment was because I was afraid of disappointing her. But just as she didn't want to give me an answer, she didn't need an answer from me.

Then between us, that's all there is to it, because I've exhausted the last bit of strength.

……

This night, I didn't send her back to the "Tulip Hotel", we parted ways where we spoke. However, when I was about to reach the other side of the street, she called out to me again......

"Jiangqiao!"

The tight string inside me broke in an instant, and I thought everything would be uncertain.

She gave me a smile with tears, but her voice was still very low: "Do you remember the "Mom" we sang together in Lijiang? That's probably the song we've sung the most emotionally. I know what you feel and expect from her...... So when I learned that your mom came back and was such a successful woman, I was really happy for you! …… You must live happily ever after! ”

"And ......"

"You have to pay attention to Zhao Mu, his two faces, maybe the most terrifying thing in the world!"