Nancy Gu's Monologue (46)

When Gu Nancy fell asleep, Ji Xinyao quietly sat up from the bed.

Lately, she often wakes up in the middle of the night and stands in front of the window in a daze until dawn.

Several times Gu Nancy woke up at night and saw her standing in front of the window.

It's the same tonight, but Gu Nancy hasn't slept well recently because of the whole day of running around and making cakes at night, and she seems to be in a good mood because of her birthday tonight, so she can sleep with confidence.

It had been many days since he had slept like this, until he woke up, it was already dawn, but Ji Xinyao, who usually got up later than her, did not lie beside him.

Gu Nancy got up and glanced at the side of the bed, and touched the temperature beside her with her hand, there was no body temperature, she had been up for a long time.

He got up, put on his family and walked out of the bedroom, and saw Ji Xinyao sitting on the sofa in the living room, the computer was placed diagonally in the corner of the sofa, not turned on, she was just sitting on the sofa, motionless, her eyes were always staring at a point on the coffee table.

"Xin Yao? Why not sleep? Seeing that her eye sockets were slightly sunken and she looked tired, Gu Nancy frowned and walked over, with a bit of reproach in her gentle tone.

She is pregnant now, and she always woke up at night a while ago and didn't sleep, but she would sneak back to bed in the early hours of the morning, and she slept all day, because she didn't lack sleep, so Gu Nancy didn't go to cover her, but today she hasn't slept until now, and the whole person looks like she's sick.

"It's okay, I'm not sleepy." She smiled at him.

Seeing that her eyes were a little straight, even if she was smiling to herself, but her eyes were empty, Gu Nancy's heart was slightly empty, she saw her unusual, walked over, and took her in her arms, but found that she was cold.

He asked her if she had been sitting here all night. She didn't answer, looking at her expression, Gu Nancy finally asked: "Something?" ”

She turned her head, looked at him, raised her hand to straighten the slightly curled collar of his home clothes, and said lightly, "Nancy, let's get a divorce." ”

Nancy, let's get a divorce.

He didn't look away, even after she said that, just stared into her eyes.

She finally made a choice, and this result was both expected and unexpected.

He once said that Gu Nancy was actually just a coward sometimes, just like now. The topic he has always avoided finally unveiled today, the scene he least wants to see.

When Gu Nancy saw the divorce report and divorce agreement on the coffee table, she suddenly found that the panic in her heart suddenly became extraordinarily calm.

After all, it has come to this day......

Instead of hanging this heart for so long, it has finally come to this day, even if the bottom of the heart is full of pain, it has finally landed and become steady.

"You've been thinking about it for a month, and you've finally made such a choice?" He asked.

They don't need to ask and explain too much to each other, she understands him, he understands her, there are many things that he has always known, but no one has ever been willing to say it.

But in the end, for the sake of her mother, she still chose to leave the Gu family and leave him.

Gu Nancy thought that he understood Ji Xinyao.

Grandpa and Dad forced her mother to death back then, and the revenge of killing her mother, no matter how many entanglements there were, no matter whether Shan Xiaoou was guilty of her back then, no matter how good he was to her, no matter how happy they were, this kind of moral and moral thing, even if she endured it for the sake of her children and this marriage at the moment, and chose to continue walking, I am afraid that this qiē will also be a pain that will haunt her heart for a lifetime.

He didn't want to see her hurt.

But I don't want to let go.

He would even rather that Ji Xinyao was crying and yelling at herself at this moment, shouting for revenge, shouting for not forgiving, shouting for not sharing the sky, as long as she is willing to cry and shout, it at least means that she is impulsive, and she has not completely thought it through.

But she was too calm, she just arranged it quietly, and just said early in the morning, Nancy, let's get a divorce.

This time she was fully prepared, because there was a military marriage treaty when the two got married, in fact, he just hung a nominal military rank because of family relations, plus some other circumstances, he didn't have to go through the military marriage treaty when he got married, but he was also to limit himself, from the beginning, although she was a stranger to him, but he didn't think of using her to solve the public opinion at that time. After the divorce, from that time on, Gu Nancy planned to take on this responsibility.

And today, she finally made enough preparations, and the divorce report that needs to be reported, as well as the divorce agreement and related letters, are all placed on the coffee table.

Even if you know how sad she is, you can see that she is actually full of holes under this calm surface.

He said: "Even if you are calm now, then I can sue you directly, I won't sign this thing, since I Gu Nancy married you into the door, I never planned to sign this kind of thing!" ”

"You have to sign it!" She said angrily in a cold voice.

He wanted to persuade her, even if he knew how difficult she was, he would never leave this marriage.

Gu Nancy even thought about dragging it out like this at this time, until her injury and her pain gradually faded, and then set out to solve the incomprehensible hatred and entanglement.

Ji Xinyao finally cried, she raised her head and tried not to let the tears fall, until she changed from calm to sentimental, from sentimental to excited.

When she cried and shouted out that qiē, he knew, he knew.

But even so, she insisted on shouting for divorce, but he still replied, no.

She begged him to let go, and he said he wouldn't.

Until she was tired of struggling in his arms, until she suddenly simply knelt down, Gu Nancy's heart trembled, and she angrily pulled her body up and scolded angrily: "What are you doing here?" You are crazy? ”

She said, yes, she's crazy, she's crazy, and he'll be crazy if he sleeps every day with a dream full of his mother's flesh and blood!

She said, "Isn't he happy to look at her?"

Her words were filled with countless resentments.

She endured it for a month, held it for a month, and finally broke out today.

Seeing her crying so much that she couldn't help herself, almost out of breath, Gu Nancy picked her up in distress and lowered her voice to coax.

In the face of these situations that he couldn't reverse more than 20 years ago, she felt a lot of pain and resentment, she could do whatever she wanted, except for divorce, except for leaving him.

He is willing to beat or scold or use a knife to rip his flesh, as long as she doesn't leave, as long as she doesn't leave......

He said, you're hurting me and I'm hurting, Xin Yao, can you give me time?

But she wiped out all of his qi qi with a single sentence.

It's been so long, have you thought of a solution?

Yes, for so long, everyone said that he Gu Nancy could almost cover the sky with one hand in the political circles, but now, after so long, he has never been able to do anything about this matter.

He raised his hand to caress her cold cheeks that were wet with tears, and patiently persuaded: "You are pregnant now, with such a big belly, how will you live if you leave me?" ”

At this moment, whether he said that he Gu Nancy was despicable, or that he used the child to tie her freedom to achieve the desired goal, he admitted it.

But he looked at him with red eyes: "I can live well, Ji Xinyao is not so fragile!" Gu Nancy, even if I leave you, I won't die! ”

He looked at her with heavy eyes, and after a while, he said slowly: "But I will!" ”

If you leave, I will worry about you all day, I won't be able to eat, I won't be able to sleep well, and I am afraid that it will be difficult to concentrate at work. You won't die, but I will.

You are a little hedgehog whose thorns I have plucked, and once you leave my sight, do you want me to live with only the thorns you left behind?

She said he was pushing him, and he confessed, indeed, that he was pushing her.

By now, she should have seen that Gu Nancy was originally a despicable and shameless villain, and her appearance on the surface was seen by outsiders, only she knew him, and he was trying his best to force her to stay.

She didn't sleep all night, the whole person was very haggard, he coaxed her to hold her, sent her back to the bedroom, and coaxed her to sleep first.

Maybe it was really too tired this night, or maybe it was the heart she had suppressed for a whole month finally poured out, and in an instant she was relaxed and weak, she didn't toss anymore, as if she was angry with the scoundrel behavior he had never seen at the moment, lying on the bed, turning over, pulling up the quilt and covering her head directly and ignoring him.

Gu Nancy didn't know whether to cry or laugh, but she finally quieted down, but when she showed her eyes later, the firmness in her eyes was still the same as just now.

He knew that she wanted to get together with him, because she knew that what happened more than twenty years ago had nothing to do with him, and she didn't resent him for concealing it before, she said, she just didn't want to stay in the Gu family anymore.

But this kind of good gathering and dispersion, forgive him, he can't do it.

This is the woman he loves deeply, the wife he wants to hurt to the bones, he doesn't want to let go, and he doesn't want to watch this scene of Lao Yan parting