Dragging my suitcase and walking on the street with few passers-by, my heart was full of melancholy, I didn't expect that in Xuzhou, the city where I was born and raised, I would have nowhere to go this day, I couldn't help but ask myself: Is my choice really worth it?

I don't dare to think too deeply about this issue, whether it is worth it or not, I have already made a choice, and it has become inevitable to go back to Suzhou to help Le Yao solve the crisis of the bar.

This night, I found a small hotel near the train station to stay, but I had insomnia all night, I was in the waking of insomnia and did not think nonsense, but Li Xiaoyun's appearance still occupied all my thoughts, although our relationship was only a few months, but I really couldn't bear to give up, in her, I found the sense of security that men also need.

I don't know how long it took, I finally lit a cigarette for myself, and after this cigarette was smoked, the corner of the morning sun was already exposed outside the window, and the dawn came, but the wind was still blowing so cold!

……

The morning came, but I didn't have any appetite and came to the company in a trance with the resignation letter that had been written.

When I was about to enter the elevator, Li Xiaoyun also came from the other direction, we met like this, but we were each standing in front of an elevator, I looked at her in the crowd, her eyes were still a little red and swollen, probably spent the night crying, compared to me, her pain was not much at all.

I pushed through the crowd and came to the elevator that Li Xiaoyun was waiting for, stood beside her, and called her, but she ignored me, and the elevator also fell at this time, Li Xiaoyun walked into the elevator one step ahead of me, and I also walked in.

The crowd in the elevator squeezed Li Xiaoyun and me tightly together, but in the silence of each other, the hearts of the two people had been separated.

During the elevator ascent, I wanted to talk to Li Xiaoyun several times, but I never knew how to speak, and it took a long time to ask, "Have you had breakfast?" And Li Xiaoyun just glanced at me indifferently, but did not respond, and finally maintained this indifference until we walked into the company together.

I finally grabbed Li Xiaoyun, she looked at me coldly and asked, "What are you doing?" ”

From what I know about women, this kind of coldness is a sign before the heart dies, so I was silent for a long time before saying, "Let's have a meal together at noon today, I think we should talk." ”

"Okay, I think we should talk." After Li Xiaoyun finished speaking, she broke free from my grasp of her hand, and then walked towards her office.

I looked at her back and stood blankly for a few moments before walking towards the director's office, with the sole purpose of submitting my resignation letter with apologies.

……

Although Director Zhou tried his best to keep me, I was determined to go, and finally approved my resignation application in reluctance, because I still have a few projects in my hands that are being followed, so it will take about a week to complete the handover of work, and this week will be my last days in Xuzhou.

At lunchtime, Li Xiaoyun and I sat opposite each other in a small box in a restaurant downstairs in the company.

The atmosphere was as dull and depressing as expected, and I didn't speak to Li Xiaoyun because I was ashamed, and finally Li Xiaoyun asked, "Have you already handed over your resignation letter to Director Zhou in the morning?" ”

"Hmm."

"How long does it take to complete the handover?" Li Xiaoyun asked as if trying her best to remain calm.

I replied in a low voice, "About a week." ”

Li Xiaoyun's expression became painful, and her tears finally fell uncontrollably, she cried and said, "Zhaoyang, is your heart really made of iron?" It's just that from yesterday to today, you have denied a qiē and pushed me into the abyss, have you considered my feelings, and you have considered the feelings of my family? …… They entrust your daughter's life to you......! ”

I bowed my head and was silent, my heart full of guilt, but at this time, any language was so pale except to change the result.

Li Xiaoyun looked at me with hatred, so I was even more frightened and sorry, and only whispered for a long time: "If you are willing to wait, I can go back to Xuzhou." ”

"Back to Xuzhou? …… If it's a man, maybe I'm willing to wait, a year and a half is nothing, after all, I'm only 25 years old, I can afford to wait, but you're just for a woman, what kind of mentality do you want me to wait? Li Xiaoyun asked in tears.

"Me and her are really just friends, it's not as complicated as you think." I pleaded, said.

"Really? You touch your conscience and say that nothing has happened to you and her...... Don't treat others as fools, why doesn't she look for someone else, but for you Zhaoyang, and you are willing to abandon your family and abandon your fiancée to help her, can this still be an ordinary relationship between men and women? …… You say! ”

In the face of Li Xiaoyun's questioning, I couldn't argue, although I didn't have a relationship between men and women with Le Yao, but I did sleep with her in the most decadent period of my life, can such a relationship be said to be pure?

My silence made Li Xiaoyun even more angry, and in the anger, I saw her dead expression, and then took out the engagement ring we bought together a few days ago from my handbag, put it in front of me and said, "Zhaoyang, let's break up, let's treat it as if we never met." ”

I looked at Li Xiaoyun, her lips trembled slightly, and so did I, but I couldn't say a word to save after all, because it was too futile.

"You can keep this ring......"

Li Xiaoyun smiled disdainfully: "What, do you feel that you don't want to go?" …… Zhaoyang, the money to buy the ring belongs to your parents, and now that we have broken up, you have no right to give me the ring. ”

There was a tingling in my heart, I could understand Li Xiaoyun's words, and I also remembered the wolf bèi when I first returned to Xuzhou, it was Li Xiaoyun who rescued my wolf bèi, maybe after leaving Xuzhou, I will return to the days when I was useless.

"I'm sorry." I finally said to Li Xiaoyun.

Li Xiaoyun said to me resolutely: "You don't need to say sorry to me, I just regard the qiē I have experienced in the past few months as a catastrophe in my life, I just hope that you Zhaoyang will not give hope to another woman in the future, and then destroy this hope with your own hands......" After speaking, he picked up his handbag and walked outside the private room.

I just sat there, looking at the engagement ring left by Li Xiaoyun in a daze, and in an instant I felt that my life had been broken and full of holes...... Maybe there will come a time when I will regret my choice today.

……

In the evenings after work, I was homeless and went back to that humble little hotel alone, I bought some beers and entertained myself in loneliness and depression.

When I was a little dizzy, I received a call from Le Yao, and I didn't want to speak at all, so I hung up immediately, and then sent her a text message back: "Text if there is something to say." ”

Very happy Yao replied to the text message: "I'm still in Xuzhou and want to eat with you...... Please eat! ”

I sent another text message back to Le Yao in a dizziness: "I've eaten, you can go back to Suzhou tomorrow, I have to hand over the work, and I'll be over in a week." ”