Chapter 20 I love you very much

"Let's chirp, let's chirp", Yang Guo walked home with a watermark step by step.

Closing the door, his eyes were hollow, and he slid limply against the door, the rain on his clothes making a mark on the door.

He had already guessed that Lu Yunran would be very angry, but Yang Guo didn't expect her to be so strong.

Yang Guo remembers a sentence he had seen on the Internet before: "A man's biggest failure is to let his woman learn to be strong." "Yang Guo once swore an alliance with Lu Yunran, vowing never to let her face the lightning and thunder alone, and now, Lu Yunran rushed into the thunderstorm without looking back, unwilling to stay by his side for a second longer, is this his biggest failure?

Taking out the phone from the trouser pocket, the screen can still be lit, it seems that Apple's waterproofness is still okay. Yang Guo pressed the familiar eleven numbers, and the operator's ringtone came from the microphone.

"Listen to the phone......" Yang Guo thought silently in his heart.

"Drip ...... Sorry, the call you made is temporarily unreachable...... "Pressed off?"

Dial again.

"Sorry, your call is temporarily unreachable......"

Dial again.

"The phone you dialed is turned off...."

Shut down! Yang Guoran listened to the phone repeating the message that Lu Yunran's mobile phone had been turned off in Chinese and English, and his hand gradually hung down.

What's going on? Yang Guo's head was like a mess, and he had never been chaotic before. He sat with his head in his hands, between his knees, and just like that. The water dripping from the hair, clothes, and body gradually gathered into a small puddle.

I don't know how long it took, but a cry came to Yang Guo's ears. Yang Guo was already reluctant at this time, but Qiqi's cry made his three souls and seven spirits gather back together.

After being dazed for a while, Yang Guo stood up. Maybe it was because he had bent his legs for too long, and when he stood up, he felt his lower body go numb. Stumbled into the bedroom, and was about to pick up the crying Qiqi, Yang Guo realized that he was wet all over. He hurriedly ran to the toilet, ripped off the strap and clothes that had been soaked in the rain, took a clean towel to dry his body, changed into dry clothes, and returned to the bedroom.

At this time, Qiqi had been crying for several minutes, and Yang Guo was ashamed in his heart, so he picked up Qiqi and coaxed her. Returning to his father's arms, feeling his father's familiar heartbeat, Qiqi's crying gradually stopped, Yang Guo kissed the tears on Qiqi's tender face that had not yet dried, and said with some distress: "Qiqi, do you think Dad is a bastard?" I made both girls cry today. ”

Qiqi moved, Yang Guo felt that something was wrong, and a stream of heat seemed to wade on him.

"Oops!" Yang Guo remembered that when he came back from the hospital, he hadn't had time to change Kiki's new diaper! The previous diaper suddenly pooped when Qiqi was in the hospital, and then asked Yang Guo to clean it up and throw it in the trash, and he wanted to come back to the house and change it for Qiqi, but he forgot about what happened just now!

Yang Guo couldn't cry or laugh, his left index finger gently hooked Qiqi's little nose, and said to her: "Qiqi, Dad took every precaution, and finally let you pee on Dad!" ”

Since learning to take care of Lai Qiqi from the nurses in the hospital, Yang Guo has been paying attention to changing her diaper, but she still got hit. However, it is said that a father who does not let his baby pee is not a qualified father, and Yang Guo has now completed a milestone task of becoming a qualified father!

It's just that the new clothes that I just put on were suffered, and after Kiki solved her personal problems, the whole person became very happy, and she was held in her father's arms, dancing with her hands, and her teethless mouth was grinning.

"No teeth! Kiki is ugly! After Yang Guo finished the identification, he hooked her little nose again, which made Qiqi wrinkle her nose, and she also raised her hand, but she couldn't reach her father's chin.

Being made such a fuss by Qiqi, Yang Guo's mood eased a little. He changed his clothes and prepared hot water for Kiki to bathe.

Although his spirit was a little bad, for the sake of Qiqi, Yang Guo still worked hard and carefully did every detail, but there was no situation like accidentally making the hot water too hot.

After serving Qiqi to take a bath, drink milk, and sleep, Yang Guo also cleaned up for himself.

After washing clothes and coming out of the toilet, Yang Guo glanced at the sky outside, the rain had stopped, but the sky had also darkened, and night had fallen in the city.

Flipping through the phone, Yang Guo dialed Lu Yunran's phone again, but it was still turned off, and Yang Guo's heart hurt again. He wrote a text message, revised it back and forth many times, and finally only two short lines remained: "Have you returned to the Buddha City?" Drink some ginger soup and don't catch a cold. I'm sorry. ”

Dropping the phone, Yang Guo took a deep breath and didn't let the tears flow. It is said that "a manly man, bleeding does not shed tears", these days Yang Guo has shed more tears for Qiqi and his girlfriend than he has since he was in junior high school combined.

Isn't there another old saying that doesn't go like that, though? "The boy doesn't flick when he has tears, but he hasn't reached the sad place." Yang Guo's tears flooded, just because he was really scared, worried that his girlfriend who had been dating for four years would leave, this relationship was too precious and heavy for him!

At this time, Yang Guo heard the roar from his abdomen, and suddenly realized that he hadn't eaten for a day!

But at this time, he was not in the mood to cook, so he just cooked a small pot of noodles with green vegetables and ate it simply with soy sauce. In a bad mood, whatever he ate felt like chewing wax, Yang Guo forced himself to swallow it, and he was hungry.

After eating and washing the dishes, Yang Guo picked up the phone again, glanced at it, and was disappointed to see that there was no message reply, he called again, and it was still a cold shutdown sound.

Yang Guo, who was in a depressed mood, picked up the book, but found that his mind was full of Lu Yunran's tearful eyes and a resolute look today, and he couldn't read a word.

Closing his eyes, it was Lu Yunran who rushed into the rain curtain again, and the back that gradually disappeared, all of this was so lifelike between opening and closing his eyes, Yang Guo had nowhere to escape, and nowhere to vent, so he could only call her over and over again, and then put down in disappointment over and over again.

Yang Guo sat for an hour, and his mobile phone also played for an hour, and finally, the mobile phone was out of battery, and the screen was completely black.

"Alas......" Yang Guo let out a long sigh and got up and plugged in the charger.

Since he was upset and irritable, it was better to practice boxing, Yang Guo took a deep breath, stood still in the open space of the living room, and meditated on his mind.

"Tai Chi is born without limit, the opportunity of movement and stillness, and the mother of yin and yang. If it moves, it is divided, and if it is still, it is ......"

There is a yin and yang fish talisman floating in my heart, one yin and one yang, yang fish eye yin, yin fish eye yang, slowly circulating, endlessly. Yang Guo's mood also seemed to be absorbed or smoothed out a lot by the Yin Yang Fish Talisman.

The mind is silently reciting the mind, and the energy runs in the meridians with the guidance of the mind.

"Wow!" Under Yang Guo's mind, his right hand slowly went from bottom to top, his strength was round, he did not spit out, his palm seemed to change, and he could twist it into a fist at any time, or a finger, or other moves, when he hit it, his shoulders sank, his arms were like arcs, his legs were bowed, his waist was loose, and his movements were slow but implied strength.

Under the mental concentration, Yang Guo was temporarily immersed in fists and feet.

The speed of his boxing practice this time was not as slow as in the early morning, and although there were some beads of sweat on his forehead, he was generally not steaming and drenched on the top of his head.

Maybe he didn't have a good rest all day, and after Yang Guo finished the thirteenth style, he also felt weak and tired enough.

He wiped the sweat from his forehead, picked up his mobile phone, and the beautiful woman on the other end of the phone was still like a yellow crane. Yang Guo's expression was gloomy, maybe if there wasn't Qiqi who needed him to take care of, he would have already gone to the bar outside to get drunk! Even though alcohol can't extinguish the depressed emotions in the heart, it can make people lose consciousness when they are in the most painful time, and it is also excellent that they don't need to be trapped by love anymore under the chaos!

Yang Guo didn't know what he could say to Lu Yunran after he got through the phone. There's no way he's going to say anything like giving up Kiki and we're back to the way we were. But apart from saying this, what else can make Lu Yunran forgive himself? Yang Guo really couldn't think of a solution that would have both worlds.

Once again, there were only two sentences left in the text message: "Good night, I'm sorry." ”

Yang Guo couldn't stand the exhaustion of his body and fell asleep deeply.

The rain in Yangcheng has stopped, and the rain in Focheng is still dripping and dripping.

In an apartment in the city center, Lu Yunran was wearing pajamas, leaning against the wall, sitting by the floor-to-ceiling window, his eyes were red.

In the afternoon, she received a lot of strange looks all the way, and returned to her room in Focheng in embarrassment, and then Lu Yunran, who had not eaten a bite of food all day, sat in front of the window until now.

Looking through the rain-soaked window and looking at the gradually brightly lit outside, although she had changed her wet clothes and the room was very warm, Lu Yunran felt that this city she had struggled for a year was so cold and strange, just like the city where she had studied and lived for four years, it was very big but she couldn't find a place where she could belong.

She didn't turn on her mobile phone, and she didn't know what to say to Yang Guo, but she felt distressed when she thought of Yang Guo. Her mind was full of those first few years, when Yang Guo bought her birthday gifts, accompanied her on the road, and was jealous of her, those stupid and stupid appearances. But now, why does Yang Guo seem to have become so strange? She seemed to want to catch the stupid and lovely Yang Guo in her memory, the Yang Guo who he had called her "aunt" and she had called him "Guo'er", although it was right in front of her and close at hand, but she couldn't catch it, and she floated away all of a sudden.

Lu Yunran understood that Yang Guo had not changed a lot, but the distance between them, because of a girl and a baby, suddenly became so far away. The hands of the two of them desperately stretched forward, but they couldn't touch it!

She turned on her phone and saw a lot of missed calls, and also saw Yang Guo's two text messages struggling, but she didn't reply. turned on the music player, and the sincere and clear singing voice of milk tea Liu Ruoyin floated out of the speaker behind the phone.

"If I retreat to the position of a good friend.

You don't need it anymore, it's hard to be like this.

I love you very much, so I am willing to let you.

Fly to more happy places......"

Lu Yunran's tears poured down again, his heart was like a knife, but his thoughts were unprecedentedly clear.

"It's not easy for two people on earth to meet.

I can't be your lover, but I'm still grateful.

I love you very much, so I am willing to do it, and I don't tie you up.

Fly to more happy places......"

The singing voice was Miao, and the beautiful woman leaning against the window seemed to drift away...... "Haw, let's chirp", Yang Guo walked home one by one watermark.

Closing the door, his eyes were hollow, and he slid limply against the door, the rain on his clothes making a mark on the door.

He had already guessed that Lu Yunran would be very angry, but Yang Guo didn't expect her to be so strong.

Yang Guo remembers a sentence he had seen on the Internet before: "A man's biggest failure is to let his woman learn to be strong." "Yang Guo once swore an alliance with Lu Yunran, vowing never to let her face the lightning and thunder alone, and now, Lu Yunran rushed into the thunderstorm without looking back, unwilling to stay by his side for a second longer, is this his biggest failure?

Taking out the phone from the trouser pocket, the screen can still be lit, it seems that Apple's waterproofness is still okay. Yang Guo pressed the familiar eleven numbers, and the operator's ringtone came from the microphone.

"Listen to the phone......" Yang Guo thought silently in his heart.

"Drip ...... Sorry, the call you made is temporarily unreachable...... "Pressed off?"

Dial again.

"Sorry, your call is temporarily unreachable......"

Dial again.

"The phone you dialed is turned off...."

Shut down! Yang Guoran listened to the phone repeating the message that Lu Yunran's mobile phone had been turned off in Chinese and English, and his hand gradually hung down.

What's going on? Yang Guo's head was like a mess, and he had never been chaotic before. He sat with his head in his hands, between his knees, and just like that. The water dripping from the hair, clothes, and body gradually gathered into a small puddle.

I don't know how long it took, but a cry came to Yang Guo's ears. Yang Guo was already reluctant at this time, but Qiqi's cry made his three souls and seven spirits gather back together.

After being dazed for a while, Yang Guo stood up. Maybe it was because he had bent his legs for too long, and when he stood up, he felt his lower body go numb. Stumbled into the bedroom, and was about to pick up the crying Qiqi, Yang Guo realized that he was wet all over. He hurriedly ran to the toilet, ripped off the strap and clothes that had been soaked in the rain, took a clean towel to dry his body, changed into dry clothes, and returned to the bedroom.

At this time, Qiqi had been crying for several minutes, and Yang Guo was ashamed in his heart, so he picked up Qiqi and coaxed her. Returning to his father's arms, feeling his father's familiar heartbeat, Qiqi's crying gradually stopped, Yang Guo kissed the tears on Qiqi's tender face that had not yet dried, and said with some distress: "Qiqi, do you think Dad is a bastard?" I made both girls cry today. ”

Qiqi moved, Yang Guo felt that something was wrong, and a stream of heat seemed to wade on him.

"Oops!" Yang Guo remembered that when he came back from the hospital, he hadn't had time to change Kiki's new diaper! The previous diaper suddenly pooped when Qiqi was in the hospital, and then asked Yang Guo to clean it up and throw it in the trash, and he wanted to come back to the house and change it for Qiqi, but he forgot about what happened just now!

Yang Guo couldn't cry or laugh, his left index finger gently hooked Qiqi's little nose, and said to her: "Qiqi, Dad took every precaution, and finally let you pee on Dad!" ”

Since learning to take care of Lai Qiqi from the nurses in the hospital, Yang Guo has been paying attention to changing her diaper, but she still got hit. However, it is said that a father who does not let his baby pee is not a qualified father, and Yang Guo has now completed a milestone task of becoming a qualified father!

It's just that the new clothes that I just put on were suffered, and after Kiki solved her personal problems, the whole person became very happy, and she was held in her father's arms, dancing with her hands, and her teethless mouth was grinning.

"No teeth! Kiki is ugly! After Yang Guo finished the identification, he hooked her little nose again, which made Qiqi wrinkle her nose, and she also raised her hand, but she couldn't reach her father's chin.

Being made such a fuss by Qiqi, Yang Guo's mood eased a little. He changed his clothes and prepared hot water for Kiki to bathe.

Although his spirit was a little bad, for the sake of Qiqi, Yang Guo still worked hard and carefully did every detail, but there was no situation like accidentally making the hot water too hot.

After serving Qiqi to take a bath, drink milk, and sleep, Yang Guo also cleaned up for himself.

After washing clothes and coming out of the toilet, Yang Guo glanced at the sky outside, the rain had stopped, but the sky had also darkened, and night had fallen in the city.

Flipping through the phone, Yang Guo dialed Lu Yunran's phone again, but it was still turned off, and Yang Guo's heart hurt again. He wrote a text message, revised it back and forth many times, and finally only two short lines remained: "Have you returned to the Buddha City?" Drink some ginger soup and don't catch a cold. I'm sorry. ”

Dropping the phone, Yang Guo took a deep breath and didn't let the tears flow. It is said that "a manly man, bleeding does not shed tears", these days Yang Guo has shed more tears for Qiqi and his girlfriend than he has since he was in junior high school combined.

Isn't there another old saying that doesn't go like that, though? "The boy doesn't flick when he has tears, but he hasn't reached the sad place." Yang Guo's tears flooded, just because he was really scared, worried that his girlfriend who had been dating for four years would leave, this relationship was too precious and heavy for him!

At this time, Yang Guo heard the roar from his abdomen, and suddenly realized that he hadn't eaten for a day!

But at this time, he was not in the mood to cook, so he just cooked a small pot of noodles with green vegetables and ate it simply with soy sauce. In a bad mood, whatever he ate felt like chewing wax, Yang Guo forced himself to swallow it, and he was hungry.

After eating and washing the dishes, Yang Guo picked up the phone again, glanced at it, and was disappointed to see that there was no message reply, he called again, and it was still a cold shutdown sound.

Yang Guo, who was in a depressed mood, picked up the book, but found that his mind was full of Lu Yunran's tearful eyes and a resolute look today, and he couldn't read a word.

Closing his eyes, it was Lu Yunran who rushed into the rain curtain again, and the back that gradually disappeared, all of this was so lifelike between opening and closing his eyes, Yang Guo had nowhere to escape, and nowhere to vent, so he could only call her over and over again, and then put down in disappointment over and over again.

Yang Guo sat for an hour, and his mobile phone also played for an hour, and finally, the mobile phone was out of battery, and the screen was completely black.

"Alas......" Yang Guo let out a long sigh and got up and plugged in the charger.

Since he was upset and irritable, it was better to practice boxing, Yang Guo took a deep breath, stood still in the open space of the living room, and meditated on his mind.

"Tai Chi is born without limit, the opportunity of movement and stillness, and the mother of yin and yang. If it moves, it is divided, and if it is still, it is ......"

There is a yin and yang fish talisman floating in my heart, one yin and one yang, yang fish eye yin, yin fish eye yang, slowly circulating, endlessly. Yang Guo's mood also seemed to be absorbed or smoothed out a lot by the Yin Yang Fish Talisman.

The mind is silently reciting the mind, and the energy runs in the meridians with the guidance of the mind.

"Wow!" Under Yang Guo's mind, his right hand slowly went from bottom to top, his strength was round, he did not spit out, his palm seemed to change, and he could twist it into a fist at any time, or a finger, or other moves, when he hit it, his shoulders sank, his arms were like arcs, his legs were bowed, his waist was loose, and his movements were slow but implied strength.

Under the mental concentration, Yang Guo was temporarily immersed in fists and feet.

The speed of his boxing practice this time was not as slow as in the early morning, and although there were some beads of sweat on his forehead, he was generally not steaming and drenched on the top of his head.

Maybe he didn't have a good rest all day, and after Yang Guo finished the thirteenth style, he also felt weak and tired enough.

He wiped the sweat from his forehead, picked up his mobile phone, and the beautiful woman on the other end of the phone was still like a yellow crane. Yang Guo's expression was gloomy, maybe if there wasn't Qiqi who needed him to take care of, he would have already gone to the bar outside to get drunk! Even though alcohol can't extinguish the depressed emotions in the heart, it can make people lose consciousness when they are in the most painful time, and it is also excellent that they don't need to be trapped by love anymore under the chaos!

Yang Guo didn't know what he could say to Lu Yunran after he got through the phone. There's no way he's going to say anything like giving up Kiki and we're back to the way we were. But apart from saying this, what else can make Lu Yunran forgive himself? Yang Guo really couldn't think of a solution that would have both worlds.

Once again, there were only two sentences left in the text message: "Good night, I'm sorry." ”

Yang Guo couldn't stand the exhaustion of his body and fell asleep deeply.

The rain in Yangcheng has stopped, and the rain in Focheng is still dripping and dripping.

In an apartment in the city center, Lu Yunran was wearing pajamas, leaning against the wall, sitting by the floor-to-ceiling window, his eyes were red.

In the afternoon, she received a lot of strange looks all the way, and returned to her room in Focheng in embarrassment, and then Lu Yunran, who had not eaten a bite of food all day, sat in front of the window until now.

Looking through the rain-soaked window and looking at the gradually brightly lit outside, although she had changed her wet clothes and the room was very warm, Lu Yunran felt that this city she had struggled for a year was so cold and strange, just like the city where she had studied and lived for four years, it was very big but she couldn't find a place where she could belong.

She didn't turn on her mobile phone, and she didn't know what to say to Yang Guo, but she felt distressed when she thought of Yang Guo. Her mind was full of those first few years, when Yang Guo bought her birthday gifts, accompanied her on the road, and was jealous of her, those stupid and stupid appearances. But now, why does Yang Guo seem to have become so strange? She seemed to want to catch the stupid and lovely Yang Guo in her memory, the Yang Guo who he had called her "aunt" and she had called him "Guo'er", although it was right in front of her and close at hand, but she couldn't catch it, and she floated away all of a sudden.

Lu Yunran understood that Yang Guo had not changed a lot, but the distance between them, because of a girl and a baby, suddenly became so far away. The hands of the two of them desperately stretched forward, but they couldn't touch it!

She turned on her phone and saw a lot of missed calls, and also saw Yang Guo's two text messages struggling, but she didn't reply. turned on the music player, and the sincere and clear singing voice of milk tea Liu Ruoyin floated out of the speaker behind the phone.

"If I retreat to the position of a good friend.

You don't need it anymore, it's hard to be like this.

I love you very much, so I am willing to let you.

Fly to more happy places......"

Lu Yunran's tears poured down again, his heart was like a knife, but his thoughts were unprecedentedly clear.

"It's not easy for two people on earth to meet.

I can't be your lover, but I'm still grateful.

I love you very much, so I am willing to do it, and I don't tie you up.

Fly to more happy places......"

The singing voice is Miao, and the beautiful woman leaning against the window seems to be drifting away......