In a blink of an eye, 5 days have passed, and I have finally completed the handover of work, this is my last night in Xuzhou, I want to go home and say goodbye to my father and mother, but I have never found the courage and reason to go home, at the moment they are angry, go back in addition to adding to their blockage, it is useless, so I am still alone in the small hotel, drinking beer, tasting emptiness and loneliness.

Drinking, drinking, people also became in a trance, and in a trance I saw the guitar standing in the corner of the wall, but this guitar was obviously given to me by Jian Wei, but the first thing that appeared in my mind was: Not long ago, I used this guitar to sing the song "Proverbs of Love" for Mi Cai, she cried bitterly, and I hugged her into my arms.

Thinking of Mi Cai, remembering the fights we had several times because of that room, I finally smiled, I don't know what kind of intersection we will have between us when I go back to Suzhou this time, I remember she said to me: If I go back, she is willing to let me live in that old house, I hope she still remembers her promise, and then fulfills.

I lay on my back on the bed, I don't know how long, my phone rang, I thought it was an incoming call, but it was just a text message, and the text message was no one else, it was Li Xiaoyun, she said: She was waiting for me at the coffee shop where we first met, and emphasized that I could not go.

I felt sorry for Li Xiaoyun, so I didn't think much of it, put on my coat, and rushed to the coffee shop where we first met.

……

When I arrived at the coffee shop, I raised my eyes to look for it, just like when the two first met, and Li Xiaoyun was still sitting in the same position as before, but I couldn't smile anymore, and just walked towards her with the heaviness of apologetic guilt.

I sat down opposite Li Xiaoyun and looked at her, only to find that her face was so haggard.

I was silent in silence, and Li Xiaoyun finally spoke to me: "Listen to Director Zhou, you have completed all the work handover today. ”

"Hmm."

Li Xiaoyun's face was painful, and he was silent for a long time before he asked me, "You should leave Xuzhou tomorrow, right?" ”

I nodded and said, "Tomorrow at 2 p.m. train." ”

Li Xiaoyun stopped looking at me, and looked out the window at the dead leaves that were swept up by the cold wind......

I don't know how long it took, Li Xiaoyun said in a low voice: "I heard that every time I say goodbye, a star will fall, but ...... Even if it falls, it will turn into a meteor, right? ”

I know that Li Xiaoyun compares herself to the fallen star, but I don't know how gorgeous she wants to be at this moment of parting.

Li Xiaoyun finally looked at me and asked me with a complicated face: "Zhaoyang, you really tell me, what kind of woman is it, it is worth you to abandon our relationship for marriage, you have to let me understand it clearly, let me live my future life in a down-to-earth manner." ”

It was difficult for me to define my relationship with Le Yao, and in the end I just said: "Friend, friend in distress." ”

"Is that all? Nothing really happened between the two of you? Li Xiaoyun asked.

Under Li Xiaoyun's questioning, I finally confessed and said: "Yes, I slept with her in the most decadent days of my life, but we didn't have love between men and women. ”

"I can't understand it, but it's over between us, and I don't want to pursue anything more, I just want an answer, and now you give it to me!" Li Xiaoyun said distractedly.

"I'm sorry, Xiao Yun......"

"There is no such thing as sorry for the relationship, it is your choice to be together or break up, the only thing you are sorry for is our parents, we have lived up to their expectations."

Li Xiaoyun was right, but I couldn't make up for anything after all, so I continued to be silent......

In my silence, Li Xiaoyun unexpectedly asked me, "Zhaoyang, do you remember the first time you and I borrowed money?" ”

"Hmm."

"You're leaving now, shouldn't the two people who are about to separate owe each other?"

"Yes."

"Okay, now I'll borrow a thousand dollars from you too."

Without thinking, I said, "No problem." As he spoke, he took out 1,000 yuan from his wallet and handed it to Li Xiaoyun.

Li Xiaoyun took the money from me, smiled and said to me, "But I won't pay you back this money." ”

I thought about why Li Xiaoyun made this move, didn't I say that the two don't owe each other? Why aren't you going to give it back to me?

But a woman's heart is sometimes as deep as the sea, and I can't figure out her purpose in doing so.

Li Xiaoyun didn't intend to explain to me, just put the money in his wallet, and then got up and prepared to leave.

"Xiao Yun, you just said that even a falling meteor will be brilliant for a moment, how gorgeous do you want? I'm willing to give it to you. I finally asked the back of Li Xiaoyun, who had already left.

"Zhaoyang, I don't want you to make up for anything...... You must know that not every meteor will be seen when it falls...... If only I knew that I had been gorgeous, it was enough...... Take care! Li Xiaoyun choked up, and then did not stop, leaving the coffee shop alone, I saw her walking through the floor-to-ceiling window, and she was drowned in neon in a moment, I will never see her again, and a relationship that was once eager to get married ended in the neon light and shadow......

Sighing heavily, I was a little reluctant, but it was even more painful!

……

The next day, I took the train to Suzhou at 2 o'clock in the afternoon, no one saw me off, and I didn't say goodbye to anyone, this kind of seemingly simple departure made my days in Xuzhou seem to be just a simple trip, and I just stopped for a moment, but inadvertently threw a stone in a river, so there was a beautiful mistake after a "whoosh", I think I will remember this beautiful mistake for a long, long time!

Finally I arrived in Suzhou at half past eight in the evening, when my feet left the train, set foot on this land that I have been familiar with for a long time, my mood was mixed, maybe my fate has really taken root in this wounded city, after a dream, I finally came back, and what the future looks like, but I have no way of knowing, hopefully, in this city that makes me full of holes, I can also find traces of happiness.

Hop in a cab and head straight to CC's empty town restaurant, because there are people I miss, and music I miss, and don't get me wrong, the people I miss are just CC.

Opening the door of the restaurant, CC still kept the same attitude, holding a cigarette in her hand, a glass of beer beside her, and quietly singing her favorite song.

I dropped my bags and gave her a thumbs up habitually, and CC didn't finish a song for the first time before handing Mike over to the band behind me and walking towards me.

"Hi, Zhaoyang, long time no see!"

"yes, it's been more than two months."

CC opened her arms and I hugged her, and she whispered in my ear, "It's been almost three months...... By the way, you're a little late, and Mi Cai just left after eating here. ”――