When I was a child, I had a sister who played with me until I grew up, named Lin Ran, my sister was three years older than me, because my parents were usually busy with work, my sister Lin Ran was often responsible for taking care of me at home.

In my impression, my sister is very beautiful, with long hair, a sweet and lovely face, and two beautiful legs that are fair and slender.

She smells so good that when I was a kid I loved to sleep in her arms.

My sister was sensible early, my family lived in the countryside at that time, and I was often afraid of the dark at night, always crying and making noise, and I couldn't sleep at home.

My parents annoyed me and scolded me, but only my sister would hold me and coax me patiently.

She sings to me, and although I didn't understand it at the time, I feel comfortable when I see my sister's warm smile.

Over time, I became more and more dependent on my sister Lin Ran.

Throughout my childhood, I had a vague impression of my parents, and all I had in my mind was my sister's smile and smile.

Sometimes I have a nightmare in the middle of the night and suddenly wake up and can't see my sister, I will cry, my sister Lin Ran goes to school, and I will stick to my sister like a fart.

At night, I often let my sister sleep with me in her arms, smell the charming fragrance on her body, and hold her softly, I always feel very comfortable.

I have always thought that my sister loves me the most, she has always been very good to me, that feeling has never changed, I feel that she gives me a kind of love that is difficult to give up, like maternal love, but also better than maternal love.

It's a pity that this relationship only accompanied me through my childhood...... When I was in elementary school, as I grew older, my classmates began to compare myself, wear nice clothes, and buy fun toys.

Because I was dressed very shabby and I didn't have any fun toys, my classmates laughed at me.

At that time, I was ignorant, so I went home and clamoured to buy new clothes and toys, my family was already poor, and my parents scolded me fiercely when they heard it.

After that, I cried and went to ask my sister for it, but whenever this happened, my sister would always show an embarrassed expression, and then whispered to comfort me and said, "Don't worry, brother, when my sister makes money, I will buy you beautiful new clothes and a lot of toys." ”

Even when my sister said this, I was still not satisfied, and I thought that my sister didn't like me anymore, because in the past, my sister agreed to me no matter what I asked.

So I got angry with my sister and deliberately ignored her.

She tried to talk to me, and I walked away coldly.

Gradually, my sister felt my dissatisfaction with her, and she was very aggrieved.

Finally, when my sister was trying to teach me to do my homework, I ignored her.

My sister was silent for a while, then grabbed my hand from her side and said, "Don't worry, brother, even if our family is poor, my sister will definitely let you be like other people's children, you can have a lot of toys and wear beautiful new clothes." ”

After that, my sister really bought me new clothes and bought me some toys.

I was so happy that I didn't think about where my sister got the money to buy me these things.

At that time, I was young, so naturally I didn't think much about it.

I also have face when I go to school, no one laughs at me anymore, and I sometimes brag to my classmates that my family is actually very rich.

And whenever my sister sees me holding her new toy with a satisfied expression, she always has a happy smile on her face.

It's a pity that this kind of day didn't last long, once after school, my sister didn't come to pick me up, I came home a little lost, and saw a lot of people around my yard, all from the village, I don't know what they were talking about.

I hurriedly squeezed into the crowd and saw my sister lying on the ground crying, and my dad was holding a wooden stick and pumping it at my sister, scolding, "You thief, you have lost all the people in the family." ”

The people in the village also pointed at my sister and scolded, but my mother was busy talking to the villagers and didn't know what to explain.

I was in the third grade, and I didn't know what was going on.

Anyway, I was very distressed to see my sister like that, so I hurriedly ran over and pushed my dad and shouted at my dad, "Don't hit my sister." ”

When my sister saw me, she cried even more sadly, and I clasped my sister's hands tightly.

At this time, my dad slapped me hard and said, "You still call her sister, she is not your sister at all, she is a, a thief, and she has lost all the face of my family." ”

I was slapped by my dad, and my head was a little confused, and I didn't understand what my dad meant.

At this moment, my mother suddenly came and grabbed my clothes and asked me, "Where did you get these clothes, I have never bought you such expensive clothes, tell me, where did you come from?" ”

I was a little scared and said, "I picked it up." ”

Naturally, my mother didn't believe it and asked me aloud, "Where did it come from, did it come from stolen money?" Say it. ”

My dad was trembling with anger at this time, and he came over and slapped me with two wooden sticks and said, "Okay, this morning the villagers just caught this stealing other people's money, and it turns out that you are also involved." ”

Saying that my dad was going to beat me again, my sister hurriedly rushed over to block me, crying and saying, "Dad, I stole all the money, and it's none of my brother's business." ”

My dad kicked my sister away and said, "Don't talk, you shameful, you have brought my son badly." ”

My dad's expression was terrible at this time, I had never seen my dad like this.

I was really scared stupid, I was so scared, my dad came up to me and yelled, "How could you do such a thing, she deliberately taught you to be right, otherwise I would have beaten you together!" ”

I was still young at the time, and tears of pain were pouring out of my eyes.

My mother was a little soft-hearted, and hurriedly came over to persuade me, "Son, tell your dad quickly, she deliberately taught you badly, right, in the future, we won't recognize her as a sister, be a good boy, you can say it quickly." ”

At that time, I had already vaguely understood that my sister had stolen money to buy me new clothes and toys.

But I'm afraid of pain, I don't dare to tell the truth, I don't dare to intercede for Lin Ran.

Looking at my father's fierce appearance, I was very scared with my head in my hands, and I couldn't say a word.

Seeing that I was silent, my dad picked up the wooden stick and yelled, "Say it quickly, is she deliberately teaching you badly, if you don't say it, Lao Tzu can't beat you to death." ”

I had nowhere to hide, and fear finally gave me in, and I said in a trembling voice, "Yes...... It's she who teaches me badly, I ...... I don't recognize her as a sister......"

I saw that my sister was stunned all of a sudden, she stopped crying, and her tears flowed silently.

My dad immediately whipped her again with a wooden stick, scolding, "You, let you teach my son ...... again"

I was forcibly pushed into the house by my mother and wouldn't let me talk to my sister anymore.

Listening to my dad's angry roar outside, I couldn't help but glance back when I got to the door.

At that moment, my sister also happened to look at me, and her eyes were so desperate...... I suddenly felt very uncomfortable, but seeing my father's fierce appearance, I still didn't dare to move half a step, and still stood in place.

I struggled inside, my heart ached, I felt bad.

I ran back to the house and covered myself with the quilt, I didn't dare to face all this, I wanted to escape, but the tears still flowed down my face.

After a few hours, there was no sound outside, and my sister seemed to be sent out of the house under the scolding of the villagers, and it was not until the evening that my father came home.

said that Lin Ran had run away from home, and asked me not to mention her again in the future.

I was afraid that my dad would get angry again, so I didn't dare to ask my sister about it again.

I thought my sister was just angry with the family and should be back in a few days.

So with the last glimmer of hope, I looked forward to Lin Ran going home.

But after a month, there was no news from my sister, and she really seemed to have disappeared from my life.

I don't know where my sister went, I just know that I regret it, I feel guilty, I regret that I was too timid, I regret that I was too cowardly.

In order to satisfy my so-called vanity, my sister did not hesitate to steal money, bear infamy, and was beaten by my father.

But because I was afraid, I didn't dare to say anything for her, didn't dare to intercede for her, and let her suffer silently alone.

even said something that made her feel painful.

My sister just left, and the last of her desperate eyes were deeply imprinted in my mind, and I lost her with the beauty and pain of that youthful time, and the guilt that I could never forgive myself.

That year, I was ten years old, and my sister Lin Ran was thirteen years old