The pleasure of the first four seven indulgences

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Just when Liu Qing and Su Jingxian were eyebrows, Xiao Mei shouted happily again: "Now that the game is over, it's not early, and it's getting dark." Let's find a random place to eat, and then go to Di Bar and ask for a private room to watch a show. ”

When it came to performance, Qin Zi and Gao Jian looked at each other. I thought that the game would be nine out of ten, but who knew that I fell into the gutter and capsized. A person at the level of an uncle is so good at playing snooker. However, even if the two sides are in a state of hostility. The two of them also admired Liu Qing's level of playing billiards very much, especially Qin Zi, a little girl, who now looked at Liu Qing with a significantly different look.

"You're not trying to cheat, are you?" Xiao Mei glanced at the two of them, pretending not to care, but his eyes were full of disdain.

"Acting is performing, what are you afraid of?" Unable to stand Xiao Mei's provocative gaze, Qin Zi blushed and snorted: "I am willing to lose the bet, let's go ......"

"Liu Qing, why don't you ......" Su Jingxian looked at everyone worriedly, and just opened half a sentence of love. But Xiao Mei had already grabbed her hand first, and dragged her out: "Teacher Su, don't squeeze the taxi with them, let's take Liu Qing's motorcycle together." ”

Liu Qing secretly thought that this little girl was really quick to see the opportunity, smiled and shook her head, and also followed.

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A couple had dinner nearby. Then I followed Xiao Mei to Di Bar, this Di Bar was chosen by Xiao Mei himself, and he usually came to play with his classmates twice, and he was very close. Although it was only eight o'clock at this time, as soon as Liu Qing walked in, he smelled a strange smell, dim lights, and rapidly flashing neon. Loud music, a chaotic smell of smoke and alcohol. Occasionally, I saw a few sneaky little brothers and sisters looking around, selling something in a low voice. The style is by no means elegant, but at least it is the favorite deviant pleasure of a half-grown kid like them.

Unlike Liu Qing's calmness and Xiao Mei's hidden excitement, Su Jingxian's sharp nose could not bear these smells, and she liked classical silk and bamboo music. Although these shocking rock 'n' roll hilarities are not excluded, at least they will definitely not be favorable. A few pairs of vague glances swept over her, causing her to frown and creep. Subconsciously, he nervously grabbed Liu Qing's arm.

Liu Qing felt the tension in her heart from her trembling fingers, so he gently patted her hand and cast a fearless look at her. Su Jingxian may have subconsciously trusted Liu Qing very much, and under his eyes, she quickly relaxed a little. The warm nose wrinkled slightly, and although it was no longer nervous, it was definitely a little annoying about this place.

Xiao Mei asked for a private room on the second floor. From here, you can see the large dance floor on the first floor. Then I ordered a lot of beer and snacks. A few young people were also familiar with each other, and drank unceremoniously.

"How can you drink when you're still students?" Su Jingxian saw Xiao Mei directly open the beer, and after drinking it with Liu Qing, she drank it directly. And the others were not to be outdone, drinking. was so shocked that his eyes widened.

"Teacher Su, aren't you?" Qin Zi exaggerated exclaimed: "I've all come to this place to have fun, and it's a holiday, what's the point of drinking some beer?" Besides, if we don't drink, how can we have the guts to put on a show? ”

"Teacher Su, you can be merciful, let's have a happy time." Gao Jian was also drinking wine and eating a temporary help.

"Ma Jiye, it's all your fault that you only cared about drinking it for yourself and forgot to give Mr. Su a beer." Xiao Mei also pretended to be disgusted and glared at Ma Jiye, picked up a can of beer, threw it to Su Jingxian in a parabolic motion, and said with a bewitching smile: "Teacher Su, didn't we say it a long time ago before we came out?" I see that you are usually depressed, so you might as well take this opportunity to indulge. ”

Su Jingxian continued her beer in a little flustered, as a teacher, she was naturally quite sensitive to words. The word indulgence immediately reminded her of Liu Qing, and her cheeks flushed and looked at Liu Qing secretly.

"Uncle~ You're just patronizing and looking at our funny?" Xiao Mei stared at him "fiercely" who was smiling at Erlang's legs on the side, regardless of himself. With a small mouth, he sat next to him, half leaning on his side, his pink cheeks were white and red, and he held an empty beer can: "I clinked glasses with you just now, and I drank all of them, but you just took two sips?" You don't want to get drunk and drive me to the hotel like you did last time, do you? ”

The box was much quieter than outside, and Xiao Mei didn't deliberately lower her voice to speak. The last sentence hit Su Jingxian's ears like thunder, who was slightly attentive to Liu Qing's every move. Immediately, his face was pale, and he turned around and looked at him in disbelief: "Liu Qing, you, you ......"

Liu Qing opened his mouth, originally wanting to explain. But as soon as he thought of the relationship between Su Jingxian and himself, he shrank back the conversation. Especially although Xiao Mei is just a little niece, there are indeed some ulterior and ambiguous relationships between the two. He touched his nose, chuckled, and drank a can of beer in one gulp.

Xiao Mei looked at Su Jingxian, who looked badly looking, with a slight smugness, but at the moment, she was well-behaved like a little daughter-in-law, and she helped Liu Qing open a can of wine. He twisted a piece of beef and put it in his mouth: "Uncle~ This is like a word." However, just drinking like this is really not interesting. Everyone shakes the dice together, guesses the points and drinks the bar. The one who, Gao Jian, brought his dice. ”

Her words were immediately echoed by a group of people. At this time, Su Jingxian saw that Liu Qing did not explain, obviously acquiescing to what Xiao Mei said. His face became even more pale and colorless, his lips trembled a little, and tears were about to fall from his eyelashes. After breathing heavily a few times, he smoothed out the depression in his chest and slowly stood up: "Liu Qing, you come out." I want to talk to you. "Originally, I thought that Liu Qing and Xiao Mei were just more compatible New Year's friends. Due to the age gap, it is normal to be a little too intimate. But now it seems that the relationship between the two of them is far from being as simple as he imagined.

Liu Qing didn't listen to her words and stood up, but just lit a cigarette with his surname, shook his head with a smile and said, "Teacher Su, I'm not your student." Even if you're a student, you should know that I'm not a good student, and I don't want to listen to some big things. ”

"Uncle, what I said well, I will say this to you. I'll accompany you to drink a can. Qin Zi squeezed to the other side of Liu Qing with a smile and touched Liu Qing: "Uncle, although you are convinced that you play well, that sentence has made me have a different opinion of you." ”

"Hey, Qin Zi, what do you mean by that? This is my uncle, not yours. Xiao Mei dragged Liu Qing to his side, glared at Qin Zi angrily, and said, "Don't I know you yet?" Don't snort in front of my uncle, find your own little white-faced boyfriend. Stay away from us. ”

"Xiao Mei, we are also good sisters who grew up together. Your uncle won't lose a piece of meat if I take a beating, right? Qin Zi deliberately leaned towards Liu Qing, and said angrily: "My uncle boyfriend has already been dumped by me." Promised, no manhood at all. People are falling out of love now, can't they borrow your uncle for a while? ”

"Qin Zi, do I care if you live or die?" Xiao Meihu had to stand up, with a posture of wanting to make a move, and his big moist eyes widened: "If you don't go away again, don't blame me for being polite." ”

"Let it go, look at your nervousness. Do you think your uncle is made of gold? Don't let you lean down. Qin Zi glanced at Liu Qing, stood up and sat in the opposite corner: "Uncle, one day if you are dissatisfied with Xiao Mei." Just come to me! I'm much more obedient than my eyebrows. ”

Su Jingxian couldn't believe that her students would be like this during the holidays, she usually thought that Xiao Mei and Qin Zi were a little naughty at most. I didn't expect it to be so deviant, what I said and what I did made me feel red. What made her feel even more angry was Liu Qing. The current Liu Qing is not at all the original Liu Qing who she imagined, although he is a little impulsive, but he is honest, honest and kind in his bones. Lazy, nonchalant, indifferent. What I can't accept in particular is that he went to the hotel with his female student to open a room.

The beautiful images and memories that have been preserved for nearly ten years in my mind are almost shattered by the ruthless reality. I have the urge to leave, but I can't really give up. In the past ten years, every time I can't sleep at night, I will always lie on the bed quietly and sweetly reminiscing about the scenes between me and Liu Qing, letting happiness and bitterness fill my chest and mix her to sleep. And perhaps today, Liu Qing ruthlessly deprived her of the only remaining reverie.

Watching them start playing dice and drinking, Liu Qing's scene of never looking at himself almost shattered his fragile heart. Holding back his tears, his limbs were weak and stiff and sat beside Liu Qing, his originally warm and soft eyes lost their luster at this time, dim and dull.

"Teacher Su, will you come and play too?" Ma Jiye seemed to feel the bitterness in his teacher's heart, and put a pair of dice in front of her with a smile: "I often have unhappy things, but if I indulge it, I will throw all the unhappiness into Java." ”

"Indulgence?" It wasn't the first time Su Jingxian had heard these two words today, but it was the first time that she really had a hint of eagerness to try. From childhood to adulthood, he has spent his life in conscientiousness, obedience and obedience. Even when he is with Liu Qing, he is always cautious and never takes a step beyond the class. After breaking up with Liu Qing, he kept his ears closed to things outside the window and devoted himself to studying. When it came to work, I had never tried to vent my anguish with indulgence.

"Smack!" Su Jingxian twisted the beer can in her hand, and some slender and thin little hands trembled slightly, and sent the beer to her mouth.

Although Liu Qing didn't look at Su Jingxian on the surface, under that indifferent appearance, he was always uncontrollably watching Su Jingxian's every move. Seeing that she was really instigated by Ma Jiye, she opened a can of beer and drank it. Immediately turned back in amazement and stared at her in surprise. His fingers moved, but he never lifted his hand.

Su Jingxian's eyes also caught Liu Qing's expressions of surprise, hesitation, and even some pity and distress. Somehow, an indescribable pleasure surged in my heart. The distress in his eyes became his best appetizer. That pleasure that has never been felt before, even Su Jingxian herself can't tell whether it is because she has suppressed her whole life and indulged herself a little at this moment. Or is it the comfort that comes from his indulgence with a little masochism and revenge, which makes Liu Qing feel distressed. So you will be surprised, and you will still pity me? Do you still feel sorry for me? I thought that under your cold exterior, there was no me in your heart......

found that this way could actually elicit Liu Qing's true feelings about herself, and Su Jingxian was even more excited to speed up the drinking. The first can of beer in my life quickly bottomed out. There was a snap and it pressed against the table. The cheeks, which were originally a little pale, were faintly dyed with a crystal red glow.

"Jiji, open another can for the teacher." I don't know if it was because of alcohol or some other factors, Su Jingxian suddenly felt unprecedented excitement and comfort. Some bold ideas that had never been seen before also came to mind: "Teach me how to guess the dice game." ”

Liu Qing smoked a cigarette silently and watched Su Jingxian play a game of dice with herself and others. Although he is a novice, with his smart head and the luck of a novice, he does not lose worse than others. Gradually, time passed, and beer was drunk from can after can. Liu Qing, who endured it for a long time, saw that there were already wonderful waves between her eyes, and the redness spread to the depths of her ears. Especially Xiu Mei frowned tightly, I don't know if I had a stomach ache. But after seeing that she opened another can of wine, Liu Qing finally stood up and pinched the wine with her hands.

"Su Jingxian, you've drunk enough. Can't drink anymore. Liu Qing's voice was a little low, and his eyes were a little distressed. Su Jingxian's body has been a little weak since she was a child, and she has never drunk alcohol, where can she drink like this?

Su Jingxian's delicate body trembled slightly, since she and Liu Qing had not met for nearly ten years and met by chance, it was the first time that she had heard him call his name by name. Is it finally no longer evasive, and plans to face up to his existence? Su Jingxian seemed to be addicted to revenge and refused to let go of her hand. Learning Liu Qing's tone just now, there was a little drunkenness in his tone: "Liu Qing, you are not my person, why don't you let me drink again?" ”

"I said I won't let you drink if I don't let you drink it!" Liu Qing also provoked her anger and gently pinched the numb tendons on her wrists. When she let go of her hand, she snatched the beer and put it directly on the table.

"Liu Qing, you are too domineering." Su Jingxian pinched her somewhat sore wrist, and two crystal tears flowed from her weak eyes. Maybe it's because of memories, maybe it's because of the distress and disappointment for Liu Qing, he lowered his pink cheeks and sobbed softly: "You weren't like this before, Liu Qing!" ”

Except for Xiao Mei, the rest of the classmates were dumbfounded and watched the conflict between their homeroom teacher and Liu Qing. Although I have long vaguely felt that there is some ambiguity between these two people, but until this moment. It seems that it is really certain that there must be some story between the two of them.

"Xiao Mei, you all go out." Liu Qing said in a deep voice: "It's just right to go to Bundi now, don't sit here and drink all the time." ”

"Uncle~" Xiao Mei just got up and wanted to say something. But I heard Liu Qing shouting a little irritated and angry: "I said go out and jump around." ”

Xiao Mei shrank back slightly, a little helpless, and a little unwilling to gesture to his companion and go out together. When he was about to go out, he glanced at Liu Qing and Teacher Su with some concern. Although on the surface, Xiao Mei has a good impression of Liu Qing. But in fact, Xiao Mei herself can't tell whether she has a good impression of Liu Qing between men and women, or a kind of attachment between a girl and her father. Dad passed away too early, so that Xiao Mei can only remember his appearance from photos since he was a child, and his surname can only be figured out according to his own ideas. Gradually, in the depths of her heart, according to her own wishes, she created a father's surname that even her own mother did not know. As I get older, that image becomes clearer and clearer.

Spoil me, love me, love me, this is Xiao Mei's own definition of his father. However, in these long ten years, she always felt that her 'father' was missing something, always not true and perfect. Until the last time he was in the hotel, he was spanked by Liu Qing because he was drunk. Although the pain was a little painful, it suddenly filled the blank space of the father figure in her mind, that is, severity. A father who is not strict with his children will never be a true and qualified father. So much so that by mistake, he actually perfected the image of his father in his mind, and in a daze, he also regarded Liu Qing as the father in his dreams.

Maybe it's a coincidence, maybe it's fate. There is some arrogance to Xiao Mei, some concern, and some stern Liu Qing. But even after she woke up, her heart was surging. The real dad should be like him, when he is happy, he can play with himself without any barriers and go crazy with himself. When you're not happy, you make yourself happy. But when he is not obedient and disobedient, he will stop himself very harshly, and even use force. All this made that young and imaginative heart turn Liu Qing into a substitute for his father.

However, in addition to these, Xiao Mei has a vague sense of youth and budding towards Liu Qing. So much so, in my heart, I want to enjoy my father's love and strictness. Enjoying some sweet and heart-beating sensations again. So much so that I have been using the title of uncle.

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After Liu Qing watched Xiao Mei go out, he took a cigarette and paced around the box, feeling a little restless. Su Jingxian, on the other hand, kept her head down and cried softly.

After a long time, Liu Qing slowly sat beside her, gently grabbed her soft and boneless wrist, and said with a worried expression: "I really hurt you?" Liu Qing was very puzzled, although he was very annoyed in his heart. But she was obviously very measured, at most, she made her little hands numb for a while. Why do you keep crying?

Su Jingxian withdrew her hand from his hand with some struggle, and looked at Liu Qing quietly, with a strange blankness in her eyes. Putting aside the change in appearance, Su Jingxian found that Liu Qing was very strange and unfamiliar at this time. He shook his head slowly, and his somewhat gloomy eyes seemed to want to see through Liu Qing's heart and said, "You are different from before, Liu Qing." ”

Liu Qing smoked a cigarette, turned his head a little unnaturally, and said with a dry smile: "People always change." Haven't you changed too? In the past, you couldn't drink half a sip of wine. ”

"No, you're running away from my question." Su Jingxian lowered her head and sighed softly: "What I said is that your heart has changed, and your heart is no longer pure. Some, some dirty. ”

Chaste? Liu Qing was stunned for a moment, leaned back on the back of the sofa and laughed. Chaste? What a sacred word that is so old and unfamiliar? Something dirty? It's just funny, my own heart is so filthy that it's almost like a sewer. Isn't it too much to describe it as a little dirty?

Su Jingxian didn't understand what was funny about her words? But listening to it, I heard a hint of bitterness in it. Under that indulgent smile, there is a deep helplessness and astringency. She just wanted to open her mouth to speak, but suddenly saw Liu Qing come up to her, her arms gently pressed her head, and some mouths mixed with the smell of beer and tobacco pressed directly against her soft and delicate lips.

Woo!

(To be continued)