396. Chapter 405
I couldn't see each other's faces clearly in the dark, the distance was so close, but the hearts seemed to be thousands of miles away.
The two people are so close, but they have an indescribable sense of distance.
Why is this happening? Tian Shaoyin withdrew his hand, his hand clenched tightly, and the untouchable warmth made him undecided again.
What if nothing happened? It would have been nice if he had known earlier that Ling Yanbing was not Ling Wanli's daughter, maybe he could have resolved some misunderstandings earlier, so that the tragedy would not happen.
The more I thought about it, the more I regretted it, he had been fighting with Ling Yan before Tian Xiangyi's accident, and he had never returned home, if he could have come back earlier, maybe this would not have happened.
Now that the matter has come to this, what's the point of complaining? There is still no way to change what happened.
The silence is always full of endless conjectures, and I don't want to be stuck in such an environment all the time.
"Shaoyin, is that you?" Ling Yanbing opened her eyes slightly, she knew it was him, but she didn't know what he was thinking in his heart now, whether he wanted to see her.
"It's me." Tian Shaoyin hurriedly wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, although the room was pitch black, Ling Yanbing might not be able to see it at all. But he didn't want Ling Yanbing to know that he had cried because of her.
He is sorry for what he has done and is willing to do anything to make amends.
Tian Shaoyin turned on the light, the darkness made people confused, and only the light could make him see his heart clearly.
"Shaoyin, I'm sorry, it's all my fault......" Ling Yanbing bit her lip tightly, she knew that she had made an irreparable mistake.
"Don't say it," Tian Shaoyin interrupted Ling Yanbing's words, "I met Le Chen today, he told me everything he knew, I believe you are innocent and haven't done anything to be sorry for me." ”
Ling Yanbing frowned slightly, it turned out that Tian Shaoyin already knew the truth of the matter.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have casually doubted you before it was confirmed, and I apologize to you for the things that blamed you before." Tian Shaoyin said solemnly, and he also understood more at this time that the most important thing between husband and wife is trust.
Ling Yanbing pursed the corners of her lips slightly, "Shaoyin, I don't blame you, you think that because you care about me, if you don't care, you won't be angry about that thing." ”
It is indeed because he cares, so Tian Shaoyin is jealous, because he loves Ling Yanbing, so he does not allow other men in her heart.
Tian Shaoyin looked down at Ling Yanbing, and asked with a little question in his tone: "Yanbing, you knew early on that Ling Wanli was not your biological father, why didn't you tell me?" Are you just doing this to protect him? ”
"May I have a chance to tell you? Can I explain it to you? Ling Yanbing frowned helplessly, Tian Shaoyin didn't give her a chance to explain at all.
"Yan Bing, you have no blood relationship with Ling Wanli, if I kill him, will you hate me?" Tian Shaoyin suddenly asked, he wouldn't do this, his question was just a temptation, he wanted to know if he guessed right.
"Yes," Ling Yanbing did not hesitate, and gave the answer directly, she is not a cold-blooded and ruthless person, although Ling Wanli is not her biological father, but he has nurtured her, and he has indeed been very good to her in the past fifteen years, every time there is a dispute between her and Ling Jinfeng, Ling Wanli is on her side, he has given her a lot of touches, and he is still a qualified good father.
Even if Ling Wanli is mercenary, even if he has done anything wrong, he is still her father, and she can't watch others hurt him, especially since the person who hurt him turned out to be her husband.
"I had long guessed that you would be the answer." Tian Shaoyin's brows were furrowed, it was because he knew that this would happen, so he never made a move on Ling Wanli, and ignored him for pretending to be crazy.
If it weren't for Ling Yanbing, how could he have tolerated an enemy to live for so long!
"Maybe I shouldn't have expected to hear any other answer." Tian Shaoyin laughed at himself, he actually asked such a question, he knew the answer, but he still wanted to ask, this was clearly self-deception.
"Shaoyin, unless you want me to be an unfilial girl, otherwise, I hope you can let him go, although I don't have any blood relationship with him, but he has raised me for fifteen years, and I must know how to be grateful." Ling Yanbing looked at Tian Shaoyin with a serious face.
"Don't worry, I won't let you be an unfilial girl," Tian Shaoyin shook his hand tightly, "Ling Yanbing, but I don't want to be an unfilial son either, I think you should understand too." I'm sorry, but I really can't forgive you for hitting my mom with your car, whether you did it intentionally or not. ”
"Shaoyin......" Ling Yanbing stretched out her hand to Tian Shaoyin, in fact, she wanted to save everything, but she felt that she was so powerless, there was no way at all.
"That's my mom, she's in a vegetative state now, lying motionless in the hospital, I can't act like nothing hasn't happened, you know!" Tian Shaoyin changed his previous tone and became cold and impersonal again.
"I understand, Shaoyin, I won't embarrass you." Ling Yanbing frowned slightly, she understood the meaning of Tian Shaoyin's words, he would not forgive her as the murderer.
Tian Shaoyin gently held Ling Yanbing's hand, "Although I can't forgive you, I won't hurt you, I know you must not mean it." Maybe this is the will of God, it is the will of God that makes people, God thinks that the two of us should not be together, so we will let our identities be opposed, so that there are many misunderstandings between us. ”
"Shaoyin, everything is my fault, I hope you don't blame yourself, I'm willing to bear the mistakes I made." Ling Yanbing took a deep breath hard: "Shaoyin, tell everyone the truth, let them know that I am the real murderer, so that your heart will not be so entangled." ”
"No, you can't!" Tian Shaoyin refused coldly: "I have already said that this matter cannot be known to anyone, this can only be the secret of me and you!" ”
"Shaoyin, thank you for protecting me, but I don't want to run away anymore, I want to face everything bravely alone, no matter what the result is, at least that's the truth I should face." Ling Yanbing looked at Tian Shaoyin gratefully, she knew that he was doing it for her good, so she hid the truth.
Even if paper could hold fire, so what? Can you deceive your own heart?
Not only did Tian Shaoyin feel that she didn't know how to face a wife who had caused her mother to become a vegetative person, but Ling Yanbing didn't know how to face Tian Shaoyin, when she saw him, she would feel guilty in her heart.
Tian Shaoyin looked at Ling Yanbing with affirmative eyes, "Needless to say, it doesn't matter what the truth is, now that you are still my wife, I won't let any gossip hurt you." ”
Ling Yanbing was just silent, she knew why Tian Shaoyin did this, he was all for her, and she also knew how much pressure he had been under since the accident.
"Yan Bing, you are free, from now on, you can go wherever you want, I will not interfere." Tian Shaoyin's face was slightly gloomy, he gave her freedom, not to let go, but to let him know that he no longer suspected her of betraying him, so he gave her enough space.
"Why?" Ling Yanbing looked at Tian Shaoyin suspiciously, he felt very strange when he said such things at this time.
Tian Shaoyin pursed the corners of his lips, "Yan Bing, you don't belong to anyone, you only belong to yourself, even if I am your husband, I have no right to tie you to my side all the time." ”
Ling Yanbing stared at Tian Shaoyin intently, she really wanted to tell him that she was willing to stay by his side all the time.
"Okay, it's late, Yan Bing, you can go back to sleep." With that, Tian Shaoyin turned around and prepared to leave.
"Won't you stay?" Ling Yanbing's fingers gently hooked Tian Shaoyin's hand, and every time he left, she felt that the distance between them had become infinite.
Tian Shaoyin stopped and looked back at Ling Yanbing, "I'm not sleepy yet, you can sleep first." ”
Ling Yanbing reluctantly let go of her hand, "Shaoyin, sleeping with me, will it also make you feel guilty?" ”
"What are you talking about?" Tian Shaoyin looked at Ling Yanbing with an inexplicable expression, indeed he thought so in his heart.
Ling Yanbing smiled sadly, grabbed Tian Shaoyin's hand, and stared at him tightly, "Shaoyin, do you think that being with me is like being with a murderer?" ”
"Good night." Saying that, Tian Shaoyin still withdrew his hand from Ling Yanbing's palm.
Who can understand this kind of feeling of wanting to love but not loving, wanting to hate but not hating?
Why those things are happening! Why do they like each other, but they still want to hurt each other, will their pair never receive the blessing of God?
Seeing Tian Shaoyin turn around, Ling Yanbing knew that love was irretrievable, and she unconsciously said the word 'good night' in her mouth, as a response to Tian Shaoyin.
Tian Shaoyin turned around and walked out, he still couldn't pass his own level, he thought that he shouldn't have deceived his grandfather, and now being with the murderer is even more unfilial.
Seeing the door close, Ling Yanbing let out a long sigh, it turned out that they really couldn't go back to the past.
People can't be so selfish and live only for themselves, it's impossible for people not to care about the opinions of the people around them, even if all people don't know the truth, but they can't deceive their own hearts.
The murderer is the murderer, that's right, she is the murderer of the car accident, and she made Tian Shaoyin's mother lie in the hospital and become a vegetative person.
Ling Yanbing never dared to imagine what would happen if this matter was known to his grandfather Tianzhongyun, he would definitely be very sad, because his beloved granddaughter-in-law turned out to be the murderer who caused his daughter to turn into a vegetative person.
How can this be forgiven? How can it be?
Tears slipped silently from his eyes, what could he do to regain what had been lost? What can I do to get forgiveness?
Ling Yanbing clenched her hands, she was really tired, if it weren't for this unborn child in her belly, she really wanted to apologize with death, and let her death prove that she really didn't mean it.
Tian Shaoyin is right, maybe all this is destined by God, there is no fate, even if there is a fate to meet, but there is no fate to stay together.
Forget it, don't force it, if staying is just hurting each other and making each other miserable, then she is willing to leave.