I don't know how long I'll be in Shanghai, but I still signed up for guitar lessons at this "One Lantern Piano Shop" located under the flyover, and I want to come every afternoon to study, and when my grandmother leaves Shanghai from the hospital, I can play and sing a song I like proficiently. Then, I can completely forget about Shanghai.

But where is my next stop?

I don't really want to go back to Nanjing, because the old alley I relied on for my survival has also ended its life in the process of modernization, and I haven't found the next place to stay.

I took out my wallet from my pocket, but found that the money in it was no longer enough to pay for tuition, and I looked through the sliding door to the overpass, where Chen Yi was still standing, not leaving.

As if she had a special sense with me, she turned to look at me in the next moment. I held my wallet up to her and pointed.

Chen Yi nodded and walked over from the overpass to this place called "One Lantern Piano Shop...... Just before a leaf fell to the ground, she was already standing in front of me and asked, "Is there not enough money?" ”

"Well, there's still 400 bucks left."

Chen Yi didn't say anything as always, she took out her wallet from her handbag, and then took out 400 yuan and gave it to me, and I handed it over to the owner of the piano store.

……

Leaving the piano shop, I looked at my watch, and then said to Chen Yi: "It's late, you can find a hotel to rest early, I won't send you." ”

Chen Yi pointed to an express hotel opposite and said to me: "You can live anywhere, just the one opposite." ”

There was nothing to discuss about such an inconsequential trifle, and I nodded, and prepared to turn back in the direction of the hospital. I think that after accompanying Chen Yi for such a circle, Lao Jin and Luo Sumei should also leave. And I should give my grandmother an explanation and tell her what is going on between me and Xiao Ai. I hope she will be considerate of me and understand Xiao Ai's decision. If life hadn't made us despair, we wouldn't have brought this hard-won relationship to a dead end.

"Jiang Qiao, you wait."

I stopped and looked back at Chen Yi.

Chen Yi took out a bank card from his wallet and said to me: "There is still some money in this card, you can use it first." ”

Probably knowing that I would refuse, she smiled and said in a relaxed tone: "You can't make money for a while, instead of lowering your head and looking for someone else to borrow, it's better to use my ...... first After this time, everything will be fine! ”

I took it from Chen Yi's hand, then whispered thank you, and without waiting for Chen Yi to give me the password, I turned around and walked towards the necessary way back to the hospital......

When I got off the overpass, I saw Chen Yi again in the convex wide-angle mirror placed at the intersection, and she was standing on the opposite street, watching my back and never leaving. She was wearing a loose blue slacks, a purple T-shirt, except for the change in hairstyle, this scene at this moment is like the night she left Nanjing to go to school in Beijing.

So I asked myself, over the years, have I gone away, or has she gone away? Or, none of us have gone far, but life is a moving window, allowing us to look at each other from several angles, and then see the strange feeling.

……

Back at the hospital, only my grandmother was left in the VIP ward, she didn't watch TV, she just half lay on the bed, looking at a pot of flowers placed on the windowsill. Hearing the movement, he turned to me and asked, "Is Xiao Ai's girl really married?" ”

I had a thousand words in my heart, but in the end I just nodded and said "yes" to my grandmother.

"Why doesn't she want to be nice to you?"

"I don't know."

Grandma looked at me, and I felt a thorn in her gaze, so I avoided it, and I looked out the window...... The night was good, but it felt dim.

Grandma got out of bed with great difficulty, and then stood beside me, I hurriedly reached out to help her, and said, "Grandma, what are you doing, hurry back to bed and lie down to rest." ”

Grandma pushed away the hand I was holding her, looked at everything in front of her with nostalgia, and said softly to me for a long time: "Bridge, grandma doesn't know how long she can live in this world, but she has a lot of worries in her heart...... From my heart, I also hope that you marry Jin Qiu of the Zhiqiang (Lao Jin) family. Because I can trust you to their house, I am relieved. There is also the fact that their family is close to your mother, and you married this girl Jin Qiu, and everyone looks very happy. After a long time, you can slowly forgive your mother. In my grandmother's view, as long as family members learn to forgive each other, the family will naturally have a centripetal force, which is the premise of being able to live a good life...... But ......"

I knew my grandmother hadn't finished her sentence, but she fell silent......

After feeling it for a long time, she said to me again: "However, grandma can't let go of Xiao Ai's girl, although her eyes can't see, I'm afraid that her heart is brighter...... Grandma always thinks that she probably doesn't want to drag you down, and even always suspects that your mother has been looking for her behind her back...... But these thoughts are just grandma's guesses, and no one knows what the truth is...... Qiao, listen to grandma's words, if there is still hope of face-to-face talk, you can go to find Xiao Ai's girl again, don't let her be wronged...... If, if she really changes her heart, she wants to be nice to you. When you come back, you will marry Jin Qiu in peace...... Because grandma has little time, entrusting you to their home, grandma can close her eyes with peace of mind...... Grandma doesn't want to see you and your mother go against the grain, she is always your mother, even if you are difficult, she will protect you well, grandma doesn't want to see that you don't have a loved one around you, only you have a hard time! ”

My tears were poked like this, and I was suddenly extremely afraid that my grandmother would leave me, so I hugged her tightly and whimpered in pain: "Grandma, don't tell me this...... I don't want to hear anything, I just want you to heal well and live well...... I promised you on the first day I came out to work that I would take you to travel all over the country in the future, and you couldn't let me be a man of my word. ”

Grandma listened to me tremblingly, and she cried more than I did......

……

It was a sleepless night for me, so it wasn't until the next morning that I slept in the family bed in the ward.

When I woke up, I saw the WeChat message sent to me by Chen Yi. She told me that she had gone back to Nanjing first, and asked me if I would like to rent a house for the time being, and then I would have a place to stay in Nanjing.

I replied to her in the restless gusts of wind in the early morning. Tell her that I won't go back to Nanjing for the time being, and it doesn't matter if I rent a house or not.

I spent the whole day with my grandmother in the hospital room, and she had another chemotherapy treatment, and suddenly her spirit deteriorated a lot, and it became difficult to even eat.

At dusk, Yang Jin, who had only gone to Switzerland last night, rushed back to Shanghai, and we had a rare meeting again. But I still rejected it, I don't know what she will say to me this time, I always feel that I will not like everything she has done to me...... Because there is an insurmountable gulf between us!

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