I dialed Daddy's phone with apprehension, he seemed to have been waiting, so that he answered in an instant, I said with some apologies: "Daddy, the phone has been muted, do you have anything wrong?" ”

"It's nothing."

"Oh."

My answer made the banda, who didn't like to talk in the first place, fall into silence, and I couldn't be active because I was guilty, so I fell into silence with him.

Ban Dad finally asked again: "Is your work still going well lately?" ”

"Very good"

"Well, since the work is smooth, shouldn't you and Xiaomi also think about getting married, this is about to become a heart disease for me and your mother!"

Sure enough, Ban Dad still inevitably mentioned my marriage with Mi Cai, although I have been mentally prepared, but I still feel that I have knocked over the five-flavor bottle, I really don't know how to talk to Ban Dad about this matter, I know very well that once he knows the truth, it is not just disappointed, but sad, sad that I have been emotionally inactive, sad that I have not been able to fulfill their dream wishes.

"Zhaoyang, did you hear me?"

"Uh, the signal just now wasn't very good."

Ban Dad interrupted me: "Don't do this, that, isn't tomorrow the weekend, you take Xiaomi home for a trip, let's sit down as a family and talk about this marriage!" ”

"She's been busy this week, I'll see if I'll wait!"

"If she is really busy, I will go to Suzhou with your mother."

Daddy's resolute attitude made me a little panicked, but I still couldn't make up my mind to tell the fact that I had broken up with Mi Cai, and said for a while: "It's such a long way, you and my mother don't toss, let's go back." ”

Maybe Daddy never dreamed that Mi Cai and I would break up, so he didn't care, what I said was: I'll go back, not us, and hang up the phone after telling me a few more words.

I listened to the "beep" on the phone at a loss, and I didn't know how to face their ardent expectations tomorrow, so my heart became so restless, I bought some beer at the newsstand on the side of the road, and drank it as I walked, thinking that the restless feelings would be blown away by the sultry wind of this summer

I almost subconsciously came to the moat, stood at the guardrail, looked at the river flowing north with the wind, and lost my mind for a while, but my heart longed for a rain to extinguish all the anxiety and anxiety in my body.

The rain did not fall after all, and I was disappointed, lying on my back on the lawn, and when I closed my eyes, she appeared beside me as usual and asked, "Zhaoyang, are you lying here not afraid of being bitten by mosquitoes?" ”

I sat up from the lawn, looked at myself, and replied, "My blood is full of helplessness and anxiety, and any mosquito that dares to bite me is killing itself!" ”

"You've got that inexplicable mistake again!"

"You know what? You don't understand anything! ”

Janeway didn't pay attention to it, but took out a bottle of insect bite repellent from her bag and handed it to me, saying, "Wipe some if you're going to sit here for a while." ”

I shook my head and motioned no.

Jian Wei didn't force me, unscrewed the bottle cap, wiped some on her arm, and then took out a stack of unprocessed Wen Jiàn from her handbag as usual, and said to me while reviewing: "Here, you have been here more diligently than before, have you been having a bad time lately?" ”

"It hasn't been going well all these years."

This time, Jian Wei looked at me before asking again, "Is it a conflict with Mi Cai?" ”

"How so?"

"Otherwise, how can you remember this place!"

I grabbed a cigarette from my pocket, but the lighter was missing, so I took Janeway's handbag, found the lighter that seemed to be my use in the mezzanine, and lit it.

Janeway said unhappily: "You're really welcome, did I let you touch my bag?" ”

"I don't move your bag, how do I find a lighter?"

"You're robber logic! If you respect a woman, you must respect her bag, this is etiquette! ”

"Who cares about that bullshit etiquette, didn't I find a lighter from your bag last time?"

"Last time it was with my permission, did I agree this time, you are purely self-conscious!"

"You are a strong woman in the new era, and you are scheming with me for this little, and you lose your identity!"

"I've seen you through, you're a scoundrel and a bastard!"

"What do you know, you don't understand anything"

Janeway looked at me again, frowned, and said, "Can you still express yourself soberly now?" ”

"Of course I'm sober, so I said you don't understand anything, I don't understand anything, I actually have a city in my heart, it's very big, it's very good, even if the world is sluggish, my heart is still full of flowers!"

"Sao Qing!"

"Scold it, scold it harder!"

Jian Wei's tone softened: "Zhaoyang, if you really have something in your heart that you can't pretend, you can try to communicate, communicate, and use this inexplicable way to vent, which will only make you more and more painful, and feel more and more that no one in this world can understand you and understand you!" ”

I finally opened my eyes and looked at her face in the dim light

Janeway asked me again: "Tell me, what is it that stimulates you, we always meet by this river, which can be regarded as fate, for the sake of fate, I can be a listener, and I can also enlighten and enlighten you!" ”

"What a fate!"

"Then you say."

I pondered for a long time, and finally sighed and said to her: "I broke up with Mi Cai, and now I am suffering from the sequelae left after the breakup, hehe others thought we would get married, but we still broke up, so live in this world, but don't think that you live very well!" I know very well, I think I can think about the future very well, but in fact, the future is an unobtrusive joke, do you know? I bought two wedding rings, and in the end I couldn't fucking get married, you said how desperate my parents were! Gave birth to such an unbelievable son! ”

Janeway looked at me with a complicated face, and she didn't say anything for a while

So I laughed again and said, "Didn't you say that you want to enlighten me, hurry up and enlighten me, a man who has no idea in life."

"I don't know how to enlighten you, I always thought you were happy, at least emotionally!"

I just looked at Janeway and didn't say anything, because we all live in a world we don't understand, so she thinks I'm doing well, and I think she's not doing bad, but the reality is blurry

Picked up Janeway's lighter again, lit a cigarette, and couldn't help but think of the distant father and mother, they also didn't understand, and in their understanding, they looked forward to me and Mi Cai would give them a marriage answer tomorrow -

Today, I have been discussing with book friends the YY party held at the end of the month, and this YY party is more formal, and I hope you will participate in it at that time.

Today's time has been delayed, just a change, tomorrow to make up!