On the rooftop of the 18th floor, Fang Yuan stood under the eaves that could shelter from the rain, with his back to me, a cigarette burning between his fingers, and when the smoke diffused under the lamp, it merged with the water vapor, making this limited space full of indistinguishable real and fake, only the sound of raindrops and the smell of tobacco were real!

He turned around and said with a calm smile, "I knew you would come!" ”

"I'm not surprised that you could guess that I'm coming, because you've been calculating me." I said and stood beside him.

He shrugged his shoulders slightly, finally raised his hand, squinted his eyes and took a deep breath of the cigarette in his hand, and said after a while: "See these rains?" ”

I subconsciously raised my head to look, only to see those raindrops that seemed to be looking for a home, hurriedly falling to the earth, but in the intersection with the neon lights, sometimes expanding, sometimes contracting, let me still see only the indistinguishable truth and falsehood, I finally replied: "I see." ”

Fang Yuan nodded, and said with this strange smile: "Why is it raining?" Sometimes it's regular, sometimes it's just a burst of dark clouds, and it brings a shower that no one can expect. ”

"It rains because there are too many oil stains in this world, and the rain washes away the sins that people can't wash away! So there is often a feeling of rebirth after the rain."

Fang Yuan looked at me, then leaned over to look at the crowd of people who were hurrying in the rain, and once again took a deep puff of cigarette and said, "According to you, none of us should reject the storage of rainwater, because it washes away this greasy world. ”

"Greasy can't be washed off, no matter how fierce the rain is, it is only a kind of psychological comfort, when the sun rises again, new sins are also breeding and growing, birth, old age, sickness and death still torture people's nerves!"

"Yes, just like the group of people downstairs, we can't see their appearances clearly, let alone their expressions, but the body wrapped in a raincoat has endured life and death, of course we can see it very lightly when we stand on a high place, but for themselves, these experiences and endurances are the pain they have engraved in the bone marrow So, I agree that this is a world full of stains, and from a moral level, I am also a stain on this world!"

I looked at him and waited for him to continue.

"If one day when I die of this stain, I hope that the people I have loved and the brothers I have cared about can shed a tear for me, and I will die more comfortably!" After a pause, he said again: "Zhaoyang, have you experienced it?" Parents evade debts, they are the only ones at home, water and electricity are cut off, but they have to do laundry and cooking; There is no New Year's money, no one can talk, but there are firecrackers everywhere outside; That day, I saw the lights of thousands of homes illuminating the whole world so brightly, but I hid in the darkness that others couldn't see and looked at the fucking world, which was so insecure! What the eyes can see is all false, because the ghost knows what will happen in the next second, and only what the heart experiences is real! ”

I was silent for a long time before I said, "Are you only coming to me to say these things and make me sympathize with your unhappy past?" ”

"I didn't mean that, but there are some words that are more comfortable than putting them in my heart."

I felt a little sympathy for him in my heart, but I still replied with a blank face: "But you have found the wrong person to talk to, and I am not interested in listening to this." ”

"OK, if you don't want to listen, then I won't say it Actually, I came to you this time to persuade you that you and Mi Cai had better not bypass Yan Zhuomei to get married, otherwise the consequences are not what you can imagine!"

My heart instinctively trembled, and I invisibly felt the deterrent power from Yan Zhuomei, so that I was silent for a long time before asking, "What will be the consequences?" ”

"I don't know, but this woman, you can think about it, what era she was born in, and what life experience she had to take away Mi Cai is her top priority now, if you must go against her will, it is not ruled out that she will take some unconventional means, I really don't think there is nothing she can't do, otherwise, why would a woman do such a big energy business in the capital market?"

My emotions fluctuated so dramatically that I raised my voice and replied, "You're fucking alarmist!" ”

Fang Yuan pressed the cigarette butt in his hand, and said calmly: "You don't need to be so hostile to me, may I ask what good it will do me if you and Mi Cai really can't get married?" I wish you were just nesting in the city of Xuzhou, don't have anything to do with my Fangyuan, the reason why I persuade you is because I still regard you Zhaoyang as a brother! ”

"Are you worthy of the word brother?"

"I'm really unworthy, you can also doubt my intentions, but I have a clear conscience when I should say, as for how to choose you to do it yourself, no one can control you!" After Fang Yuan said this, he left conveniently, and the rain was still frantically washing this oil-stained world, but I felt very safe under the eaves, and I didn't feel the danger brought by this oil-stained world, and even felt that the danger was controllable, so I didn't want to believe what Fang Yuan said at all.

On the rooftop on the 18th floor, I listened to the non-stop sound of rain in my ears, smoked a cigarette and chose to leave

Downstairs, Mi Cai was already sitting on the sofa in the hotel lobby waiting for me, after seeing me out of the elevator, she came over with the small handbag I bought for her recently, I looked at her seriously, but she was as calm as ever, which made me completely unable to guess what Mi Lan said to her just now in her expression.

Mi Cai smiled slightly, grabbed my arm and walked out of the hotel, I finally couldn't hold it back, and asked her, "What did Mi Lan talk to you about just now?" ”

"I just said some words of blessing and lamented the innocence of our childhood, but now both of us are married to women!!"

"That's all?"

Mi Cai asked rhetorically: "Otherwise?" ”

"Well, I'm just asking, you don't have to take it to heart."

Mi Cai nodded, and said with some coquettishness between her words: "Zhaoyang, I didn't feel full just now!" Later, let's go to the supermarket and buy some quick-frozen dumplings, and you can eat them for me when we get back! ”

"You don't have to go to the supermarket, you have it at home." As I spoke, I took out my umbrella from my handbag, opened it, and walked with Mi Cai on the wet road towards the parking lot, and couldn't help but turn around and look at the hotel behind me that was about to host our wedding, and I imagined what it would be like to be here on that day. Is every guest who walks on the red carpet sincerely bless me and Mi Cai?

After returning home, Mi Cai didn't mention the matter of eating dumplings again, which made me feel that she was taking advantage of the moment to change the topic just now, and Mi Lan must have said something to her, but she was reluctant to tell me, but combined with Fang Yuan, he also looked for me alone, I could vaguely guess something, but because of her desire for the wedding, I didn't choose to ask to the end, but silently cooperated with her reluctance to advise!

After washing, we lay on the bed, she was still holding her exam materials, yawning and watching, I said to her, "You're in such a bad state now, don't look at it." ”

"I'll go to sleep after watching it for another twenty minutes, I'm used to it."

I looked at the time, it was still early, so I nodded, and I also held a book related to the game industry, but after a while, I was completely unconscious, and then fell into a deep sleep

I don't know how long it took, I started dreaming, I dreamed of our upcoming wedding, this dream was so real, so that I saw everyone who came to the wedding, what kind of expression was looking at us Soon, we went to the link of exchanging rings, but the situation changed abruptly, the originally clear sky, the wind was blowing in an instant, I couldn't open my eyes by the dust, and I still desperately opened it, but in the gap between my eyes, I saw Mi Cai carrying the skirt of the wedding dress, barefoot, Running farther and farther away, she actually became the bride who ran away, I was about to collapse, hoarse behind her, but my feet seemed to be cursed, there was no way to move forward, the ground began to collapse, my world was overwhelmed by the overwhelming darkness, I was more and more suffocated and finally woke up in suffocation! Sweat was already oozing from my forehead, and I realized: this is a true nightmare!

I tried not to make any movement, and then slowly calmed myself down in the sound of the rain that never stopped, and I finally calmed down, and the sound of Mi Cai's breathing became clear.

I was very sensitive to the sound of her breathing, and I was delicate enough to notice that her breathing was not so steady, and she didn't seem to be asleep at this time, so I asked tentatively, "Haven't you slept yet?" ”

She really didn't sleep, and was a little surprised that I woke up, and said, "Well, why did you wake up?" ”

"I had a not-so-good dream and woke up scared!"

Mi Cai turned over and faced me face to face, and asked me with concern, "What is the dream?" ”

After she asked, the dream flashed in my mind like a movie replay, which made me so insecure, and I subconsciously hugged her tightly and said: "I dreamed that at the wedding, you left me behind and ran away alone, but I couldn't move my legs to keep up with your footsteps In the dream, I have collapsed!" ”

"It's just a dream! You don't have to worry too much about it, not to mention that what dreams present is the opposite of reality."

Although it was just a simple comfort, my heart felt inexplicably steady, because I heard the natural expression of her feelings, so she would never stage that dream scene in reality, I exhaled softly, and asked her, "What about you, why are you insomnia?" It's been so long, and I haven't seen you lose sleep! ”

The result of the examination is malignant lymphoma, and I am now waiting for the pathology report to determine the treatment plan. Thinking of what he experienced, the sourness in my heart is indescribable, and I am ready to take him to Shanghai for surgery, and there are any readers who are engaged in medical work in Shanghai, hoping to introduce a doctor who has experience in this field.

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