Chapter Ninety-Three: Living in a Dilemma
In the past few days, Gu Ge has been thinking about whether he should give up Liu Qingwu? Is it right or wrong to want to fulfill that person and Liu Qingwu? Since ancient times, marriage has been about the right person, Gu Ge knows that his small quality QC is not worthy of a project manager in Liuqing Dance Hall, but he also said that love knows no race, national borders, regardless of identity and status, it will come naturally when it comes, love is not love? I really feel conflicted inside.
Gu Ge originally wanted to talk to Liu Qingwu about a platonic love when he was unable to go to Liu Qingwu's side to take care of her, protect her, and accompany her. But Liu Qingwu's feeling to the ancient song is that it is like a separation, it seems to be affectionate and unintentional, and he can't understand Liu Qingwu's heart.
"A woman's heart is a needle", how can a man be so easy to understand, or even Liu Qingwu herself doesn't understand her own heart.
Gu Ge doesn't understand why others can see one and love another, and one heart and one love can be shared among many people? Why is his heart so small that he can only accommodate one Liu Qingwu? Since he had Liu Qingwu, no, he has never had her, it should be said that since he fell in love with her, his heart can no longer pretend to be others, a pair of the opposite sex has a little good feeling, and his heart naturally thinks of Liu Qingwu, thinking of her all kinds of good, he feels that Liu Qingwu is his favorite, no one can replace Liu Qingwu's status in his mind, so they are no longer anything in the eyes of Gu Ge.
Gu Ge sometimes wonders if he owes Liu Qingwu in his previous life, and can always tolerate her nonsense and tolerate her mistakes.
"My dear, I must have been a lover in my previous life, turning a blind eye to your love, ignoring your love, so that you can only flow into your heart when you have bitterness and tears, and you have suffered a lot of grievances. Therefore, in this life, God will let you turn against the guest, and let me be willing to suffer and be wronged for you.
My dear, I must have been a pretentious amorous in my previous life, and I broke your heart by throwing flowers and grass everywhere, so in this life, God let me love you alone, and I will never change my heart.
My dear, in my previous life, I must have been a prodigal son who did not want to return home, making you worry about your stomach day and night, so in this life God also let me suffer from this lovesickness.
My dear, I must have been a bastard in my previous life, not only did I not love you well, but I also did a lot of things to hurt you, so in this life, God asked me to compensate you and love you.
My dear, I must have owed you a lot in my previous life, and I can only accept and not return for your efforts, so in this life I am willing to give everything for you without regrets.
My dear, ten years of repairing in the same boat, and a hundred years of repairing in the same bed. We can meet in the past life and this life, which proves that we are a very fateful couple, I hope you will not repeat the mistakes of my previous life in this life, otherwise you will live up to God's kindness. God has given me a chance to meet you again in this life, and I hope you will also give me a chance to continue our relationship. ”
At first, Liu Qingwu said to Gu Ge that he would be a good brother and a good friend, but it always felt weird when it came to being together...... Later, after falling in love for a long time, she said that she and Gu Ge were the Cowherd and the Weaver Girl.
Gu Ge sighed helplessly in his heart: "It's okay to be a cowherd and a weaver girl, after all, there will be a day to meet, but I'm afraid that it is Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai, and they won't be able to see the last one until they die."
In this way, Gu Ge was made by Liu Qingwu's vague feelings so that his heart was not contradictory, sometimes he really wanted to throw his feelings for Liu Qingwu out of the clouds, step on the nine shadows, and no longer be his concern, but he wanted to go to Liu Qingwu's side to accompany her, holding hands and walking through the long road of life together, Gu Ge's heart swayed from side to side all day long.
Reason told sù ancient songs, they will not be together, I want him to close his heart as soon as possible, turn back to the shore, where is there no grass at the end of the world, why bother to love Liu Qingwu alone? Emotions but also tell sù ancient songs, happiness is in front of him, as long as he struggles to swim to the other side, he can get it, and he must not give up.
"Oh my God!" Gu Ge felt that he himself was like suddenly falling into the "sea of love", and when he didn't reach the shore at both ends, he was struggling in the battle between these two thoughts, who could save him?
In fact, Gu Ge also knew that he and Liu Qingwu were like two clouds in the sky, and they met by chance and sparked, but it was a pity that Gu Ge collided unilaterally, so the lightning was not very bright, and the thunder was not necessarily so loud.
The truth is understood in ancient songs, but it is not a math problem, it can be solved if you understand it, and feelings are not accepted by intelligent control.
"If there is someone who is good to you and can give you the life you want, then you don't hesitate." Gu Ge said this to Liu Qingwu, but at the same time, he had a voice in his heart but said very resolutely: "It's just that I won't give up this love lightly, even if you say that I am amorous, as long as you don't get married for a day, I still have a chance." ”
People yearn for a better life, since they can't give Qingwu a comfortable life, how can they be so selfish to restrain Qingwu to find a happy life?
Gu Ge is like this, sometimes I want Liu Qingwu to find a good home quickly, then he can have a relationship, but it is difficult to let go, he just wants to be with her, and he can't let others snatch her away.
Such a contradictory heart made Gu Ge not want to associate with other girls, for fear of disappointing Liu Qingwu and those girls.
"O God! Help me! I don't know how to cherish the love that others have at their fingertips, but I have a lot of scruples when I want to fall in love. Gu Ge shouted in his heart. (God: "You are self-righteous, self-inflicted, indecisive, incorrigible!") ”)
Gu Ge didn't know why he fell in love with Liu Qingwu, and he didn't know what he loved her. Love is indescribable, and what can be said is not called love.
"Love" can only be felt with the heart and cannot be analyzed with reason, and the smartest person will become a fool in the face of love. Gu Ge has become a nerd, what is it to love when you know that you shouldn't love and still love if you are not a nerd? But Gu Ge is willing to be a nerd once, because he doesn't want to suppress his emotions, just like a moth to a fire, knowing that he will die, but that is the pursuit of light, and he has no regrets until he dies.
Whenever he sees and hears the stories of those infatuated women who always meet ruthless men and end in tragedy, he sighs in addition to "How thin the lives of women in the world are, and amorous women are always ruthlessly hurt!" "What can you do?
"Protect the woman you love and never disappoint her affection." Such a determination guides Gu Ge always wants to be with the girl he loves (or cares about), and he always worries that she will be bullied and wronged, and other men don't seem to be good men.
This determination can be said to be the demon of Gu Ge.
In fact, Gu Ge also knew that he himself was nothing, neither a love saint nor a flower messenger, there were so many women in the world, how many could he save?
"It's good to save the one you love." The mind struggled for a long time, and finally Gu Ge himself gave the answer.