When I reached the top of the mountain, I looked back and saw nothingness.

——Shao Nian's self-report

I've never had strong feelings, I've never had strong love and hate.

When I was a child, I used to wonder why people have seven emotions and six desires.

Seven emotions can make people bruised all over their bodies, but so many people flock to them, why?

As a teenager, I didn't get an answer.

The six desires, on the other hand, make people incarnate into beasts, abandon all the norms of being human beings, and are dominated by instincts, doing what their bodies want to do.

In other words, as long as you don't abandon the seven emotions and six desires, then man is a beast in itself, but it is just suppressed.

Ever since I was a child, my faith has been forgetfulness.

I'm not a good articulate person. When too many fathers did it indiscriminately, I couldn't defend it, so I could only suppress my emotions.

Strange to say, suppressed and depressed, it gradually faded, so faded that I could watch others suffer the harshest punishment in the army at the age of twelve.

When I was fifteen years old, my mother's death made my love even lighter.

is so faint that he will not help when he sees the ugliness of human nature, even if the other party is only a child who is being bullied, and he is so faint that he is about to give up.

At that time, the sky and the earth would not blink, and it was me.

What does it matter to me in all things?

I enclosed myself in a cage and forced myself every day to do everything perfectly, except for the absence of feelings.

Perhaps it would be better to describe me as an emotionless working machine.

But there's no denying that it's the best state of work.

In those decades, I reached a height that no one else could look up to in a lifetime, relying on myself.

Looking at the sunlight shining down on my desk in my office, I felt like I was getting everything I wanted as a teenager, but it felt like something was missing.

When you set foot on the top of the peaks that you once looked at, you will not feel the glory of enjoying the attention of thousands of people, but only lonely wandering.

At least for me.

I watched the moonset, the sunrise, the starfall, and the sunset in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows in Qingcheng. Day after day, year after year, there has never been a stay in Qingcheng in the middle of the night.

Until that day, I made an exception.

It was a normal night.

I sat in the floor-to-ceiling window as usual, holding my pen, and the barrel of the pen tapped on the table.

Suddenly, I skimmed the date and remembered that today was the day of my monthly city tour.

It's a hassle.

With my sword in hand, I got up from the seat I had been sitting in all day.

I don't know why, maybe because of the inexplicable guidance in my heart, or maybe because of the throbbing, I didn't choose to walk down the main street as usual, but walked through the alleys.

No one found my trace.

It was getting dark, and I suddenly felt that something was wrong with the moonlight today.

Looking up, I saw the blood moon in the sky.

Blood Moon ....... It seems that something is destined to happen.

As I walked through the streets, I suddenly swept a trail of blood, which had not yet solidified.

I stopped. Perception swept across the entire Qingcheng in an instant.

It was at that moment that I felt that at the end of the alley, which was only a hundred meters away from me, two powerful auras that should not have appeared collided and collapsed.

Who, exactly?

Is....... It's been a long time since there's anything that interests me.

Step by step through the bloody alley, as the light gradually brightened, I looked at people, many people.

There are dead people, and naturally there are living people, like, there is also a half-dead person.

Yes.....

Those living people seem to be my pen.

At the moment when I squinted, an incomparably stunning sword light lit up, illuminating the dark alley.

In that incomparably dazzling sword light, I saw a slender figure, dark in a cold and resolute color that I had never seen before.

At that moment, I felt the majestic ghost clan's true qi erupt from her, but at that moment.......

I felt like I heard another voice again.

A shattering sound from the corner of my heart.

My heart shook uncontrollably as her sword light fell.

I never knew what was going on in my heart, and at that moment, I wanted to save her, whoever she was.

"Get out of here, forget what you saw today, and act as if nothing had happened!" I just wanted to watch a show, because it was none more than anything they wanted to do.

However, my mind has changed.

"Oh?" I think the little soldier who spoke to me had the courage to speak like this, and perhaps it had been a long time since he had been pointed at and spoken like this.

"General Ben is on his own turf, and he wants to forget everything he sees?" I haven't shown up for a long time, and it seems that many people have forgotten who I am.

It's a hassle.

Since it's in my way, it's better to die. Anyway, you don't have my orders.

Violating military orders, and using force against others in the city, is a death penalty.

The awakened feelings in my heart were once again covered with boundless indifference.

"Presumptuous!" dare to .......be unreasonable to the deputy commander-in-chief," he didn't realize what I was talking about, as if he was used to talking but not braining.

What an idiot. Qingcheng doesn't need fools.

My hands were tucked into my sleeves and raised slightly.

At this moment, a voice interjected: "It's my subordinates who have no way to discipline me, and the general is atoning for his sins!"

I raised an eyebrow.

There was a deputy commander.

I don't remember what I said, after all, they don't matter to me.

Seem....... It's to be killed.

Anyway, when I really saw her eyebrows clearly, I was amazed again.

Half of it may be because she is a human race, and the other half is her indifferent and quiet but naturally arrogant eyebrows.

Never throw in the towel.

I was probably stunned, and instead of strangling her, I took her back.

Maybe when I was in the office with her, I didn't realize that I didn't care about all her past, I just cared about where she was now.

She has a nice code name, called Mirror.

When she was by my side as an adjutant, I did a lot of things that I had never done before.

For example, standing in front of a person.

For example, knowing that the man is a scourge but not willing to let go.

In the battle of Zhenyang, Su Liuyun's betrayal was unexpected and reasonable.

It's not that I don't have doubts about him, but decades of companionship and fighting side by side are true, so there is no need to pursue it.

But once betrayed, that ....... And do not come back.

As for the mirror, I never thought that he would stand in front of me when Liang Thirty-one drew his sword.

I knew she was going to poison her, and I knew what she was doing for some reason, but I was willing.

When Liang Thirty-one came out of the sword, I was ready to die, after all, I and her can never be together, so why bother?

Since I'm on her job, kill me and she'll be able to go back and live her life.

The moment I thought I was going to die, all the stress was gone.

I looked at the figure again in a trance.

At that moment, my mind went blank, there was no strategy, no tactics, only a blank space.

I panicked, panicked.

I've never acknowledged my feelings, and I'm afraid to admit them. Until Major General Luo woke me up.

I felt relieved.

Let go of the long-term entanglement and confusion, and also have a vision for the future.

I understood why I was so nice to her.

It turns out that this is a feeling.

It doesn't seem that simple, it's not that easy, but it's really driven by instinct.

At least, if I had chosen this path, I would have broken through the south wall and not looked back.

Unless it is at stake for her safety, I will never hesitate.

At a glance, the moment I first met you, I spent my life.