Seeing her expression, Allen's eyes darkened again.

"I already know the answer in your eyes." Alan chuckled: "In the past two years, you looked like you didn't have anything, I thought you really had no feelings for him, but sometimes, time will only make superficial things on the surface more and more precipitated, and after a long time, it will only be deeper than in the past." ”

Lin Moxin frowned: "No matter what each of you thinks, but I know for myself that the reason for returning to the United States in the first place was how much I was wronged and hurt at the beginning, so if there is no accident, I should not be with him lightly, you can rest assured." ”

"It doesn't matter if you're together or not, the important thing is whether you're willing to be with me." Alan looked at her lightly: "Moxin, when you were eighteen years old, before you dropped out of school and ran to China with that bastard, I told you that you are too persistent about some things, you, Bai has a smart head, but you are really stupid when facing feelings." ”

Lin Moxin smiled: "Well, we can be regarded as growing up together, since you know how stubborn I am, you should know that there is really no result between me and you, so Allen, don't put your mind on me." ”

Alan shook his head: "I won't occupy your noon time for the time being, but if you still don't have a boyfriend at this time before next year, I'm going to start officially pursuing you, whether you're happy or not." ”

“……”

Lin Moxin looked at the back of him speechlessly and turned around after he finished speaking, pinching the file bag in his hand, only feeling a little weak.

Back in the piano classroom, Xin Duo had already left, the classroom was empty, this classroom was Professor Harry's private classroom, only two pianos were here, Lin Moxin was a frequent visitor here, and the other students were in other classrooms.

Looking at the quiet piano classroom, Lin Moxin paused before walking in. Sitting in front of the piano and looking at the sheet music that she hadn't practiced all day, it took a long time to open the file in her hand.

Two hours later, it was already dark outside the window, Lin Moxin gently put the Wen Jiàn in his hand on the piano, turned his eyes to look at the night outside the window, and didn't speak for a long time.

She finally knew what Gu Xiuli meant by that sentence.

He spent two years traveling around the world, even wandering, he experienced life and death crises, and he also experienced watching those people die of illness and starvation in Africa, but he couldn't treat so many people, he emptied everything he had, and he even walked through the rainforest......

Allen's friend has a very professional hacker, he found a friend to hack Gu Xiuli's computer, and searched out some brief photos and records in his private website and private blog, Gu Xiuli did not go to a place to take pictures, and the environment was solid, he did not bring money with him, he did not go to travel, but occasionally there would be some photos taken by his peers for records.

In his private blog, which no one could search outside, he wrote a brief record and impression of each place he visited.

And he was hit by a stray bullet in the Golden Triangle and was picked up by a peasant family in the river, and after being rescued, he only used a short sentence to describe >

Ji Xiuli, who is obsessed with his youthful feelings, is dead, and the new Gu Xiuli has been reborn.

What he meant by his words was that he had decided to say goodbye to the memories and burdens that should not have been on his body in the past, as well as those who had never belonged to him.

He let go of a qiē and regained his life in another free way.

I don't know if he went to see Ji Xinyao when he returned from wandering, if he really let go, he should go to see her.

She was in his apartment that day, and he said that the experience of growing up in life is unavoidable, and many things when he was a child were related to Ji Xinyao, and he often accompanied her in his childhood, so it is inevitable to mention it, don't mind.

He was actually telling her that because he had let go, he would no longer deliberately avoid Ji Xinyao's matter when he mentioned things when he was a child, but he would still explain to her, lest she misunderstand and mind.

But Gu Xiuli, the damage has been done, although Lin Moxin is indeed persistent and loyal when facing feelings, but when her heart is really cold, how can she warm it up?

Even if a broken mirror is still restored to its original state, it will never change the fact that it was broken.

Lin Moxin put away those texts and put them back in the file bag, it was already dark, Xin Duo saw that she hadn't gone back to the big classroom to go to class, so she sneaked out and ran to find her, and when she saw Lin Moxin playing the piano, she couldn't help but walk in in surprise and said, "My God, what time is it?" Do you still practice here? ”

"My heart is a little messy, I want to be alone for a while." Lin Moxin's fingers pressed the keys on the piano indiscriminately.

Xin Duo walked over, and suddenly said with a smile: "Then I'll skip class with you, and you can drink with me, right?" ”

Lin Moxin's fingers pressed a heavy note on the key, and then raised his eyes, and his bright eyes looked at Xin Duo's smiling eyes.

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It's still the pub outside the conservatory, this is Xin Duo's favorite pub, the atmosphere is very good, the environment is also good, this time there are not so many strange men and seniors, only the two female students, sitting in the closed box, Xin Duo has been persuading her to drink, Lin Moxin really suddenly wanted to drink a little, and he hadn't been drunk for a long time.

After a few cups of tequila, Lin Moxin closed his eyes and leaned on the sofa to listen to the vague confusion in his ears, and said in a dumb voice: "Xin Duo, do you believe it, I used to be a wine girl in a bar." ”

Xin Duo was looking down on her phone, and when she heard her words, she raised her eyes and looked at her with some surprise.

Lin Moxin was not drunk, but with the strength of the wine, he suddenly wanted to talk.

It's been two years, she thought she could really let go, these two years of peaceful life and calm heart, but after all, it was disrupted because of his appearance, obviously he didn't do anything domineering, but she was messed up.

"At that time, I ran away from home, for many years, living alone in China, a young girl, no education, no experience, need to have a place to live, need to wear beautiful clothes, but also need to eat what I like to eat, how can I satisfy myself? Make money, make lots and lots of money...... I used to be a little money junkie, and I got into a fight with someone in the supermarket because the price of a bucket of instant noodles was seven cents more expensive than someone else's, and it was really crazy at that time......

"I sell wine, I sell a lot of wine, my monthly salary plus commission can be seven or eight thousand, I can finally gain a foothold in the bustling and fast-paced city of G City, although I can only go out to work every night and sleep during the day, I seem to be cut off from the world, but I also use this way to remind myself that this qiē is all self-inflicted, I don't listen to my parents, I don't listen to my brother's advice, I have fallen to this kind of situation."

"To be honest, in those years, my world was also dark, and when I went out every day, the sun had already set, and when I came home, the sun had not yet risen...... I'm always around me with those stinky *, but I have a way to deal with them......"

"I deliberately dressed up very non-mainstream to scare away the stinky boys, but my mouth is sweet, and I will find a way to get them to drink the liquor I sell under the safe condition that they don't violate me. At that time, I thought I could understand the thoughts of every man who likes to go in and out of bars, who is actually lonely, bored, or broken by someone, so they show up in a place like a bar. Until, I met Gu Xiuli. ”

"This man made me feel very annoying at first, perhaps, we all hated each other at first, he said that if it wasn't for Bai's inevitable obstruction, he almost threw me to the wall, he didn't think that I was still a woman, he didn't think about pity Xiangyu at all, I was a garbage ...... in his eyes at that time"

"yes, it's garbage." Lin Moxin opened his eyes with a smile, and suddenly picked up a whole bottle of Marigot's cocktail next to him, and said while drinking: "But he saved me, and took care of me, the killer Matt he hated the most, he is actually a kind of warm man who respects women very much, and I have been thinking since then, why is such a man who may be very gentle by nature, always cold and isolated from the world, what kind of past does he have, and what kind of person he is......"

Later, little by little, I couldn't extricate myself from falling in love with him, and then later, I found out that maybe we were not people from the same world, so I chose to leave quietly, and cut off the relationship before it began, but ...... He came to the United States, and then I didn't hesitate to go back to China with him......"

"I thought love was what I imagined, you love me, and then everyone was happy. But every time I hugged him tightly, he didn't give me a harder hug back, every time I did something, there were doubts and uncertainties in his eyes, he was picky about my living habits like a big parent, and I didn't know until later, just because I didn't look like the person in his heart at all, and then ...... I'm tired, I'm really tired......"

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[Shameless spoilers, someone's standing outside the box, and the speculation of the relatives in the comment area is just speculation, the plot of the whale is not going in the direction you thought it would be, watch it slowly. 】

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