Chapter 148 The Key to the Soul

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Su Jingxian's eyes widened, dazed and at a loss. There was a blank space in her mind, and the faint smell of tobacco gently teased her heart. The stiff stubble stabbed her cheeks a little painfully. And after Liu Qing kissed her, he slowly let go of her. In the deep eyes, the thoughts buried in the bottom of the heart flashed away. Stretched out his hand to gently hold her soft and fair-skinned, blown-up cheeks, spread his trembling thumb and brushed the crystal at the corner of her eyes, and said softly: "Xiaoxian......"

That familiar call seemed to make Su Jingxian's thoughts go back to the past all of a sudden. The pair of Liu Qing's infinite thoughts buried in the depths of his heart came to his heart in an instant. The tears couldn't stop flowing out, and he looked at Liu Qing in a daze. The little hand also cupped Liu Qing's cheek, which was slightly older than his peers: "You are older than before, Liu Qing." ”

The corners of Liu Qing's mouth twitched slightly, wanting to turn her head away to avoid Su Jingxian's gaze. However, he was firmly held down by Su Jingxian's soft and cold little hand, shook his head and sobbed, "Don't move, Liu Qing." I just want to look at you quietly for a while. I thought I would never have the chance to see you again in my life. ”

The soft little hands gently swayed on his face that was slightly rough because of the weather, and the gentle eyes that flashed with tears looked at Liu Qing carefully. It seems that he wants to overlap his appearance with the shadow in his heart, and once again firmly engrave it in the softest place of his heart.

"You must have had a hard time all these years. I feel the sadness and pain in your heart, Liu Qing. Su Jingxian gently grabbed Liu Qing's hard calloused and rough hand again, gently put it back on her face, and felt it with her soft skin. Feel the joys, sorrows, and sorrows he has experienced. The soft and delicate gaze gradually penetrated Liu Qing's heart. At this moment, Liu Qing suddenly felt that the heart he was trying his best to hide was almost naked in front of Su Jingxian. If it is someone else, even if it is Anna who knows Liu Qing very well. It will also provoke his emotional backlash at the moment.

However, under Su Jingxian's quiet and natural, trickle-like eyes. Liu Qing, who was supposed to be nervous when his mind was exposed, was relieved and relaxed at this time, and subconsciously and unconsciously handed over his soul. What Anna, who is known as the youngest authority in the psychological world, can't really do, but Su Jingxian did it easily. She grew up with him since she was a child, and no one in the world understands the essence of Liu Qing better than her.

"I, don't ......" Liu Qing opened his mouth, just wanted to reluctantly say that I am not bitter. However, Su Jingxian's soft and delicate lips gently pressed against his mouth, forcing his half of the words back into his stomach. The beautiful eyes closed slightly, and I don't know whether it was joy or sadness, tears flowed down her cheeks to the corners of her mouth, and into the lips of the two.

There is a touch of bitterness, but it contains a strong sense of longing. The two hearts, which were once inseparable from each other, seem to be unconsciously approaching each other at this time. Quietly feel the acceleration of each other's heartbeat, the solemnity of breathing, and the flow of blood. and the almost infinite longing in their hearts.

"I still remember back then, we always liked to look at the stars and the moon together. Blowing the evening breeze, sharing the deepest secrets of each other's hearts, tasting each other's happiness and sorrow. Su Jingxian gently hid her pretty head on Liu Qing's shoulder, and whispered softly in his ear, as if she was missing, more like enlightening: "Liu Qing, can we still open our hearts to each other like before?" Do you confide in each other? ”

Liu Qing's body shook slightly, and he hesitated. His broad eyebrows furrowed tightly, and he shook his head slowly. Although it is difficult for him to hide his heart in front of Su Jingxian, it does not mean that he will confide in her about his affairs. There are too many dark things in my heart, and too many past events that I can't look back on. What's more, Su Jingxian herself is a person who is difficult to look back on.

"Your heart is heavy, so heavy that you can't bear it anymore." Su Jingxian seemed to have expected that Liu Qing would object, and her little hand was gently pressed on his chest, feeling the beating of his heart, and said softly: "I know you hate me, hate me for leaving you for no reason in the first place." But even if you hate me again. Nor does it change the fact that we have the keys to each other's hearts. No amount of change can change the nature of your soul. After a pause, Su Jingxian muttered softly again: "Liu Qing." I'm not trying to make up for something, I'm not trying to get something back. I just want you to stop being so miserable and take some of the pressure off you, that's all. ”

"Whew!" Liu Qing gasped, gently pushed Su Jingxian away and stood up. walked to the window with a grim face, and couldn't help but light a cigarette, and took a heavy puff before he comforted his emotions. As she said, each holds the most primitive code of the other's heart, and as long as the other is willing, they can indeed share the pain and joy for the other.

"There's no need for that. Thank you for your kindness. Xiaoxian! My heart is not as fragile as you think. Liu Qing breathed a sigh of relief, making his face and tone look a little flat and natural. Looking through the window at the young people writhing wildly to the violent music below: "I can handle the pressure on my own. ”

"Are you guilty?" Su Jingxian slowly paced behind him and gently leaned her delicate body against his back. His hands wrapped around his waist, and his cheeks rested lightly on his back: "Liu Qing, I want to ask you a question, I hope you can answer me honestly." ”

Liu Qing hesitated slightly, but nodded slowly.

"Have you completely forgotten me in the past ten years?" Su Jingxian lightly threw out this question.

Liu Qing shook his head slowly and answered the question honestly: "I originally thought I could do it, but in fact. I overestimated myself. ”

"Now, it's your turn to ask me questions." Su Jingxian's eyelashes trembled slightly, and she forcibly suppressed herself from crying. Say it in as calm a tone as possible. Although the answer was completely consistent with his guess, however, after it was really confirmed from Liu Qing's mouth. But it made her heart tremble, and she almost couldn't help herself.

"What about you?" Liu Qing almost didn't hesitate, and asked this question rhetorically.

"I'm not like you." Su Jingxian's words made Liu Qing's heart, who was prepared, sink slightly. However, immediately, it made him stunned on the spot: "I'm different from you, I never thought I could forget you." ”

Liu Qing looked back in surprise: "Then why are you ......?"

"That's another question, Liu Qing." Su Jingxian slowly shook her head behind him and said, "If you want to know, we can exchange it again." ”

"You ask!" Even if he knows that it is irreparable, this problem that has been haunting his heart for ten years has changed his life. There is an incomparably seductive attraction to him. As Su Jingxian said, each other holds the key to each other's hearts. It's hard to resist the other person's gravitational pull on you. And the question-and-answer game between the two was created by Liu Qing when he got along with Su Jingxian. Su Jingxian, the little girl back then, was an extremely introverted girl. The surname is melancholy and sentimental, and he often frowns and thinks nonsense alone, and refuses to say anything to others, even to Liu Qing. Over time, Liu Qing was afraid that she would get sick. I came up with this game method of exchanging thoughts with one question and one answer. According to the rules, once both parties have confirmed that the game has begun, they must not avoid answering or moving on to other questions.

"What the hell happened that you would have beaten up your chief and led to your expulsion?" Last time, Liu Qing suddenly showed an absolute abnormality on this issue. And Su Jingxian, who knows Liu Qing very well, keenly grasped this focus.

Liu Qing took a deep breath of cold air, controlling his emotions that were about to explode, his voice was a little depressed and he shook his head hoarsely: "Can you change the question?" ”

Liu Qing's dodge made Su Jingxian even more confirmed that this was a problem. However, although I really want to know about Liu Qing's past. But Liu Qing's hoarse voice made her heart ache faintly. Although he knew that it would not be beneficial to him, and he was also breaking the rules of the game. But he still nodded dotingly and said, "Then I'll change the question......"

"No need." Liu Qing interrupted her with words, Su Jingxian's gentleness and thoughtfulness, as well as understanding. And he didn't bite the rules of the game to be aggressive. But it made Liu Qing's heart feel relaxed for a while, although ten years have passed, it seems that Su Jingxian is still as docile as before, unwilling to fight with others, and willing to back down when things happen.

"That commander was indiscriminate, and he made a big mistake. And I have a brother who died because he saved me. So, I hit the chief. Although Liu Qing tried his best to describe the story in the simplest language, when he thought of Li Erlengzi's tall and honest appearance, his heart was irrepressibly filled with sadness. Immersed in the clear memories of that year, tears flowed down uncontrollably.

Touching the cheek of his back, feeling the unstoppable twitching of his shoulder, Su Jingxian completely realized the pain and remorse in his heart. This story of just a few sentences must contain a lot of things. The arms that hugged Liu Qing's waist tightened again. It seems that he wants to transfer strength to him through his weak arms.

"That brother of yours must be very good with you." Su Jingxian's tears also fell on Liu Qing's back, and she sobbed: "But I believe that with your surname." If the two of you change places, you will definitely risk your life to save him. Liu Qing, I'm proud of you. I'm proud of you to have such a brother. ”

Liu Qing looked back at her in amazement, even though Anna was treating her war trauma, when she heard her very detailed description of the past. is just lamenting the death of the second stunned man to comfort Liu Qing's trembling and chagrined heart. Comfort with the fact that people cannot be resurrected after death. No one, not even Liu Qing himself, would think about this from another angle. Sometimes, it's as simple as that, it's just that some people have a hard time crawling out once they're on the tip of the horns.

It wasn't until a long time later that Liu Qing breathed a heavy sigh of relief. Although he was still extremely uncomfortable with the death of the second stunned child. However, in the deepest part of my heart, it was like a big stone had fallen. Su Jingxian is right, if the two of them changed places at that time, Liu Qing would also make the same decision as the second stunned.

Only Anna and Reiko knew about this. Anna, the mistake is not to understand the brotherly righteousness of the Chinese. The feeling of being able to give up everything for each other's brothers, even if it is their own lives. And the Lord of Leizi, let him kill people and destroy them, and he really can't do such a delicate job of comforting people.

"Second stunned, you kid is nothing great." Liu Qing laughed and opened two cans of beer, one on the table. He lit another cigarette and placed it on the side of the table. After taking a big sip of it, he smiled like a madman and said to himself: "I have been sad for you for so long." You stinky boy, we will be brothers in the next life. You have to wait for Lao Tzu to be reincarnated together in the Netherworld, no, no, and then go to the thunder guy. The three of them are together and then they go, I can warn you. If you dare to reincarnate early, don't blame Lao Tzu for being ruthless. What's what? Do you want me to come down and accompany you now? Phew, let me tell you don't talk about the door, not even a window. Lao Tzu hasn't enjoyed it enough, Lao Tzu now has a beautiful and lovely wife, and a gentle and considerate lover. Envy you kid to death. When I've had enough of that together, Leizi and I will come down to you. When the time comes, the three of us will pull the Lord of Yama to play mahjong together, and if he refuses to cast us in the family. Our family's Lei Ye will take care of his muscles and bones. ”

Liu Qing laughed as he spoke, laughing until his face was full of tears. began to hang the table and kept laughing and crying: "Stinky boy, why did you die so early? It hurts that everything has to be carried by me and Lei Zi, do you know below, both of us are carrying it so hard. It's fucking hard. You don't believe it? You fuck me up, and try it. Hah, but then again. Second stunned, you stinky boy probably isn't idle in the underworld, right? Have you received the big wave of beauties that I and Lei Zi burn to you every year? Ha, be careful not to kill yourself......" Tears kept rolling down, wetting the placket of his clothes.

Su Jingxian didn't know that Liu Qing couldn't control it, venting his emotions that had been suppressed for too long. Although when I heard him say that he was a beautiful and lovely wife, there was a faint tingling in my heart. And when he heard the gentle and considerate lover, his cheeks were hot, and he lowered his head to think to himself. Could it be that he subconsciously wants to be his lover? No, no, how can this be? In the heart, there is a disorder. However, I saw Liu Qing's tears flowing under his nonsense, and felt the sincere pain under his seemingly laughing words. couldn't help but cry with him, sat next to him, gently hugged his shoulder, and let him lean into his arms. Pulled a tissue to help him wipe away his tears. While crying sadly, he blushed and secretly resented, Liu Qing's words blurted out without thinking through his brain. is challenging the limit of Su Jingxian's thinking collapse.

"Xiaoxian!" After venting for a long time, although consciousness gradually returned and became conscious. But the male body was still trembling, pushing away Su Jingxian's delicate body full of fragrance and elegance. Some unnatural dry laughter: "It makes you laugh." I am afraid that only in front of Su Jingxian can Liu Qing unabashedly volatile his painful feelings. Su Jingxian's enlightenment made Liu Qing's heart put down a rather depressing stone. Although I am still sorry and uncomfortable for the two stunned. But it is much better than the endless guilt and sorrow before. If Su Jingxian is the first non-fatal turning point in his life, and the second stunned son is another turning point for Liu Qing and Lei Zi, who have since embarked on the road of no return. Life is full of countless twists and turns, and sometimes a casual decision is enough to completely change a person's life.

"It's okay, I didn't hold you less and laugh and cry before." Su Jingxian gently pulled out a tissue again, and gently and attentively wiped the sweat stains on his forehead: "Do you remember that I once failed an exam, and I cried all day while holding you." ”

"You think I looked stupid?" Although Liu Qing knew that he was venting uncontrollably, he didn't have a mirror to see his face clearly. Touching his nose and smiling bitterly: "It's over, now my image is all over." But it's better than you, I can't learn how to cry all day. When I got home, my mom thought I had fallen into the river. Sister Su is Sister Su, like Sister Lin, she was the reincarnation of Zhucao in her last life. Liu Qing, who let go of the big stone in his heart, had some indescribable happiness, and couldn't help but joke with Su Jingxian. Maybe it's really because of what Su Jingxian said that Liu Qing could not suppress himself so much in front of Su Jingxian. In front of anyone, even if it is Yu Manshan or Mu Wanqing. Unless consciousness and subjective control are lost. Otherwise, Liu Qing would never have been so out of shape.

"You're not exaggerating, Liu Qing." Su Jingxian blushed, lowered her head and said softly: "I was in a fake ...... for the rest of the day" Halfway through her words, she quickly thought of her gaffe. Hurriedly closed his lips. His heart was beating nonstop, his face was red, and he almost hid his face under the sofa.

"Oh, so you love to cry so much, are you pretending to cry?" Liu Qing's eyes widened in disbelief: "No wonder I said that you were crying and crying, the voice behind you was much quieter, and the tears were gone." I always thought that tears could really cry dry, but who knew you were faking to cry? Uh, what are you crying for? After Liu Qing finished asking this sentence, he saw that the flush on Su Jingxian's cheeks had spread to her ears and neck. Immediately, I was a little confused, fake crying, fake crying, why are you ashamed to be like this?

"Liu, Liu Qing. It's your turn to ask questions. Su Jingxian lowered her head and didn't dare to look at Liu Qing, she bit her jade lip lightly and tried to change the topic, and said in a voice thinner than a mosquito: "If it's the previous question, I'll start answering it." ”

"Wait, I'll change the question." Liu Qing immediately interrupted her with a speech, looked at her deeply, and said very seriously: "Change the question now, why did you fake crying at that time?" I'm playing by the rules of the game, so don't fool me. ”

"Can you change the question?" Su Jingxian's cheeks were red and delicate, her voice trembled a little, and at the same time, her delicate body couldn't help but tremble.

"As you said, I'm overbearing. Not as easy to talk as you are. The more reluctant she was to answer, the more Liu Qing wanted to know the answer. I'm speculating in my heart, does she like to fake crying? Or maybe she likes to comfort her by herself, so she fakes crying for a longer time? She didn't know if she didn't say it, as soon as she said fake crying, Liu Qing suddenly thought that every time she cried, it would always be a long time. Now that I think about it, almost half of the Thai people are faking to cry in the back. And, strangely, she always likes to come to herself when she has some small things. Even if it was a trivial matter, she would cry so much that she would be sad and sad. At that time, Liu Qing just thought that she was just very sensitive and loved to cry. But now that I think about it, I'm afraid there is another mystery.

"Liu Qing, I don't want to say, I beg you. I really don't want to say it......" Su Jingxian's delicate body trembled, she was ashamed and anxious, and tears kept rolling down. The crisp breasts kept rising and falling, and I almost couldn't breathe in one breath.

Seeing this, Liu Qing felt pity. Hurriedly took her in his arms and gently patted her on the back. Reassuring: "Alright, alright. That's the end of today's game, we'll play another day. ”

Su Jingxian was sobbing and leaning on Liu Qing's chest, originally wanting to open her mouth to speak. But when he heard the box door being slammed open, several fierce men rushed in with the arms of several boys and girls.

"Let go of me, you bastard." Xiao Mei's wrist was also dragged by someone, and his feet kept kicking on the big man's legs. Chu Chu shouted pitifully: "Uncle~ Someone bullied me." ”

"Well, I heard that their boss is here, so Lao Tzu came here to pay his respects." A familiar voice, a figure that is no longer familiar, eyes staring arrogantly at the ceiling, a cigarette hanging from the corner of his mouth. Holding a plump young woman in his arms, under Liu Qing's stunned gaze, he paced in.

"Uh......" The man also saw Liu Qing and Su Jingxian hugging each other clearly, and immediately the cigarette from the corner of his mouth fell. The two stared at each other with big eyes......

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(To be continued)