The woman standing not far in front of my eyes, she would not appear in my life for no reason, I did not want to equate her with her twenty years ago, and I did not want her to appear in front of me in such a posture.

I've fantasized more than once that she'll return to the place where we once lived during the tulip season; Or, it was harvest season, full of wheat fields and harvesting machines, and she stood in the wheat field, bringing me hope to live.

I had never imagined that we would meet in a germ-infested place, so I didn't want to believe it was her, even though my heart was beating fast.

I stopped, she hadn't noticed me yet, but she took the phone from the secretary's hand, and then turned her back to me and began to communicate with the leader of the city bureau on the phone. Her words were still sharp, and there was not a trace of negotiability. After just a few words, she returned the phone to the secretary's hand. And the secretary's attitude towards her has also changed substantially...... This qiē, which seemed to be very difficult, was easily handled by her.

It wasn't a war between her and the secretary, but it was enough to say a lot......

In an instant, she turned her head, and our eyes met in the crowd, and I couldn't see her mood in her expression, and so did her, and we just looked at each other. She didn't move forward, and I didn't step back, keeping this distance not too far away, but sensitive enough.

At the scene, only Jin Qiu and Lao Jin's family were looking at me with bewildered eyes, they didn't expect that I would rush back to Shanghai in such a short time. I want to thank Qiao Ye, if it weren't for his generosity, I would have had to delay in Nanjing for a day or two, and I wouldn't have seen this scene happening in front of me!

I didn't feel like someone I needed to feel guilty about and hide, and when I calmed down, I walked over to her and stood in front of her. As a high-end person, she is well maintained, and her face still has the shadow of twenty years ago. That's what I miss. My lips were trembling, but I couldn't open my mouth to talk to her, and I didn't even know what to call this woman, maybe Auntie was more appropriate, or Ms. Yang, because she hadn't done what a mother should have done for so many years.

She didn't say anything, but her eyes flickered many times as she looked at me, and then her eyes turned red...... It was an unexpected meeting, but it opened a door in which I sometimes felt ecstatic because I thought of her, and sometimes I didn't feel my growth because she wasn't around.

Yes, this woman is my biological mother, Yang Jin. The loneliness in her eyes and the tenderness when she looked at me, I will never forget it.

She finally spoke: "Bridge ......"

I suppressed all the complicated emotions in my heart, just looked at her indifferently, and finally replied: "I haven't seen you for so many years, it's really hard for you to recognize who Jiang Qiao is, and you don't treat me as a passerby...... If I'm not mistaken......"

A feeling choked me, made me hold back the words that I was about to say, and then gasped heavily. It was as if I saw the half-hidden door again, and I leaned on this door, watching her back farther and farther away...... Now that she's back, all the street lamps lit for hope are gone, and she won't see how lonely my soul is lying on the wooden door.

I dropped my finger pointing at her, and looked up at a white roof......

I still remember the year she left, I was only 8 years old, with a simple hair, shabby clothes, and even peeping at the world from a different angle than now, so why does she still remember me? In front of me, who has already completed the metabolism of even my cells, I shouted a nickname that I would have shouted more than ten years ago.

She took my hand, felt the temperature of her palm, and her heart was surging with a softness that she had never felt before. She has also changed, she is no longer the Yang Jin who works in a textile factory, and there will always be cocoons on her hands that are pulled out by the lines. In addition to talking, her dress, her appearance, and her expression when communicating with people all show a superior momentum everywhere.

She's a real stranger to me!

I shook her hand away...... Then I glared at her, she showed up too late, so late that I felt like I didn't need her at all, and I had forgotten that I still had the word "mother" in my life.

The old Jin couple, who had been by their side and didn't dare to interject a word, finally said to me and Yang Jin: "There are many people here, let's not talk here...... There's a teahouse nearby, so why don't you go and sit there for a while? ”

My love instantly got out of control, and I pointed at Lao Jin and Luo Sumei and yelled: "For so many years, I have been a complete fool, and I have been played with by you guys and applauded...... Yes, I'm just stupid, I admit it...... But you tell me, in what mood am I going to sit face to face with her and talk about ideals? Or talk about life? Or tell her, how have I spent all these years? …… How did I become a burden to Uncle Zhao and Aunt Li's family? Let Uncle Zhao and Aunt Li brave the wind and waves to go down to the river to fish, and once they went, they never came back! …… And Zhao Chu......"

Thinking of the torments I have suffered in my life over the years, I completely collapsed, sobbing while talking, but I didn't take one more step towards Yang Jin, I retreated, retreated to the corner, retreated to the nowhere to go, and then changed directions and ran in the direction of the elevator.

I'm enough, I don't want to face the Lao Jin family who don't report it, and I don't want to face Yang Jin...... In my opinion, all her sufferings, in the past ten years of ignoring them, have not constituted any reason. Because every hardship given by life almost made me die in despair with no way out!

She ignored this despair.

……

In the garden near the hospital, I sat in the shade of a tree, the sun shining through the gaps between the leaves, piercing my face like needles, but I felt numb and painless. I just lit myself a cigarette that saved my mood, and squinted at this sunlit but somewhat empty world.

It wasn't until Jin Qiu stood beside me in a soft posture that I came back to my senses from my selfless state, but I didn't want to say a word to her. Because she, like her parents, is a liar full of lies. They are Yang Jin's accomplices and Yang Jin's minions.

It's not that I'm paranoid, it's not that I've chosen to turn a blind eye to what they've done over the years.

In my heart, the moment I saw Yang Jin, there was already a thorn that could not be pulled out. This thorn tells me that the favor they have given me and the care they have given me is not from the heart, but has other intentions.

In their eyes, I am at most a tool that can cling to the powerful. I didn't need to explore any more truths, because when they showed up in the hospital together, they had already exposed too many truths.

Jin Qiu avoided my eyes, she lit a lady's cigarette, and after being silent for a long time, she whispered to me: "Jiang Qiao, I know that no matter how I explain now, you are not in the mood to listen...... However, I still hope that you will listen to a few words...... Since Aunt Yang, that is, your mother...... Choosing to return to Nanjing and return to you means that you will start a new life...... If, I mean if...... If you are willing to accept it, your life will be completely free from all the shadows that money and material things have left on you...... This time, Auntie, she's really back! ”

I had almost lost my mind and roared back, "I'd rather die in the shadows of those lives than live on my knees beside her!" …… If you understand, you should return to your master now...... My soul does not accept you as a thoughtless doll at the mercy of others! ”