Chapter 130: Deep in the soul is loneliness
Leaving a pint of heavenly fragrance, I took a heavy breath, like a prison bird released from a cage, at this moment I was extremely eager to break through all barriers and fly high, to give myself a freedom, but the wings have suppressed too much past and last resort, their existence made me lose the ability to fly.
I really want to send a message to the nursery rhyme, know everything about her, but I don't know where to start, bored, playing a game of traffic lights with myself. Red light, turn. Green light, go straight. Just follow the rules, walk aimlessly, and see where the city ends up cornering itself...... Despite my repeated trust in my instincts and luck, there were a few times when I was cornered and had to return to ...... I felt like the wall in front of me was testing the limits of the soul's grief. There were a few times when I almost suffocated, but I was forced to continue to support it......
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I tossed and turned until dark before returning to my accommodation, and I had planned to go home to see it, but I was afraid that my parents would see me and continue to worry.
Slumped on the chair and rested for a while, even if it was a person, he had to learn to survive after all, using his free time to wash up, simply boiling water and cooking a bowl of instant noodles, eating alone, but always thinking that the nursery rhyme was still sitting opposite.
I looked up from time to time, but I couldn't find anything.
After taking a shower, I lay on the bed and smoked a smoky cigarette, one after another, but the fireworks couldn't burn the loneliness in the air! I think that everyone is lonely and lonely in the depths of their souls, so we try to find warmth in the crowd. In the end, we will be left with only ourselves, whether crying or laughing, sad or happy, game after game.
Ling Xi, who has been chasing for eight years, is more tired and innocent and distressed.
The smoke from the room wrapped the small space so tightly that I felt a little suffocated for a moment, and I couldn't break out of the cage I had set up...... We both want to have it in love, so we get each other's breath and loneliness...... Curled up, quietly listening to his heartbeat and breathing, and saw the absurd love, the desolate self in this endless dark night......
Clicking on the phone, Eason Chan's deep singing voice "Where to Start" came out of the phone, which was my favorite voice, old and hoarse.
Quiet nights, simple love songs, and the beating lights of the mobile phone screen, in a soothing tone, gradually appear. I got up and poured myself a steaming cup of tea, which surrounded me with warm emotions and broke the coolness of a person's night.
I leaned back on the bed, repeating the little things of smoking and distraction......
With the passage of time, many things will gradually fade their original color. Happy, sad, unforgettable, or painful. I gradually understood Ling Xi's choice in peace! Life is a process of trade-offs. Those broken memories, those bright fragments, no matter how gorgeous and dazzling, are just short-lived.
If you don't love, you separate, that's all!
But understanding some things does not necessarily mean that you can let go, and after listening to so many truths, I still feel that I am still not having a good time. I admit that I may still not have given up on Ling Xi, and I still feel a little guilty. If it weren't for my reckless behavior, she might be alive and well now, I hate myself for being a lover saint, and I want to soothe anyone's emotional wounds, but it seems that I feel that I am a mess wrong, but why can't I turn back?
……
After smoking the few remaining cigarettes in the cigarette box, I hesitated, but I still took out my mobile phone and sent a message to the nursery rhyme, because I believe that sincerity can be exchanged for sincerity.
My fingers groped on the keyboard on the screen, but I still didn't know where to start, and finally I just wrote down a line of feelings: "The little sand and gravel gather into a tower, and our hearts, are they also like these little sand and gravel, only by constantly tightening ourselves through the narrow gaps and wading through the long river of years, can we get refuge and no longer be lonely?" ”
After sending the message, there was another inexplicable nervous waiting, I was afraid that the nursery rhyme might cry every time and still yell that she was fine, afraid that she would just say something innocuous and insignificant.
In my hesitation, the nursery rhyme replied and finally replied with a message, I seemed to be like the college entrance examination when checking the results, with inexplicable excitement and extremely nervous and depressed to open the message, the nursery rhyme only replied with one sentence: "Rest early, don't be late for work, remember to eat breakfast!" ”
When I saw the nursery rhyme, I felt inexplicably uncomfortable in my heart, many people care about whether you fly high or not, and some people only care about whether you are doing well or not......
……
The next morning, I woke up naturally, and suddenly remembered that I slept too late last night, so I put my phone on silent mode.
Hurriedly picked up the mobile phone and saw that there were more than 40 missed calls, of which Lu Rui's accounted for more than 20. It's been more than an hour late, I can't wait to take off my head, and hand it to Lu Rui step by step, I don't care about dressing and washing my face, and I am busy calling him back.
"I'm sorry, I slept a little ...... today"
"Less nonsense, I'll take the time to repair you well, today's completion ceremony of a product of Tianxiang you, the chief designer, didn't come, and the work style of urban IKEA has not been lost by you? I don't care if you fly in the sky or run on the ground, you must be there for me in forty minutes, or you can do it yourself! ”
From Lu Rui's tone, I felt a rare anger, looking at the time, that is to say, I must rush to a pin of Tianxiang at ten o'clock.
It took me a minute to choose clothes, and finally I didn't think twice about wearing the Ralph Lauren that the nursery rhyme bought for me some time ago, and with this fantastical, romantic, innovative and classic suit, it will not give urban IKEA a grade.
Usually about 30 minutes to get to a product of Tianxiang, as long as there is no traffic jam today, there should be no big problem.
I quickly sent a message to Tong Yao and borrowed her electric car.
Before she could reply to the message, I had already taken the car out of the carport.
As soon as I pushed the car out of the carport, the nursery rhyme replied to me with two words: "Don't borrow!" ”
I quickly replied: "I can't help you, I'm already halfway there, I can't go back, what's the love!" ”
As soon as I rode an electric car out of the alley, a red Audi S6 stopped on the side of the road, and I couldn't believe it in my heart, silently thinking, don't be ...... Before my brain could connect to my mind, nursery rhymes got out of the car and looked at me.
“…… Uh, what are you? Seeing the nursery rhyme, I hurriedly stopped the car and asked.
"Aren't you halfway there?"
I almost fell out of the car with the excitement of the nursery rhyme, and asked with a slight embarrassment, "How long have you been waiting here?" ”
The nursery rhyme didn't answer my question, just got in the car and rolled the window and said, "It's too late, the car is locked on the side of the road, get in the car!" ”
……
I didn't dare to read nursery rhymes along the way, so I tilted my head out the window and closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep. Why do I always encounter nursery rhymes on this embarrassing occasion, and I wonder if nursery rhymes are my rivals in my previous life?
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