228. Chapter 063: My love for you is a faith
The moonlight was cool, reflected in his eyes, a puddle of clear spring swayed, sparkling and clear, and at this moment in his eyes, his own image is becoming more and more real, really like that meaty sentence, in his eyes she only sees herself, in his eyes only she herself.
Tong Mo has looked at Lu Zhannan's eyes like this countless times, there are too many things hidden in his deep eyes, deep like a whirlpool, attracting Tong Mo to sink infinitely, sinking deeper and deeper, until he was tied up by him at the end, and he still couldn't see where he was in the middle.
That's right, this is related to his experience, after all, Xiao Yuandong is much better than him in his life experience, and he has not experienced what Lu Zhannan has experienced, so his eyes will be cleaner and more transparent than Lu Zhannan, can Tong Mo think like this? Or is this just a lie that Lu Zhannan can't find his existence in his eyes?
At this moment, in the face of what Xiao Yuandong said, Tong Mo didn't know what to say, and there was an unspeakable emotion surging in her heart, which made her sad and made her struggle......
"Moe." He called out her name very softly, is it the moonlight, the man in front of him is gentle and charming, "My appearance never wants to bring you any pressure, I just hope to bring you happiness, if it backfires then I'd rather leave." ”
Tong Mo still believes what Xiao Yuandong said.
"So, Mo, you don't need to have any psychological burden, everything is fine as before, of course, because you can avoid me and not see me for this time, but don't be in such a hurry to return to me, because everything you say now is a lie." Xiao Yuandong said this very indifferently, and then smiled comfortingly, and then said:
"You just said that it is a pain to fall in love with someone who doesn't love you, but you haven't experienced what kind of happiness it will be to be cared for by someone who loves you all the time. Obviously, you chose the latter before, but the truth is as you say, it's painful, so why not give yourself a chance to try the former? Love is mutual, and if you can't warm him, it doesn't mean that you won't be warmed by others. ”
Xiao Yuandong always speaks like this, which is meaningful, why don't you understand what he said this time? As far as that question is concerned, everyone will know that it is better to choose a person who loves you than to choose a person you love, but in reality, regardless of whether you can get his heart, let's just say that his person, if these two people can get it, they can be used to get married, Tong Mo really can't believe that how many people will really give up the person she loves to choose the person who loves her.
Love and love, love and love, is something that cannot be linked to reason, if it is rational, it is not called love.
And Tong Mo at this moment is completely a person who has come over, before she got Lu Zhannan, she also thought that love is mutual, the two of them get along day and night, she loves him and will always move him one day, but what is the result?
Sometimes people are always too confident, and often the last thing is a failure, and now Xiao Yuandong is himself back then, just because he has a desire now, so he wants to get it, so what about after he gets it? What about after tasting the kind of taste that can never warm her? Will it still be the same?
Tong Mo really couldn't be sure if her already cold heart would be warmed by anything?
"Xiao Yuandong, before you really get someone, because that initial ambiguity will blind your reason, you tend to think of her too perfectly, but there is no perfect thing in this world, I am the same, I am not as good as you think, and even now I can't find my own position, even I hate the way I am now, I am a person from the past, and I still have a child......"
Suddenly, his fingers pressed lightly on her thin lips, preventing her from continuing, and then, calmly and heavily, he said, "Don't say any more, I know all this." ”
Does he understand?
Just three words seem to cover too many emotions, yes, this man understands her, even better than herself, which Tong Mo is very convinced.
Yes, he understands everything, his words have already said everything, he doesn't care about her past, he doesn't care if she still has that man in her heart, he doesn't care if she has a child, he doesn't care about anything, all he cares about is her person.
But when Tong Mo understood these emotions, she felt inexplicably heavy, perhaps, she was wrong, she was wrong from the beginning, she shouldn't have moved closer to him when he was injured, she shouldn't have let him get involved between her and Lu Zhannan, and she shouldn't show her fragility to love in front of him.
"Mo, don't look at me from such a worldly perspective, my love is not so selfish, because I understand you, so I feel sorry for you, all I want is for you to be happy, you can be your original self, if you can really be happy with him again, I can retreat to a position where I am not even a friend and leave, but if you choose me, I will do my best to protect you and not let you be hurt by anyone." Speaking of this, Xiao Yuandong smiled as if relieved, and added, "Don't take what I said as a promise, it is not a promise, but a belief." ”
When Xiao Yuandong said the last sentence, Tong Mo felt as if his heart had been hit by something, and he said that this was not a promise, but a belief.
Tong Mo naturally understands the difference between commitment and belief, promise can deceive people, but once a belief in life is sublimated, it can't deceive people.
Could it be that in Xiao Yuandong's eyes at this moment, it is his belief to make her happy?
Seeing Tong Mo's puzzled and unbelieving look, Xiao Yuandong just smiled and didn't explain anything, Tong Mo naturally didn't know that he had spent nearly two years in order to understand her, and she wouldn't understand his distress.
"Okay, you're tired after saying so much, and if my words make you feel depressed, then let me say nothing." Xiao Yuandong's smile was very pure, just like his eyes, very clean.
"Ru Xi, it's too late today, go home with your mommy to rest first, and Uncle Xiao will teach you to draw later, okay?" Xiao Yuandong walked to Ru Xi again, leaned down and coaxed the child.
"Alright then, Uncle Xie Xiao." Hearing Xiao Yuandong say this, Ru Xi was very polite.
"It's dark, I'll send you, let's go." Xiao Yuandong naturally regarded this as a kind of eviction order, but there was no way, because he knew that Dao Tong Mo had already wanted to leave, but he just missed Ruxi.
"No, it's on the other side, let's go."
"Special times, let's go." Xiao Yuandong only explained lightly.
Special times?
That's right, she is still in the middle of Tommy's murder case, and the shadow of this incident is indeed quite big for her, especially at night, when it is dark around, she will always be cranky, so this time Tong Mo knew that she was going to make a mistake again, obviously she shouldn't be attached to him, but she didn't refuse.
Xiao Yuandong and Tong Mo led Ru Xi into their downstairs one by one, Tong Mo stood still and led Ru Xi alone, and said, "Ru Xi, see you Uncle Xiao again." ”
"See you soon, Uncle Xiao." Ru Xi waved his hand at Xiao Yuandong, and then let Tong Mo lead him into the building, and Tong Mo didn't say anything to Xiao Yuandong alone.
After seeing them leave, Xiao Yuandong put his hands in his pockets, raised his head and looked at the floor where she lived, he was used to it, and he only left with confidence when he saw the light that belonged to her turned on.
Within a few minutes after Tong Mo left, the light was turned on, and seeing the warm light, Xiao Yuandong smiled happily and said to himself: "Mo, good night." ”
After finishing speaking, Xiao Yuandong turned around and walked away, and the scene where he turned around was very clear to Tong Mo upstairs, she sighed softly, her good-looking brows were slightly locked, and her heart was a little chaotic.
Xiao Yuandong's words were constantly recalled in her mind, and she actually said that what he said was right, since she was destined to have no ending with Lu Zhannan, should she really give herself another chance?
But, can she really do it?
She has already experienced too deeply how painful an emotionless marriage is, so do you want to start another emotionless marriage? It's scary to think about.
Forget it, don't think about it, it's useless to think about this kind of thing, if there really is such a man, it will make her forget that Lu Zhannan fell in love with him, then the way out that belongs to her is here, but it's a pity that no man can do it yet, Luo Shaocheng can't do it, Yan Jinmin can't do it, and the dead Rong Yin can't do it, so what about Xiao Yuandong? Can he do it?
"Lingling." At this moment, the doorbell rang suddenly, and Tong Mo, who was thinking deeply, was startled, and subconsciously looked at the time, it was almost early in the morning, who would come at this time?
"Mommy, it's Aunt Cheng Cheng." Tong Mo, who hesitated at the moment, reacted slowly, Xiao Ruxi had already stepped on the bench and looked out through the cat's eyes, seeing that it was Cheng Cheng She was very excited, and then hurriedly opened the door for her.
"You stinky girl is only back now, are you blind? You don't see how many calls I've made to you, so I don't know how to give me a reply. As soon as Cheng Cheng came in, he scolded Tong Mo angrily, but Tong Mo didn't explain this, but asked indifferently: "What are you looking for me?" ”
Seeing Tong Mo's attitude, Cheng Cheng really wanted to slap her, and she also saw the scene where Xiao Yuandong sent them in just now, and she became more and more angry about it: "You said you were going to find Xiao Yuandong, I thought you were just talking, I didn't expect you to really go, and come back so late!" ”
Now Cheng Cheng's tone is like a parent educating a child who is in early love and returns late, Tong Mo smiled wryly and explained to himself: "Miss Cheng, why should I lie to you with this kind of thing?" Besides, Xiao Yuandong was beaten for me, shouldn't I go to see it? ”