Fanwai three Yuan Shan

However, there is no more chance, the next time I see him, he is standing next to Lin Mo, my heart is like glass, broken to the ground, I step by step on the broken glass to him, what Lin Mo said, I can't hear it, my head is cloudy, my heart is like falling lead, the smile on my face is the scene of the wound in my heart sewn up.

I lay in bed and listened to that song all night, and I cried as I listened to it, and how well the lyrics fit me.

I've never felt this way before

Left and right daily thoughts

Every breath

The heart is occupied but there is no attachment

It's you who fascinate me

Gave sweetness and kept a distance

And you come and go in style to play the game of love

I am losing my courage day by day

It's unforgettable for you

Wait, for you

Because I have loved, I know how strong

It was so thick that it hurt in my heart

The pain is all moving

I'm really, really different.

I didn't dare to look for Lin Mo again, I looked at Lin Mo's call, watched it ring, and when she came up to me, she said, I went to the toilet, I didn't hear it.

Lin Mo asked me to have a meal together, saying that he and I were two very important people in her life, but I was afraid, I didn't want to see him put the food in Lin Mo's bowl.

I didn't know what to do, so I told my parents that I was going abroad, but my parents strongly disagreed, and then my father said that as long as you can get in, we will let you go.

So I applied to New Oriental, looked at his photo in a daze, and asked at the same table, "Who is this?" ”

I hesitated for a moment and said, "My boyfriend." ”

"It's so handsome! That's good. She said.

My face is so hot that I guess I'm going to be selfish out of sight.

I met Lin Mo less and less, and occasionally passed by a certain store, and when I saw beautiful clothes, I was not in the mood to go in and have a look.

Eventually, I somehow went into a tattoo shop, and I stabbed a few falling dandelions on my arm, and I haven't shown my arm since.

Before my love could begin to sprout, I died in the cradle, and they said it was a secret love.

The astringent, unripe green apple flavor is indeed the most unique and unforgettable.

Lin Mo called and cried and told me that she and Lu Yifan had a quarrel, and Lu Yifan said that they would be separated for a few days.

The taste in my heart is indescribable, salty and astringent, sweet and spicy, like a mixed spice box, mixed and stirring my heart.

It's sweet because of the little joy and selfishness in my heart, I don't know if I should be happy, but there is a very weak voice in my ear that says to me, Yuan Shan, Yuan Shan, shouldn't you be happy? They quarreled.

Salty because, when I heard Lin Mo say that they quarreled, I seemed to feel her tears flowing into my mouth, I thought, if this person was not Lu Yifan, I would definitely lend her a shoulder and let her wipe her tears, but because it was Lu Yifan, I couldn't do it, and our relationship was frozen there, my best friend, so I also cried.

It's spicy because my heart is struggling in such a contradiction, like a person choking on chili peppers, tears are flowing down, but I can't fix it, I can only let the tears wash away and relieve my burning sensation.

Astringent because, I decided to coax Lin Mo, friendship defeated the so-called bullshit love, although I was uncomfortable, my heart was astringent, but I was very relieved.

It's just that I didn't expect that I would see the call on Lin Mo's mobile phone, it was Lu Yifan calling, I hesitated and picked it up.

"Lin Mo, do you love me? Do you think only women love to hear these three words? I really want to know, do you really love me, do you care about me? His tone was very low, and there was a whimper behind him.

His words were very rough and a little unsteady in his voice, and I guessed that because of Lin Mo, he went to drink.

I deleted the call log, put Lin Mo's mobile phone back in its place, and searched for it from store to store, and finally saw Lu Yifan's drunken face in that small shop, still holding beer in his hand, and a bottle of liquor was already placed on his side.

It was the first time I had seen him lose his temper like this.

I sat next to him, and he looked at me with his eyes slit, and then poured his wine and asked me, "Did Lin Mo ask you to come?" ”

I didn't speak, snatched the beer he had poured and drank it in one gulp, and put the empty cup back in front of him.

"Okay, come, you come and drink with me." He smiled at me and beckoned the waiter to bring me a cup.

"Stop drinking, what's wrong with you and Lin Mo?" I pressed his hand as it was about to pour the wine, but it was so warm that I hurriedly retracted.

"There is a company in Shanghai that invited me to go to them to be J**A, with a monthly salary of 10,000 yuan, two years, I have the ability to raise her alone, but, looking at her, I am reluctant to go, for her, I gave up the opportunity to go to Shanghai, I didn't sue her, but she, more and more excessive, I even think that she will betray me like betraying that man, as long as there is a better than me, will, now such a man has appeared." He pushed my hand away and poured it into the cup, then looked up and drank it, and I saw the corners of his eyes glistening in the light.

"Since she doesn't think about it, then don't do it!" I suddenly blurted out uncontrollable words, and I thought it was the voice from the bottom of my heart.

He turned his head, looked at me, looked at me for a moment, and said, "Aren't you her best friend?" ”

I felt like I had been slapped on the head, my head was sullen, I swallowed my saliva, and after a long time, I said, "I'm just speaking from a fair standpoint."

"Yuan Shan, how did you meet Lin Mo at the beginning?"

"Is she very close, from the first time I saw her in the Internet café, I inexplicably liked her, wanted to get close to her, and later found out that she had a boyfriend, so I remembered very vulgar words, as long as I was not married, there was always an opportunity to dig the foot of the wall, so I went to dig, successful, I was so happy, but, since she went to work, everything has changed, everything has changed."

It turned out that he had liked her for a long time, and it turned out that he liked her long before the playground. It's really strange fate, when they first met, and I don't know anything.

He got more and more drunk, the scene in front of me tugged, I sent him back to his room in a daze, I took the key out of his pocket, he leaned most of his body against me, his cheek was only a few tenths of a millimeter away from me, I felt his breath spray on my pores, my heart was pounding.

I rummaged through the cabinets, found the tea leaves, made a cup of strong tea for him, fed it to him, and drank the water, as if the fog in front of him had dissipated, looked at me, and said to me, "Yuan Shan, you go back, I don't need anyone to take care of me." ”

He looked at me with annoyance, disappointment, and a faint look that I couldn't tell.

He staggered away and fell on the bed, I walked over, knelt on the bed, looked at him, looked at his face that fascinated me, looked at his beautiful eyebrows, beautiful nose, beautiful lips, I took off my thin coat and touched him with my hand, he felt the touch of his hand, pushed me away fiercely, and said "I'm not drunk." ”

I ignored it, kissed him on the lips fiercely, and then gently said to him, "It's Lin Mo who is sorry for you, she has someone outside." ”

Then I saw tears of despair slip through the corners of his eyes, and then began to bite my lip frantically, the corners of his mouth hurt, but I was happy, and he said with tears in his eyes, "Why do you want to do this to me." ”

He just got into my body like that, it hurt, it didn't feel comfortable at all, but I don't regret it, I'm happy, I did what I said in my freshman year, and I dedicated my first time to him.

I watched him whimpering and crying, like a child, I hugged him and coaxed, and then I heard him scold me, "Why don't you stop me, don't you hate me?" ”

"I've never hated you ,,,." I said very lowly, wanting to nest in his arms.

"I still remember that because of your words, she had an awkward relationship with me for several days, do you know how much she cares about you?" He sat up and roared.

"What do you care, she robbed my favorite boy!" I cried and roared, thinking of Lin Mo, and suddenly saw Lin Mo's face next to Lu Yifan, she looked at me with disappointed and painful eyes.

"I've never liked you, and everything I did to you was just because you were Lin Mo's best friend." He said, and then he saw me naked, took his shirt from the bed and put it on for me, and said to me in a very deep voice, "You can go." ”

He began to regret it and fell into bed.

I sat on the chair and suddenly felt very calm, because the crazy white hyacinth in my heart withered in an instant, because I heard him constantly shouting Lin Mo's name, and that shouting made my heart instantly tear apart.

I finally understood his pain.

Some pain is destined to be borne alone, to be strong alone, with him.

Some pain, destined to scab alone, healed alone, with me.

I have never entered his heart, I should have understood from the beginning, but if I am not reconciled, or I do not give up, even if I am good at everything, what is the use.

I turned off my phone, scared to hear the sound of my phone ringing.

At the airport, there were so many people around, and there were so few people around, I saw my mother leaning on my father's street, sad for my departure, as if they had Lin Mo's shadow beside them, waving at me fiercely, and Lu Yifan, who was standing on her side, was smiling sweetly at me.

Maybe that's not bad either, but the saddest thing for me is that I broke the heart of a naïve girl because I had a crush on a guy and I ruined the best friendship we had ever had.

I regret what I did to her, I remembered what she once said to me, Yuan Shan, when I get married, you must be a bridesmaid, she has such a good personality, she can get along with anyone, she, she is just too heartless, I suddenly miss her.

I boarded the space and saw Lin Mo replying under my mood:

As long as you feel that you are doing the right thing, bless you, Yuan Shan, I will always be your best sister! Don't forget.

My eyes hurt like sand, and I whispered, "Fool! A tear fell on the screen.

When I blinked and opened it again, those shadows disappeared, when, when I thought of Lin Mo, I would naturally bring out Lu Yifan, or when I thought of Lu Yifan, I would bring out Lin Mo, I couldn't tell.

The sound of the box rubbing on the floor, there was a whistling wind in my ears, I seemed to hear it, Lin Mo's voice sounded in the noisy airport, her voice gradually approached, and she yelled at me, "Yuan Shan, why don't you sue me!" "I didn't turn around, I just took it one step at a time.

When I got off the plane, breathing in the unfamiliar air and looking at the unfamiliar faces around me, my box played a lonely rhythm.

Alone, like the unattended dandelion tattooed on my arm, floating far away, forgetting my farthest appearance.

I'm sorry, my favorite girl, that once stupid and naïve girl, I can't be by your side anymore, I'm sorry, I hurt you, I'm really sorry. R1152