Yan Zhuomei's emotional self-confession, let me subvert her cognition, I don't doubt that she is from the bottom of her heart, but I also understand that this is an emotional card she plays, no matter how much Mi Cai can't let go of what she did in the past, after all, she is still Mi Cai's biological mother, when she talks about her motives for leaving, and the past with Mi Zhongxin, Mi Cai is reluctant to let her be so lonely

Seeing Mi Cai's expression change, Yan Zhuomei said to Mi Cai again: "Xiaocai, mother can be misunderstood by everyone, but you are my daughter, I really hope you can forgive me for doing wrong in the past and come back to me, okay?" ”

Mi Cai was silent

Yan Zhuomei turned to me and said: "Zhaoyang, I heard that the girl you fell in love with for the first time suffered a very serious brain trauma because of an accident This time, I didn't return to China alone, I invited brain experts from the Mayo Clinic in the United States to represent the highest level in the world, they are the authority in the field of studying vegetative consciousness, I mean: there is nothing in this world that can be more respectful than life, we must do our best to make this girl wake up, I can find a way to ship medical equipment from the United States that is not available in China, so that she can enjoy the highest level of medical care in the United States at home. ”

I looked at her with surprise, no wonder she had said that I would welcome her back to China, because she had brought me a gift that I couldn't refuse!

She said again: "Although I am not in the country, I know everything that is happening in the country clearly, and I also understand that you will definitely suspect the injury of your first girlfriend to my Yan Zhuomei, but I will not do such a stupid thing, it is obvious that there is a clown who jumped off the beam and splashed dirty water on my body, as for who it is, I believe you have the ability to find out." ”

I frowned and thought, but Mi Cai's face was a little ugly, and I suddenly remembered that Yan Zhuomei had been emphasizing that Jian Wei was my first girlfriend, which touched the most sensitive string in Mi Cai's heart, she seemed to inadvertently distance me and Mi Cai, she naturally controlled our thinking, let us stay in her expression, there was no way to refute, only to listen.

So, she continued to say to me: "I know that you are a young man full of idealism, first of all, I do not reject idealism, what I hate is just to escape the cruelty of society in the name of idealism, and do not blame yourself for the failure in the competition, so that you can understand that this is a world made of matter, we can never live alone from matter, and material will bring people the most secure feeling, just like: this time your first girlfriend suffered a tragedy, What can your idealism bring to her? However, the material resources I have at my disposal can allow her to receive the best treatment, you don't naively think that those American doctors are angels in the world, full of idealism, compassion for the heart, thousands of people waiting for treatment, but there are only a handful of top-level doctors, and in the end they are moved to come to China thousands of miles away, or money, I hope you can see this, please don't hurt my daughter with your idealism, and the people around you, only leaders are qualified to talk about ideals, As long as their hands sign a word on the text, a city will rise from the ground, thus changing the livelihood of countless people, if you want to talk about ideals, you must first make yourself a leader, otherwise your fantasies are just a pipe dream at best! ”

My mood was constantly touched by Yan Zhuomei's words, I was silent for a long time, and finally raised my head to look at her and asked, "You have told me so much, what do you want me to do?" ”

"Give my daughter a way to go, but also to give yourself a way out I tell you the truth, you have never been the ideal son-in-law in my mind, you can give my daughter a temporary happiness, I believe this, but you can't give her a lifetime of happiness, because I have not seen the ability to resist risks in you, and this changeable world will not give you a smooth sailing life."

I felt as if I had been pricked by a needle, but I lowered my head and didn't open my mouth to refute Yan Zhuomei, because what she said was a truth that I couldn't refute, it was my trust in my friends, and the psychology of escaping after encountering setbacks, that made Mi Cai completely lose Zhuomei, and naively thought that the life she was looking for in Xuzhou was the life she was looking for, but she didn't really live this life well.

Perhaps, letting go is the real love for Mi Cai, presumably she is also tired, although I don't doubt that we are still in love, but a lot of love is let go in exhaustion

I exhaled softly, with a sharp blade in my heart, but said calmly to Yan Zhuomei: "If Mi Cai is willing to follow you to the United States this time, I will bless her!" ”

Mi Cai looked at me I didn't avoid her gaze, I also looked at her, I wanted to engrave her appearance in my heart, never forget!

Yan Zhuomei looked at Mi Cai again, waiting for her to reply

Maybe the answer was already in Mi Cai's heart, she didn't worry too much, nodded, and replied: "I am willing to go back to the United States with you and stay in the United States from now on." ”

I don't know what Yan Zhuomei's expression is at this moment, I closed my eyes and swallowed my saliva in pain, we finally came to the end of our relationship for nearly two years in this way, we didn't quarrel, out of peace, maybe out of belief that we would get a better life after leaving each other So, both of us chose to give up this relationship at the age of 28, so the promise of "as long as one of them doesn't give up, the other person is not allowed to give up" no longer exists.

I opened my eyes, Yan Zhuomei had already drunk the porridge in the bowl, put down the spoon, and said calmly: "The porridge and xiaolongbao here are very good, but they are only used for nostalgia, but they will no longer become a part of my daily life, I believe that in a few years, you will all be grateful to me, and you will all have a better start!" ”

Saying that a few years later is too far away, so I didn't respond to this sentence, but just said to Mi Cai: "Come with me later, okay?" ”

"Hmm."

When we left the snack street, it was already night, and Yan Zhuomei, who had finally achieved the goal, consciously gave me and Mi Cai enough space, she left in the car first, so only Mi Cai and I stood side by side on the crowded street, we tacitly looked at the soon-to-be-renamed Jumei's shopping mall, as if our love started here, and ended here, none of us was able to escape the fate that Zhuomei brought us, and Zhuomei did not escape the fate given to it by God, and our love is the same, It's about to cease to exist!

The world became more and more unreal in the intermingling of street lamps and neon, and those pedestrians who passed by only left a hurried image in my heart, and I felt empty like never before, so I turned to Mi Cai beside me and whispered, "Can I take your hand and walk?" ”

She didn't respond to me in words, but she took my hand, and we walked in unison down the stretch of the street to another block beyond Jumei, and from here about 10 stops we arrived at the square where we used to walk, which was always a paradise for children, and whose noise often converged into a cheerful song that floated over the city, warning us adults not to make life too heavy, and that is why we loved that place so much.

There are too many roads in this city, sometimes straight lines, sometimes curves, we have been walking between these straight lines and curves, seeing the bluestone bricks that form the city walls, seeing the banks of the river, and also seeing the boats carrying onlookers and tourists, collecting the essence of the city in their own cameras, perhaps, Mi Cai and I are also in their lenses, but when they look back at these photos, they don't know how sad we are when we walk on the banks of this river

We sat on a bench and rested, I smoked a cigarette while calculating how long it would be before I got to the square, yes, I didn't want to think about anything but the distance from here to the square, let alone any other woman who would make me so in love, I clenched Mi Cai's hand, and stroked the back of her hand with my thumb, feeling the time that had been carved in the temperature of the back of her hand.

"Zhaoyang, what do you think of what Yan Zhuomei just told us?"

"Half acting, half visceral!"

"Whether she's acting or from the bottom of her heart, she's successful, hasn't she?"

"She's a woman that's hard to refute, in fact, the most important thing is that I'm not good enough, so"

Mi Cai turned to look at me, her expression was solemn, and she asked, "Until now, do you still believe that there will be that crystal clear city in this world?" ”

"I believe it, but it's too illusory! Perhaps, it is just a product of unbearable pain, pinning on the hope of survival. ”

The evening breeze blew across the moat again, blowing waves and flowing northward, Mi Cai was speechless for a long time, she seemed to have experienced so many things, judging whether the city was visible, or just in our expectations, she finally said to me: "I think there will be such a city, but it is not crystal clear is not nothing behind the city, there should be a back garden, in which colorful flowers grow, and weeds, representing our joys, sorrows, and sorrows, It also represents the diversity of living forms, we need to stick to the crystal clear in the depths of the soul, but also know how to appreciate the gloom and color in the world, if these are fused, it is a truly living city! ”

The first time I heard Mi Cai put forward a different opinion on the city I believed in, in her opinion, I used to be paranoid, because of this paranoia, I was unwilling to accept other forms, the pursuit of that crystal clear purity, but this crystal clear is flawed, because life has become no suspense, you can see the bottom at a glance, in fact, the best way is to wash your soul, stand in that city, look at the back garden that has never been conceived, life will be colorful

It turns out that the city in the sky does not live in the heart, it should be allowed to fly to the sky, in order to see compatibility, the open-minded and open sky city is not only its own, because it is not a city that represents loneliness, it contains time and life, it is an open city that can give people guidance, whether it is good or evil, it is just the flowers and trees in the back garden, we are bathed in that crystal light, the good people grow, and the wicked people will perish without repentance It is the core of this world, it is the embodiment of human nature, It is the law that life should obey.

In the evening breeze, I told Mi Cai of my thoughts, I finally saw some smiles on her face, she leaned into my arms, and said softly: "Yang, I must go to the United States, but this does not mean that we must end at the cost Yan Zhuomei has always been my mother, she said these words to us from the bottom of her heart, but I also know her intentions, she wants me to go to the United States, and then persuade me little by little, reform me, let me marry and have children there!" ”

"I know, that's why she's kept Weiran by her side, and they're all waiting for you to go to the United States."

Mi Cai nodded: "Well, yesterday in the hospital, Jian Boyu touched me too much, some things have passed for so many years, Yan Zhuomei and I should calm down and face up to the mother-daughter relationship between us, I don't want one day, we will walk on the old road that Jian Wei's family is taking, only to wake up, so it will be too painful!" Actually, for so many years, I really wanted to call her Mom, but I couldn't open my mouth, I went to the United States, she will do her best to help Janeway, I hope to see the day Janeway wakes up, I am also afraid that those bad things are really her doing, if I insist on not leaving, there will be more tragedies So, I really have to leave! ”

"I understand you!"

"Remember the promise we made to each other?"

"As long as one of them doesn't give up, the other won't give up!"

"Now I'm going to sue you, I'm not going to give up on your willingness to fulfill this promise?"

I stared at her, the last moment I was already dead, but this moment she brought me back to life, and I couldn't speak for a long time!

Mi Cai sighed: "You are still the same, you are always so inferior in front of me, and you have always handed over the initiative of love to me, don't you have the confidence to fight for it once?" Or are you so great that you can use your own pain to fulfill the happiness that Yan Zhuomei gave me? She said as she took out the necklace I had given her from the hem of her coat with the pendant of the sailboat.

"I" my nose was a little sore.

She held my hands and said softly: "I heard that there is a Mochou Road in Nanjing, let's go there for a walk, I still have something to tell you, and then we say goodbye on the Mochou Road, and no one should worry about this separation!" ”

She smiled again, as if she was saying to herself: "Mo Chou, Mo Chou No matter how difficult the future is, Mo Chou, Mo Chou"