When I expressed my desire for Le Yao to participate in the "Road of Literature and Art" micro-film, everyone's eyes were all focused on her, obviously curious whether she would give me this face.

Le Yao didn't regard this as a matter that needed to be treated strictly, looked at me and replied: "Let's talk about this matter privately, don't spoil the atmosphere of everyone's party." ”

I replied, "If you accept it quickly, won't it ruin the atmosphere!" ”

Le Yao didn't answer my words, pulled Robben to the small stage to play for him, just left me dry, I took a sip of the beer glass in embarrassment, and then looked at each other very bored with CC sitting opposite.

After a while, CC finally spoke up and said to me, "Mi'er is gone, you look very low!" ”

I took another sip of beer: "Who says it's not, CC, why do you say that Mi Cai and I always get together less and leave more, the two of them are finally in Suzhou, and they broke up twice in the middle." ”

CC took out a cigarette from the cigarette case, lit it between his slender fingers, and smiled: "I remember a similar question, she also asked me that I think you are all a little bit of a loss, in fact, a temporary parting is not a big deal, and it does not mean forever." ”

I nodded, but I could understand my own gains and losses, because this kind of gains and losses is precisely the truest portrayal of love, and it also proves that there is indeed love between us, so I dare not imagine that there will be a day of eternal separation between us, because of that pain, my life will definitely not bear the second time

This night I have been sitting with CC in the "empty city" until more than nine o'clock in the evening, playing poker in the middle and losing more than 100 yuan to me, and at the same time there is Le Yao on her back, but she passed on this bad luck to me again, I once again repaid more than 200 yuan of gambling money for her, so I became the most carried person this night, I originally just wanted to listen to music, but I lost nearly 500 yuan for no reason, I was a little painful!

This kind of flesh pain makes me very puzzling, maybe this is related to the mentality of the family man I have recently grown, thinking about the past few years of misconduct, never because of the squandering of money and flesh pain, so with the salary of a white-collar worker, but never saved money, and therefore was ruthlessly counted by the first acquaintance of Mi Cai, let me see how ridiculous my previous life was, I gradually because Mi Cai into his own life, and live like a normal man.

When we left the empty city and prepared to part at the mouth of the alley outside, I felt it again, the life form that gradually changed over the years, because even Robben no longer drove the motorcycle that could tear the restraints in the wind at any time, he and Wei Manwen bought a car, it was an imported Pajero, and it was boldly modified by Robben, so that the body exuded a wild and uninhibited temperament, but after all, it was still a car, not a locomotive, so Robben had also bid farewell to the life that was out of reality in rock and roll.

CC took the girl back to his residence, and Wei Manwen drove away Robben, who was a little drunk, and only me and Le Yao, who were also a little drunk, were left at the scene.

I threw the car key to Le Yao and said to her, "The car will be driven for you, and I will take a taxi back by myself." ”

"Do you need to do so much? I'll send you back, and that's it. ”

"It's not normal time, it's better for us to keep a little distance"

Le Yao added: "After all, you are now a family man, right?" ”

"It's too early to talk about family, but it's true that she has a girlfriend and she's going to the United States now, so I have to live more seriously, so that she can do her work with peace of mind, which can be regarded as a kind of support for her work!"

"It's so good, I'm really happy for Mi Cai, but your uncle has the ability, don't ask me to make that kind of micro-movie, you and I don't get along with each other, won't it be over!"

Facing Le Yao's sudden turn of face, I was not in a hurry at all, smiled and said: "Look, look, you girl is easy to lose her temper, after all, we are all people who do big things, if there is an opportunity to cooperate with each other, we must be able to maintain a rational attitude to deal with it, let's put it bluntly, this is the so-called business, which has nothing to do with life at all!" ”

Le Yao turned her back and whispered to me, "You are so thick-skinned! ”

It was so easy for me to calm Le Yao's anger, I walked up to her side again, smiled and said, "We are both quite thick-skinned, otherwise we have been in a hurry so many times, and we are still friends for so many years, right?" ”

Le Yao didn't respond to me, but I couldn't remember how many times she ignored me tonight, she seemed a little abnormal, but the way she spoke was still as simple and rough as before, which made me feel that I didn't have enough basis to feel that I was thinking too much, so I stood by her side and was silent with her.

In the city, those neon covered this somewhat cold night, and even the towering buildings during the day seemed to be hidden in the countless circles of light and wilted, I took out a gummy from my pocket and threw it into my mouth to replace the pleasure of smoking.

Le Yao finally looked at the buildings opposite and said to me, "Zhaoyang, what do you think would be like if we were standing on the highest building now?" ”

Without thinking, I replied, "I feel like I'm going to freeze to death!" ”

"Let's go up and stand for a while, shall we?"

I looked at her and realized that she seemed to like the extremes and loneliness of places, such as the section of railroad tracks that she had seen in the mountains and forests when she was in a small mountain village, and the island in her mind that was isolated by the sea, and the building in front of her that seemed to be very lonely.

She said to me, who didn't say anything, "Can you go up and stand with me for a while?" I want to talk to you about something. ”

"Is it about participating in a micro-film?"

"Yes, but don't you always want to know who solved the huge liquidated damages for me after quitting the entertainment industry? Also, I shouted CC and Robben today, in fact, I want to say goodbye to me and I want to leave here and return to the life that belongs to me in the first place! ”

I looked at her with surprise, nodded for a while, and said, "Okay, I really didn't deliberately stand on a high place and look down, today I went to open my eyes and see what the city looks like under my lean." ”

When I walked to the building opposite, Le Yao kept walking in front of me, her shadow flickered long and short under the street lamp, as if she was the same uncertain, but when I looked at her body out of the shadow, I saw a helpless sadness, and finally had a premonition in my heart, she seemed to have made a heavy decision for her life in these days when we did not meet.