After I asked Xiao Ai about Ruan Su's news, she first looked at me expressionlessly, and then replied, "Can you not talk about this?" ”

"Why can you inquire about my mother? I can't ask your mother? ”

Xiao Ai couldn't cry or laugh, and said to me after a while: "All these years, I have lived by myself, and it wasn't until I debuted in Taiwan that I got in touch with her again." ”

"Then does she know that Yuan Zhen is no longer there?"

Yuan Zhen has always been the biggest pain in Xiao Ai's heart, so after hearing this name, her face suddenly became very sad, she wanted to speak and stopped, and only said to me after a while: "I know." ”

I'm a sensible person. I knew I shouldn't have asked more, and there was no need to ask more, because Xiao Ai's expression had already said a lot. When Yuan Zhen took her out of Nanjing, it was very likely that it came from Ruan Su's instructions, and Yuan Zhen's unexpected death made Ruan Su also blame himself.

After a moment of silence, Xiao Ai got up from the ground, she picked up my guitar, and played a tune that I had never heard before, but it felt good, and I heard a melodious one that was beyond the earth, and there was also a trace of sadness due to loneliness.

It was about four minutes before Xiao Ai put his guitar next to him and looked out at the farthest point on the other side of the river...... I followed her gaze and saw only groups of European-style buildings, which did not give people a feeling of relaxation, but Xiao Ai's expression gradually relaxed.

She was in a similar state to me now, I was unhappy and depressed most of the time, and then I would habitually empty myself, even the windows in the buildings, and I would imagine myself as a way out of life.

After watching it like this for a while, I said to her, "That song is very good, but I've never heard it before, can you tell me where it came from, and I'll listen to it on my phone when I get back." ”

Xiao Ai didn't look at me, she whispered back, "This is a song I wrote myself, you can't find it." ”

"Never published?"

"No, you're the first listener...... Can you tell me how you feel after listening to it? ”

I nodded, then replayed the melody I had just heard in my head, and then said to her truthfully, "I think this song is quite fairy!" It's like a person who ignores the utilitarianism and human feelings of this society and takes pleasure in living alone. Although he may be lonely sometimes, this loneliness is not his worst enemy, he has a high-level pursuit that we ordinary people can't understand. ”

Xiao Ai looked at me at this time, and then said to me: "Your feeling is not wrong, because this song is the ...... I wrote to Yuan Zhen" Speaking of this, she stopped, and then pinned her wind-blown hair behind her ear, and then said to me again: "I have thought about it, after I fill in the lyrics and determine the name of the song, I will come out of the guilt of him, and then start my new life...... However, I've tried many times, but I can't get the lyrics I want. ”

As soon as she finished speaking, the idea of filling in the words for her popped up in my heart, but I denied it in an instant, because it was her own knot, and no one else could help her untie it, and this was already a good start for her. So, I smiled and said to her, "Don't worry, take your time, you just don't have that state of mind right now." ”

Xiao Ai finally smiled at me and didn't say anything more, and lunch time came in our silence, I looked at the guitar standing next to her, and said to her, "The meal has arrived, but the money for lunch has not been earned, what should I do?" ”

Xiao Ai replied very dryly: "I invite you, I know that there is a restaurant here that makes Shanghai food, and the taste is not bad." ”

Over the years, almost all of them have been inviting others to dinner, and it is rare that someone is willing to invite me, of course I can't ask for it. So, I grinned at Xiao Ai, put the guitar in the case, and waited for her to show me the way.

After eating at that Shanghainese restaurant, Xiao Ai and I went back to our accommodation for a lunch break, and in the evening, we walked around the streets near the Trevi Fountain together, and after that, Xiao Ai and I spent almost like this, we went around every corner of Rome with nothing, sometimes when we were interested, we would also play street singing. The most intuitive feeling of all this was the peace of mind, and I was even in the mood to learn some Italian from the locals.

One night, I had a dream that I was living in Italy with Xiao Ai, and we didn't pay attention to the contradictions that life forced on us, and we had a pleasant day here. So, I told Xiao Ai what happened in this dream. Xiao Ai said, I am a man who sleeps in a dream and refuses to wake up. But I don't think it's a bad thing at all, because only in my dreams is the place where I can get closest to her.

……

It was another evening, and tomorrow was the day when Xiao Ai and I agreed to return home together, and my feelings were somewhat complicated, so I went to the café that Su Han once opened, and then asked for a dozen beers, and spent my last night in Rome alone.

Within half an hour, I received a call from Qiao Ye, it turned out that he and Qin Miao had also returned to Rome, and the two of them were going to go to the wishing pool to repay a wish, and then end this trip back to China. When he heard that I was drinking alone, even though he said that he wanted to have a few drinks with me, the reason why he was so eager was because he had been with Qin Miao since he went abroad, and there was no one who could drink with him.

After another half an hour, Qiao Ye came to the café, he asked for another dozen beers, then sat down opposite me, and asked me, "Xiao Ai, why didn't you come with you?" ”

"We've been together for the past few days...... Before leaving, I wanted to have some space of my own. ”

"Your own space? Are you still thinking about something? ”

"Sort of." After a slight pause, I asked again, "What about Qin Miao?" Why didn't you bring it over for a drink? ”

Qiao Ye smiled "hehe", and then replied: "Are you pretending to be confused?" I brought her to the bar that Su Han opened before, not to cause her trouble. ”

Qiao Ye's words shocked my heart, and then I remembered that Qin Miao had asked a private detective to investigate Su Han's matter, so it was not surprising that she knew that such a coffee shop existed.

After I raised the beer in my hand and motioned for Qiao Ye to do one, I asked him, "During this time, has Su Han contacted you?" ”

"No, what's wrong?"

"She talked to me once before, listening to the meaning of her words, I really hope to have a way back to you, your parents have prepared a place for her and her children to live in Nanjing, and it seems that they are not small in their determination to return to you justifiably."

Hearing me say this, Qiao Ye's face suddenly darkened, and he said to me after a while: "This matter is not so simple, let's wait and see." ”

I was a little confused by what he said, and when I asked him, "What do you mean?" Can you explain it? ”

Qiao Ye shook his head and replied, "The time hasn't come yet, so I can't say it too clearly...... Drink the bar, and after returning home, maybe there will be another bloody storm, and there may never be such a pleasant day tonight. ”

I was very sensitive, so I asked, "You bloody storm, do you mean me, or yourself?" ”

"Let's not, don't you have a bunch of things to solve...... But you are a little better than me, as long as you are not with Xiao Ai, your life is still a sunny road to the end, but I have no second way to choose, I can only go to the dark like this. ”

"You are, where there is a road, there is a fork in the road, so there is no sunny road at all, and there is no black road. You have to learn to polish your eyes yourself, otherwise the white road will be turned into a black road by you, and the black road will get darker and darker. ”

Qiao Ye was not in a hurry when I scolded him, he picked up the cup and took a sip of beer, smiled and asked me, "Then are you taking the white road or the black road now?" ”

"Stand at the fork in the road, and go from the black road to the white road."

"Okay, then you go and show your buddy, let me see what I have to do to go from the black road to the white road."

"Okay, you just wait and see, I haven't set an example in Jiangqiao for so many years, but this time I'll set an example for you to see, you are also diligent and studious, don't let me be too lonely alone."

Qiao Ye didn't take my words as a joke, he nodded very seriously, and then glanced at everything in the coffee shop, and then stopped talking, he seemed to have a lot of things on his mind that he couldn't talk to anyone.

……

This night, after Qiao Ye and I finished drinking, we went back to the hotel where we were staying. I packed my bags and went to the hotel where Xiao Ai was staying and booked a room, right next door to hers. I didn't mean anything else, I just wanted to be closer to her. I don't know how long we'll be together like this...... Perhaps, after we have fulfilled our agreement to pay homage to my grandmother when we return home, she will disappear from the world completely, and I will no longer have any reason to pester her. Because of my stubbornness, I really can't keep a person who wants to leave.

After taking a shower and lying down on the bed, I had a lot of thoughts, I roughly calculated the property at my disposal, and suddenly I had a not very optimistic feeling, not that I really have nothing, but the current expenses are really large, and if there is no continuous income, these money will not be able to last long.

Come to think of it, I really came to find Xiao Ai abroad with the determination to lose everything, if this can't save her heart, I really don't know how I should live a good life in the future.

Plagued by this complex emotion, I suffered from severe insomnia that night, and when it came morning, I gave up on my intention to continue sleeping, and then sat alone on a bench on the balcony, watching the sunrise, while waiting for them to get up.

……

At 8 o'clock in the morning, Xiao Ai and Qiao Ye and I met downstairs in the hotel, and then the four of us took a taxi to the airport, and this trip abroad ended here.

I have gained something, because I really waited for Xiao Ai in the city of Rome, but there are still many regrets and unknown difficulties behind us.

I hope that there will be a miracle between us, just like I said to Qiao Ye, I will be an example to show them; I also realized that my chances were running out, and it was likely that going to worship my grandmother would be the last time.