Cheng Nanwei's lips trembled, those injuries, he still felt heartbroken when he mentioned them now, "We do have the same career, the same pursuit, we are all willing to work hard for these, but this matter is too tightly hidden, I really thought you were dead, you don't know the first days, how I survived this long four years as if I was worse than dead......

When I first learned about it, every minute and every second of my heart ached, and on many nights when no one was there, I even quietly passed my eyes, and I used to look for you like a madman on the street where you had an accident, and then sat there like a fool, hoping for a miracle, hoping that you would come back......"

"I'm sorry, Nanwei, I was wrong... I'm sorry......" Yu Zhan listened to the resolute Cheng Nanwei, and dissected the most fragile emotions in his heart to herself, she knew that she had forced Cheng Nanwei to a certain level, otherwise with his city and restraint, he would not have told herself this.

Cheng Nanwei has never told anyone about his life and death, but now Yu Zhan's words have made him have a desire to talk, those grievances and injuries are as hot as blood flowing in his veins, and he wants to be expressed unstoppably.

His voice trembled a little, he lit a cigarette and took two puffs hard, "After I thought you left, I went to the camp where we trained together, went to the classroom where we trained, walked the way we went back to the dormitory together, I even went to the town where you lived in your childhood, the school where you studied, when I walked through these places, I thought about what you looked like back then, as if those places still have traces of you......"

Yu Zhan didn't expect that Cheng Nanwei, who was as rational as steel, had done so many emotional things for herself, guilt, self-blame, remorse, and pain tightly surrounded her, her heart was like a knife, hugging Cheng Nanwei and crying bitterly.

Cheng Nanwei talked about these painful pasts, he could still feel a lot of pain in his chest, and he didn't even move his fingers to push away Yu Zhan, "That was the most terrible and unbearable day of my life, in order to get out of that suffocating pain, I worked like a machine every day like a machine, until I was tired and could fall asleep in bed, but when my eyes opened, I was still overwhelmed and sad and heartbroken..."

"Nanwei, don't say it, it's me who is not good, it's all my self-righteousness......" Yu Zhan's voice choked, accompanied by Cheng Nanwei's narration, his thoughts screamed in the memories of the sky, and the pain was heartbreaking.

Cheng Nanwei's eyes showed desolation, and he said with some self-deprecation: "When I knew that a miracle really happened, you were still alive, and you returned with honor, I was angry with you, I hated you, I even thought about it, I would no longer pay attention to you for the rest of my life, put aside the interests of the country, you were too cruel and selfish to me..."

"Nanwei..."Yu Zhan Ai raised her head, sadness rolled uncontrollably in her heart, at this time she did not have the heroic posture of a female judge, nor did she have the usual nobility and coldness, let alone a pair of shallow pear vortices that appeared when she was happy and smiled, her spirit was flying, her crying hair was a little messy, her face was pale, and her lips were trembling, but there was a kind of frightening pity when she looked at it.

If it was in the past, Cheng Nanwei would not hesitate to reach out and hug Yu Zhan, because he would not let his beloved woman be hurt a little, but now, he also stretched out his hand, but pushed away Yu Zhan in front of him, "The current qiē will not change, I am not the Cheng Nanwei I used to be, I am now Cong Jiajia's husband, from the moment I decide to marry Cong Jiajia, I will be responsible for her." ”

"There is only responsibility between you, there is no love..."Yu Zhan retorted fiercely with a sad expression, "You don't love her, and a marriage without love is immoral..."

"People can't live only for love, if they are controlled by feelings and ignore their responsibilities and obligations, what is the difference between such people and animals." Cheng Nanwei was a little displeased, his eyes returned to Qingming and sharp, "It's late, you have a good rest, I should go back..."

Yu Zhan watched Cheng Nanwei get up firmly, and left without hesitation, she sat on the sofa in despair, and suddenly shouted loudly: "What if I come back half a year earlier?" What if I come back before you get married? ”

"There is no if." Cheng Nanwei paused, "My life has been reinterpreted because of Cong Jiajia." ”

Yu Zhan sat on the sofa as if he had been struck by lightning, and he no longer had the strength to use excuses to keep Cheng Nanwei.

Cheng Nanwei strode out of Yu Zhan's home, kept a firm pace into the elevator, walked to his side with a straight waist, and didn't allow his body to relax until he got into his car.

He leaned back in his seat, took out a cigarette, and inhaled it fiercely, gulping very attentively, until the cigarette burned to his head and burned his fingers, and he suddenly woke up and threw the cigarette out of the window.

Yu Zhan came back, but it was too late, from then on, she had to get out of her life, and between them was like a wonderful movie that had been released, no matter how impressive, it had become a thing of the past.

Cheng Nanwei didn't know how long he sat in the car until the phone in his pocket rang.

"Husband, where are you, and how long will it take to come back?" Cong Jiajia's voice was a little dissatisfied, but she asked cautiously.

The little girl must remember her recklessness in the afternoon, otherwise with her little temper, she will probably have to shout at herself...

I don't know why, Cheng Nanwei, who was depressed and irritable in his heart, felt a little funny when he heard Cong Jiajia's voice, this Cong Jiajia always had a way to make him forgive her unconditionally.

Cheng Nanwei took a breath and cheered up, "I'm on the way, and I'll be able to go home soon." ”

"Okay, husband, pay attention to safety when driving on the road..."

Cong Jiajia listened to Cheng Nanwei's tone calmly, estimating that he was no longer angry with himself because of the afternoon's events, she was very happy, she felt that Cheng Nanwei seemed to be a little tired from the phone, so she ran to the kitchen very doggedly, quickly washed the rice, put it in the rice cooker, and timed, boiled some eight-treasure porridge for Cheng Nanwei, and simply made two small dishes.

Cheng Nanwei arrived home half an hour later, Cong Jiajia's side dishes were mixed, the porridge was served, and the room was full of fragrance.

"Husband, you're back..."Cong Jiajia flew out of the kitchen like a little butterfly, hooked Cheng Nanwei's neck and kissed it, and then wrinkled her nose, "Well, how many cigarettes have you smoked, hurry up and wash up, and then come over for some supper, I got you cold fungus, just enough to smoke lung poison for you." ”

"Yes." Cheng Nanwei smiled from the bottom of his heart, he didn't eat at night, he was really hungry now, smelling the strong fragrance of eight-treasure porridge, looking at the cute and caring little wife in front of him, he was extremely satisfied with such a life.

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