Listening to his story, my heart, which I wanted to harden, softened a lot. After all, this is also the person I used to love the most, how could I really break off love and forget the good times I had with him?

"Ruirui, you know what? The first time I saw you, I thought you were so similar! It's like carving out of a mold! ”

"A mold"? When I heard these words, I just felt uncomfortable.

"I'm not saying that you look the same, it's your personality and temperament."

Seeing that my face changed, Ouyang Ze hurriedly explained, for fear that I would misunderstand him.

"It's just the first time we've met, how do you know what kind of person I am?"

If it looks alike, then I will still believe it, because there are indeed many people in the world who look alike. But if it's a similar personality, and it's seen at the first meeting, it's really weird.

Ouyang Ze just smiled slightly, but his tear-stained face was still haggard, and he couldn't see what kind of emotion was mixed in that smile.

"Feelings, just simple feelings. I think you're going to be the same people. ”

He likes me not because of my person, nor because of my feelings for him, but because of his first feeling for me, feeling that I will be the same person as Kiyoshi ...

"So, you're using me as his stand-in, aren't you?"

As much as I don't want to say this fact, I still want to hear the truth from his mouth, to hear the truest thoughts in his heart.

"Nope! That's not true! ”

Ouyang Ze hurriedly explained, my guess seems to be right on his point.

"I thought so at first, but after being with you for a long time and getting to know you really well, I realized that you were different from him."

At this time, he was like a believer praising Allah, with a pious attitude and shining eyes, looking sincere.

I didn't speak, because I couldn't pretend to be him as a "stand-in", and I couldn't pretend that he still loved Ouyang Ze.

"Now I love you, I love the real Chen Rui, not Qing's stand-in. Your current body, your current soul is what I love the most! ”

Ouyang Ze still looks like he swears to the sky, and he looks really dazzling. Although he said it with emotion, and despite his sincere expression, I still felt that he was lying, deceiving, deceiving me to return to his side and continue to be a stand-in for "Qing".

"Let's get married, and we'll get married when you're well. I want you to be my lifelong partner and the one I love the most. ”

As he spoke, Ouyang Ze took out a red ring box from his pocket and took out the ring box that I had been waiting for for for an unknown number of months.

The red velvet surface is like a carpet for a wedding scene, waiting for my fingertips to touch. And the happiness locked by the little golden lock is waiting to be opened by me.

"Marry me, okay? Let me love you for the rest of my life and do my best to make you happy. Rui Rui, marry me! ”

Ouyang Ze knelt on one knee, just like in a movie, holding the small ring box in both hands and waiting for my acceptance.

I've been looking forward to it for a long time, almost every day I fantasize about Ouyang Ze being able to give me that ring for life, and every day I think about what kind of occasion and how he will propose to me.

But now, when I was lying in the hospital bed after the operation without any strength, when his face was full of tears and haggard as if he had not slept for many nights, he got down on one knee and proposed to me. I really didn't expect such a proposal scene, there should be no worse proposal occasion in the world.

I didn't go get the ring box because I didn't know if it really belonged to me, if it would accompany me through my unfinished lower body, if the person who gave me that ring was worthy of me...

In just a few dozen minutes, I heard stories that lasted for seven or eight years, and my mood was like riding a roller coaster, with big ups and downs that made me not know how to choose.

Accept? Still not acceptable? That's a problem.

Am I Qing's stand-in now, or Ouyang Ze's favorite person? Should I accept him now and fulfill my long-awaited wish, or should I reject his choice to chase an unknown future?

I need someone to tell me, I need someone to guide me...

"What about Wu Yao? Why isn't he there? ”

When I needed a rapture the most, I realized that the person who saved my life was not by my side at this time. Where did he go? Why didn't he come to the people I saw when I woke up?

"He told me to take good care of you and left, and told you not to go to him again."

I don't know if what Ouyang Ze said is true or not, but what I heard from his words was only a strong sourness. It's like soaking in a vinegar jar for months, and the smell of old vinegar fills the air.

"Really? Are you lying to me? He's not that kind of person, and he's not going to tell me just that..."

I stopped talking abruptly, and I stopped searching my mind for impressions of him. I don't know him, I don't have the right to say what kind of person he is, even though he is very nice to me, maybe it's just "I thought"...

"He left this."

Ouyang Ze said as he reached into the other pocket and fumbled for it, and then took out the whistle in the shape of a white dove.

It was given to Wu Yao during my runaway from home. But it's not so much that I gave it to him, but rather that he bought it for me but I "forwarded" it to him.

At that time, he would buy a lot of knick-knacks every day and play with them in front of me to make me stretch my face. This little white pigeon is also among them.

I remember when I said, "Give it to you, you can take it." His face was full of surprise, like a naïve child getting his favorite candy. It wasn't a gift, but it was precious to him.

At this moment, he returned it again, and left the words that did not let me go to him...

He gave up, gave up the idea he had been chasing me, gave up the happy time of more than a month, and gave up the opportunity to appear in my life in the future...

Wu Yao was originally my second friend in this strange country, but now, he has taken time to stay with me. The only thing left now is Ouyang Ze, and the man who says he loves me in his mouth, but he doesn't know who is hiding in his heart...

What am I going to do... How do I choose... Let's take a step and look at it...

"Let's talk about it when I'm well..."