The snow seems to be heavier outside.

I glanced up at the gray sky. It seems to be covered by a large stream of clouds. There is not a glimmer of light in the dense turns. This year seems to be exceptionally cold. It's winter. It is desolate and desolate. Maybe it's a remote place like this place that is not as luxurious and prosperous as the imperial capital. It's going to be chilling for no reason.

However. But I'm not disgusted.

I've been here for the third year. I've long since gotten used to the odds. Unpredictable weather. Even if it is not as good as the four seasons in the palace. But what they presented to me was the best. Moreover. I don't have to spend my days in fear. Over here. There is a kind of smell of rivers and lakes. It's a place I've always longed for.

It's just that. There is no trace of him.

I withdrew my gaze from afar. Knock lightly on the door that is hidden in front of you. Fubi was standing right next to me. There was a drifting look of doubt in her gentle gaze. I smiled. Not yet spoken. The door has been opened. Standing in front of him was a handsome and extraordinary man. Because of his young age. I didn't have too deep a worldly atmosphere.

He was visibly stunned when he saw me. Hurriedly turned sideways and said, "Count nine cold days. Madame came in person."

In the past three years. People have always called me Madame. Screaming and screaming. I feel much older. In fact. I've really had my ups and downs. I bowed slightly. Walking into the house with a hand stove.

Yu Sheng only called me a distant relative. After the new emperor ascended the throne, he was once again appointed to the imperial court. The treatment he received was extraordinary. I also took a lot of care from him. I saw that his small mahogany case was full of spread-out PR papers. I knew that he must have been busy these days.

Seems to see my concerns. Yu Sheng took the lead and said, "Madam, don't care. Today's court affairs are indeed a bit heavy."

"I heard that the Queen Mother is going to purge the dissidents again." Moaning slightly. It's already smiling." Sister. She's really suitable to assist the new emperor."

"Yu Sheng respects his wife and does not admire Ronghua's open-mindedness." The man smiled heartily. His face was full of sincerity." It was the lady who gave up the position of queen mother. Yu Sheng can be recalled to the court by the current Empress Dowager."

I looked at him with a smile. Stretched out his hand and pulled his hair in a bun: "It's an old thing. Besides, you have helped me find someone for a long time. Just today. I'm here to say goodbye to you." I saw the astonishment in his eyes. but he did not see it. It's just that the hand stove that has been a little warm is flipped in his hand. Determined." I'm going all the way south. Look for his traces. I'm going to leave in the near future."

"Madame, don't you have any intention of giving up?" Yu Sheng did not hide the surprise on his face. Straight to the point." It's been so long. What's the point of finding it? The first half of Madame's life has been bumpy. Why don't you take a look at some."

I know he is a well-intentioned persuasion. Even Fubi has said it more than once. However, the only belief that has sustained me until now is Chengying. If you don't keep looking. Where do I go from here? Moreover. My sister was grounded by the emperor for eight years. She has endured such long and painful years. Now I don't care. And what reason is there to give up?

Then he confessed: "I want to find this journey again. But it's a young master. You're not too young. Why haven't you married for a long time?"

Every time I talk about it. Yu Sheng seemed to have concerns. Hanging his head and smiling: "I also have another secret ......"

I saw him look like this. How could he not know what was in his heart? Once upon a time there were attendants in my palace who admired the maids. It's so obscure and forbearing. Yu Sheng was also a royal man in the past. I guess I have my own story. I looked out at the sky. See the sun's head slanting in the west. Heavy snow like flying poplars. Then he got up and said, "It turns out that everyone has troubles. I can't do anything. But I also hope that the young master will be happy."

He heard that. A little emotion appeared on his face. Personally sent me to the outside of the cabinet before I stopped.

This time. I listen to Fubi. Decided to go to Woyun Temple thirty miles away to worship before leaving. Once upon a time when I was with my sister. She often talked about worshipping the Buddha. At that time, her face was as calm as a wave. Quietly stroking a string of green and heavy lapis turquoise handpieces on his hand, he said: "This palace never believes in gods and Buddhas. Everything is at ease in the hearts of the people." I've listened a lot. and he no longer went to the ancestral hall and other places. I saw her again and had a rough road later. A few ups and downs. I even felt that there was no Buddha in this world. Otherwise, the first emperor misled countless people in his life. You shouldn't have walked so peacefully.

However. I'm really helpless this time.

I haven't seen Seungying for more than ten years. Human life is short. I still have a few more decades to find him. If you know that he is married, he has a wife; It's just a matter of living in peace. But that's what I know. It's just the news that he left Yusheng alone a few years ago. I've searched almost all the northern lands and found nowhere to be found. Now he is only relying on the illusory power of the heavens.

Yu Sheng helped us hire a good coachman. Therefore, it only took half a day to rush to Woyun Temple.

I heard that it was once the largest temple within a radius of 100 miles. At its peak, it was also established as a national temple. But see you today. But it's sparsely populated. Lonely and lonely. Xu was because the Empress Dowager decreed to control the spread of Buddhism. As a result, the major temples are deserted. It's hard to walk on the snowy mountain road again. Fubi hugged me and stopped. When you are almost in front of the temple. But I saw a monk dressed in a saffron robe already in front of the door.

He saw me. So he solemnly bowed. He said, "The poor monk has been waiting here for a long time. Please come to the main hall for a while."

A look of doubt flashed in Fubi's eyes. I just thought that Yu Sheng had helped me take care of everything in advance. I am even more grateful for his meticulousness. Then he walked into the main hall with the monks. Walk for a short time. What catches your eye is several huge Buddha statues that are more than three feet high. Xu is in disrepair. The yellow color has been mottled and peeled off. Traces of different shades of copper skin are exposed. But when the golden sunlight shines in from outside the temple. The giant Buddha with his eyes slightly closed gives people a sense of comfort. Different from the luxurious shrine rosette in the palace prayer hall. My heart rang like a bell heavy. The knees fell on the cushion.

As there is a spirit in heaven; Be sure to help me. I'm at my point.

The monk watched quietly as I lit incense. Fang Dao: "The donor is so sincere. I think what I ask for will be fulfilled."

I'm standing. He bowed dignifiedly: "Listen to what the master says. The little girl is much more at ease. Today, Master Lao personally greeted him. In fact, I am honestly afraid."

Unexpectedly, the monk looked at me with a smile. But he waved his hand again and again." The poor monk did not foresee the coming of the benefactor. It's just that yesterday I happened to participate in the Buddha's parable. I expect there to be people traveling south today. Then he waited outside the temple. Unexpectedly, the benefactor turned out to be the first person today."

I listen to him. Only then did I suddenly realize that there was no one else in the huge palace. Buddhism, which was once very prosperous, did not want to have a day when the incense would be cut off. When he came, the monks did not see many people. Presumably they all abandoned the temple and left. I added a touch of misery to my heart for no reason. But he did not want the monk to see; Nothing but sorrow. Then he smiled kindly: "The little girl has the intention of going south. It's just that I don't know why the master is waiting."

"If the donor can pass through Nanchan Temple. Can you give this to a layman who is Hui Yin?" As he spoke, he pulled out a string of amethyst prayer beads from his bosom. Put your hands in front of me." The poor monk can't leave here. I had to entrust it to the donor."

I reverently took the rosary. He replied, "It should be regarded as accumulating virtue and doing good. I'll definitely try to bring it for the master."

That's what I thought. Nanchan Temple is originally in Jianghuai. I went all the way south to find Chengying. If there is no sign of him. So he made a break in the temple. Maybe this life. I am destined to be inseparable from him. However even so. I'm not angry. Even if it's the Green Lantern Ancient Buddha. It's better than the splendid palace. There is a sister in the world of strife and vortex. That's enough.

I want to find a good home for Fubi before I leave. But she wept and knelt at my feet. Tears fell: "Fubi has been waiting for Mrs. for more than ten years. Whatever the time the young master goes. Or the lady is very prosperous. Fubi is inseparable from you. Now Mrs. Qing Xiu. But I don't like Fubi for not being able to break the worldly roots?"

I didn't bring her into the palace. But after self-proclaimed master. She has been taking good care of me ever since. In the past, my sister had Su E by her side. I also have Fubi around me to talk to comfort. She and I have become like sisters. On the contrary, it is Yu Ying. Although they have the same child as me. In fact, sisterhood is alienated and indifferent. When I left the palace, she didn't send it off because she avoided suspicion. And when Yu Sheng told me the news that she had died of illness a few years ago. I don't have the grief I imagined, she has done so many sins. I knew early on that the Queen Mother would not be able to tolerate her.

I'll agree with Fubi to stay. Secretly thinking about finding a good candidate for her on the way. Women are very emotional. And once emotional, recklessly. Fubi is still young. She should have had a life a thousand times better than mine. I thought I was done. Unexpectedly, no one found it; I've also lost my rosary.

Actually, I want to come. Since we entered Chuzhou. A few of the gangsters have been following him. It's just that the road is wide and crowded. They don't dare to do it rashly. Xu is tired of walking. I accidentally fell asleep while resting at the post station with Fubi. Then they told them to steal the coil and the rosary.

Fubi and I are both powerless women. Even if you know that the passerby did it, it won't help. Here again, life is unfamiliar. We were forced to change course and head to the big cities. Hungry and cold all the way. It's really exhaustive.

At that time, it had entered the wax moon. Even the southern country is still not able to withstand the cold winter. I'm weak. Several times he suffered from wind disease. Sometimes the headache is unbearable. Because of the mistake, I found a temple to settle in. I see that temple is very imposing. It's not at all like the loneliness and depression of Buddhism today. When I was free, I wanted the monk to ask why. I found out after being informed. When the Ancestral Emperor went south to conquer the barbarians, he was cornered for a time. He stayed here for several months to escape the pursuit. The ancestors were fortunate to be presiding over and taking care of the great rejuvenation. Then he repelled in one fell swoop and was satisfied. Opened up the territory of the Great Wei. Therefore, whenever the ancestors went south. Will come here for hundreds of days to preside. It also uses this to spur myself not to forget the pain of the old times.

And yet such a thing. I didn't hear of the Emperor once.

I think that the Empress Dowager Qin is a person from the Jianghuai area. The first emperor hated her very much. Therefore, I don't even want to set foot in this land. I hung my head. So reminiscent of the past. I feel desolate in my heart.

I feel as if I am very close to the land of Buddhism. In the old days of fashion in the palace. Concubine Zhao is my enemy everywhere. She's ruthless. I'm raising Yongyi, so naturally I'm no match for her. To avoid the limelight. I invited myself to the Hall of Prayer to pray for the fortune of the country. As a result, a period of great tranquility was passed. What I still remember vividly is under the wall of the New Year's Hall. I was once inscribed with such a poem. Said: Don't think about the empty water. Looking back, I remember that I have three lives. The geese go to the flowers and fall to see each other. Rising moon and bright years. Leaning alone on a tall building and sighing in the past. Listen to the sound of the rain and play the strings. The shadow is self-pitying. I feel that I am wrong, wrong, wrong.

Write to the end. The pen and ink have penetrated deep into the walls and are blurred. The lyricist's sad or remorseful state of mind can be glimpsed from this. I saw three typos in a row. I couldn't help but cry. Presumably the woman was deeply emotional. It's not inferior to me for the shadow. It's just a pity that I never had the chance to know who this person is. Otherwise, I would have been the concubine back then. Xuan He for a while. In any case, I want to help her realize this lovesick dream.

So it seems. Life is full of helplessness.

I did some needlework with Fubi in the temple to sell. Unconsciously I have made up a lot of entanglements. It's been a long time to bother the temple. I wanted to quit as soon as possible. Unexpectedly, the host kept it again and again. The end of the year has arrived. The city is full of people. So they told me to stay here for a while. I can't live up to the master's kindness. I decided to stay for a while. Just want to come now. Sure enough, there is a providence in the dark, if I hadn't stayed here. Presumably, I will never see my sister and Yongyi again in this life.

It was the third day of the Lunar New Year. When I woke up early in the morning, I felt that the outside of the temple was very noisy. Although there is no shortage of pilgrims on weekdays. But it's never been so loud. Fubi called hot water to cover my face. When I asked, he said, "There seems to be some big man out there. The bottom of the mountain is full of guards. I wanted to find out. But they couldn't get into the crowd."

I've never been a fan of excitement. After a brief dressing, he said, "Let's just go to the front hall and sweep. I'll just go around the back door and get back."

I've been out of the palace since I left the palace. Even the sense of vigilance has faded a lot. So I didn't think about it. If it is an ordinary person, how can there be such pomp?

I stayed in the temple with Fubi for a while. Then I heard a high-pitched voice preaching loudly: "The emperor and the queen mother enter the palace." The whole person was immediately stunned. I don't know what to do. In a hurry. I only leaned down and hid behind the pillar of clouds. After calming down a little, I remembered that Yu Sheng had inadvertently said. In the coming year, the emperor and the empress dowager will go south to inspect. Presumably along the road to Chuzhou. So they came here to worship.

In fact, after being far away from the palace. I don't want to have anything to do with the past. But Yongyi was raised by me after all. I really can't bear to leave at this moment. And I haven't seen my sister in years. I don't know if she's still the same.

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