I didn't look back, I responded to Xiao Ke with silence, quietly looking at the somewhat damp road outside the car window, refracting the yellowish light of the street lamp, and the whole world began to blur...... On the side of the road, rows of street lamps shine on the night, so that the night is no longer dark; In the middle of the road, cars are speeding away, making the night no longer lonely; On the long road that stretches not close, there are only endless lonely people.

I asked Xiao Ke to stop at the entrance of the alley, and wanted to come down and sit at the intersection for a while, thinking that Xiao Ke would leave in reverse. Unexpectedly, he parked the car and said to sit with me for a while.

I handed Xiao Ke a cigarette and asked, "Brother, do you want one?" ”

Xiao Ke smiled awkwardly and said: "Although it has been out for many years, but I have never learned, my father died of lung cancer, and at that time I gave myself a death rule, resolutely not to learn to smoke, sorry brother." ”

"There's nothing wrong with not smoking, and a lot of people don't like me to smoke."

In front of the park chair that I used to do with nursery rhymes, I hesitated a little, the chair became wet because of the rain, and I was embarrassed to let Xiao Ke accompany me here.

Xiao Ke beside me saw my thoughts, and smiled: "Brother, I'll sit down, don't worry!" I'm not that squeamish. ”

……

After the rain, the mist spread, the humidity was filled, the dark blue sky had scattered beige stars flashing, I leaned on the handrail and looked at the road in the distance, the strange pedestrian hurriedly passed by with an expressionless face, raised his head to look at the dark sky, and could not find a sense of existence.

Xiao Ke sat quietly on the side, his fingers playing with his mobile phone quickly, and occasionally smiled.

"Talking to your girlfriend?"

"Yes! The last time I went home when I was decorating a product of Tianxiang, I was introduced by a friend, and I had a good chat, and I was going to get engaged when I went home for the New Year. ”

I patted Xiao Ke on the shoulder and congratulated: "Northeast masters, you don't have to drag your feet when you get married, it's not bad!" ”

Xiao Ke locked the screen and looked up at me and asked, "Brother, can I ask you something?" ”

"What's the matter, you ask."

Xiao Ke began to become serious and asked, "Do you remember what happened the day before you and Mr. Sun parted in your high school meeting?" ”

"This ...... I'm terrible, how do you know that I am at the same table as Sun Mengwen, she told you? ”

"When Mr. Sun was drunk together, he said that I was vaguely like you in high school, and seeing that I was the same age, he told me. The day before leaving, you looked at the sister at the same table wearing headphones and writing the scroll, and wanted to confess to her but was embarrassed to speak, finally, you tentatively called her name, but the sister didn't react at all, and still wrote the scroll, right? ”

With Xiao Ke's description, I remember that there seems to be such a thing.

So brother, you whispered all the things you wanted to say to her; The bell rang and the class ended, my brother left his seat, and the sister at the same table let go of the pause button and burst into tears......"

"That's what she said to you?"

"Mr. Sun said that one of the things she regrets the most in her life is that she will transfer to high school and leave you."

"Xiao Ke, you don't understand, there are some things that you can't regret."

"Actually, the first time you went to a taste of Tianxiang, Mr. Sun saw you, after the fierce master taught you a lesson, Mr. Sun lost his temper for the first time, and several times his palm stretched out in front of the fierce master, and he almost fanned down. At that time, we didn't understand what could make Mr. Sun so angry with Mengye, but now that we think about it, we all understand. Mr. Sun is entangled every time, afraid that you will dislike her if you know your identity, and you are a symbol of justice in her eyes. ”

I smiled bitterly: "What kind of justice am I?" ”

After speaking, I suddenly thought of the last time Sun Mengwen rushed into the office and pointed at Xu Shu and scolded, in this way, she also mustered up a lot of courage to expose her identity in front of me, right?

Sun Mengwen always seems to be very arrogant in front of me, and now that I think about it, everything is delicate to my heart!

……

The cold gradually hit, and I heard Xiao Ke, who was wearing a thin suit, freeze his teeth and chatter, so I had to put my coat on him like a big brother in the family.

Xiao Ke looked at me, smiled and didn't refuse, and continued to chat.

Xiao Ke and I began to be silent, and occasionally there was a burst of "roast meat dumplings!" Roast pork dumplings! The cries of selling pierced the silent winter night. The thick and indissolvable night, like a Danqing skillful hand, paints everything with mysterious colors, so that the solemn night produces an intangible, hallucination.

……

In addition to the silence, from time to time, people from the mouth of the alley have entered here after work and greeted me with a smile. This scene suddenly reminded me of the old nursery rhyme riding an electric car, happily passing by me, and then stopping and driving me back to get off the bus and wait for her...... It wasn't until my legs were a little numb that I realized we had been sitting for a long, long time.

Watching an Audi A6 pass by, Xiao Ke suddenly became interested and asked me, "Brother, what do you think I should think of the success you asked about at my age?" ”

"I haven't succeeded yet, I'll share it with you when I do!"

Xiao Ke nodded slightly, then let out a long sigh lightly, and the white mist exhaled from his mouth slowly dissipated.

I smiled and said, "Don't let tomorrow's things affect today's life, it's like a person who has no talent and no appearance, and is so ordinary that he is not noticed, thinks that this is the tragedy of life; receiving a meager salary, hating his inability; Desperately persevered, but couldn't find the direction, lost the ideal, and felt that there was no future ahead; The character is lazy and procrastinating, incapable and unmotivated, and feels that he deserves to live a miserable life. Thinking that the ending is the same anyway, I feel worthless and worthless, no future, no partner, no feeling of being alive, and no meaning of life. In fact, the reason for this is not learning to appreciate yourself. ”

"Actually, I also thought that I couldn't do it, but I was very curious, since I was so bad, and I have always been so bad, what made you persist in living until now, and still live well. Is it really because you are too bad, so you deny yourself? Apparently not. We can always find that there are people who are better than us, and that is not for us to deny ourselves. ”

I gave Xiao Ke a thumbs up, and silently praised this child in my heart, and he could understand it in his early twenties.

As I was in my trance, Xiao Ke sneezed again, and then smiled at me awkwardly.

"I'm patronizing myself to sit here, and I'll let you accompany me, my residence is not far in front, go sit down!"

Maybe it was because I sat for too long, Xiao Ke got up and stumbled twice, and then still smiled at me like a child, and praised: "Brother, you are so good, you sit for so long as if you are nothing." ”

……

Fortunately, the road is not too far, and it takes five minutes to walk to the accommodation after entering the alley, I boiled some hot water for Xiao Ke to wash, lay on the bed to warm up for a while, and I was busy cooking some noodles.

When I finished cooking the noodles and brought them into the room, Xiao Ke also peeled some garlic.

I took out a bottle of 53° Feitian Moutai that Lu Rui gave me before, and said with a smile: "Northeast gentlemen can eat garlic and green onions, and they should also be able to drink bars?" You'll have to drive later, so how about taking a sip? ”

"Brother, you are too particular, this small glass of wine is enough for my salary for a day!"

"Come on, I'm reluctant to open if you don't come! Can you let my brother pretend to be extravagant because of you tonight? ”

Xiao Ke no longer shirked, so the two of them ate garlic, ate noodles, and drank a little.

"Brother, are you living here because of the nursery rhyme sister?" Xiao Ke, who was eating noodles with his head down, suddenly asked.

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