The dense clouds and rain seemed to sing a lamentation in the city, the blood flowing from Fang Yuan's body, like scattered petals, was dissolved by the rain little by little, the world in my eyes was only blood-red and gray, the two extreme colors I was so heavy that I almost couldn't breathe, stiffened my body, looking at Fang Yuan who was twitching, his shoes had fallen, sewage stained his face, and white socks, Is this still the brother who drank with me in college and lent me the money from his part-time job to play in a band?

Why can't I see his face clearly, and I can't hear his breathing?

Why?

Mi Lan was dragged out of the car by the security guard in the office building, and she was controlled, she didn't fight, her face was like ashes, as if she had killed Fang Yuan, and everything in this world had nothing to do with her

Yan Yan held Fang Yuan's hand tightly, but she was at a loss in the pain of collapse, she couldn't cry anymore, she subconsciously held Fang Yuan's hand tighter and tighter, and gradually, we all heard the sound of an ambulance coming from a distance

But what they brought was the proclamation of death, Fang Yuan had no heartbeat, he didn't have time to say goodbye to this world before he could say a word, and the city was so silent!

All I have left in my world is a tear of repentance and an unfinished beer, and I want to forgive him!

The soulless body was carried into the ambulance by the hospital staff, and Mi Lan, who had been silent, finally went crazy, and she roared: "Why? Why, I've decided to forgive you for still being with that mean woman? Why! Fang Yuan, you demon, you demon who plays with feelings, I can't have children anymore, why don't you feel a little guilty about me, and you still have to be with that woman"

The sound of the siren means that everything will be closer to the result of the dust settled, Mi Lan was handcuffed and pushed into the police car My heart is aching, how can I tell the world, tell her, everything Fang Yuan said to me twenty minutes ago, how should I tell the world, tell her that Yan Yan and Fang Yuan just walked together because of a coincidence?

If this scene hadn't happened, Yan Yan and Fang Yuan would have parted ways here, and then each went to face their own families

Mi Lan is too impulsive!

But there is a reason to be impulsive, because her character is flawed in the first place, and she is also a victim, she has lost the ability to think in the bad news of not being able to get pregnant, she pinned all her hopes for the second half of her life on Fang Yuan, but she saw that coincidental scene, and Yan Yan is a nightmare that she has been unable to get rid of, so she collapsed and lost control

I finally sat down on the ground weakly, bowed my head and let the rain wash over my body, and I wondered about the rest of the brightness in this lingering shadow, is everything that happens in this world based on cause and effect? There is no one who can escape the cycle of good and evil? Sooner or later, in different ways!

This evening, Qin Yan and I picked up Yan Yan who cooperated with the investigation at the Public Security Bureau, she lost her soul, but refused to be with us, she wanted to be alone and quiet, I knew where she wanted to go, so I reassured Qin Yan and promised to be optimistic about her.

Qin Yan may know Yan Yan's mood better than everyone else, he silently chose to leave, leaving the largest space for Yan Yan, I finally endured the pain like a knife, and whispered to Yan Yan: "Come with me, I want to go there too"

I drove to the university alma mater, which carried so many emotions from us.

Today is the last weekend before the winter break, so the streets on both sides are full of students who are restless in their youth, and we used to be like them, afraid of final exams, but paradoxically thought that getting a diploma would be the end of the world

These familiar scenes immediately made my eyes red, I leaned back on the seat and lit a cigarette for myself, Yan Yan beside me looked at everything in the car window in a daze, her tears never stopped, I know: being here, she will be more than I thought!

After half a cigarette was smoked, there was a cheer of "It's snowing" outside the car window, and the whole campus suddenly turned into a sea of joy I looked back blankly, only to find that our car had been flooded by students who were coming one after another, and the sky really floated the first snow of the year.

I opened the car door and stood in the middle of this group of students, I saw some memories of the past on their youthful faces, and in this past, there was also such a similar snow, and Fang Yuan and me.

It was one night when my brothers and I were walking to school after a show, and we were frustrated because we had spent a lot of money renting a venue, but the show had not made much money, and we were planning to break up the band for so long

The snow that night was heavier than it was now, and in the snow, Fang Yuan caught up with us on a bicycle panting, he didn't say anything, took off his gloves and took out 1,000 yuan from his pocket and handed it to me.

I knew that the money was earned by him doing temporary work outside of school, and it was not easy to come by, so I didn't reach out to take it.

He smiled and stuffed the money into my pocket, patted me on the shoulder with his frostbite hand, and said, "Take the money and ask the band brothers to rub it well, and then cheer up and continue to work until this time, don't think about giving up"

"Me"

Fang Yuan didn't give me a chance to refuse the money, he put on his gloves and rode away, but after riding a few meters, he turned his head to me again as if he remembered something and said: "By the way, Zhaoyang, I have sorted out the notes for you these days and put them in your cabinet, the final exam is coming soon, you should pay attention to it, don't hang so many subjects like last semester!" ”

"Got it."

"Well, the world is very realistic, very cruel, dreams and studies have to insist on buddies leaving, don't have enough money to spend, call me again!"

"No need, you did this, how can you repay these favors in the future?"

"We don't need to say anything about the two of us, when your band becomes famous, remember to sing a song "seasonsinthesun" for your buddies at the concert in the future, this song is good, I have been listening to it recently"

That night, the back of him riding away was deeply engraved in my heart, and later, I sang this song for him at a school celebration party, it turns out that he still remembers, so I hope to have the opportunity to listen to it again!

It's a pity that there is no longer a chance

I raised my head, I couldn't hold back the tears in my eyes anymore, I cried so much that my body trembled, and everyone around me ran to comfort me, but I couldn't stop crying until my lungs hurt, my heart hurt, and I fell to my knees and couldn't stand up straight

He's not a bad guy, at least he wasn't a bad guy ever!

In the school cafeteria, Yan Yan and I had the most simple dinner of the year, there was only a plate of vegetarian dishes in front of us, a bowl of porridge and a few steamed buns, I endured the pain, and ate these, but Yan Yan never stopped crying, in this campus, she and Fang Yuan will only have more memories than me, they have sat in the cafeteria countless times like now, eating the most simple dinner, talking about the hearts of young boys and girls.

This night, Yan Yan and I didn't go back, we sat in the all-night study room before the exam, we didn't say anything, we didn't do anything, just listening to the sounds of flipping books and taking notes, I finally knew that Yan Yan had never let go of Fang Yuan in her heart, but she couldn't say anything, she couldn't do anything, because compared to this uncontrollable relationship, she needed the life in front of her more

(Recommended to listen to this song "Seasonsinthesun")