Back to the coffee shop, facing the desertion on all sides, I finished the lunch that I had just eaten with Mi Cai in the desertion, when I put the insulated box into the bag, the sunlight shone in from a hidden angle, and lay down on the table gently, I suddenly remembered the summer many years ago, because of the season, at that time, only the sun at dusk was gentle, we lay on the grass, looking at the shade of the trees, looking up at the blue of the sky, the days are drifting, I'm afraid no one has thought about it, a few years later, we, With such an ending, the pain of the breakup is engraved in the bones and melted with the flame of life

I'm not just talking about me and Jian Wei, but more about Fang Yuan and Yan Yan, behind their breakup, it seems to be the truest portrayal of this world, people only see profit, who cares how blue the sky used to be, how gentle the sun is, and how simple we are under the sun

Numbness! This world is really numb, love withers rapidly under the temptation of interests, and the environment is becoming more and more depressed in the destruction of industry.

I believe that one day the mountains of money will not be able to exchange for a breath of pure air, and the world will be made into a miasma by human desires, so the desire will return to the pursuit of authenticity, but it is too late, at that time, both the environment and the soul have lost their original authenticity and faith, and the world has degenerated into a boundless sewage ditch!

I took out my phone and found Yan Yan's number, I want to know her latest news, and I care if she has come out of the shadows and become independent and self-reliant?

A moment later, Yan Yan answered my call, her tone was a little low, obviously still in pain, and she asked me, "Why did you remember to call me?" ”

"See if you heal in the sun or cry in the rain."

"What do you think?"

"I think it's the former because I've always felt that you're a woman who can afford to put it down, and you really do."

Yan Yan finally smiled bitterly and replied: "I'm trying to heal, but I still hear the news about him intentionally or unintentionally every day, but I hear too much, I really feel numb, I can't remember what happened to him, it's like being in a dream full of black irony, and when I wake up, it may be in the morning, or it may be at night!" ”

This answer made me realize that she was still crying in the rain, and she was silent for a long time before asking, "Yan Yan, have you ever wanted to go to a strange city and start life again?" There will be no more news of him there, and no one will care about your past, everything is brand new."

Yan Yan interrupted me: "Starting over is indeed a very tempting four words, but I can't leave Suzhou Weiwei now, she needs me!" ”

A sense of unease spread through my heart, and I asked, "What's wrong with her?" ”

After a period of dead silence, Yan Yan finally spoke: "Zhaoyang, I really don't know whether I should tell you or not."

"What the hell happened to her?"

Yan Yan on the other end of the phone sobbed: "She won't let me tell you, but I feel sorry for her, she bears it by herself like this, one day people will collapse" After a period of silence that suffocated me, she said again: "Zhaoyang, Jian Wei's mother has been shuanggui, and her father Jian Boyu has also been quarantined and censored, these days, Weiwei has been going back and forth between Suzhou and Shanghai, and she has broken her heart, she can't bear it!" ”

I was deeply shocked, swallowing in pain, but I didn't know how to respond, this news that seemed to have nothing to do with me was deeply hurting me

"Zhaoyang, will you go back to Suzhou? You don't need to do anything, even if it's just to stay with her and say a few words of comfort and encouragement, you should know that you have always been the pillar of her heart, although you don't love her anymore, but she still loves you, otherwise she wouldn't have come to this point with Xiang Chen, although Xiang Chen is also a scumbag, but at least he has used Weiwei sincerely! ”

The feeling of suffocation once again filled my throat and chest, as if I was also on the verge of collapse in this difficult choice, I dare not imagine the tragic situation of Janeway, let alone compare and think of how beautiful and glorious she used to be, I know very well: the misfortune of the family will completely destroy her!

However, two days ago, she sent me a text message casually, asking to transfer Lu Ku's bars, inns and coffee shops in Xuzhou to me, what kind of beliefs supported her to tell me this? But he put the pain in his body and strangled himself over and over again!

Yan Yan was still crying, and I couldn't get out of the silence, but the phone kept unblocked, as if to force me to have an explanation in the next second, so I put the pain in the most secret place, and said to Yan Yan in a calm tone: "I'm also sad about what happened to Jian Wei, but I really can't go back to Suzhou, let alone do anything for her?" I'm sorry, I can't let go of my current life and Mi Cai! ”

"Hehe, are men so ruthless and cruel? Perhaps Vivi saw through this and forbade me to tell you this news, because she didn't want to humiliate herself in the pain."

"Yan Yan, don't say that, please understand my current situation, okay? Janeway and I no longer had a contract of life and death more than three years ago, and our lives can no longer be intertwined and indistinguishable from each other."

"Yes, even if Weiwei has done so much for you after returning to China, you still hold the belief that the contract has been terminated, and return all the qiē she gave you to her, you don't need her anymore, and the qiē she has done for you, you only have Mi Cai, the woman who came from behind, she is the direction of your life, and it is a sin for you to look back at Weiwei more! Is that right? ”

I was silent, in the silence I heard the sound of my heartbeat about to burst, I once again experienced the helplessness and pain of doing everything wrong, I knew that as long as my body stood by Jian Wei's side, my soul had betrayed Mi Cai's deep love, and now I can't do it I finally endured the pain of a thousand holes, and said to Yan Yan: "Everyone is responsible for their own choices, Jian Wei is, so am I, this is our fate that we can't escape and beg you to take care of her by her side, Also take care of yourself about Suzhou and Jian Wei, it's not something I can look back to see Sorry! ”

I didn't wait for Yan Yan to respond, gritted my teeth and hung up the phone, but the next moment, I couldn't help myself, holding my head in pain, and whimpering painfully, I remembered those who were lying on the grass in the twilight, hooking my hands in the past, this is a heart-rending pain I seem to owe her, as if I misunderstood her, and it seems that I left the pain to her who I once loved the most

Now I have stepped on the afterimage of time, tread on thorns, and rushed to this fragrant place with another woman whom I loved deeply, and I also took her hand and told her that it was called the city in the sky, and it was also called the farthest town