"What the world says about loving someone is not necessarily to get her to possess her, this is all self-deception, this is self-consolation...... When I first saw you, I felt like I should have gotten you for nothing...... I have longed for peace for so many years, I have longed for joy for so many years, and now it is in front of me, and I should grasp it without regard for it...... If I can't get you, I'm better off dead......"

"Rui Rui, whether you call me selfish, or say that I am possessive, I want to get you, this idea has never wavered. My idea is very simple and persistent, I want to give you all the qiē promised to you back then, and then make up for all the regrets of Meiling back then...... God arranged for me to meet you at this time, which is destined for me to go through vicissitudes and tribulations so that I can cherish you better...... Otherwise, we really met too early, I wouldn't cherish this relationship so much, and I wouldn't take care of you so considerately......"

"For a while, I've been reflecting and thinking about our relationship, although Meiling's death makes me feel guilty, I don't deserve to be happy...... However, how determined I want to give you happiness, when I knew that you were going to get married, to marry Li Wenchuan, I was going crazy...... I don't know how this came to be, but I firmly believe that God didn't let me meet you, not to watch you marry someone else as a bride......"

Speaking of this, he took Huang Ruirui's hand, still with tears in his eyes, and looked at Huang Ruirui so sincerely: "Ruirui, believe me, I have always loved you, watching you marry someone else, this pain is no less than Meiling's death back then." I admit that this time, Ma Xiaoyun's arrival brought up Meiling in front of me again, evoking my painful memories, and making me fall into deep self-blame and guilt again, I feel that I shouldn't be happy and loving with you all day long, but I really just want to punish myself, who expected, things will evolve step by step to this point......"

"But where are you punishing, it's clear that it's me who punishes...... It seems that I shouldn't be enjoying this happiness...... It seems that I should live in pain......" mentioning the snub for a while, Huang Ruirui cried again.

"It's my fault...... It's all my fault......" caused her to cry, Huo Jingwei had to wipe her undeserved face: "I won't be like this in the future, Rui Rui, come back to me, let's start again, okay?" ”

Come back to him and start over? Huang Ruirui raised her blurry teary eyes and looked at Huo Jingwei, can the two of them start again?

Huo Jingwei looked at her tightly, his eyes were full of prayer and longing, how he longed for her to nod, and the two started again.

"But, can you let go of Meiling?" Huang Ruirui asked.

Although she already knows that Huo Jingwei and Meiling are only very pure friends, but, as Huo Jingwei said, Meiling's death has made him feel guilty for ten years, and so far, he has not completely come out.

When the two are together, can they really leave Meiling behind and be happy again?

This question made Huo Jingwei stunned, he always thought that these two people had no conflict at all, as he said, he loved Huang Ruirui, and for Meiling, it was just a kind of guilt.

However, how long will this guilt affect him? Is he in a state of guilt, he tortures himself to punish himself, and as a person close to him, it doesn't matter at all?

It is true that Meiling's death, in the eyes of outsiders, was indeed a car accident, and it was not only Meiling who was killed at that time, but even the driver of the big truck was also killed in that accident.

Huo Jingwei in this scene made Huang Ruirui understand that he couldn't completely let go of Meiling.

"Jingwei, let's get together and disperse. You remember a long time ago, when you asked me to be your girlfriend, I said that I am a person with a habit of cleanliness, and even more so spiritually...... I can't accept that my man has another woman in his heart. If you have another woman now, I will not hesitate to retaliate, revenge for your empathy, revenge for your rebellion...... However, what is in your heart now is a dead woman, and you have never been able to let go of the dead Meiling, and I will never be reconciled to this humiliating way of getting along......"

"Jingwei, let it go...... If you've been living with guilt...... My presence with you only adds to your guilt...... On the one hand, you will feel guilty about Meiling and feel that you don't deserve happiness in front of her...... On the one hand, you feel guilty about me, and you feel that you want to give me happiness, but you can't give me happiness...... Jingwei, with such Mao Dun's psychology, aren't you tired? ”

This kind of Mao Dun's psychology, Huo Jingwei deeply realized, he was tired, indeed very tired, a while ago, he suffered from it.

On the one hand, he felt that he should be punished and should not be happy, but on the other hand, seeing Huang Ruirui being left out in the cold, he felt so guilty that he said okay, he wanted to give her happiness and make her safe and happy.

Huang Ruirui withdrew her hand from his hand, turned around and prepared to leave, instead of such a painful entanglement, it was better to take a step back and open the sky. After knowing the truth of the matter, she did not have a trace of resentment towards Huo Jingwei, nor did she have the unwillingness and humiliation of the past.

Maybe letting go is the real fulfillment of Huo Jingwei, and there is no need for him to live under double layers of guilt.

"No......" Huo Jingwei shouted angrily, the wound in his heart was so bloody and dug open, just to exchange Huang Ruirui to return to his side, let him let go, how to do it.

He pulled Huang Ruirui over, refused her departure, and lost control again, picked up her face, and shouted at her: "Ruirui, you don't understand, I can't let go of her, but I can't let go of you." ”

He almost roared, the thunderous momentum made Huang Ruirui stunned, he gritted his teeth, and said viciously: "Huang Ruirui, I love you, I want me to let go, don't think about it." ”

couldn't help it, looking at Huang Ruirui's red and swollen lips that were bitten by him, he wanted to kiss it again. It's just that at the moment when he got closer, the face that was originally covered with heavy makeup and stained with tears, like Meiling's blood-stained face before she died, appeared in front of her eyes, and it was instantly enlarged.

Huo Jingwei was so shocked that he took a few steps back.

Originally, he was standing next to the dry well, but after taking a few steps back, Huo Jingwei's body was crooked, and he fell into the dry well without warning.

Fortunately, he was always agile, and when he fell, his arm had instinctively supported the wall of the well next to him, relieving the momentum of the fall, and the bottom of the well was already overgrown with weeds and fallen with dead branches.

Jingwei ...... Jingwei ...... How are you? Unexpectedly, this sudden change occurred, Huang Ruirui stood on the edge of the well, and asked him repeatedly, her voice full of anxiety.

Huo Jingwei, who originally fell, was extremely flustered, at that moment, it seemed that the old situation from fifteen years ago had reappeared, and he also fell into the well like this, but he didn't even dare to call for help, lest the kidnappers who kidnapped him hear.

He panicked, his heart beat faster, instinctively, he wanted to shrink into a ball, the muscles on his face were tense and almost twisted, and together with his breathing, he was terribly short. He curled up in a ball, and tried to close his eyes and cover his ears to escape this qiē.

"Are you alright? Jingwei? Huang Ruirui asked repeatedly, I was really afraid that he would fall like this, and there would be any accidents.

At that moment, she was also panicked, a moment ago, she still wanted to leave, but at this moment, in the face of Huo Jingwei's sudden change, her reaction obeyed the command of her heart.

Seeing that Huo Jingwei's situation was so flustered, his face was pale, his breath was short, and he had already hugged his hands and feet and curled up in a ball, Huang Ruirui became more and more anxious: "Jingwei, sue me, you're okay, don't do anything to you." ”

Seeing that he was still stunned and silent, Huang Ruirui's tears fell suddenly: "Jingwei, don't scare me, if something happens, what should I do with the child in my womb......"

Huo Jingwei, who was anxious and nervous, had already had a rapid heartbeat and cold limbs, and a series of autonomic nerve reflexes had already occurred, but Huang Ruirui's words still faintly came into his ears...... What's the matter with him...... What did she do...... What about the baby in her womb......

He raised his head, at the bottom of the well, looking up at Huang Ruirui, as if he had met for the first time, just so dumbfounded, looking at Huang Ruirui stupidly, as if watching the arrival of an angel.

Until this time, Huang Ruirui still didn't expect what happened to Huo Jingwei, and thought that he must have broken his brain, or that he had fallen somewhere, so that he couldn't speak in pain.

"Jingwei, wait, I'll come down to save you." At this time, she couldn't take care of anything, she had to save him. This is the man she loves, how can she not care about him when he has something.

The well is not deep, and it is only five or six meters away, in normal times, Huo Jingwei can completely try to climb out by himself, but now, his claustrophobia attack, he is trapped in boundless fear, and he has no reaction at all.

Huang Ruirui calmed down, this is not the time to panic, she has to save Huo Jingwei came up, she took off the small leather boots on her feet, and tore her wedding skirt vigorously, even if the hand strength on her hands was not enough, she used the little tiger teeth to tear sharply, and finally tore off most of the wedding skirt, tied a long rope, tied it to the stump on the side, tried to strengthen Cheng Dù, she grabbed the long rope, and prepared, just slid down the well.

Huo Jingwei, who had been in fear, saw that the snow-white wedding dress appeared above the wellhead, and Huang Ruirui was already bare and ready to jump down like this.

"No ......" Huo Jingwei, who was in fear, finally screamed.

In his consciousness, this is an extremely dangerous place, which makes him panic, how can he let Huang Ruirui come to the danger, not to mention, she is also pregnant with a baby, it is a baby of two.