After that incident, I was depressed for a while. When I was only 10 years old, I began to endure the depression and humiliation in my heart.

Because I know in my heart, if it weren't for the fact that I was too selfish, if not because I was too willful, too vain.

My sister Lin Ran will not steal money for me, let alone be kicked out of the house by her parents.

Everything was my fault, it was I who was too young and ignorant to hurt her, she left home like this as a girl, I can't imagine how she will survive in the future.

With the pain that I could never forgive myself, I began to fall completely.

I started to become non-communicative, not talking to people.

I have no intention of studying, nor of living, nor of making friends.

Because no matter who it is, it can't replace my sister Lin Ran's place in my heart.

There are some things that you can only cherish after you lose them.

Later, I would rather abandon all vanity and be isolated by everyone.

I just want her to come back, I just want my sister to stay with me.

Unfortunately, the past can never be changed.

I can only continue to live with the last trace of thought and guilt in my heart.

Because I have always had a strong feeling in my heart that I believe that my sister has not left me, and I will definitely see her again.

It is this kind of thought that has supported me to live in solitude until I graduated from elementary school, and I didn't have a friend for three years in junior high school, and for everyone, I was just like air.

As for when I will see my sister again, I have to start with my freshman year in high school.

Anyway, because I didn't like to communicate with people, I became obsessed with online games when I was in my second year of junior high school.

I often skip class and go out to use the living expenses given to me by my parents to play games in Internet cafes, but even so, I have always been alone to go online, and no one has ever accompanied me.

Perhaps a withdrawn person like me can only find a sense of existence online.

In this way, at the beginning of the first year of high school, I had just come out of the Internet café again, but I met two gangsters in our class, one of whom was named Liu Bo, who was the class bully of our class.

"Oh, Lin Hao, I'm going to surf the Internet again......"

Liu Bo looked at me with a smile, I usually didn't have any contact with these gangsters, and I didn't want to pay attention to them, so I was silent and ready to leave without them.

Who knew that I had just walked a few steps, Liu Bo suddenly grabbed my arm, and scolded in his mouth, "**, what are you running, I was scared like this when I saw Lao Tzu, cowardly." ”

I was also a little angry at this time, and I turned around and yelled, "What are you doing?" ”

"Don't do anything!"

Liu Bo shook his head and said with a strange smile, "Brothers, I just don't have any money to go online today, and the money is not enough, so brother give us some funding." ”

"I don't have any money!"

I shook my head vigorously, in fact, I only have a few dozen dollars left in my pocket now.

Since I was in junior high school, I have been living on campus, and my family has given me a lot of living expenses, but my grades have been poor.

"If you don't have money, you can still surf the Internet, so let's get a few."

Liu Bo slapped me violently, kicked me in my pants again, and said, "Let Lao Tzu search to see if you kid is lying." ”

Liu Bo has always been the class bully in our class, and he knows a lot of gangsters in other classes, and for him, it is a matter of every minute to clean me up.

"I didn't."

I desperately pressed my trouser pocket, trying to break free of Liu Bo and leave, but I couldn't compare to him in terms of strength.

Then the thug next to Liu Bo also came up to help, and the two of them pulled my hair and tripped me to the ground with all their strength.

"...... And said that there is no money, what is this? When Lao Tzu writes? ”

Liu Bo was holding dozens of dollars from my trouser pocket, and another thug next to me was stepping on my wrist at this time, preventing me from getting up.

At this time, there were a lot of people around the Internet café, and most of them were students from our school.

Soon after, there was a large circle of boys and girls around me, laughing and laughing at me, and I felt that the eyes of each of them seemed to be full of disdain.

I feel very ashamed, although I have been used to being alone all these years, but the feeling of being ridiculed is still very uncomfortable.

I tried to get up as hard as I could, but the thug next to me kept stepping on my wrists, and I couldn't do it.

Seeing the excitement around him, Liu Bo felt even more beautiful, he directly stuffed the dozens of dollars into his pocket, pointed at me, and shouted at the gangster next to him, "Go on, call me, dare to lie to Lao Tzu, damn it......"

The thug next to me answered, and bent down to punch and kick me.

I was lying on the ground at this time and couldn't fight back, and even if I had a way to fight back, I wouldn't dare, because Liu Bo was the class bully of my class, and if I really went against him, I would definitely not be able to stay in the class in the future.

The thug kept stomping my face and arm, and I just felt the pain all over my body.

"You don't accept it......"

Liu Bo also came over to make up a few kicks on me, grabbed my hair and asked.

At this time, my face and body were covered with shoe prints, and I was lying on the ground like a beggar, looking at the gloating faces of the boys and girls around me.

I felt very humiliated, and it was the first time I was bullied since I was a child.

Because since my sister Lin Ran left, I basically didn't talk whether I was in the class or in the dormitory.

My classmates around me treated me as air and would not provoke me, and this was the first time I tasted the feeling of being ridiculed and bullied by the people around me.

This feeling, was it the same way my sister was back then...... I instantly remembered the scene when my sister was beaten by my father in the village at that time.

My sister was obviously stealing money for me, but I stood aside and didn't dare to move.

My sister should have been in the same mood as I am now, and I really wanted someone to help me, but I stood aside and remained indifferent because I was afraid.

At that time, my sister must have been very disappointed and desperate.

Just like now, looking at the gloating boys and girls around me, but no one came up to help her, and even I didn't want to help her speak.

This...... Isn't that where I'm at school right now?

When I was a child, I was innocent and didn't know these things, so I always relied on my sister.

My sister also thought in her heart that only I was willing to be good to her, so she gave me all her love.

However, just because I was afraid of my father, I made my sister's love for me for many years completely cold, made her bear the infamy, made her abandoned, couldn't even read, and left home alone.

If I hadn't been so cowardly, less afraid, less weak.

Lin Ran won't be infamous now, Lin Ran won't leave me, she will still stay by my side, and I won't fall until now.

Thinking of this, I only felt the blood churning in my body, like a beast roaring.

I'm not reconciled, I'm not reconciled to go on like this.

I must not continue to be cowardly, continue to be weak, I have to be brave, I can't let my sister down anymore.

I shouted in my heart, and Liu Bo was still pulling my hair, stepping on my face, and kept asking me, "Are you convinced?" You are not convinced. ”

"I don't accept ......"

I let out a heart-rending yell, which used all my strength, and the boys and girls around me who were talking and laughing also fell silent, looking at me with a stunned expression.

"**, you are looking for ...... death"

After Liu Bo reacted, he immediately cursed, and his fist kept smashing into my face like a torrential rain.

My consciousness of pain was a little blurred, and faintly, I remembered Lin Ran's desperate eyes back then.

Has my sister started to hate me?

Although so many years have passed, the feeling that Lin Ran's desperate eyes gave me at that time is still so profound.

I clenched my right fist violently, and Liu Bo in front of me was still hitting my face, and I felt my nosebleeds coming out.

I roared desperately, reached out directly and grabbed Liu Bo's fist, leaned back, and bit Liu Bo's finger fiercely.

"Ah......h

This bite, I bit desperately, with all my might.

I saw that Liu Bo's fingers had two more clear tooth marks, which had turned red at this time, and blood kept dripping out, as if he had been stabbed by a knife.

And myself, in my teeth, in my nose, there was blood all over me.

At this time, I saw that the eyes of the boys and girls around me had gradually turned from schadenfreude to fear.

"Haha......"

At this moment, I suddenly have a sense of heroism that the world laughs at me for being too crazy, and I laugh at others who can't see through it.

I stood up tremblingly, and the gangster next to Liu Bo was also shocked at this time, and hurriedly ran to Liu Bo's side, took out toilet paper, and gave Liu Bo blood.

"Don't worry about Lao Tzu, you go up and beat him for me, kill him......"

Liu Bo yelled at the thugs next to him, pointing his finger at me, he also looked like crazy, it seemed that he had never been bullied like this.

The thug next to him hesitated for a moment, and seemed to be a little scared, but he still walked over with a hard head.

By this time my nosebleed had reached my mouth, and although I knew that I had no strength left, I didn't feel scared.

Because I know that the pain of the body is far less than the trauma of the soul.

If there is another chance, I would rather be beaten to the hospital by my dad, and I will never let my sister leave me again, absolutely not, my sister is the eternal love in my heart.

Just when I was ready to be beaten, a nice voice suddenly came from beside me, "Stop, none of you should touch him......"