In the first few days after Wang Lan left, Chenxi lay in the stuffy rental room, as if she had been steamed, and occasionally she could hear the sound of the wind blowing the trees at night.

Time seems to be very slow, in the dark night, she quietly listens to her heartbeat, beating vigorously one by one, insomnia is not the most painful, the most painful thing is in the quiet night, under the quiet thoughts, she will always think about things, usually don't have time to think, don't want to think, into her mind, forcing her to think.

So I tossed and turned, and couldn't sleep all night.

In fact, on the one hand, it still comes from the body, because she has just finished the amputation, she can't walk more, and she has to unload it at night, in order to prevent a series of other diseases such as leg swelling, at night, she must hang her leg high, she has never been so afraid of the night, and on her side is the sound of her father's breathing, one after another, she always seems to be able to hear a long sigh from it.

A girl of sixteen or seventeen slept in the same bed with her father.

As she listened to her father's snoring and counted the number of times her eyes blinked, she turned her head to see the sky that had lit up slightly through the curtain that was slightly blown by the breeze, and when she felt her father turn around, she pretended to close her eyes again.

When she is alone, her favorite thing to do is to dig out a thick pile of payment slips from under the bed, and then open the calculator on her mobile phone, add up the money on it one by one, and then look at the amount of nearly 500,000 yuan on it, and feel a little better, so that she can also blame all the responsibility on her own head, at least, her parents, worked hard, but she couldn't afford it.

At least, it's not that her parents don't love her.

At least there is a real number, and she is not deceiving herself.

When Gao Yang came back from outside one day, Chenxi sat up from the bed, and was putting on his prosthetic leg and placing the metal instrument on his lap, he walked over, didn't speak, just lowered his head, and secretly tied her up.

"Dad."

"Take care of it, the most difficult time has passed." He said.

However, how can he do without a woman at home, Gao Yang can't cook, and Chenxi, the activity is not very convenient, and he can't afford to bring food every day.

When I looked at my phone, I saw the spatial dynamics posted by my classmates, "For high school students, the most common thing is actually the teacher. She sighed slightly, before she looked empathetic, but now she is full of devastation.

She practiced her leg movements desperately in bed, until one day, Gao Yang came back and saw Chenxi standing at the door smiling at him.

She walked twice in front of him, and the first thing she said was; "Dad, I want to go back to school."

"Can you do it with your legs?" Gao Yang looked at her with some concern and asked, and Chenxi could see his hand in the slightly propped arc of his pocket.

This is Gao Yang's favorite action, he used to always like to hold two steel balls, but after a long time, it has become a habit, and when he thinks about things, his hand is inexplicably arcing.

"Yes." She affirmed.

It's just that now, money is not as convenient as before, unlike before, what she says, her parents should do, and she used to have just one mouth.

"Dad, I want to sign up for a cram school, and I feel that my English has been a little bad lately."

"Dad, let's go eat outside."

"Dad, I want to learn to draw......"

"Dad, give me some money......"

"Dad, I want to buy a mobile phone ............

She is still using the oppo mobile phone, the most dazzling mobile phone at that time, and now, in the era of large-screen mobile phones flying everywhere, no matter how good it is, the keyboard has always gradually retired.

This was the first step she needed to take, and later, she realized that compared to her later situation, at that time, it was already good.

An accident pulled her off the princess.

Because of the suspension of school, now, it is the most cost-effective to go to the original school.

Therefore, when she stepped into this school again, it took a lot of courage, and it was the ** in her heart that defeated people's eyes.

And she is also cowardly, because she always feels that there are countless pairs of eyes looking at her, looking at her current downfall.

Among the girls, there are also trends, but they haven't seen them for half a year, and they no longer shout and ask for warmth, but just point fingers at others behind the dawn.

In that half a year, she went to the school's psychological counseling room almost every week, where she cried at the big sister, and then looked at her with sympathetic eyes.

In that half a year, she was also crazy.

She went crazy and submitted articles to the youth journal, and then every time she passed by the school gatehouse, she would always ask, "May I ask, is there a letter from Gao Shengmei?" ”

Over time, the porter also got to know her as a girl, and before she reached the door, he said to her, "Girl, there is no letter from you." ”

She was unwilling, and she didn't dare to give up, this was the only way she could think of to make money at present, the one who wrote on the submission, the remuneration of one hundred yuan per thousand words for the short story.

Deng Chao is her classmate, classmate, Deng Chao liked her before, she knew it, but now, when she looks at him, she has lost her original arrogance.

Everyone in the class said that Deng Chao would not chase her anymore because she had become like that.

At that time, stationery and love letters were still popular, and they were also spreading.

But he still confessed, she always felt that at this time, Deng Chao chased her again, somewhat with a bit of condescending sympathy.

She refused.

Finally, when she got the first reply, she finally had her own income.

In fact, at that time, she didn't think about love, if she didn't want to die, she had to let herself live a good life.

I'm not worse than others, I can't be worse than others, this kind of belief, supports her, and likewise, makes her whole person strong.

Still, something happened.

One morning, because class was about to start, she looked at her watch and hurried to the classroom, so she ran a few steps, and it was these steps that made her unable to stand up in pain, and she always felt that the wound that had healed, like a tear, she squatted on the ground, and she couldn't stand up in pain.

She felt a fluttering softness under her feet, and then she felt a piercing pain pass through her heart, not the itching pain like an insect bite, but as if someone had suddenly knocked on her leg bone, and she could feel the sound of the bone breaking, which shattered her nerves.

It was Deng Chao who hugged her and went to the hospital.

In front of the hospital bed, Deng Chao accompanied Chenxi all night, holding her tightly with his hands, he didn't separate all night, a layer of fine sweat had already rippled between his fingers, his eyes looked at her quiet sleeping face, full of sadness, he felt that Chenxi was holding his eyelids, as if he was about to open them, he hurriedly let go of her hand and pretended to be asleep.

When I opened my eyes, I didn't see my parents