Ouyang Ze lowered his head slightly, and his expression was more guilty and self-blame. I know that it is not for me, but for the person he loves the most, and for the "Qing" he loves the most.

"So, I'm really just a plaything for you, right, your feelings for me are also fake."

I questioned him, hoping to hear the truth coming out of his mouth.

The hand that had been holding me relaxed little by little, and the leg that was kneeling on the ground also went limp. He was like a child who had done something wrong, and he didn't dare to look me in the eye or answer my words, for fear that he would accidentally tell the ugly truth.

“…”

Ouyang Ze dodged my gaze. At this time, silence is better than sound, his acquiescence is more hurtful than his words, and looking at his submissive appearance, I am also even more angry.

"Alright, you go, I don't want to see you again."

I withdrew his clenched hand, and took it back with all the love and hope I had placed in him.

He still didn't speak, his eyes staring straight at the cold ground, at the reflection of the smooth floor. As for what made him look so intrigued, I don't know.

"I love you, I love you now..."

His voice trembled, and his eyes glistened with tears. For a moment, he stared at me like a victim being pushed against a cliff, with innocent, begging eyes.

After the surgery, not only did my stomach no longer hurt, but my heart became much harder. If it had been before, I would have forgiven him at the first time and buried my head deep in his chest. But now, I didn't do that, I just looked at him with cold eyes and watched him continue to put on a show in front of me.

"Now? Hehe... It's just now, a minute later, an hour later, a day from now, and the person who lives in your heart will no longer be me. ”

"Nope! It's always you, it's you in a minute, it's you in an hour, it's you in a day, it's you forever and ever! ”

He suddenly became full of confidence, as if he had made a vow in front of the gods and Buddhas, and with that sincere appearance and firm eyes, I almost believed it.

"It's really funny, I didn't expect that two people can live in a person's heart at the same time, and it's two men..."

When you hear that false word, you naturally have to reply with a sarcastic expression and disdainful language. Otherwise, how can he be worthy of his passionate performance?

"Qing is dead... He's dead..."

Ouyang Ze lukewarmly talked about the "death" of the "Qing" he loved the most. It doesn't seem to have anything to do with me, and the second I say it, my heart doesn't seem to beat because of it.

He was still looking at the ground, but at this time, he seemed to have taken off the armor on his body, and the whole person looked extremely fragile, including the exposed heart...

"Oh, dead? Hehe, did he also have stomach cancer like me, but he didn't have the money for surgery so he died? ”

I replied to him in a contemptuous tone, but he replied with a word that made me laugh and cry. Answering the "fact" that was not true in the first place.

"Hmm..."

Oh my God, but the moment I heard the word from his mouth, if it weren't for the wound in my abdomen, I would have laughed out loud and despised the lie he told that even a three-year-old wouldn't believe...

"Huh? And then do you want to tell me that because he died, your heart was empty, so I filled his place, lived in your heart, and became the one you love the most. ”

I continued on with the "facts" he was going to tell me, and I was eager to hear what he would give me an explanation, and how he would give me a result of how it made people laugh until their stomachs cramped.

"Qing he really died, four years ago, when my career was just starting... But at that time he was not stomach cancer, but leukemia..."

He stared at the floor with guilt in his eyes, and his head lowered. I couldn't see his expression, I couldn't figure out his thoughts, but I saw the tears that fell on the ground, and I saw the "truth" in the splashed tears.

Slowly, his whole body began to tremble as if he was in an ice cellar. Kneeling on the ground no longer looks like an apology, but more like a "filial son" during the mourning period.

One drop, two drops... More and more tears were pouring down his face, and I had to believe what he was saying.

I didn't speak, just lay on the hospital bed and watched him quietly. I waited for him to continue, to tell the so-called "facts".

"We've known each other since we were kids, and we're childhood sweethearts. For many years, we have been like brothers and have been together every day. It wasn't until I was in college that I realized that I was really in love with him, and it was when I was in college that I mustered up the courage to confess to him. ”

Ouyang Ze talked about his past with "Qing" in detail, just like an old man over 100 years old reminiscing about the past, and that long tone sounded really evocative.

"He agreed, he agreed to be with me. Although our family disagreed, we made the choice to run away from home, decided to leave home after graduation and run to the United States, where no one knew to start anew. ”

Ouyang Ze glanced up at me, perhaps my eyes waiting for the truth inspired him to tell a story. So, after smiling slightly, he continued.

"We had a hard time and everybody was working three jobs. It wasn't until we had a little capital and used it to start a small company that things started to get better. But, but Qing, Qing he is..."

His voice became more and more choked, and the tears in the corners of his eyes became even more turbulent. It can be seen that he really loves Qing and the person who accompanied him through the difficult times.

"He had leukemia... I wanted to sell the company to treat him, but he didn't agree. Until that day, when I wanted to sell to the company secretly, I saw the news of his suicide by throwing himself into the sea on TV..."

Finally, the tears were no longer just a raging flood, but transformed into the surging sea. Lang after Lang surged and stirred on Ouyang Ze's face...

As a man, a man who had promised to protect me. At this time, he cried like a child, like a child who was expecting the comfort of an adult... Why? What makes him so vulnerable?

It's love, it's the love that alienates and yearns for... It was the undying love for Qing that gave him a reason to be vulnerable...