In the room, Janeway's crying is still tearing my nerves, once, I swore to her, I promised, I will never let her be a crying woman, but a few years later, she cried so heartache, I can only listen helplessly, blame, the person who proposed to break up was her, for us, a breakup means the end of the love contract, I am justifiable to be freed from those vows and alliances, I should not have the slightest guilt towards her.

After much self-persuasion, I left Janeway's house, but I didn't know what mood to bring back to the old house, but there must have been some apprehension, I was afraid that Mi Cai would wake up halfway through and I would not be there.

Carefully opened the door of the house, it was dark inside, I didn't dare to turn on the light, borrowed the faint screen light of the mobile phone, came to the room shared with Mi Cai, and carefully took off his clothes, lay down beside her, felt her breathing very evenly, and made sure that she was still asleep, the tense heart finally relaxed, but soon became heavy again, I don't know how Janeway spent it alone in this deep night.

I remembered the most memorable time in the past, when we fled from Shanghai to Suzhou in the name of elopement, and spent many nights together, she always had to hold my arm to sleep, and I felt the softness of her hair to feel at ease

In the middle of the night, I was cut deep and shallow by the sharp blade of memory, I was full of pain, but I didn't dare to smoke a cigarette, and the first love was really the most unforgettable, especially I also experienced so much with Janeway, so the more depressed she was, the more I didn't dare to live happier than her, I don't know, this is the general mentality after finding a new love, but I am really conflicted, I can't figure out my own seemingly unreasonable, but conclusive evidence of gains and losses!

The bedside light suddenly turned on, Mi Cai didn't have any communication with me, gave me a back, and walked to the bathroom, and then I heard the sound of the flushing toilet, she returned to my side, turned off the light, and continued to sleep, as if a machine qì completed the inherent action according to the pre-set program, and I was completely unintentional in her eyes.

My heart began to panic, perhaps, Mi Cai had found out about my departure, but she was not a person who liked to quarrel, and today was a better day for her, so she chose to let it go, or perhaps, she protested my departure with silence.

I couldn't hold it back, so I gently pushed her shoulder and asked, "Are you awake?" ”

"Of course I'm sober"

"Well, I'm just, just going to the company to deal with something more urgent."

"Really? How urgent is it? ”

"There is an event to be held in Nanjing tomorrow, which is temporarily changed due to weather conditions, and I need to confirm it."

"With such a heavy snow tonight, tomorrow is not a good time for activities!"

I didn't understand Mi Cai's voiceover, and subconsciously replied: "Yes! ”

"What about the scars on your face? I haven't asked you, but I want to know the answer in my heart, don't make it up, be real! ”

I couldn't answer, so I replaced it with silence, but my heart became more and more worried, more and more panicked, and even began to make bad plans.

Mi Cai suddenly hugged me tightly from behind, choked up and said: "Zhaoyang, I would rather be an ostrich, I don't want to explore what you have done, and what I think in my heart, because I can't bear to bear the feeling of loss in my heart when you are not there, I just woke up, I subconsciously looked for you, but the whole room was empty, I began to think nonsense, afraid that you would never go back"

Filled with guilt, I turned around and responded to her hug, whispering in her ear, "I won't leave"

"Give me a more honest promise, okay?"

"In the future, I will not only be your husband, but also your relatives, I will definitely be the man who will accompany you to the end of your life, unless you leave me, this is a promise that will never change, I am willing to swear with my soul!"

"Neither shall thy flesh betray it."

"My body and soul will be true to our feelings"

Mi Cai hugged me tighter, she was telling me with body language, she forgave me for the departure I had just had, forgave me for the lie that was not debunked by her, felt her tenderness, my mood changed again, I didn't want to dream a lot at night, I wanted to completely integrate each other's lives, so I reminded the old things in her ear: "We want a child, let's get ready to get married at any time." ”

My fingers roamed over her body, she gasped, but pulled open the cupboard next to the bed and took the contraceptive out of the drawer, she still didn't want the baby!

The next morning, Mi Cai got up before me, but, about breakfast, she only cooks porridge, and she went to the morning tea shop downstairs to buy it early, but I am still very satisfied, because we are together, and have gradually created an atmosphere of life, as if she is no longer the chairman of Zhuomei, and I am not the general manager of Luku, we are like two couples who have just graduated from college, trying to live for the first time, simple and ordinary to run their own small family but also regrets, she seems to have not been ready to have children, I know, the root cause, Or Zhuomei, when Zhuomei was at a critical moment of life and death, she couldn't give herself a long maternity leave, but this became a knot in my heart Actually, I was more afraid of the uncertain factors in the future than her, and only the child could keep her firmly by my side It seems that in front of her, I always lack some self-confidence, which is like a disease that plagues me, so that I can't always find that absolute sense of security in her.

On this day, after I said goodbye to Mi Cai, we were busy, until the evening when we got off work, we had the first phone call of the day, it was unfortunate that we all had extra overtime today, and finally agreed at nine o'clock, and then called each other to determine whether the other party ended the day's work.

Time flies, and soon it was nine o'clock in the night, when I was about to call Mi Cai as agreed, but an unfamiliar number called in first, I answered in confusion, and the other party asked: "Are you Mr. Zhaoyang?" ”

"I am, who are you?"

"I'm the Municipal People's Hospital, I want to confirm with you, you have a friend named Robben, right?"

His self-reported home made me feel a strong sense of unease, and I asked tremblingly, "What's wrong with him?" ”

"He's in a car accident, and he's in a coma, come over quickly."

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