The cars were speeding at high speed on the highway, and no one cared about the pain of me and Mi Cai, but our pain was so real, it was like a flame between us, burning our bodies.

Mi Cai hugged me who cried so much that she couldn't respond to her, and said softly: "Zhaoyang, don't cry, listen to this song well"

Her gentleness calmed me down, and I seemed to see a glimmer of light that was not a breakup, so the melody of the song became clear: "The coming day is a thousand songs, floating on my road in the distance, the coming day is a thousand evening stars, shining brighter than the moon tonight, it is not as beautiful as this night, and it can never make me appreciate it more."

I finally said to her: "It's a pity that the difference in the song is so regrettable, it's a pity that it shouldn't be sung so beautifully!" It's like a made-up beauty."

Mi Cai nodded and said, "So you misunderstood, why should I punish you for other people's mistakes You are my man, if you are wrong, I am wrong, we should advance and retreat together in this world that is always full of parting, I have lost Zhuomei, how can I lose you again!" ”

I looked at her in amazement, I thought she hated me.

Mi Cai let go of me and stood up from the ground, she looked at the distance that even the light could not penetrate for a long time before she said: "I have been standing here for a long time, listening to this song over and over again I think the reason why my father likes it is because he regrets it, regrets that he mistakenly believes that parting can also be beautiful, there is nothing to treat with a smile in this world, he misses my mother, so I always listen to this song, just like you like the song "elopement", always because of a song, I shouldn't repeat this regret when I think of some of the past, maybe Zhuomei wasn't my father's favorite when he was alive" She turned to look at me and asked, "Zhaoyang, do you understand what I'm saying?" ”

My mind seemed to have stagnated, and I couldn't bear the impact of this night, so I just looked at Mi Cai, and after a long time, I shook my head slowly, and told her: I don't understand, what she is expressing

"I'm going to give up Zhuomei, I don't dare to say that it's a big understanding, but at least a kind of comprehension, no matter how good Zhuomei is, it's just Zhuomei, it can't replace the feelings between people, it will only hold me in a higher and higher place, it's been a long time since I saw the scenery below, even, even children don't dare to ask for it! It's not the life I want, it hasn't been. ”

I finally felt like I could breathe the air of this world, and although it was so cold, it saved my life and gave me hope in this world.

Mi Cai held my hand, full of sincerity, and said: "Zhaoyang, let's start living an ordinary life, I've already thought about it, Zhuomei will leave it to my uncle and sister, and my shares will be given to them for free, I don't want to take anything away, and I don't want to increase the financial burden on Zhuomei, as long as Zhuomei can carry forward in their hands, it is also a continuation of Dad, right?" ”

Feeling the force coming from her palm, I knew it was a difficult decision for her, and I didn't understand what force was dominating me, so I nodded to her

Mi Cai smiled, but tears flowed down, choked and said: "Then let's be ordinary people, in a few days, we will go back to Xuzhou together, stay with my uncle and aunt, and fulfill their long-standing wishes."

I just looked at her like this, and listened to her all the time, she really saw through a lot, a lot of things in this place where Mi Zhongxin left.

She said: "Zhaoyang, let's go back to Xuzhou, I want to find an easier job first, so that I can use the extra time to take the civil service exam, and I will have a lot of time to accompany you in the future, we can walk around the country, I really haven't brought photography equipment for a long time to feel the beautiful scenery and human geography of our country!" ”

Her decision shook me, this is a peaceful life that could not be more peaceful, but it is what I have always dreamed of, and she is catering to the lifestyle I am pursuing

My thinking seemed to become smooth in an instant, and I replied without thinking: "Okay, okay, let's go back to Xuzhou to live, and I will open a coffee shop or bar in the future, and when you are tired from work every day, I will make coffee for you to drink and sing to you." ”

"Okay, I can also make coffee for our guests, and our coffee shop that sings will definitely be popular!! Also, maybe we can meet CC on our future trips, because we go to a lot of places and maybe she will open a bar too, she loves to sing so much"

When Mi Cai even talked about CC, I believe that she doesn't care so much about all the pain of this night, she is only looking forward to the future life, and some little fun in life!

I finally turned my sadness into joy, wiped away my snot and tears, and said, "If CC knew that your current life is so ordinary, but so free, I will be surprised that I can't even sing the song."

"Really?" Mi Cai smiled, her expression became stern again, and said to me: "Zhaoyang, let's leave quietly, don't disturb anyone, you can't go to Fang Yuan and Xiang Chen, we don't need to say anything, they won't repent, on the contrary, we should thank them, it is they who have fulfilled the life we have always wanted to pursue, but we don't have the courage and conditions to pursue." ”

I was silent for a long time, and said: "Before leaving, I still want to see him, we have been in a relationship for nearly ten years, and now it's not bullshit, I want him to tell me personally, why do you want to do it Except for this answer, I don't want anything, otherwise this will be a scar that I can't heal in my life."

Having said that, my world is filled with pain again, I can't forget the ten years we have experienced, I can't forget the scene, sitting in a dimly lit restaurant in college, chatting about the future in high spirits, saying that he wants to carry each other's future Now he has trampled my future under his feet, and I almost died in despair!! I also want to sue him, people are doing it, the sky is watching, he tramples on my heart and lungs, and one day he will be punished!!

Mi Cai looked at me, clenched my hand again, and said, "If you insist on going to him, I won't stop me, but I'm afraid that you will be more painful, maybe what he presents to you is just the face of the villain." ”

I fell into silence, Mi Cai and I have decided to pursue a life that has no past at all, is it still meaningful for me to ask for another explanation?

However, I want to hear him personally tell me that "behind human nature is the white clouds and dogs"

When I accepted the fact of betrayal, my outlook on life was completely turned upside down, I thought through a lot of details, Fang Yuan's step by step, made me feel the ferocity of human nature, what supported him, put on a shameless mask, and toyed with me in the palm of his hand?

The police car approached us with flashing lights, and I knew that the traffic police who had been notified by the woman in red had come to us, so I asked Mi Cai, "How fast did you just drive?" ”

"Soon!"

As long as she was by my side, I could still laugh, clasped her hand a little tighter, and said: "Before leaving Suzhou, we have to go to the driver's license test again, and the 12 points should be deducted!" ”

She was stunned for a moment, then reacted, and smiled: "It's better not to take the test, it's also good to ride a bicycle to work!" ”

"It's really the life of an ordinary person, but when we go out for a walk in the future, we always have to drive alone, right?"

"Then you go to the test, I don't want to take the test, I'll just ride a bicycle or an electric car."

"You're not kidding?"

"Of course not"

Mi Cai said and turned around and opened the car door and took out his driving book, and then went to my car and took out the driving book, looking at her ready to actively turn herself in, I looked at her and smiled, we can actually have fun on this black road full of pain and indifference, maybe not fun, we are already adapting to the new life that is coming in advance.

Two traffic policemen came to our side, severely reprimanding me and Mi Cai for not obeying traffic laws, and reprimanding us for our weak sense of safety, making mistakes, but still laughing, and Mi Cai and I were indeed looking down and laughing, but our laughter was not that we did not repent that we had violated traffic laws, but that we were glad that after this crazy move, we were still alive, and we decided to be with each other, and determined the direction of our future lives, so why can't we laugh?

After this thrilling night, the direction of my life has finally been determined, and I really should say goodbye to the city, as well as Janeway, the company of Lu Ku, at this time, nothing will be more important than being with Mi Cai, I think, when Daddy and Mom know what Mi Cai and I think, they will be ecstatic, because when Mi Cai recedes a qiē aura, she is the daughter-in-law that Mom and Daddy want.

The world is impermanent, we really want to go back to Xuzhou to form a family, and since then we have stayed by the side of the father and mother, while doing filial piety, but also enjoying the fun of ordinary life At this moment, I seem to see that my life was divided into two halves at the place where Mi Zhongxin died, which represents half of the past, has been crushed by the cold wind here, the other half of the rest of my life, I will take care of her daughter in ordinary days, in our life, we will never stage that apocryphal very beautiful parting!

And love and hatred are put in this city that makes me constantly desperate, rot, and finally turn into dirt, turn into dust, and dissipate

I felt as if I had seen the smiling faces of my father and my mother waiting for us to go back, and the coffee shop I had envisioned was already being renovated in the foreseeable days ahead

As for the qiē I have now, I think I can't keep the relationship with Janeway at the beginning, and I have decided to live a new life with her, and I should forget about her!!

There are always readers who question the use of a routine in my three books, but real life is such a big pattern, the form of lovers, no matter how it is written, that is, the past, and the present...... Feelings are nothing more than inappropriateness, betrayal and being together...... I don't think we should deliberately exaggerate the similarities between the three books, and if I had to say, I could also find out the differences between the three books...... Including expression, the construction of the plot, and the relationship between the characters

If you look at urban emotional novels with this kind of big picture, you will find that all the books are the same, telling similar stories. This is not objective.

For me, there is no routine, only whether to break through in the best way...... For readers, it should be deeply appreciated that the different ideologies expressed in each book are at least Zhaoyang and Zhang Yixi are not the same people, and Mi Cai and Anqi are not comparable. There is no senior sister Shen Man in this book, but there is a woman named Le Yao. The breakthrough you want, maybe if I write a novel about adventure, it will feel like that kind of subversive breakthrough