After I talked about breaking up with Mi Cai, Fang Yuan was silent for a full minute before he said, "I can't believe why you broke up because of this? ”

I responded to Fang Yuan's silence, I always felt that we were too superficial, the love that I had worked so hard to manage, just died in a trumped-up doubt, Mi Cai she may never understand, my qiē dedication to Le Yao is only based on friendship, and our past is only due to a ridiculous, a thousand mistakes, only complaining about myself a few years ago, I shouldn't have given up on the crystal clear city in my heart after breaking up with Jian Wei, and now, I finally paid a painful price for my immaturity, Because in my heart, I have never let go of her.

Fang Yuan was still stubbornly waiting for my answer, and I finally said to him: "Maybe I'm not pure enough, let's not talk about it, it's raining, I'll find a place to shelter from the rain!" ”

I didn't give Fang Yuan a chance to ask any more, and hung up the phone in the most decisive way, but I didn't go anywhere, just looked blankly at the T-shirt that had been torn by Jian Wei, and only looked up at the cloudy sky for a long time, looking forward to it, if someone had ever passed by that sky city, they would come back and tell me if it had been reduced to a ruin, and where did the woman with long hair and shoulders go?

In the lightning and thunder, the raindrops of beans fell intensively, I put the torn T-shirt on my head, and looked at the vehicles coming in the distance, and the cold rain made me a little uncomfortable, and I only hoped that Janeway would come back quickly.

After nearly a quarter of an hour in the rain, Janeway finally returned, and she pressed the window of the car and shouted to me in the torrential rain, "Are you lacking eyes?" There's a gas station in the back, so why don't you go in and get on the bus. ”

I finally opened the car door and sat in the car, the water dripping from my body soon formed a puddle of water on the mat, Janeway took out a tissue, helped me wipe the rain off my face, and asked reproachfully: "There is such a big gas station in the back, why don't you know how to go in and hide, it's like a chicken in soup!" ”

"What's behind you, who's going to pay attention!"

Janeway's hand movement just stopped, and then looked at me: "What do you want to explain?" ”

"I didn't want to explain anything, I really didn't notice that there was a gas station in the back, I think you're a little sensitive!"

"I hope what you say is true." Janeway didn't seem to want to argue with me anymore, so she handed me the shirt she had just bought, and started the car, and the scenery in the rain outside the window quickly became a memory in my mind.

But I still couldn't help but look back, and I didn't seem to really care about the gas station behind me

After having dinner with Janeway, I sent her back to the hotel, and when I got home, I took a hot shower, and then avoided the inquiries of my father and my mother and went into my room.

I can't describe the mood at this time, but all my thoughts are really on Mi Cai's body, I am worried about her, as long as I think of her lying in the ward, my heart will be irrepressibly throbbing, this throbbing pain swallows my reason and persistence little by little!

I finally took out my phone from my pocket and waited, as long as she sent me a message at this moment, saying that she missed me and needed me to be by her side, I would definitely throw away all my stubbornness and dignity and return to her side, take care of her daily life, and never let something like this happen again.

I have experienced a lot of myself, and I have deeply understood that there is no dignity in the relationship, although I care about that dignity very much, but I love her more, even if I have suffered many times because of this, I still can't make myself sensible, and now the only thing missing is just a response from her, a response that proves that she still cares about me!

The phone was quiet all the time, and this silence was simply laughing at my self-inflicted feelings, and I felt a deep sense of frustration, and then in the frustration, I lit a cigarette and forced myself not to think about her

The door was suddenly pushed open, and Daddy walked in, he didn't complain that I had made the room smoky, but just opened the window for me as usual, and then moved a bench and sat down on the edge of my bed, I snuffed out the cigarette in my hand, and subconsciously took out one from the cigarette case, ready to renew it.

Ban Dad pressed my hand and said, "Smoke less, if you have a mind, just tell me, don't stuff yourself in your heart." ”

I put down the cigarette in my hand and smiled, "What can I think!" It's a bit boring to be alone in your room! ”

Ban Dad sighed: "You kid is like this, you usually shouldn't say things, talk nonsense, when you really need to communicate, but you hide everything in your heart, you don't want to say a word It's not good, it's easy to misunderstand!" ”

What Ban Dad said was not wrong, but the pain and helplessness I experienced myself, I really didn't get used to bringing it to the people around me, so I smiled and said: "Ban Dad, you really think too much, what can I worry about!" By the way, today I went to the 4S store to book the car, paid the full amount, about two weeks to arrive, when you go to mention it, this is the receipt and the car voucher. As I spoke, I took out the receipt and voucher from my handbag and handed them to Daddy.

"With this money, you keep it for yourself to buy a house, what do I want such a good car, wait for the retirement, if I don't go to work, I won't need the car, you hurry up and return it!"

"Daddy, this is my son's filial piety, I promise you that my son will get rid of his previous stinky problems in the future, so that you and my mother can live a good life, so you must accept the car and let your son fulfill his promise!"

Daddy looked at me and finally nodded

After a period of silence, Ban Dad reminded again: "Don't forget the day after tomorrow when I take you to Suzhou." ”

"I'll send you straight to Shanghai."

Ban Dad shook his head and said: "I'll go to see Xiaomi, ask her face to face, why did she break up with you, if she really doesn't look down on you, think our family is poor, I don't have anything to say"

I immediately interrupted with excitement and said, "Dad, I didn't do this, and I didn't ask the bottom of it!" ”

Daddy's face was stern, and he replied undoubtedly: "I don't have such childish feelings, I'm your father, I can't watch you make a wrong step, a wrong step!" ”

"Dad, there are thousands of good girls in the world, why do you have to identify her, I tell you now, she's the same as me, she can't live and understand, two people who don't understand, can he be good together?"

"It's not that your father has identified her, but whether you have identified it in your own heart? Son, your father took the wrong path, I can't let you go wrong again, feelings are not child's play, not anger, and not exchange! ”

I couldn't react, I looked at Ban Dad in a daze for a long time, and finally asked, "Dad, what do you mean by this?" ”

――――That's it today.,Say sorry.,I've encountered a lot of problems recently.,Almost all day talking to the editor.,From the beginning of this book to write the first word,I'll tell myself.,Must break through.,In fact, in terms of results,It's also a breakthrough.,The main station subscription is the first,The mobile station subscription is also the first few ......

But I always feel that there is a deficiency, this lack is the book itself, so the second shift every day is after 12 o'clock, this feeling of rigidity is very uncomfortable, I have been trying to adjust, and I have a lot of pressure in writing I don't want to express too much negative feelings to everyone, I hope to give me some time, let me get back to the state. One day, there are three shifts, and it proves that the state has been restored.

I'm sorry and I hope you will forgive me for being unprofessional, but I hope that the desire to write a good book for everyone has never been lost.