In my speechlessness, at last another train whizzed past us, and our figures flickered in the light from the windows, so that the whole world seemed to be torn apart, and the night was stretched longer and longer, with no end in sight, and the lights in the distant city became a kind of redemption, rendering this perfect loneliness

Even loneliness began to become perfect, and I didn't want to have a dispute with Le Yao about my outlook on life, so I changed the topic and said to her: "If you are not interested in the specialties of Xuzhou, go to my coffee shop and sit for a while, we have a barista in the store, he is very good at making pastries, I really recommend you to try it!" ”

After I became sincere, Le Yao's attitude finally softened, and she asked me softly: "Zhaoyang, you sue me, if it wasn't for Mi Cai going somewhere else, would you come to me today?" ”

"Of course it will, Mi Cai will also come, everyone has been friends for so many years, we will definitely do our best to be the landlord!"

Le Yao smiled, nodded and said: "The friendship I said is originally something outside the body, why should I think so much, and I am still self-righteous, I have imagined so much burden for you!" ”

"You said better, can you go with me now?"

"Let's go, I've heard that it's much easier to eat some desserts, so I'd like to give it a try!"

In the coffee shop, in order to avoid the guests coming back to disturb Le Yao, I put down the roller shutter door, and sat around a wooden table with Qin Yan and Xiao Nuo with Le Yao, the heat of the air conditioner and the aroma of the coffee seemed to isolate us from this extremely impetuous world, we didn't talk much, but Qin Yan and Xiao Nuo's mood was excited, for the first time in their lives, they had the opportunity to face the star of the national discussion so closely

Xiaonuo finally took out a notebook from his handbag and said to Le Yao: "Sister Le Yao, I really like to watch your plays, I am your fanatical fan, can you help me sign it?" ”

Le Yao happily met Xiaonuo's request, Qin Yan was not far behind, brought a set of coffee making utensils from the bar, and asked Le Yao to help him sign on this set of coffee utensils, Le Yao was very patient and signed her name on this oval vessel in a difficult posture, but she met the requirements of others, but her feelings have always been very low, even if Qin Yan's pastries taste good, she only ate a little, and has been looking at the uninhabited night outside the window with a heavy heart. My coffee shop wasn't a place for her to relax, because at night, it was so empty and quiet that she had to think about it!

After another moment, Qin Yan left his seat and took out his backpack from the bar, and said to me: "Brother Yang, since it has closed today, then I will go to Suzhou, and I promise to come back before 10 o'clock tomorrow morning!" ”

Puzzled, I asked, "Didn't you book the tickets for the next few days?" If I decide to go now, can I still get a ticket? It's the peak of the Spring Festival! ”

"When you have a person in mind, don't worry that a small thing like a train ticket does not constitute an obstacle, there will always be a way!"

I once again felt Qin Yan's sincerity towards Yan Yan, and I couldn't bear to extinguish his feelings again, so I nodded and said: "Go, you must pay attention to safety on the road, if you really can't come back tomorrow, stay in Suzhou, anyway, the coffee that Xiaonuo can make is enough to deal with those customers who use coffee as shooting props!" ”

"Well, thank you, Brother Yang, you understand the righteousness so well, then I'll leave first, you can accompany Sister Le Yao well."

I nodded, Qin Yan opened the roller shutter door and left, we looked at his back together, because the night he was about to spend was reverie, maybe he really had the opportunity to let Yan Yan cook a supper for him after rushing to Suzhou after thousands of miles or maybe, when tomorrow comes, we will be shocked to hear the news that he is already with Yan Yan!

After Qin Yan left, Xiao Nuo also said to me: "Brother Zhaoyang, someone asked me to watch a movie tonight, the time is almost up, I have to go to the appointment, you accompany Sister Le Yao well, don't make her too sad, we fans will really feel distressed!" ”

Realizing that I was about to be alone with Le Yao, my feelings changed again, but Xiaonuo seemed to deliberately want to give us more space, and before I could respond, he had already opened the roller shutter door and left, and pulled down the roller shutter door outside, so there was really only me and Le Yao sitting opposite each other in the not small coffee shop

After a moment of silence, Le Yao stirred the coffee in the cup with a spoon and asked me, "After you returned to Xuzhou, are you living a good life?" ”

This is the most practical question she asked since we met, and it also made us more like a pair of old friends who have known each other for many years, and my mood was much lighter, and I took a sip of hot tea before smiling and replied: "It's good, this may be the most enjoyable time in my life, I don't want to lose my current life, because it's not easy to get!" ”

Le Yao finally smiled and said, "Yes, everyone knows that it is not easy for you to get it, so no one can bear to destroy it and cause you troubles As a friend who shares hardships with you, I am really happy to see that you can talk with a smile on your face like this!" ”

"Thank you, it's just that sometimes it's a lot of gains and losses, and I always feel that there are still too many unresolved issues between me and Mi Cai that haven't been resolved!"

"Isn't loving someone all about gains and losses?"

"That's right!"

Le Yao nodded, she took another sip of coffee that was no longer too warm, and was silent for a longer time before she said to me again: "Do you know why I chose to come to Xuzhou after this happened?" ”

I shook my head and said, "I don't know, I'm really puzzled by this!" ”

"Actually, I don't know, maybe it's inertia that has passed for so long, or I still think of you when I'm sad, I remember that when I was trapped in love, you would always call me a fool. Than, also scolded yourself like this, although you never scolded yourself at that time, but really scolded me So, I never thought of the scumbag who hurt himself in college Really, with a man like you who says that the fly in the ointment is far-fetched, there is not much happiness at all, but I am still willing to laugh with you, cry to you when I am sad, and sue myself: Although I am always scolded by you and disliked by you, you have never really left me when I am about to live as if the sky is falling, You are supporting me with your torn body, I am very relieved! ”

"Isn't this what friends look like, you support me, I support you, in fact, sometimes I think of you, think of those ridiculous times, but when I think about it again, there is no longer as much pain as it was at the beginning, on the contrary, I think it is incredible that I have the opportunity to meet a hot star in my civilian life, and I have stuck knives in each other's ribs! Xiaonuo said, this is my chance to create hehe, I think it is fate! ”

"There is not much difference between chance and fate, and it doesn't matter to us, what matters is that time together! We seem to have artificially created too many problems for ourselves, making it difficult for us to deal with them, in fact, we should have come out a long time ago! ”

I opened my heart and said to Le Yao: "Looking back at the life that has passed, I really don't regret that mediocrity has disturbed me because, I seem to have been arranged in a period of fate, just to wait for Mi Cai to appear, and the life I am experiencing now is the result of fate for me, I am very satisfied!" ”

Le Yao sighed lightly, and said in a voice that could only be heard by herself: "In the end, it is the result, or just a paragraph, who can predict it, this is a world that makes people cry and laugh, just like I am envied and jealous by so many people, but I still can't escape this fate of crying and laughing, so living in this world, we all need a person who can complain at any time, but unfortunately, since you all go away one by one, there are really fewer and fewer such people, I can't resist this loneliness, Maybe I'm a fragile person by nature! ”

"Don't say that, since life always makes us cry and laugh, after so many years, we should have been able to cope with it a long time ago! Seriously, your heart can also be very strong, but you haven't been digging into yourself, so you habitually choose to hide in front of problems! ”

Le Yao nodded, thoughtfully, and finally replied: "Maybe this is where I am not as good as Jian Wei and Mi Cai, so what you love is them, I really have nothing to be unwilling to, I am not a woman with too much personality, I always bring trouble to others, but I have never really solved the trouble for others Think about it: all these years I have played the role of a pit teammate by your side, but you can always tolerate in laughter and scolding, it is really a measure and wisdom!" ”

I looked at her and felt that when facing her, I had never been so relaxed as at this time, this ease and ease stemmed from the fact that we are all open to look at the past, we no longer have to be troubled by the relationship that is higher than friendship but lower than love, we are all being transformed by time, maturing with a different attitude and perspective!

She asked again: "Have you really decided in your life not to marry Mi Cai?" ”

"Well, there won't be any more accidents between us, at least there will be no more accidents in me, I must marry her, unless I die!"

"Crow's mouth, aren't you pursuing a simple and ordinary life with Mi Cai? What else do you say about not dying, how can there be so much life-and-death love in this world I really hope that you can be happy together, and I also hope that soon you will have a child, he (she) will not understand the grievances and grievances between us adults, when he sees me, he will call me Aunt Le Yao loudly! I'll be delighted! ”

"There will be this day!"

Le Yao nodded, and fell into silence again, I subconsciously looked at the deep night outside the window in this silence, and asked her again after a long time, "What about you?" What are you going to do with this incident? ”

Le Yao smiled and said, "I won't back down again and again!" Just wait and see, I'll deal with this in the most decisive way! ”

"Well, looking forward to seeing your change!"

"Yes, on the day you and Mi Cai get married, I will bring Cao Jinfei to your wedding, and I hope Mi Cai will welcome us!"

"Why wouldn't it be welcome, by the way, Robben will also return to China that day, and we can take this opportunity to get together again!"

Le Yao thought for a long time before replying: "Yes, Zhaoyang, if our story is a novel that is being written, at your wedding with Mi Cai, CC can also return, and I am afraid that there will be no more perfect ending than this one, right?" ”

I nodded, and then I thought of that picture in my head, and I was so moved that I wanted to cry!

But if our story is really a fiction being written, what will happen to Janeway? I don't know, but she can't live alone at the end of the story! If she hadn't been able to be happy, then this would be a bad novel, I insist!

Also, ill-intentioned characters like Fang Yuan and Xiang Chen will definitely have their own retribution, if not, it will still be a mess! Because it doesn't meet the reader's reading requirements!

It's a pity that we are living a real life, not writing a novel, the only thing that manipulates us is life, I can only pray that life will reserve the last glimmer of happiness for Janeway, a poor woman, so that I can enjoy what I have now with peace of mind! As for what would happen to Fang Yuan and Xiang Chen, I didn't care at all, because my world had already had no intersection with them, and in my eyes, they were just two poor worms who were dominated by worldly desires and had no soul of their own!

"What are you thinking, Zhaoyang?"

I lit a cigarette before replying: "I'm following the logic of your novel, for a person who needs an ending in particular, imagine an ending that can satisfy the readers, of course, the reader's satisfaction is secondary, and her real happiness is what I desire the most!" ”

Le Yao shook her head and smiled, and said, "Hehe, I've only been indulging in movie scripts recently, so I got the idea of a so-called novel, and it's too unreliable for you to magnify this naïve idea so much, right?" ”

I also smiled with Le Yao, and didn't say anything more because, a hypothesis is meaningless, all we have to do is: wait patiently for life to give us the answer!

Le Yao finally drank the cup of coffee that belonged to her, she seemed to be about to say goodbye to me, but at the moment when she was about to stand up, she suddenly asked me: "Zhaoyang, if your life encounters another big change, what kind of person will you become?" Will it say goodbye to the impermanence of human nature and be reborn from now on? ”

I looked at her in amazement, because I never thought I was going to change! I don't want to suffer any big changes in my life! And living like this is what I dream of!

After a long time, I finally replied, "There will be no more accidents!" ”

"I also hope so, but compared to the impermanence of human nature, life is even more impermanent, the reason why I ask you this is that I hope you can remember our agreement, no matter what will happen in the future, we must be masters of life, this is our life's agreement, remember?"

I felt that I had relaxed, and I smiled and replied: "Of course, remember to see how you use the attitude of a master of life to solve the trouble in front of you, I'll wait and see!" ”