I woke up, sweating profusely, panting for breath, the monkey flipped over, gave me a blank look and said, "Dream!" ”

For the first time, I was awakened by a seemingly beautiful dream, probably thinking about it day and night, and even in my sleep.

On Sula's birthday, Ni Kaitong started to be busy early, and bought two movie tickets, saying that they would go to the city to eat together and celebrate the festival, and the smile on his face was never put away.

I quietly texted Sula on my phone.

"Sura, buddy, I wish you a happy birthday."

The boss took out a condom from his bag, threw it to Ni Kaitong and said, "At night, don't go back, don't thank me." ”

Ni Kaitong blushed and put away the things that the boss had thrown.

I suddenly felt sad and watched Ni Kaitong walk out of the dormitory door with a sunny face.

And the text message I sent didn't even show up with a thank you reply.

That weekend, I hid back home, and I didn't want to hear about Sula from Ni Kaitong. ’

However, why is it so unfortunate, on the way home, when I changed cars, I saw Sura and Ni Kaitong walking on the street, smiling at you and me.

I want to tell Sù Sula that Ni Kaitong has a condom in his pocket, and I even thought about it, with my eyes, I lit his pocket, and then exposed the condom outside, so that Sula could see Ni Kaitong's intentions.

But maybe that's what she's willing to do.

I walked over and Sula saw me and said, "Oh, it's you!" ”

She finally remembered my face, and I suddenly felt a little sad.

"Zhi'an, why are you going?" He asked.

"Go home, why are you here?"

"Eat up, take a walk on the street." Ni Kaitong patted his stomach, and then I saw Sula turn her head to look at him and smile

She is always like this, irrigating the poisonous seedling in my heart with her smile, and I watched it grow little by little, take root in my heart, and then spread unscrupulously.

Later, a big event happened in the dormitory, I was drinking in the dormitory next door that day, and everyone was talking about it, and then I asked, "Is there a pure woman in the world now?" ”

"Pure fart, current woman, seriously, with money, anyone can do it." One of them said.

I hugged the bottle and didn't speak, just took a sullen sip.

"What you're asking, did your woman let someone else?" The other laughed.

I suddenly thought of Ni Kaitong drinking stuffy wine, and what he said to me, Sula was pregnant, and he didn't know what to do.

Hearing the man's words, I suddenly couldn't help but cry, and the cry went through the walls and into our dormitory.

"Damn, you kid died without interest, it's really, it's useless for you to cry, okay, don't lose the people in Lao Tzu's dormitory."

"You can't shut up." One of them finally couldn't help it anymore and grabbed me by the neck to warn me that Ni Kaitong just saw this scene when he kicked the door and rushed in.

I was choked by the neck by a man, sobbing, and sitting on the ground like a madman.

Ignoring it, he rushed forward and punched the man in my neck.

This time, the people in the dormitory were angered, and they rushed down to beat Ni Kaitong, I watched him beat four people by himself through tears, and he couldn't prevent the left, but he couldn't prevent the right, and his face bloomed after a while.

Actually, I wasn't drunk, but I didn't want to step forward, there was a vicious voice in my heart telling me, that he deserved it, he deserved to run over and be beaten, he deserved it, he deserved it.

However, I felt that I was so despicable that I cried even harder.

I really broke it, I don't know how I got back to the dormitory, anyway, I went back to the dormitory, and I never got up, and the next afternoon, I woke up, but nothing happened.

Ni Kaitong hung up the color, his face was blue and red, and the corners of his eyes were swollen, he didn't go to Sula for the past two days, but kept explaining to Sula on the phone, he didn't want Sula to know that he was injured.

He looked at me with grievance and discomfort, probably because he felt that I should not forget the beating he had taken for me that night.

"That's the thing, it's only a freshman, do you really want Sula to give birth to the child?" The monkey asked.

"Don't be stupid, how expensive it is to raise a child now, besides, we are still domesticated now, don't be rash, the only thing you can do is to be good to her, in the future, if you are together, even if you have a bunch of children." The boss said as he smoked a cigarette.

"Does your family know?" I asked.

Ni Kaitong looked at me, stopped talking, hid in the corner and smoked one after another, my phone rang, and when I picked up the phone and saw that it was Sula's, I was stunned.

"Guo Zi, Sura called me, I guess I can't contact you!" I took my phone and showed it to Ni Kaitong.

He ran over, looked at Sula on the phone, bit his lip, pushed the phone to me, and said, "You take it." ”

"Then I really took it?" I asked him again.

"Let's take it." He said.

Ni Kaitong stood there, listening to me pick up the phone, her voice was colder than a mechanical voice, and said, "Can you accompany me?" I'll be waiting for you downstairs in a moment. ”

After speaking, the phone hung up, and I relayed the words to Ni Kaitong as it was, and then asked him if I should go.

Go ahead, he said, and then as I climbed out of bed, he said, wait a minute.

"Take care of her for me, I don't want to see her like this now and worry her." He looked at me and said.

Then he took some money out of his bag, borrowed some money from the monkey and the boss, gave it to me, and said again, take care of her for me.

Sula asked me to accompany her to the abortion, I went with her, looking at her heroic expression, all the way, her face was very cold, the smile I had seen before, as if it had never appeared, I really couldn't think of how a face with such an expression could be transformed into that flower-like smile.

I used the money that Ni Kaitong and I gave me to pay for the operation.

I didn't tell Ni Kaitong, Sula knocked the child off, I looked at the pale woman who came out of the operating table, and I realized, really, the fetus is very painful.

I didn't know what to buy, but I heard from others that I couldn't eat too tired of eating just after the fetus, so I packed an egg soup from the restaurant next to it and gave it to Sula.

When she came out of the operating room, she was still unconscious, her eyes were tightly closed, I looked at her face, a little distressed, she finally woke up, still a little dizzy, looked at me, then turned her head to look to the side, and finally there was a trace of disappointment in her eyes.

I helped her sit up slowly, she turned her head, looked at me, and said to me, "Thank you, An'an." ”

"I don't know what you can drink now, this is egg soup, you can drink some." I brought her the soup and spooned it to her.

Warm tears flowed from the corners of her eyes, and when she finished drinking the soup, when she came out of the hospital, her steps were still a little weak, and I stubbornly carried her back, and she did not refuse.

Now she is fragile, it turns out that no matter how strong a woman is, she will be weak, and she is not a strong woman in the first place.

When I walked to the dorm building, when I put her off my back, she hugged me and said thank you again.

I felt very happy, and when I went back, I didn't tell Ni Kaitong about these things.

That day, Ni Kaitong and the boss came back drunk, and then asked me crying why I didn't tell him about Sula's fetus.

I pursed my lips and said, "She won't let me sue you."

I saw Ni Kaitong's sad expression, and I almost shed tears when that expression was infected, Ni Kaitong really loves Sula, but what about me, I love it too.

Later, Sula kissed me, and because of me, hurt her arm, and I knew that Sula was just trying to anger Ni Kaitong, because her eyes betrayed her.

Ni Kaitong stopped making trouble, he said to me, "Xu Zhi'an, you take good care of Sula for me, good brother, you will fall in love with her." ”

So I went on a date with Sulla.

"An An." That's what Sulla called me.

We went to lunch together, walked through the snack street of the school, she didn't enter a restaurant, I know, every restaurant, Ni Kaitong took her to, it was full of their memories.

That day, in the park, I wanted to kiss her like they did, but she pushed me away fiercely, saw my injured eyes, and said, An'an, what are you doing.

She smiled at me, but it made me chill.

After being with me, I never saw the smile on her face again, the smile that used to be like a flower.

I took her to KFC and took her to eat delicious food, but she couldn't be happy, and there was a dark light on her face, and Ni Kaitong was the same, although she said that she wanted me to take care of Sula, but the distance between me and me was getting farther and farther.

That day, Sula seemed to think about it for a long time, and suddenly opened her mouth and said to me, "I don't want to do this anymore." Her expression was sad, painful, and struggling.

She didn't even break up with me, in her eyes, I had never entered, and now, she didn't even want to give up, she left me alone and went back to the dormitory.

I was very sad, I drank a lot of wine, and when I walked into the dormitory, I saw Ni Kaitong, he was a lot of decadent, his beard had grown a stubble, and he glanced at me, and there was a dark pain in his eyes.

I closed the door, deliberately grinning wide, wide, and feeling like the corners of my mouth were about to tear, and I yelled "Sura and I!" ”

I laughed, and then saw Ni Kaitong's angry eyes, rushing towards me, just like he did for me that day, punched me hard at the corner of my mouth, I still grinned, I tasted the taste of blood in my mouth, and I couldn't dissolve.

The boss and the monkey sat on the bed, silent, and I watched Ni Kaitong cry while beating me, and my tears flowed out

I always thought that she was my shadow of Ni Kaitong, but later I found out that I was not even a shadow, just a void person.

"I don't blame you!" He was tired and then sat at the head of my bed and said.

Ni Kaitong and I didn't have a girl named Sula on our mobile phones, she was really a good girl, so good that she didn't want to give in, she didn't give me a chance, and waited for her to fall in love with me, but she clearly said that for Ni Kaitong, she also took her time, why, for me, no.

I covered the quilt, tears flowed to the pillow towel, bit the quilt, and cried for a long, long time......

I don't know how this matter got to Sula's mouth, but it shouldn't be Ni Kaitong's words, Sula broke into the boys' dormitory, with an angry face, a height of 1.7 meters, standing there, looking at it, a tear fell from her eyes.

She walked straight up to me, grabbed my clothes hard, and slapped me in the face, a hot tingling sensation that pierced my heart.

"Bastard!" She cried and scolded me.

I was so sad that I wanted to hold her hand tightly and say, "Scold, at least you remember me," but I just laughed, laughed maniacally, and the moment I was thrown on the bed by Sula, my tears fell again.

Scold, at least she remembers me, even if it's hate, she remembers that there is a call for me, so that she hates.

But I didn't expect that she was gone, and within two days, she had gone through the formalities of leaving the school, and I would never see Sula on campus again, and I suddenly began to regret that maybe I hadn't done that, Sura, maybe she would still stay in this school, and she would see her every day.

Later, Ni Kaitong had a new girlfriend, An Beibei, but he stopped smiling, I was in a dormitory with Ni Kaitong, I didn't look up and look down, and he never spoke to me again.

In my sophomore year, I moved out.

In my senior year, Sula came back, she changed, she was wearing high heels, heavy makeup, at first glance, I almost didn't recognize her, there was a man next to her, I didn't know her.

Ni Kaitong heard that the night Sula came back, he didn't sleep all night with excitement, even if someone told him that he was admitted to Tsinghua University, he would not be so excited, it was a kind of joy that was lost and regained.

He launched a second round of fierce offensive against Sula, and Sulla rejected him, and I knew that after these two years, Sulla was no longer the same Sula.

Later, I saw Sula again, I told her what happened before, I saw her holding the cup tightly, looking at me with a resentful expression, and wanted to splash soda on my face, but Ni Kaitong came out of nowhere, punched me hard, knocked me to the ground, and scolded me like Sula did at the beginning, "Bastard!" Then he took Sura's hand and walked out of the café door.

They were still holding hands as they had done at the beginning, and I found out that what I had done was just to make them miss each other for two years, and still couldn't separate them.

What did I do.

The passers-by who came and went, looking at the wolf on the ground, I stood up, propped up the chair, sat down on the chair again, poured the soda in front of Sula on my head, and lay on the chair in a daze.

On the TV screen of the menu, there were two flying butterflies, hovering in front of my eyes, flapping their wings back and forth, and then disappearing from the screen in an instant.

How much like Sulla, only for a moment in my life, but I never had her. R1152