It was my last afternoon before I left Suzhou, as if I was in the mood to see me off, the sun was so gentle caressing the city in the cold winter, I packed my luggage, and then took my favorite guitar to the cemetery where Fang Yuan's ashes were placed.

I don't feel very heavy, I just want to see him before leaving, perhaps, he has not yet adapted to another world, and he is a little lonely at the moment

I gently placed the bouquet in front of the tombstone, and then sat down against his tombstone, I chose a good position, as long as I turned my head slightly, I could see his confident and wise smiling face in the photo, and we sat as if we had been before, ready to talk about the rights and wrongs of this world.

I opened the convenience bag I brought, took out a box of cigarettes and beer from it, subconsciously looked at the blue sky and white clouds above my head and smiled, and said: "The cigarette is a pack of red plums for four yuan and five cents, and the wine doesn't cost money, it is a few cans of beer that are about to expire given to me by the owner of the food stall a few days ago, although it is not a rare thing, but we just like it, don't we?" So today we have to drink with our stomachs open," I said, opening two cans of beer and pouring one of them on the grass in front of the tombstone, holding one in my own hand.

I drank a can of beer in one go, wiped the remaining juice from the corner of my mouth, and was silent for a long time before I said: "Recently, for some reason, I always go to those places that I often mix with when I go to college, such as the billiard hall where the table is so old that it is almost unusable, hehe, the boss inside is still so stupid. Forced, one more minute to count an extra hour of money, such an inhumane business, as soon as possible fucking bankrupt and the owner of the food stall, he can still remember us, I went that day, he also asked you for the news, I told him: You left Suzhou after graduation I don't want to lie, but recently I can't help but think: If you have never been to Suzhou, will you live happily now? ”

"The owner of the food stall is much kinder than the owner of the billiard hall, and he likes to give us beer that is about to expire as he used to," I said with a smile, but I cried again as I spoke

I wiped away my tears, my body was empty, but what I thought of was the picture of our arrogance and nonsense in those green years, I remembered: every night after drinking at the food stalls, I would hook up with Fang Yuan and sprinkle on the school on the other side of the street. Urine, the only thing that can cover us is just a plane tree that will be bald in winterFor this reason, Jian Wei and Yan Yan felt extremely ashamed, and pretended not to know us several times, running by us like a gust of wind, but we never took it as a warning, because these are the indispensable vulgar feelings of youth, aren't they?

I closed my eyes, let out a heavy breath, raised my head and drank another can of beer, then lit a cigarette and placed it in front of Fang Yuan's tombstone, and lit one myself

When the familiar taste of red plum smoke stimulated my sense of taste, I began to read again: "Fang Yuan, what do you say life is like?" Maybe it's a mountain that we desperately want to cross, and then go to see the world on the other side of the mountain, but when we finally reach the top of the mountain, we find that the other side of the mountain is just a mountain! So you will find that there are some things that you have worked so hard to pursue, and after you get them, they are just like this, hehe, life? Life! ”

I shook my head, finally put down the beer can in my hand, picked up the guitar, plucked the strings lightly, looked at Fang Yuan's photo again, and whispered: "Now fulfill my promise, and then sing you your favorite song "seasonsinthesun" After singing this song, I don't want to touch the guitar again in my life I don't know what the reason is, it's just that I always feel a little tired when I see this thing recently, don't tell you about these troubles in life, listen to me sing brother!" ”

"Goodbyetoyoumytrustedfriend, We'veknowneachothersincewewerenineorten, Togetherwe'veclimbedhillsandtrees, LearnedofloveandABC's, Skinnedourheartsandskinnedourknees (We are of the same mind, we are like brothers), Goodbyemyfriendit'shardtodie (Goodbye my best friend, friendship is immortal)) When this song is finished, I seem to have fallen from one world to another, I am tired because of the ups and downs along the way, I gently put the guitar next to the tombstone in Fang Yuan, I am leaving, I am not going to take this guitar with me, if my story will become a book, then the book begins with a guitar and ends with a guitar, and this act will at least make the book seem to echo from beginning to end

However, I ignored that at the beginning of the story, I was waiting for Janeway with my guitar, and at the end of the story, the person I was waiting for had become a woman named Mi Cai

I finally left everything I had brought and prepared to leave the cemetery, but on the way back I met a person who surprised me, he was the president of Sun who was entrusted with 15 million funds for Simei advertising, I did not expect to meet him here, his expression was solemn, holding a bouquet of lilies representing pure friendship

I stopped, but he looked at me unexpectedly, then I could be sure that he was also coming to see Fang Yuan, and without waiting for me to speak, he said with a sad expression: "I didn't go to Fang Yuan's funeral, it was to fulfill the promise I made to him, but I still met you here." ”

I looked back at Fang Yuan's tombstone again, unable to express my feelings at the moment

President Sun hugged the lilies in his hand tightly, and he said with infinite embarrassment: "Fang Yuan and I are considered to have forgotten the year before last, I have caused heavy losses to the bank because of dereliction of duty, it is he who uses the resources in his hands to help me carry out capital operation, and finally successfully made up for the loss, and also kept my position Although we met because of the money game, but we are more like friends in life So, I don't care what others think of him in this life, but in my heart, he is a wise and responsible, It's a pity that his life is too short! ”

Looking at President Sun in front of me, I couldn't help but ask myself, what is the clear boundary between the wicked and the good?

In fact, no, and man is always a very subjective animal, the one who violates his own interests is the wicked, and the one who has given himself is the good person, or, the deceased has passed away, for Fang Yuan, the so-called good and evil are no longer important So, I didn't say anything, just nodded, and I agreed with President Sun's evaluation of Fang Yuan.

President Sun's expression was still very embarrassed, and he said to me again: "I don't know if you heard the news, you and Fang Yuan's friend Xiang Chen when they were in college, because they are suspected of huge amounts of illegal fundraising, have been investigated by the relevant departments, once it is identified, the crime is not light!" Fang Yuan often talked to me about you and Xiang Chen before his death, he gave you a high evaluation of Zhaoyang, but when it came to Xiang Chen, the expression on his face was very complicated, he said: Xiang Chen, the most sorry person in this life is your brother and Jian Boyu's daughter Jian Wei He also said that if Xiang Chen is imprisoned one day, it can be regarded as evil retribution, and now it is really a miracle! ”

My heart is heavy, but I don't know what to say? Because some things are so old that I can't grasp the context of how to investigate, but I already know it in my heart!