The wind at night was still blowing by the moat, and the cigarette in my hand was about to be smoked, when it was extinguished, I could no longer afford the desire to smoke, so I looked at the moat in a daze, Jane Wei didn't seem to be indulging in my feelings, still bowed her head to deal with the text in her hand, and sometimes answered the phone.

I finally said to her, "I'll go back to Xuzhou tomorrow, and I'll borrow your car for me." ”

"Don't you have a Grand Cherokee?"

"Sold"

Jian Wei already knew in her heart, didn't ask anything more, nodded and took out the car keys from her handbag, and said, "Then you can use it, there is a fuel card in the car." ”

I said "thank you" and took the car keys from Janeway's hand.

Jian Wei seemed to have dealt with the backlog of essays, put them all in her handbag, and then asked me, "Do your parents know that you and Mi Cai have broken up?" ”

"Still in the dark, alas, I really don't know how to face them, I owe them too much over the years!"

Jian Wei nodded, agreed with my statement of indebtedness, and comforted: "So I keep reminding you that you have to keep your career in mind, when a man can't meet his parents' expectations emotionally, if his career is successful, he can make up for it in a certain way, after all, entrepreneurs who have successful careers now, and those who are not married at the age of 30 abound, and after having enough material security, what they think about is not when to get married, who to marry, but whether they want to get married!" ”

I smiled and replied for a long time, "If there really is such a day, I feel quite pathetic!" ”

"What do you mean by that?"

"If I'm rich and want to get married, there will be a bunch of coveted women waiting for me, but does that still have anything to do with love? So I don't agree with that! ”

"Hehe, so your pain is completely due to the inability to distinguish between reality and ideals!"

"Maybe."

I was a little dazed, the desire to smoke was ignited in my heart again, I looked up at the sky, I never captured the crystal clear city again, my heart was full of disappointment, I only felt that I had spent half my life chasing the ideal, in the end it was just a fantasy that was out of reality and finally asked Jian Wei beside me, "Do you still believe in love?" ”

"What? Do you think this is an issue that needs to be discussed? ”

"To believe or not to believe?"

"I only believe in life, and love is only a small part of life!"

Janeway's answer made me hear a broken voice again, it turns out that there really won't be any love in this world that elopes to the ends of the earth, even if Janeway chooses it again, I'm afraid she doesn't have the courage to repeat the love that burned in elopement, she has also forgotten the intoxication of love and returned to a rational life under the continuous tempering of life, hey think about it, it's really depressing and sad!

I lit the last cigarette before leaving with her lighter, patted her on the shoulder, and said, "Remember to send me an invitation when you get married, I'll take a look"

"See what?"

"What does it look like when the smoke leaves the fire!"

"Why don't you die? Is there anything you say so badly? ”

"I don't think it's a loss, when I get married, you can also go and see how the smoke leaves the fire!"

Early the next morning, I drove to Xuzhou in a car borrowed from Janeway, although my heart was full of apprehension and uneasiness, but I still warned myself to face it sincerely, because love is really not a war, and now I am facing not the desperate escape, although it is difficult to pursue that pure love, but I am still full of opportunities in life, and this time I go back, in addition to seeing the father and mother, I also plan to build a bar and inn in Xuzhou, and continue to promote the layout of the literary road in Jiangsu!

At noon, I finally returned to my home in Xuzhou, and after parking the car, I didn't go upstairs immediately, but sat on the top of the flower pond next to the car and lit a cigarette, trying to make myself more relaxed when facing my father and mother.

Daddy's old Santana 2000 gradually drove towards me, and then stopped beside me, and when he and his mother got out of the car, I squeezed out a smile and asked them, "Where are you going?" ”

"I went to the vegetable market with your mother and bought some vegetables." After speaking, Ban Dad looked around, and asked again: "Why is it just you, Xiaomi?" ”

"Uh, she didn't come back!"

Daddy's face was displeased: "Didn't you say it all yesterday, you came back together?" ”

Although I had made up my mind to tell the truth to my father and mother on the way here, I was still so heavy when I really had to face it, and I really didn't want to face their disappointed appearance with this unfilial body.

My mother asked, "Why don't you speak?" ”

"Daddy, Mom, I said I hope you have a mental preparation first, okay?"

The old mother urged, "What do you want to be psychologically prepared, if you have something to say, you can say it quickly!" ”

I said in a low voice: "I, I and she have already separated, just a few days ago!" ”

Ban Dad's face immediately sank, and the old mother was stunned for a moment, but said to Ban Dad in an expected tone: "Lao Zhao, I told you a long time ago that our son and that girl are not suitable, and our small family can't climb that high branch, so let's divide it" and then said to me: "Son, my mother doesn't blame you for this matter, let's go back and find a girl who is the right person, and get married in a down-to-earth manner, how good!" Yes? ”

But my heart was not relieved because of my mother's lightness, and I couldn't help but wonder if my heartfelt dedication to Mi Cai was correct, and if it was correct, why did my mother, who gave birth to me, be so glad that we broke up? Once again, I fell into a state of ignorance, and I was saddened by the love that had passed.

Ban Dad wanted to say something to me, but was stopped by his mother, I saw my mother take out her mobile phone from her pocket, and then dialed a phone out, and then said: "Xiao Yun, I'm Zhaoyang's mother, isn't it the weekend today, your father and your mother are going to the countryside again, you come to Auntie's house for dinner, and I will call Aunt Li and Aunt Zhang in the afternoon, let's open a table of mahjong together" said and lowered his voice again, and said: "Zhaoyang, he's back, you come here, Auntie and Uncle have bought vegetables, you come to give Auntie a hand"

Mom put the phone back in her pocket in a good mood, then grabbed my arm, pulled Daddy's sleeve, and dragged him upstairs

This dramatic scene made me unexpected, but my heart was still like overturning the five-flavor bottle, I know my mother's mind, she has never given up matching me and Li Xiaoyun, in her mind Li Xiaoyun is the most favorite daughter-in-law candidate.

At this time, I realized that I was so resentful, why couldn't Mi Cai give me some understanding? Why can't we work together to pursue an ordinary and simple life? Do you know how hard it is for me to let go of the feelings that have put me all my heart and soul into it?

Well, now that mom's total denial, it's more like a great irony for us, and what have we done in love? ?

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