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Leaving the cemetery, I walked on the straight road empty-handed, the road became wider and wider, fitting the blue sky and white clouds above my head, I stopped, looked up at the city in the distance, but felt the scars on our body that could not be turned back, and attachment and renunciation are only a thought, but whether attachment or renunciation can open a window for our lives, I have not yet figured it out...... Over the years, all I have seen is the collision of countless emotions in the troubles of the world, and we can only chase the sometimes real and sometimes illusory freedom with our imprisoned eyes......

Perhaps because I had no burden on my body, I walked on my legs between the city that had made me miserable for many years, and I walked to the moat...... Today, it has been transformed into a leisure gathering place similar to a riverside square, and every time I see countless smiling faces seeking happiness here, I understand: this place no longer belongs to me and Janeway, the label we put here has been ruthlessly torn apart by the years, and finally only a trace of nostalgia remains, falling on the surface of the river, drifting away with the wind to the end of the city......

In the midst of the crowd, I rolled over and sat on the parapet by the river, where I didn't want much but to sit quietly for a while, then light a cigarette and think about something......

I literally lit a cigarette, but found that there wasn't much to think about it in the moment, until a dead leaf fell silently into the river, and my memory was opened......

At this moment, her expression was as melancholy as if she had lost the whole world, and I realized it was more than two years later: 6 years ago, she used this lipstick to write on the car window a waiting that I will never forget for the rest of my life......

Await?

I waited, but to no avail...... In the end, it just made a very sad mark on the lives of the two of us...

But even so, I will never forget that the first time I met her, she was wearing a white T-shirt and amazed me all summer.......

I took a deep puff of the cigarette, but I was stuck in my mouth and reluctant to spit it out...... Because I'm afraid to see the first starting point in those thick smokes...

"Janeway, we have no future, just like the water in this moat in front of us, although it has been blended with each other indiscriminately, but with the alternation of the wind direction, we have flowed in two directions, and now, I have docked, what about you? ......”

"You must be working on it, aren't you?"

I finally spit out the smoke trapped in my mouth, but what I saw was not the original starting point, I seemed to see Janeway's happiness in her future life, she would not be worse than Yan Yan, a dear friend, one day, she would also become the most beautiful mother in the world, holding her beloved child, smiling in the bright sun...

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Walking has become something I can't stop today, so I went all the way north, to the section of the railroad track that is often regarded as sustenance by Le Yao, and the dusk is also when I stopped, quietly, I in the scattered afterglow, as if I saw a lonely back, she stroked her hair, looking at the farthest part of the railroad tracks......

As the train grinded against the tracks, I remembered something she had said to me......

She said: We want to be masters of life......

She said: There is an island in her heart, and she will wait for the man who comes by sail on this lonely island.

She said: All human suffering only stems from taking oneself too seriously, wanting too much to satisfy those ethereal desires in one's heart, such as love, once it is not what it is imagined, it will be painful...

She also said: This life has planted a seed in my heart, if there is rain to moisten, I must remember to blossom and bear fruit......

"Le Yao, you really understand the principles of life better than all of us, but for a long time, you are not willing to take these principles to be a master in life...... Actually, I always know what you're thinking, but I don't know why you're thinking that, and that's the biggest regret we have when we get along......... But in my heart, I will never forget those years when we were in pain and permeated each other...... During those years, I was tired of your graffiti in my life, but when I looked back at your graffiti work, I realized that it was actually the most beautiful picture in my life......."

"Le Yao, we all have our own families, and the opportunities to get along are getting less and less, but I'm afraid there will be no less thoughts in my heart...... With these thoughts, I really want to see what you, a fun-loving, noisy, wind-like woman, will become after you understand the responsibilities of the family? ...... In fact, the responsibility of the family is also a railroad track, which must be tightly knit and symmetrical with each other, so as to hold up the family train smoothly to the platform that represents the completion of the journey...... Do you agree with that? ”

......

At sunset, two trains were moving in opposite directions, as if they were chasing the farthest places with some memories of my life......

And it's time for me to leave Suzhou again, and then wait in my hometown for that woman who can't be missing in my life and the surprises she is about to bring me...

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On the afternoon of Chinese New Year's Eve, I sat in the video café I created two years ago, drinking coffee, reading the latest issue of financial magazines......

Putting down the magazine in my hand, I squinted at the blue sky and white clouds outside the coffee shop, opened a window and stretched my hand outside, the dazzling sunlight did not have the bone-crushing cold of winter, in such good weather, I couldn't help but put a smile on my face, from the neckline untied the necklace with a butterfly pendant that Mi Cai had given me, I put it in my hand, and then watched the sunlight through the circle of light refracted by the butterfly's wings......

In the distance, a figure walked softly towards the coffee shop under the blowing of the breeze, and my heart, which had been calm all afternoon, began to beat violently......

She was getting closer and closer to me, and I saw her for real, and the child she was holding in her hand, with a bear-eared hat, I felt inexplicably kind, because there were too many traces of me between the child's eyebrows, and the skin and lips had inherited Micai, I had never seen such a beautiful and lovely child, and I couldn't help but burst into tears...... I know, this is my child, and I finally understand why Mi Cai disappeared for so long last year......

At sunset, Mi Cai stood outside the glass window, she lifted the chestnuts she bought in her hand, and said doting to the child in her arms: "The so-called, hand the chestnuts in my mother's hands to my father......"

The tears have made it impossible for me to see clearly, the beauty of the world in front of me is so heartbreaking...... It turns out that our child's name is so-called, and this name must be given by Mi Cai, and only she has such a state of mind to name the child so-called.

The child couldn't speak, let alone carry chestnuts, he just "babbled" at me and smiled, and then leaned on Mi Cai's shoulder, and used his little hand to stroke the hair around Mi Cai's ear, as if this was his greatest pleasure......

A gentle gust of wind, blowing the scent of rice and children, fell through the window into my open neckline, and I knew that I was not dreaming......

In this half of my life, I have been depressed, painful, hurt by love, and betrayed by my brother, but all this has dissolved in the sunshine of this afternoon, and I am willing to forgive all the injustices and dark wounds in this world for the sake of the beloved in front of me......

At this moment, I seemed to see a kind of purity, which floated in front of the city, merged with the blue sky and white clouds in a return posture, and then scattered with the sunlight and fell to the ground to become affectionate......

I walked towards the outside of the coffee shop with solid steps, I came to their mother and son, Mi Cai handed me the so-called so-called, I held him so carefully, he did not cry because he had never seen me, and Mi Cai kept holding his little hand and encouraging him to recognize my hug...... My heart melted like this, and I choked up and said to Mi Cai: "Four years ago, you were my tenant, and four years later you are my wife...... Fate, it's really mysterious..."

"Well, two years ago you were the man I loved dearly, and two years later you were the father of the child...... We should all be grateful for fate, thank you for the old house that allowed us to meet in fate..."

I nodded, and gently hugged Mi Cai into my arms, and the sound of firecrackers representing the arrival of Chinese New Year's Eve night had already been heard in the distance, I took Mi Cai's hand, holding the so-called, and walked in the direction of home along the gravel road under my feet...... Our figure is getting longer and longer under the street lamp that has just been lit, but we have left a harmonious ...... And the picture of Mi Cai and I meeting on a rainy night four years ago is embedded in the soft night, like a long-form movie rendered by fireworks, describing the feelings of youth and the indelible hope in life...

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My name is Zhaoyang, this is my story, and the end may also be the beginning......

End of book

After a year and a half of creation, it's finally over, I know it's not a perfect work, but I've tried my best, and my ability can only write to this extent, thank you for your support along the way.

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