The silence in the coffee shop is terrible, I am struggling to find a way out in a world where there is only one person, I dare not imagine Janeway's current mood with my own flesh and blood, I can only put myself in the position of a bystander, heartache, numbness and so repeated!

Dusk has not yet come, I seem to have been drowned in the night, looking for the dawn of life, I finally closed the door of the coffee shop, drove to the city, I went to a cake shop, bought some pastries to be sent to Mi Cai's company, today at noon, because of the help customers make coffee, she herself did not care about eating a good lunch.

A moment later, I arrived at the Orson advertisement, and though I had the dessert in my hand, my heart was still heavy in bitterness, and this heaviness stemmed from my fear of Janeway, and my hatred for not being able to share anything for her.

Greeted acquaintances all the way, I finally came to Li Xiaoyun's office, after knocking on the door and getting a response, I walked in with dessert, at this time Li Xiaoyun and Mi Cai were bowing their heads to deal with affairs, Mi Cai was more focused, it seemed that the lateness at noon made her fall behind a lot of work.

Li Xiaoyun's eyes took off the computer screen, smiled and asked me, "Zhaoyang, are you here to bring us afternoon tea?" ”

"Well, I bought coconut red bean cake and wheat milk tea, so hurry up and replenish your energy in the middle of the game."

Mi Cai stopped and motioned for me to quickly bring the pastries to her, I first put one of them on Li Xiaoyun's table, and then opened the box of pastries for Mi Cai before handing it to her, she took it from my hand and said with emotion: "If you don't come, I'm ready to order takeout, I've never been so hungry!" ”

"You should buy some snacks to cushion your stomach after you arrive at the company, and mental work is also very physical."

Li Xiaoyun took over and said, "Didn't Mi Cai rely on you as a boyfriend, you didn't live up to her expectations, and sent afternoon tea like timely rain!" I also followed the light, and my mood was inexplicably better."

"Don't patronize our light, the next time Wang Zheng sends afternoon tea, remember to bring rice color" I finally made a joke, but my heart still seemed to be pulled by jagged teeth, and there was a pain.

Li Xiaoyun glanced at me, put the pastry into her handbag, then picked up the milk tea and said to me: "I'm going to XCMG Group to deal with some business matters, you can chat with Mi Cai for a while, don't let her love Xù always be tight at work"

Mi Cai smiled and said, "Director Li, are you recognizing my work in disguise?" ”

Li Xiaoyun also smiled, then waved to us, and left the office with milk tea in his hand I don't know why, there was a third person missing, when facing Mi Cai, my mood became complicated again, if it wasn't for her appearing in my life, at this moment, what kind of intersection would Jian Wei and I have? Can I just stay by her side and help her share some of the pain in her life?

I moved a chair and sat down opposite Mi Cai, she took a sip of milk tea in her hand, and said to me: "Zhaoyang, after work later, I will go to Yangzhou for a trip, and I may have to stay for two or three days." ”

"To Yangzhou? So what do you do at work? ”

Mi Cai nodded and confirmed again, and replied: "Mr. An of Tianyang Group just called me, she is going to travel to Tibet, and she wants to meet me before leaving, she has no experience in going there, so she wants to ask me for advice, and then accompany her to buy some emergency supplies on the road As for work, I have already asked Xiaoyun for personal leave, and I can use the weekend time to make up for it when I come back." ”

"This"

"What's wrong? Do you want to come with me? I think Mr. An will definitely welcome you! Mi Cai said and smiled, obviously she was in a good mood, and she was looking forward to going to Yangzhou to meet the woman in red, because this was one of the few friends she could make friends with.

"I'm not going to go, there's still a lot of pre-opening work to be done here."

Mi Cai was slightly disappointed: "I knew you wouldn't go, but it should be, nothing is more important than your career at this stage, so you have to work hard!" ”

I nodded and replied, "Well, you should also pay attention to safety on your own road, don't drive tired, and go to the service station to rest for a while when you are sleepy." ”

"I know, it's just more than three hours away, you don't have to worry, but I'm really looking forward to the harvest of Mr. An's trip to Tibet, over the years, she and that man have been very painful, I hope they can have a lover after this and eventually become a family."

"Well, I heard that the man had a child with his first love, and he was divorced"

Mi Cai glanced at me dissatisfiedly and asked, "What, do you want to take him as an example, do you think you haven't made waves enough?" If it weren't for love, Mr. An would not have tolerated these stains in his life! ”

"I have long said goodbye to the life of making waves, I am very simple now, you don't know but Mr. An has also choked that man enough this year, I think: they have all realized in this long-term love war, the eyes of our bystanders are nothing to their parties, what they want is just a life together in the future I believe they have experienced so much, love must be full of tolerance and understanding, what they have now is a kind of high-level love, but also inseparable love!"

Mi Cai was silent for a long time, and didn't refute me anymore, or she agreed with what I said, or she didn't want to have too many theories with me, and asked me to find out in my own conscience, in fact, compared to the woman in red's tolerance of that man, she tolerated me enough, because I also once made a woman pregnant, her private life was chaotic, and she lost Zhuo Mei because of her passive mistakes, but she didn't leave me because of this, and even cared about me more than before So, this is my heartache for what happened to Janeway now, But you can't go back and look at the reason for it

This evening after sunset, Mi Cai went to Yangzhou alone, I also returned home with a complicated mood, I was lonely at home, because my father and mother also went back to the countryside today to visit relatives This kind of loneliness seems to have been arranged, suddenly it bewitched me, I want to race against time, if I take the high-speed train now, it only takes more than two hours to reach Suzhou, I can go to see Janeway, and I will be back in time tomorrow morning

But

It was getting dark, I cooked some noodles by myself, and went downstairs to buy some side dishes with wine, I drank a lot of wine, I wanted to use wine to forget the troubles that plagued me, so that in the dead of night I would not think too much, go to sleep early, and then welcome the sunshine tomorrow morning.

I did so, and before 7 o'clock, I lay on the bed with dizziness, and at this time Mi Cai also sent the news that she had arrived in Yangzhou safely, and I was relieved, and I fell asleep in the dizziness

I really fell asleep, but in just an hour, I had nightmares, among them, Janeway chose to end her life because of despair of life, but also woke me up from the dream, I was in a cold sweat, my palms were full of dampness, my perseverance faintly showed signs of collapse, I lit a cigarette in the darkness around me, I overcame this panic, but the panic continued to invade, I put out only half of the cigarette in the ashtray, and my mind gradually reversed

I began to believe that today's departure of Mi Cai and Ban Dad at the same time was a hint and opportunity given to me by fate, and it was fate that asked me to go to Suzhou to meet Jian Wei, so there was such a coincidental arrangement, if I missed it, I would definitely get the harshest punishment, and I would regret it for the rest of my life because of this punishment

Driven by this mood, I couldn't sit still more and more, I left the bed, after getting dressed, I left the residence with my briefcase, and rushed to the train station, looking at the street lamps that were reversing behind the car, my heart was full of guilt, I wanted to give up several times, but an indescribable force drove me to the train station again and again, chasing the direction to Suzhou I am not a savior, but I should go to see her, at least for more than a year, we are not involved in love, I have also struggled side by side in the mall, and there is love between us in addition to love

At half past eight in the evening, with some drunkenness, I got on the train to Suzhou again, looking out the window of the car and constantly regressing in the night, my whole person fell into an unprecedented emptiness, this emptiness is obtained after the extreme of things, I know that if I think too much, I will achieve nothing on this night, my emptiness will alleviate the guilt on my body

At 11 o'clock in the evening, I arrived in Suzhou again, and on the way I called Janeway, but she didn't answer, so I called Yan Yan, and she arrived at the train station a quarter of an hour later.

We haven't seen each other for a week, but she has lost weight significantly, and her complexion has deteriorated, these are all caused to her by the pain in life, she is not easy, she has not recovered from the pain, but she has to take care of Jian Wei, who is more depressed than her, compared to Yan Yan's personal pain, Jian Wei's entire family is ruined!

Yan Yan and I walked towards the parking lot of the train station, and she said to me as if she was expecting: "Zhaoyang, I know you will definitely come, you are not a man like Fang Yuan and Xiang Chen, so you will definitely come!" ”

"Come or not, I'm miserable! I can only see her, but I can't do anything for her. ”

"No one wants you to do anything for her, and things in officialdom are not something that we ordinary people have the ability to change, for Janeway, it is enough for you to come back and meet her and give her a word of encouragement!"

I was silent for a long time before I changed the subject and asked, "Is Jian Wei in Suzhou, I called her twice and she didn't answer"

"In Suzhou, she went to the company this evening, and she may not have brought the phone with her after that, although the news of her mother being shuanggui has not been reported by the media, but it has spread in the circle, and those customers who are cooperating with her company are all in danger, and they are planning to terminate the cooperation contract with Jian Wei, and ask for the cooperation funds that have been paid, and Jian Wei is already anxious!"