Chapter 23: Recovering the Lost Me
I enjoyed the temperature of the sun, squinted and smiled at the children who were playing games, and then leaned over to the chess master to watch for a while, and no one rejected me as a stranger. In Guangzhou, where the economy is growing rapidly, it is rare to have this paradise again, and the eye-catching red word 'demolition' is painted on the outer wall of the gate. Perhaps, this place will be demolished soon.
When I looked up, I found that a few aunt-level figures not far away were smiling at me, so I can't be cold-faced, right? couldn't help but pull the corners of his mouth again, and after smiling in an embarrassed response, he quickly pretended to divert his gaze.
When I walked back into the house, the nursery rhyme was already lying on the bed.
I quietly looked at the nursery rhyme that slept with my back to me, such a simple person to the extreme, just because we simply confided with me, just like this, if I were an out-and-out hooligan, would she be in prison?
I hate my compassion for others, after all, I'm not an all-round mage, and I can't do everything well.
I tried the nursery rhyme laundry for me in the morning and it was basically dry. After finding the bathroom, I changed my clothes, then folded the nursery rhyme clothes and put them on the cabinet, ready to leave.
At this time, the nursery rhyme did not turn around and said: "Bring the fresh-keeping bag behind the door, the mobile phone is inside, and bring the door to me when you go out." ”
I saw the nursery rhyme's plastic bag on the plastic stool in the corner and picked it up. However, when I lifted the rice bag, I found that under the rice bag was a pinyin literacy picture book for primary school students. I couldn't figure out what was going on after touching my head for a long time, I couldn't believe that nursery rhymes were such a fashion-forward woman, but she didn't graduate from elementary school.
After taking the rice bag, I said "um" and said, "Goodbye!" ”
The nursery rhyme didn't speak, I looked at her lying down, and wanted to say something, but after all, I didn't say anything, and gently closed the door.
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When I got home, I stopped by my so-called company to have a look, and there were very few people around, and after this limelight, I still wanted to try again.
I got on the bus home, holding a small bag of rice in my hand, and my expression was as solemn as holding a jade seal of the country.
In silence, I only know that yesterday was as long as a light year, and I can't remember how I got here!
I looked at the street scene rushing by outside, my eyes shuttled through the bustling crowd, but my heart had nowhere to linger, just like the cool breeze of this summer, and in the erratic, it was more of a sadness that I could not choose a direction.
Even I began to wonder why Ling Xi was just suddenly angry with me, but my reaction was like falling out of love, was it a big fuss, or was I too sensitive and afraid of losing? If, as she said, she was tired of me, why was she so nice to me when we first met? Is this the only way to take revenge?
I beat myself a few times in disgust, I actually thought of the word revenge, it was so undeserved.
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The car stopped steadily on the platform, I looked out the window boredly, and suddenly saw Su Chen and a woman waiting for the train.
I leaned on the car window and yelled, "Su Chen? Su Chen, stop for me. Master, open the door! ”
As soon as Su Chen saw me shouting and shouting to kill, he ran away.
I jumped out of the car as fast as I could, and shouted while chasing: "You stop me, I don't believe you can run for a lifetime, I met you today, where else can you run!" ”
Su Chen didn't listen to me yelling behind me, and dragged the woman forward one by one.
But I saw that his girlfriend's pace was getting slower and slower, and finally he just shook off his hand and stopped, and said, "If you want to run, what are you running on a hot day, hell?" ”
Su Chen saw that the woman stopped, and also stopped, looked at me, and then at his girlfriend, "Hi", and simply sat there, probably tired like a dog.
calmed down his heart that was beating wildly because of anger, and suddenly he was glad to have eaten a pot of porridge in the morning, otherwise he would have really let Su Chen, this kid, run away today.
"I said you kid is running? Yes! Fighting with me, the heart and eyes are like a sieve, I said you are running? My face was not red, my heart was not beating, I held my waist with one hand, and pointed at Su Chen with a rice bag in the other hand and scolded.
Su Chen swallowed hard, made a gesture of please, glanced at me, and motioned for his girlfriend to be on the side!
"What's wrong with your eyes? Have you had a stroke, or are you hemiplegic with crooked mouth and eyes? What do you mean by squeezing your eyebrows at me? ”
"Kaizi, no, Brother Kai, I was so wrong! I did such a thing, I shouldn't have gone to the bar, and I cheated you out of drinking money! I just drank a few more drinks, and I will definitely pay it back if I borrowed your money. After Su Chen finished speaking, he gave me another look.
I pretended not to see, "Yo, what are you talking about?" Why don't I understand, which bar are we going to? ”
Seeing my yin and yang weird and lukewarm speech, Su Chen's girlfriend on the side looked at Su Chen with a puzzled face, and asked me again: "Handsome guy, you have something to say, don't beat around the bush, did Su Chen do anything bad?" ”
I ignored Su Chen's girlfriend's question, and just smiled at Su Chen and said, "It's good to know what you are." Then he turned around and walked away.
To be honest, the matter has passed, and I naturally won't complain about anything, but I think Su Chen's next two days will not be so easy. Because I already smell gunpowder......
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It was nearly eleven o'clock when I got home, I looked at the breakfast still on the table, and left a post-it note with my mother that said "Come back and finish breakfast, and then have a good rest", and I was sure that the nursery rhyme really sent the message to my parents' mobile phones.
I wanted to pick up my phone and send a message back to my mother, but then I remembered that the phone was still drying in the rice bag, and it would take three days to turn it on, and it would depend on God's will.
In fact, if you don't have a mobile phone, you can at least have a high-sounding reason not to answer the phone, which is worry-free.
Seeing that the review materials on the table were piled up the same as before the college entrance examination, there was an inexplicable depression, and this depression did not come from books, but from Ling Xi.
I really don't dare to confirm now what the reason for me to stick to the civil service exam is. I'm sure I can do things for her that I don't love because I'm sure I love her, but I'm not sure if she loves me too.
I felt like I was being pulled like a spring, but after a long time, I couldn't go back to the past, and when I was covered with scars, I found that it was a fact that she didn't love me, and unrequited love was not real love, at least not pure love.
I pushed the book aside and started to play my favorite games, and it wasn't about giving up, I just wanted to slowly get back to the lost me......
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The whirring sound of the cold wind in the air conditioner accompanied by the annoying chirping of cicadas, my heart could not be calmed. Liu Shaozhe and Li Wen are looking for jobs one after another, and I feel that it is necessary to leave a way back for myself, at least I can't sit back and wait until the exam in November, after all, there are still three months to go.
I re-retrieved my resume from Word, found several decoration design companies on the Internet that connected with my major, submitted my resume, and attached the trends and design concepts I had recently sensed at the end.
After doing all this, I closed all the windows and stared at the live wallpaper fish on the screen in a daze.
Time is getting harder and harder to pass, and I'm glad I have the idea, at least for the rest of my days to look forward to, and not to be a mess every day.
After eating breakfast on the table, it was considered a lunch.
I don't know what evil my head has committed, but it suddenly occurred to me that the nursery rhyme might still be sleeping, so she is almost the same as me every day, only eating two meals a day, and I don't go to work, and she works the night shift......
"It's the first time I've found porridge so delicious!" I sighed from the bottom of my heart, and for so many years, I haven't actually cooked a meal for my parents, and I decided to cook a dinner for my parents before I start working, just today.
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