"In the eyes of others, I have everything. Noble birth, noble status, the emperor's favor, healthy Lin'er. Even I once thought it was like this. However, no one ever asked me if this qiē was what I was asking for. Suddenly, the back of his hand was a little cold, and then he realized that he was crying. Over the years, she has endured a lot of hardships, and she is used to seeing life and death parting, and she thought that she would never cry again in this life, but she didn't want to have this sad and uncontrollable time. "Su E, am I greedy too much, because I can't get what I want anymore, so all my life, I hate the emperor in my heart."

"Niangniang hates the emperor and loves the emperor, otherwise she will be like Ning Shuyuan." Su E took the next step and closed the curtain in front of the bed for her, "Even if you hate it, you still have to greet the emperor with a smile tomorrow, isn't that the harem girl." ”

Yu Yan was surprised that she saw so clearly, but shook her head and said, "No, if I laugh and compete for favor tomorrow, he must not know how painful it is for me to lose this child." Su'e, from tomorrow onwards, I will not see anyone. If the emperor comes, you will say that I am not well. ”

The next day, it was hard to rain in the usual hot and humid weather. In the morning, it was just a drizzle, but by midday the rain was getting heavier and it was already pouring down. The raindrops the size of beans hit the eaves with a crisp sound, and the banana leaves in the courtyard hung down under the red wall as if they were not carrying a load. Yu Yan only wore a light-colored rice-beaded gown, leaning against the window to look at a plantain whose stems and leaves had been bent by the rain.

She had been silent since the morning, and the heavy rain didn't seem to wash away the dreary air in the house. During this period, there was nothing else except that Su E had come in to tell her about the situation in Huawei Palace once.

Although the rain is pouring down, the front of the Huawei Palace is full of people.

-- Such a short sentence is enough to cover all the warmth and coldness of human feelings. Zhao Xiurong served the emperor early, although he has not favored the harem like Concubine Chen over the years, he has never been left out in the cold. Now she is a celebrity in front of the queen, whether she gives birth to a prince or a princess, her future is immeasurable. And Yuyan here, there is only the sign that the general trend has gone, and no one visits except for a few words of greeting.

In fact, she also knew that at this time, the queen must have tried her best to prevent the emperor from getting close to her, but even so, she insisted on not seeing the Son of Heaven and wanted him to know her grief and indignation.

It was not until dusk that I could hear some movement outside the hall in a trance.

Sure enough, it was Yu Hao who came to visit Dong Bi, but was stopped outside the house by Su E. Yu Yan sat behind the door, and heard the woman's shallow voice sound like a drizzle outside the window: "Niangniang is still resting, and the emperor may be inconvenient to come in at this time." ”

Yu Hao has always known Yuyan's temperament, and he is not annoyed: "I don't quarrel with her, just look at it." ”

"Back to the emperor, Niangniang has been sleeping lightly recently, if you wake up and see the emperor, I'm afraid I'll hurt my mind again." Only Su E dared to be so resolute in front of the saint, "The emperor doesn't want his mother to be uneasy." ”

When Dong Bi heard this, he hurriedly helped to play the round and said: "It's raining so hard, the emperor finally comes to visit, and you ......."

"Your Majesty," Su E interrupted decisively, respectfully and calmly: "Even if the emperor asks for the life of the slave today, the slave and the maid will not let you in for what the mother ordered." ”

There seemed to be silence. After a long time, I heard the man sigh and say: "That's it, she has always been like this, you can persuade me well, and I will come back tomorrow." ”

Yuyan leaned his back against the door, and looked at his back in the vast rain and fog through the small window. I don't know if it was because of the smoke and rain, the emperor under the umbrella was a little lonely. Yes, as a father, how can he not be sad. Doing so himself is also torture for him.

However, even so, Yu Yan must not give birth to the slightest bit of woman's kindness at this moment. It's just because she knows in her heart that although she doesn't have this child, Ran Yuhao's sympathy and self-blame are enough to help her gain a foothold in the harem at this time. If used, this is her best barrier.

After losing her son, although Yuyan did not come out, Fang Haishan was ordered to ask for her pulse every day. In the notebook of Tai Hospital, the medicines used by Yuyan are all medicines to remove stagnation. This medicinal record will also be seen by Yu Hao, and because of this, even if Yu Yan repeatedly avoids him, he will go to Jing'an Palace every day to inquire about the situation.

In the eyes of the Son of Heaven, Yuyan is just a helpless mother who has lost her child, and she is vulnerable at this moment. Therefore, Yu Hao ordered that no one should come to disturb him, and no one should mention the unborn prince in front of Yu Yan. But only Yu Yan knew how she learned about Zhao Xiurong's pregnancy little by little through Fang Haishan, and how she carefully planned her next move in the dead of night.

She often lost sleep all night long, just because as soon as she closed her eyes, those terrible pasts would reappear—the childhood when she was bullied by the eldest lady, the panic when she served in the Lingxian Palace, the death of her eldest sister Duanru, and the grief when Yuchen left...... Looking back, she only felt that all she had suffered in this little half of her life was suffering, and because of this, she had changed, she had become extremely ruthless, and she had become extremely deep. In any case, if she can take revenge, even if she goes to hell, she will not be shameless to see her relatives who died in vain.

The woman suddenly closed her eyes, not wanting to think about it anymore, but she heard someone outside the door: "Weichen has seen Shuyi Niangniang." ”

Yu Yan put away the scroll in his hand, raised his eyes and said, "My lord came late today. ”

"Yes, the prescription for Zhao Xiurong and the fetus is in the hands of Imperial Doctor Huo all the time, and the minister can only have a chance to visit him when he is not there." Fang Haishan bowed down and replied respectfully, "I hope Niangniang will forgive me." ”

Yu Yan smiled faintly, and her beautiful side face reflected the thin sunlight at sunset. She wore a moon-blue sea pattern corset dress, the skirt was made of blue and white two layers of light veil clouds, which at first glance made people feel light and elegant, just like her light smile at this time. "Master Fang sits. can make you work so hard, which shows how much she attaches importance to this child. ”

There is no reason to say this. Fang Haishan was promoted to the court sentence because of his meritorious care, and when he was born in Yongtai, he was promoted to the court. In the past year, he has been conscientious and conscientious, and he has made steady progress under the promotion of Yuyan. Although there was an accident this time, after all, the sin was not him, and Yu Yan strongly advocated that if it weren't for him, I am afraid that the mother and son would not be able to save it. Because of this, he has the right to look at the prescriptions prescribed by the Tai Hospital on weekdays.

"Exactly, Imperial Physician Li, who served the queen's mother, often expressed his concern for this fetus, but he was all perfunctory by Imperial Physician Huo."

"Then you can see what you can see this time."

Fang Haishan raised his hand to wipe the beads of sweat on his forehead, and said, "Judging from Zhao Xiurong's age and physical condition, she is actually not suitable for childbirth, so most of the medicines she takes are mainly tonics. This kind of Chinese medicine has a fatal point, that is, it cannot be broken. However, if you take it every day, you will also have the bitter taste of medicine on your body, which is the most taboo for harem women. ”

Yu Yan was thoughtful, but a pair of eyes slowly brewed a cold light in them: "What if it is broken......