Later, after my dad came down, he took my hand and said a lot of things, all about the past, about when I was a child, about my mother who was still alive. Reading the full text of the latest chapter made me feel very uncomfortable, but no matter what he said, I listened attentively and nodded from time to time.

Then he said he was tired, so I persuaded him to go into the house and sleep for a while.

Because Xu Yan wanted to get shoes in their house, I asked my dad to sleep in my house.

He was probably too sleepy at the time, and he didn't take off his shoes, so he just fell asleep on the bed, and I helped him take off his shoes, and then covered him with the quilt. Then I went out of the house and went to his and Xu Yan's house.

When I went in, Xu Yanzheng was sitting on the bed alone and shedding tears, holding a piece of paper in her hand, wiping the tears that slipped to the corners of her mouth from time to time.

Even when I came in, she didn't react.

I lowered my head, feeling a little sour and uncomfortable, leaned against the door frame, stood for a while, then raised my head to look at her, and slowly said, "I'm sorry......"

I didn't say this loudly, but I used a lot of courage.

For the first time in four years, I felt guilty. I have never been waiting to see Xu Yan, but she has been caring and loving to me for ten years, I have always felt that she deserves it and owes me, but at this moment I know that no one's love for anyone is taken for granted, and I, for so many years, have lived too much of my own. I always like to magnify my wounds unlimitedly, and then indulge in them, as a cynical or even heartless reason for myself.

Maybe I'm wrong, if I'm wrong, I'll be wrong for four years, but fortunately, it's still too late.

Until now, I didn't know that Xu Yan was a good woman, so good that she didn't belong to the type of woman in the type of "husband and wife are birds in the same forest, and they fly separately when disaster comes", and she is good enough to be in the same boat with my father.

When Xu Yan heard this, she turned her head to look at me. Tears welled up in her eyes at once. 80 eBook/

I didn't speak, I looked at the worn-out and grease-covered sewing machine next to me, and then at the calluses on her hands, and I realized how hard she was living.

I bowed my head and walked over to her. He asked her, "Tell me what's going on at home." ”

Xu Yan wiped the tears on her face with her hand, turned out to be cheered up, and said to me: "It's okay, you don't have to worry about the affairs of the family, you just need to learn your habits well, and your father and I can handle it." ”

I didn't rush to speak, stared at her for a while, and then slowly said: "I'm not small anymore, there are some things, if you don't tell me, I will be even more uneasy." ”

Xu Yan was silent for a long time, looked at me gloomily, moved her lips, and then told me about the situation in our family.

About half a year ago, a good friend of my dad told my dad about a good project and asked my dad to cooperate with him, although there is a certain risk, but if it is successful, it will definitely make a lot of money.

Our family has been tepid for so many years, so my dad wanted to gamble once, and besides, he was a good friend, so he agreed and lost all his belongings.

Later, when the project was first completed, the stone was quite good, but my dad and his friend said that the funds were insufficient, and they had to invest in it again.

My dad saw that the project was very good, so he borrowed a lot of money from everywhere and borrowed some of the loan sharks, because he knew that it would not be long before the project was good and he would be able to pay off all the debts.

But there are unforeseen circumstances, and later because of the local system, coupled with competitors from the obstruction, their project stalled all of a sudden, and the top did not let go of it, nor did it say that it continued to do, anyway, it dragged on, and the result was more than three months, the loss became more and more strict, and the situation was getting worse and worse, as a result, his good friend secretly sold a lot of assets without him at this time, and he escaped by donating alone, and all the debts naturally pressed on my father's body. My house has become the field it is today.

After listening to Xu Yan's words, I didn't speak for a long time, and I felt that what she was telling me was not a story, but reality, an extremely ironic story about "friends".

I don't know why, the seemingly solid relationship suddenly becomes so vulnerable in the face of financial interests.

My dad was unfortunate to be betrayed by his good friend, but my dad was lucky, after all, there was a good woman who was willing to share his ups and downs with him.

Later, I felt bored at home, so I went out for a walk, and when I walked, I felt that my heart was still in a panic, as if I had pressed a big stone, and my whole body became heavy, and my steps became heavy.

Looking at the bustling crowd on the street and the smile on the child's face, I wished I was a child at that moment and could be carefree again, but I had grown up.

Now that I have grown up, I can't always live under the protection of my parents, and I have to learn to help my parents share the pressure.

However, I am in school now, and my ability is limited, but if I can take care of myself and solve my own living expenses and tuition fees, it will be a burden reduction for my dad and them.

So I wanted to take advantage of the winter vacation to find a part-time job or something to do, so that I could not only earn some extra money, but also be able to exercise myself.

After thinking about it like this, I felt a lot more comfortable in my heart, and I felt quite content in my heart when I had no way out, and I could help my dad and them.

Later, I walked around for a while, and paid attention to the recruitment revelations of some stores, but many people are recruiting long-term workers, and few are recruiting part-time workers, the only one I think is reliable is the summer job of KFC, but I think there are so many KFC people, my classmates are old, if you see me, I will be a little embarrassed, but then I think about it, I make money by my own labor, and there is nothing to be ashamed of, I just want to be really bad, I will go to KFC to find a job, I'm going to wait for the official holiday to come and sign up.

As soon as I came out for a walk, I felt much more comfortable, and when I went home, I felt a lot more relaxed.

After returning home, Xu Yan was sewing shoes in the house, and my dad was not at home and didn't know what to do outside.

I saw that Xu Yan was quite serious about making shoes there, so I walked over and asked her, "How much money can I make by making a pair of shoes?" ”

Xu Yan smiled at me and said, "It's not much, five cents, I work overtime a day to make a hundred and ten pairs, although the money is not much, but how to say that it is better than being idle at home, I have gone to find a job, and people think I have a low education and are unwilling to use me." ”

I nodded at her and said, "When will I pay it off?" ”

Xu Yan sewed her shoes and said, "Pay it back slowly, if it doesn't work for one year, it will take two years, and if it doesn't work for two years, it will take three years, and there will always be a day to pay it off." ”

As she spoke, she raised her head suddenly, smiled at me, and said, "Besides, your father is a capable man, and I believe in him." ”

Looking at her smile, I suddenly felt in a trance, as if I saw my mother's smile, very warm, with a warm feeling, only a real heartfelt smile can laugh this feeling, a heartfelt trust in the person I love.

At this moment, I suddenly realized why my father was in such a hurry to marry Xu Yan, and would rather marry her regardless of my opinion, because he knew that he had met a good woman, a good woman who would be good to me and this family. Budou number.

I looked at Xu Yan's smile, and I suddenly smiled too, and I was full of expectations for the future of this family.

Our family has entered the most difficult period, but I can feel that the feelings of the family have suddenly warmed up a lot in this situation, and perhaps this kind of feelings is much more valuable than cold money.

At night, there were still some simple vegetarian dishes, and some were hot at noon, but our family of three was very happy to eat and chat, it was the first time in four years that I felt that we were a family, and it was also the first time that my heart had a sense of home after four years of wandering.