Chapter 49 Dessert 4

"Let's talk about life. [Ran^Text^Library] Qi Tianxiang said with interest: "Alone, wandering in a foreign land, the difficulty of communication and communication is obvious, and loneliness is of course certain, so the solution is naturally to chew the pain, hide in the snail dwelling like a lost lone wolf to slowly heal and recover from itself." However, man is not a wolf after all, he can live in the vast wilderness, he can howl in the hazy wilderness to vent his loneliness, he can stretch his animal fury, and even more brutally attack any creature they see in solitude. However, as a group of people, it is impossible to live in isolation like a wolf, and it is impossible to freely disrupt the order to obtain their own pleasure and balance, so the way people solve the problem will definitely be beyond the reach of wolves. As a more advanced animal than a wolf, lonely people have various solutions, or they don't have to solve them and will not have too many problems for survival, but the core of the problem is not the loneliness of space and behavior, but the higher level of loneliness brought about by thinking and human nature, which is a kind of loneliness in the real sense, just like Qu Yuan's 'Tianwen' in "Lisao", Socrates's 'Suo' in "Heaven and Earth", or Mr. Dongpo's 'When is the Bright Moon', Master Tagore's The crux of the exclamation is highly consistent, but the inner loneliness continues deeply, not to mention Mars's "One Hundred Years of Solitude".

My own loneliness doesn't seem to cause too much harm, at most, it's just 'a sad wine to invite the bright moon', 'the thoughts are difficult to calm the autumn wind', which can't hinder others or harm yourself, on the contrary, it may still be a contribution to the sublimation of thoughts. But the biggest problem is the thinking after loneliness, and the results of thinking remain, I believe that people who read "Lisao" and drink and read "Slow Voice" are different from those who read "Book of Songs" and "Man Jianghong", and the emotions that rise after thousands of years of accumulation are equally intense, the same strong contagion, and the side effects are the same, this is the charm of art, but it seems to have nothing to do with the release of loneliness.

After thousands of years of dilution, the natural to nature, the ideology to the ideology, basically or roughly have the corresponding answers, and what is attached to these confusions is only the accumulation of emotions and the scattering of fragments, without the support of branches, that is, some colorful falling Ying, wonderful is just in the infection of the past drowned in the dust of history. The progress of science and technology and the development of productive forces have made the lovesickness that plagued the ancients insignificant, making the transmission of ideas only the number of massive numbers of information, and making life just the carrier of the process, just like the backpack in the journey or the hut that once sheltered from the wind and rain in the journey, only has practical significance to the counterpart of the individual, which is the portrayal of individual life in the state of urban agglomeration today. There is no longer an intractable problem in the world that needs to rely on or expect a savior to come, and the case of a hero changing the world is becoming more and more rare, and the era of group or collective wisdom needs cooperation, the grasp of opportunities, and of course, the cruelty and helplessness of survival of the fittest after competition. The confusion of survival is much higher than the confusion of thinking about nature, society, etc., and the manifestation of loneliness is more focused on the question of the meaning of life after the body is extremely tired, and the answer is basically focused on the gain and loss of interests or the trade-off of wealth. This kind of loneliness is the most terrible, because it is entangled in too many interests and the associated honor or wealth, and there is also the competition or adjustment of the pattern of interests brought about by it, at this time, the loneliness is more of a reflection of the appearance, less of the confusion of thinking and verification outside of oneself, and this reflection is proportional to the amount of knowledge and intelligence, and the level of status and wealth, and its conduction and infection effect is no less than reading "Lisao" or "Slow Voice", and it is more harmful and destructive. The lone wolf's way out of loneliness is to howl at midnight and to attack the leader of the pack instead. The results of the two ways, one is the stabilization of the order and the other is the re-planning of the order, and the effect is very different. Nowadays, the loneliness of the city is the confusion under the materialized survival and value publicity, the helplessness and relaxation after the confusion, and the replication of the lone wolf state of the individual. In the face of such a situation, perhaps the feasible method is to adapt to the transcendence, or to return after transcendence, it seems that the individual way is gradually emerging, and the possible result is that after the group consciously repairs or rebuilds the order, there will be a new look or performance. But where would that manifest itself? Is it the continuation of culture, or the establishment of new morals and values? The key question is how much time does it take? Because the loneliness and wandering alone are only the expression of the individual's humanity, but the infection of emotions spreads to form a virus, and the terrible result is believed that history and the times are unbearable. ”

"I don't understand, I really don't understand." Xiaobei shook his head and said ashamedly: "We are not on the same level, it is really difficult to understand the height of your thinking. ”

"Whether it's life experience or personal cultivation, in fact, everyone has this kind of thinking, but there is no effective connection." Qi Tianxiang comforted Xiaobei, and then said: "Life is actually a journey, whether you recognize it or not, whether you can endure loneliness and loneliness, in fact, it is a person's life journey. ”

Qi Tianxiang's eyes were hollow, as if he saw something from afar, "The sunset gradually gathered the light in the sky, and in the afterglow of the red glow in the sky, a donkey staggered tiredly on the gray official road, approaching the guest house not far ahead, the rider on the donkey's back looked lonely, his dusty face was full of exhaustion, and behind him was the gradually blurred twilight, and there was the hometown that was gradually moving away, where there were affectionate eyes and warm expectations, and the strange guest houses in front of him were the end of the long journey, It is the hope or disappointment of the unknown, and what supports these persistences is not only the thin limbs of the donkey, but also the faint light like the sunset in the heart. Tomorrow such a scene will be repeated, the difference is that the donkey who has rested all night has some strength, and the rider who has rested all night has a little anger on his face, but the eyes in front of him are still so solemn, and the other inn is waiting for the tired donkey yesterday and the lonely rider on the donkey's back. This happens every day, maybe for a month, maybe for half a year, maybe once, or maybe it continues after a short pause. The rider on the donkey's back is not a specific person or group, but it must be a person with some identity or dependence, no matter what the purpose is, whether it is to join relatives, to rely on friends, to seek employment, to study, the long cycle of bumping the body, but also bumping away the imagination of the future and the idea of the purpose, some are just persistence and resilience continue. In the era when transportation and communication are extremely underdeveloped, travel is a bitter and bitter thing, whether it is a solid family, or a small people, the space is to do a lot of preparation such as mental, physical, money, food, etc., as well as safety worries and travel worries, even if everything is ready, the long journey is a torture for the body and mind, the spirit and confidence. Therefore, unless absolutely necessary, it is unthinkable to travel hundreds or even thousands of kilometers. Therefore, there is the helplessness of "I live at the head of the Yangtze River, you live at the end of the Yangtze River, I don't see you every day, and drink a river of water", with the expectation of "beacon fire even the sky and the moon, and the family letter is worth ten thousand gold", and there is the comfort of "if the two love is long, how can it be in the twilight of the dynasty", and the feelings of "the peach blossom pond is thousands of feet deep, not as deep as Wang Lun to send me love", and there is the sadness of "persuading you to have a glass of wine, and there is no one in Yangguan in the west", how many thoughts and emotions are accompanied by parting, lovesickness, and nostalgia, and how many joys and sorrows are drawn, It also brings out a long and rich historical emotion. Sage Cloud's parents are in, Not far', presumably when the saint traveled to study Zhoudu, his parents must have passed away for a long time, because the filial piety and the three-year ritual constraints, which is for the filial piety to restrict the long journey, and the saint traveled around the world to expound his political ideals, in addition to the necessary daily necessities and neatly bundled bamboo slips on the carriage between the countries, it seems that there is no place for the family, and it is impossible to sing and dance all the way, the next time lasts for several years, the concern of the wife and children, the feeling of homesickness, and the difficulty of ambition, tormenting is not only the body, it seems that at that moment home, hometown, homeland is the most beautiful picture, but also the most beautiful scenery. The hardships of the journey give birth to many thoughts and emotions, and also breed the sublimation of many thoughts, at least enriching the space for imagination. Because of the continuation of space and time, it has also accumulated the weight of emotions, conjured up a lot of beauty, and at the same time sharpened thoughts and opinions, so that the emergence of culture has a more solid foundation. Helplessness and perseverance, hopelessness and tenacity, pain and hope, hardship and hardship, as well as the risks and torments of the journey, constitute the loneliness and loneliness of the lonely journey at the end of the world, and also constitute the source of many beautiful poems. In the distance, a donkey swayed in the setting sun, and the rider looked ahead, slowly approaching, and then drifting away. ”

A large section of the words seemed to have suffocated Xiaobei, only nodding and shaking his head remained, Qi Tianxiang also felt the heaviness of the topic, so he eased his tone, "Say something light, the closer you are, the closer?" In the past, the marriage should have love and thought, only there was 'I live at the head of the Yangtze River, you live at the end of the Yangtze River' of the outpouring and missing, and there is also the yearning for thinking about you every day and not seeing you, and there is also the helplessness of drinking a river of water together, and now I have seen more lingering in public, heard more one-night stands, day and night love, and more stories of cohabitation and trial marriage, I can't help but wonder - the closer you are to each other, the closer the relationship between each other? Is there still more and more beautiful? Venus is an ancient story, fascinating to imagine to this day, but more realistic than the embodiment of art. The performance on the T-catwalk was ashamed of the secular society, and the streets in the summer saw suspenders and backless outfits, and wondered about the shallowness of the ancient Meng-Li controversy -- is beauty existing? Beauty is discovery? To have an ancient thought -- to cover up shame? Manifestation? Furthermore, the more infernal, the more loved? After thinking about the countless 'letters from home worth 10,000 dollars,' in the face of today's communication revolution and information progress, we can't help but be confused -- Is it emotion or life that is being exchanged? Without the yearning of longing, without the lack of emotional reserves, can true love withstand the world? Finally, the richer the better? The actualization of materialism, Zhuo Wenjun's persistence is rare, there is no turning back without Nala's righteousness, the love of equality between men and women contains the equivalent exchange of RVs, more thinking about status, the gold content and status of emotions, the transposition of money, and the sincerity and persistence of Meng Jiangnu? Compared with the long drinking and short sighs and delicate of the ancients, the materialized modern people seem much rougher. Without the longing of 'thinking about you every day and not seeing you', there is no helplessness of 'drinking a river water together', and there is no desire and expectation of 'looking through the autumn water'. There is less loneliness of 'being a stranger in a foreign land for a long time', and it is also indifferent to the pain of 'thinking of relatives every festival', and it is even more alienated from the surprise and cherishment of 'family letters'. Without the predicament of 'Lonely Travel', you won't be able to feel the joy of 'having friends from afar', and you won't be able to experience the sadness and sadness of 'going out of Yangguan in the west'. Modern people are much happier, with the means of transportation of '80,000 miles a day', convenient and diverse communication money, and a variety of entertainment media, the difficulties and helplessness of the ancients are all wasted, but at the same time there is the paleness of thinking and the roughness of emotions. The diversity of communication methods has made communication mechanical and simple, the convenience of transportation has made communication more difficult and scarce, and the increase of information has made thinking more numb and tired. The abundance of life makes life more barren and compassionate. The 'thinkers' sitting on the streets of Rome in the West, and the 'seeking' in the East standing by the lake and looking into the distance, are all exploring the true meaning of life, thinking about the meaning of life, and the solidification of long-standing thoughts. The result of thinking? We don't know, and we don't have the mood and mood to explore and verify. We are too busy, and we can't finish the work every day, and we can't finish socializing. Although there is a washing machine for washing clothes, a refrigerator for storing food, and phone calls and text messages for communication, time is not abundant, the plot development of TV series needs attention, the news on the Internet is worth browsing, the movements of celebrities need to be tracked, the waist bag needs to be abundant, and life needs to be improved, so there is time to look back on the past and imagine the future? ”

"That's right", Xiaobei became excited about such a topic, and then Qi Tianxiang said: "Open your eyes, turn on the TV, and the news of the sea will come to you." To the unit, computers, the Internet, and dozens of pages of newspapers. When I got home, it was entertainment, star news, and a series that couldn't see the end, and thinking, thinking, and even thinking were squeezed into the only ten minutes before going to bed. It will be a time of peace. The brain has become a storage room, and every day is just a constant acceptance, and there is no room for divergence. Hiding out of the office, there are still mobile phones, turning off mobile phones, and text messages, emails. There are fewer and fewer things I don't understand, and if I want to say it, I open the computer and search, and there are more answers than I think, and there is not much I can do. The objectified society, the objectified people, can only leave the future pale. ”

"That's what a friend told me, he doesn't read the newspaper, he doesn't watch TV, he doesn't listen to the radio until he has to."

"Also, it's too chaotic now, and there are too many boring people and things." Xiaobei continued: "In the past, we called people who liked to gossip, make trouble out of nothing, and make something out of nothing as 'long-tongued women'. There is a 'long-tongued woman' in the family, and the whole family is disgusted. And now, the media is blatantly telling right and wrong, and Yu Ji is blatantly making things out of nothing, and he has become a hero. Otherwise, where did Gong Li's family crisis come from, what is the news value of a woman giving birth? No wonder it's being said everywhere now: fire prevention, anti-theft, anti-journalists. It's time for our media and our mouthpiece to think about it, stop treating boredom as fun, ignorance as capital, and lack of virtue as knowledge. ”

"Yes, there is a kind of violent atmosphere everywhere in this society now, the hoarse noise on TV, the loud noise in the advertisements, coupled with the full publicity and falsehood, it is really irritating, but the more this is the case, the more you must be calm in your heart, at least you should reduce your anger." Qi Tianxiang looked at Xiaobei and said gently: "Some time ago, I don't know if you paid attention to a piece of news?" A mother pushing a stroller carrying a two-year-old child gets into an argument with two men driving over parking as she passes through a bus stop. Suddenly, one of them took the sleeping girl out, lifted it above her head and threw it hard, and then walked away. After that, when the reporter interviewed the girl's mother in the hospital, a rhetorical question made the reporter speechless - do you have a child? This sentence also raises questions and puzzles. Did the mother who said this think about her child before this? Ever thought she still had children? It is not difficult to restore the truth of the incident - a baby carriage stopped on the side of the road, there was a car to stop behind it, the mother of the baby carriage was strong, the sedan occupants were arrogant, and the child became a tool to vent his anger during the dispute, and the tragedy happened. While we strongly condemn the brutality of the perpetrators, should we also calmly think about the cause of the incident, for a small stop, for a short and long competition, an innocent little life disappeared. The tongue is quick and willful, and the result is endless tragedy and remorse. If the mother thinks that she has a child, if the mother does not do it for her own pleasure, if the mother pushes the child away, if the mother thinks that it should not be safe for her to stay on the side of the road, even if the abuser is born from the devil, he will not be furious, after all, they are out to eat with friends, not to kill. Coincidentally, a few days ago in Beijing, a father who let his nine-year-old daughter practice in society had a conflict with the chengguan when he set up a stall in Houhai, and the father was beaten and the child was frightened. As soon as the incident came out, public opinion was in an uproar, and in today's urban management law enforcement frequently breaking the news, things are really eye-catching. But if you think about it, there are many ways to let children practice in the summer society, and there are many ways, do you have to set up roadside stalls, and it is an area where stalls are expressly prohibited, and the day before was publicly reminded that you can't set up stalls, why do you still put them, why do you have to openly challenge? What is the intention? I don't want to speculate on the Internet as the 'Diaoyu Chengguan', I don't want to assume that the father and daughter committed violence first, and I don't want to guess what a knowledgeable father did. Suffice it to say that when the father decided all this and did all this, did he ever think that he had children? Last year, a case of stealing a car and killing a child in Northeast China caused a sensation, and when the conscience of the car thief was extinguished and the conscience was lost, the responsibility of the parents was ignored, and a baby was put in the car to do things by himself. Such extreme cases have not happened before, a few years ago in Jiangsu, there was a case of a mother locking her child in a car, and the child died of carbon monoxide poisoning. The child is innocent, and the child has nothing to do to protect himself, and it is up to the parents to take this responsibility. Nowadays, in the station and park, it is common to see a father or mother, traveling or playing with a child, adults are playing with their mobile phones, children are playing by themselves, as long as the children do not cry, the mobile phones in the hands of adults will not be put down. I am often worried, what should I do if there is a problem with the child like this? What should I do if I lose it or get hurt? From this, I also think that all kinds of cram schools in the city are in full swing now, although there is the idea of pulling out the seedlings to help them grow and not letting their children lose at the starting line, and there are parents who want to be idle and worry-free, as long as they put their children in cram schools, their children's affairs do not have to worry. The continuation of life is a big thing, and raising children is even bigger than the sky, which in addition to a love, there must be a responsibility, a heavy responsibility. Always think about your children everywhere, really for your own children, and for the growth of your children, so that you are worthy of the true colors of a parent. Or think about this rhetorical question from time to time - do you have children? ”

"You said that I still don't get married, in case I can't take care of the baby, won't it leave a bigger regret?" Xiaobei said suspiciously, and seemed to hesitate again.

"Actually, it's simple, just think of responsibility all the time." Qi Tianxiang said slowly: "Everyone has a responsibility, when it comes to responsibility, workers work, farmers farm, drivers drive, and the People's Liberation Army guards the border, this seems to be a duty, and it should not be reduced to the ranks of responsibility, just like the rooster crows, the dog watches the house, and the cow plows the field, which should not be the focus." However, things are still so strange now, the original normal things are distorted and abnormal under the reflection of social forms, and the abnormal result is that 'responsibility' has become a topic that needs to be emphasized. Doing our job well is a belief we have been instilled in since childhood, because only by doing our job well can we live up to our daily existence, at least worthy of three meals a day. And ordinary beliefs, in the face of bizarre social practice, not only beliefs, but also principles are gone.

There is no milk in the production of milk powder, the houses that build houses cannot stand the test of time, environmental protection personnel connivance with enterprises to discharge pollution, urban management does not care about the city's management of small traders and hawkers, and there are children who go to college everywhere looking for jobs to earn money, pharmacies sell daily necessities, doctors do not save them when they see death, economists do not understand economics, and everything they see is a thing that reverses black and white. Businesses are not miserable and fake, not short of catties and shortages, producers are not profit-seeking, do not harm consumers, this seems to be a matter of course, but to use the word "integrity" to restrict, standardize, make money is also the foundation of life, but to strengthen, it can be seen how values make the nature become. If it is a problem of mechanism, it seems that it is easier to deal with, if the cause comes from social morality and customs, it is not the order itself, because when morality and rules cannot restrain the ugliness of human nature, any preaching will look pale. ”

"That's right, I'll have to think about it." Xiaobei nodded and said, suddenly looked at his watch and exclaimed: "It's almost eleven o'clock, I won't talk to you, I have to go back and rest quickly, you should rest early!" ”

Qi Tianxiang also looked at the table below, walked to the desk and picked up the tea, handed it to Xiaobei and said, "Go back quickly, go back and ask your grandparents." ”

"After the jujube festival, you won't go back to Hezhou!" Xiaobei asked suspiciously.

"It may be a few more days, and I'll go back when I'm done here." As he spoke, he opened the door to Xiaobei, and watched her slowly walk away before returning to the room, but he didn't feel the slightest relaxation in his heart, but felt a little tired. Maybe it's talking too much, maybe it's thinking too much.

Thinking about the text message sent by Yan Yong in the afternoon, I still had some expectations in my heart, it seems that there will be a different result tomorrow.

Qi Tianxiang thought and prepared before going to bed