The next morning, when I woke up, Robben was no longer in the ward, and I knew that he had probably gone to the rooftop of the hospital to finish what he hadn't done the previous night, and before I could wake up, I put on my coat and ran to the top floor.

Standing on the rooftop, I looked up and saw that Robben was lighting a cigarette and standing on the edge of the guardrail, thoughtful, but calm, which reassured me a little, and I walked to his side a few steps, and found that he had picked the best position for himself on this rooftop, not only with a wide view, but also with the long-lost sunlight falling on him and beside the snow at the best angle.

There are some dead leaves on the guardrail that have been swept by the wind, which makes this sunlit world a little bleak and boring, making people yearn for the early arrival of the long-lost spring, and not to be full of parting in this cold winter where nothing is lifeless!

Robben exhaled the cigarette in his mouth for a long time, and he said: "After so many years in Suzhou, I feel that it has a taste for the first time. ”

"It's the smell of goodbye, right?"

Robben shook his head: "It's the taste of human warmth, I think, in this life, I will remember what happened in this city, it is not my destination, but it is not the end of my life." ”

"There will be no second end in human life except old age and death."

Robben smiled: "The end of life is not necessarily the end, just like a flower will bloom again if it withers, spring, summer, autumn and winter, the four seasons alternate, the tide rises and falls, the sunset and the sun rises, all tell us that there must be reincarnation in this world, and life will also have reincarnation." ”

I patted him on the shoulder and said with a smile: "You can talk to me about reincarnation, and I will rest assured, in fact, I have seen through the essence of survival, which is nothing more than dividing and merging, coming and going, people create happiness for people, and people create pain for people!" ”

"Hehe Zhaoyang, if the time you have left in your life is good, forget it, if you don't go well, remember what you persuaded me yourself, and then encourage yourself!"

"You mean: seeing through the essence of existence, it is just a matter of dividing and merging, coming and going, people creating happiness for people, and people creating pain for people, this sentence?"

"You can't say anything more reasonable than that!"

Robben's teasing made me smile, put my arm around his shoulder, and we looked towards the end of the city, but we didn't know where the end was, but we were real, sometimes angry, sometimes crazy, sometimes not feeling growth!

The morning sun is getting better and better, the wind is blowing, bringing a blurring fragrance, looking back, Le Yao is already standing behind us, it turns out that the fragrance is wafting from her body, no wonder it is so familiar.

"I heard the nurse say, seeing you two standing on the rooftop, I came up to such a cold day, and it also stopped you two angry young people from feeling for life!"

I replied, "It's not surprising, just as we don't understand that you women are willing to put aside life-sustaining food and drink, and to dress up in a fancy way." ”

Le Yao pinned her hair behind her ears to make sure that it was not disturbed by the wind, and then said: "So, we are all just living for our own position Actually, where is the pain?" The so-called life is just for the extension of desire! ”

Robben and I glanced at each other, and we already knew in our hearts that she was a woman who could live a showy and a deep life, but most of the time, we ignored her charm because of our own pursuits and desires

The three of us stood side by side, and the damp cold wind blew through it, making the whole city seem to be under our feet, telling this sadness from winter, so we were silent for a long time

Finally, I said to Le Yao: "Robben is leaving, going to the United States, he said that he wants to study for a few years to improve his musical literacy." ”

Le Yao looked at Robben and asked, "Are you really leaving?" ”

"Hmm."

"How many years are you going to go, have you thought about it?"

"I haven't had time to think about Le Yao yet, I've been a buddy for so many years, after I leave, be sure to do me two favors, okay?"

"Say it."

"The first thing: to help set up the band that follows me, and to help these brothers find a reliable artist or performance company, their professionalism is the top in the industry, but there have been fewer opportunities."

"No problem, it's a small thing, what about the second one?"

"Don't send the girl back to that small mountain village, she doesn't want to go back, you take her with you, or find a better person to settle her, and I can only take care of her here."

Speaking of the girl, Le Yao's expression was full of guilt and self-blame, and she replied in a low voice: "This is originally my responsibility, you don't need to ask me for help!" ”

Luo Ben seemed to have a thought, raised his head, smiled at the scattered sunshine, and then hugged Le Yao tightly in his arms: "I have already handled the visa to go to the United States before, so I won't stay in the country for long, I will leave the day after tomorrow, you take care, remember to take care of yourself." ”

When the parting was close at hand, Le Yao finally shrank in Robben's arms, beating his chest, crying uncontrollably: "I was wronged after you left like this, no one came out, and there was no one to talk to, how could you bear to leave, you selfish bastards, just thinking about ending your own pain and running away, but you don't think about how painful your friends are when you leave like this!" ”

Robben was very apologetic, so sorry that he could only hug Le Yao tighter, but he didn't know what to say and this heartbreaking parting reminded me of the day when CC said goodbye again.

Le Yao and I are two very strong people with a lack of emotion, so we need Robben so much, and we need CC to comfort us by our side, but when they really want to leave, we are just as powerless and unable to stop, we can only say "cherish goodbye" in heart-rending pain, but we don't know how long it will take to see each other again, all we feel is the distant parting!

At noon, Le Yao and I were waiting for her to get out of school at the girl's school, Le Yao's expression was very melancholy, although she kept saying that it was her responsibility to take care of the girl, but so far, she has not proposed a practical placement method, I know, at least at this time, it is difficult for her to bring the girl back to Beijing.

After waiting a while, Mi Cai also came to the school, which surprised me, and when she parked the car and came to me, she asked her, "Why are you here too?" ”

"I promised the girl that I would pick her up after school at noon."

I nodded, although she was very busy with work, she still cared about the girl's affairs, so the three of them waited together, and while waiting, Mi Cai asked Le Yao: "Have you figured out how to place the girl?" ”

Mi Cai's active communication made Le Yao a little surprised, and she was stunned for a moment before replying: "Not yet." ”

"The psychological pressure caused by this incident is very high, you should solve it quickly."

Mi Cai's kind reminder made Le Yao's face sad, and then fell into silence, Mi Cai and I glanced at each other, and also fell into a helpless silence, and sighed that the world makes people, otherwise it would be a good destination to let the girl stay by Robben and Wei Manwen's side!

Le Yao finally said to me: "Zhaoyang, can you help the girl find a good family to settle down first, I will bear the cost of a qiē, it is a little difficult for me to take her to Beijing temporarily!" ”

I haven't answered yet, Mi Cai frowned and took Le Yao's words, and said: "I don't agree with this very much, wherever she goes, it is all based on the premise of a sense of belonging, the family we are helping to find, whether it can give the girl a sense of belonging, no one can guarantee this, if you send it to the wrong person, it will be a mistake made by me and Zhaoyang In addition, I want to ask, which family is willing to cultivate a relationship with the girl, and then take the girl away when it is convenient for you?" This matter itself involves feelings, and it is difficult for money to solve the essential contradiction, understand? ”

Le Yao's face was a little ugly, and she replied: "I am a drama in the entertainment industry, of course I am not as thoughtful as you." ”

Mi Cai seemed to be choked by Le Yao, and she didn't say anything for a while, but her attitude was still very clear, she couldn't agree with the solution proposed by Le Yao, and the girl couldn't just find someone to foster her.

After I was silent for a while, I finally said to the two: "Or, let's foster the girl in Wei Xiao's house first, these two children's families are disabled, the two must have a common language, and it is easy to identify with each other emotionally, plus they are studying in the same school, and they also take care of each other, can you accept it?" ”

Le Yao naturally has no problem, she looked at Mi Cai, waiting for Mi Cai to make a statement, maybe in her heart, she already thinks that I am the only Mi Cai, and this thing can be done as long as Mi Cai nods.

Mi Cai is not an unreasonable woman, and after weighing it a little, she said: "Then ask Wei Xiao and his grandfather for their advice first, if they are willing to take in the girl temporarily, it is also a good home!" ”

I nodded, and then said to Le Yao: "Don't worry about the cost of the girl's life, the 600,000 savings you left her have been kept with me, which is enough to cultivate her to the point where she has the ability to work In fact, the most important thing in this matter is: can the girl herself have a sense of identity and belonging to the family that adopted her!" ”

"Anyway, what Mr. Mi said is right, and what I did was not considered!"

Le Yao's response made me a little overwhelmed, in fact, she was really doing her best for the girl, maybe she did have a difficulty, and Mi Cai and I just stood in the girl's position to blame her, but did not take into account her difficulties.

In the cold wind, Le Yao turned her body and stopped paying attention to me and Mi Cai, but I saw some of her own indescribable pain in her back, and I even felt that the days when she married into a wealthy family did not seem to be so smooth

Hopefully, it's just my delusion!

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